Welcome,
Everyone.
This is Dr.
Tracy Moreno,
Psychologist,
And today we're talking about overcoming resistance to the divine feminine energy,
And this is a very personal journey of mine.
A few years ago,
I started on a journey to embrace my divine feminine energy,
And for me this was no easy task.
I felt like I was trying to fit the round peg into the square hole.
It felt like I was trying to be somebody I wasn't,
But I really wanted to be.
What I wanted to tap into was a softer,
More nurturing side,
A kinder,
Gentler version of myself.
I thought of a dainty,
Demure,
Calm woman that just exuded a soft radiance.
Someone who didn't walk,
She floated and wore these flowery dresses and flower crowns.
So let me set the stage for what I'm like.
My size nine shoes balance my 5'10 frame,
And my Nana called me Gracie as a sarcastic term of endearment to overcompensate for the fact that,
And this is her quote,
That I'm a bull in a china shop,
As she would so affectionately say.
Love you,
Nan.
I'm a natural born leader,
Generally dominant.
My passion can easily be mistaken for aggression at times.
My humor is often replaced with sarcasm.
My laugh is comparable to the cackle of coyotes at midnight.
I don't really care what people think of me.
I violate society's guidelines of political correctness just for fun sometimes.
I'm just unapologetically,
Authentically me.
As you can see,
I don't fit the script for that divine feminine narrative that I concocted in my own mind.
And my resistance strengthened as the vision of this perfect woman grew perfectly imperfect the more this vision slipped away from me.
And to make matters worse,
And perhaps it was part of my own defense mechanism,
My perception soon became even more distorted.
What was once an image of beauty inside and out,
Twisted into a new distorted narrative of the divine feminine now as being passive,
Submissive,
Weak.
She now began to appear to me as a people pleaser with no boundaries,
Living a life of what the world wanted to see her as,
As opposed to what she wanted to be.
My resistance then began to turn into repulsion.
And I realized my journey was taking me even further away from my mission of embracing this divine energy.
So I resolved my commitment to embracing the divine feminine.
I read books,
Participated in workshops.
I immersed myself in a spiritual retreat,
Journaled,
Repeated affirmations,
Meditated,
Started practicing yoga.
I felt incredible,
But I still didn't fit that mold.
It's like round peg meets square hole.
And I couldn't figure out what the problem was.
That's when the universe decided to throw me a bone as it usually does.
And if you're not aware of this,
There's a strange phenomenon that commonly occurs amongst therapists.
Whenever we're experiencing a problem in our personal life,
We suddenly get client after client coming to us for help with the same exact problem.
And that's exactly what happened here.
Sometimes I'm telling you,
I think we're starring in our own reality show of punked minus Ashton Kutcher,
Of course,
But for the mere entertainment for our spirit team.
So thanks a lot,
Spirit team.
And sometimes when this happens,
I just look up and give them a nice wink and laugh and shake my head.
And I'm like,
Oh boy,
Here it is.
I'm glad you're getting a good laugh out of this.
So within a few weeks,
I had an influx of female clients wanting to explore their divine feminine energy.
And they too created the same narrative of resistance that I did.
And I'm like,
I'm not crazy.
Well,
You know,
Maybe I am a little bit.
But what I knew was that I am not alone.
Working with each client allowed me to take a step back and assess the problem more objectively and with compassion.
Because for most of us,
It's a lot easier for us to give compassion to other people than to give it to ourselves.
So I used this opportunity as a mirror for me to work through my own stuff.
And I gradually was able to let go of that old narrative of what I perceived as being the divine feminine energy.
And I didn't know yet what I would replace that image with,
That narrative with.
But I trusted that the answers would come when I was ready to accept it.
And sure enough,
As always,
It did.
So one day during a meditation,
The words goddess warrior filled my conscious awareness with epic visions of Athena,
Venus,
And Aphrodite.
And of course,
What goddess warrior montage would be complete without dun-da-da-da,
Wonder Woman.
Yes,
I said it.
Wonder Woman.
Something clicked within me.
Now this felt right and aligned with my authentic self.
These goddesses are not weak,
Submissive women who could easily be taken advantage of.
They are strong,
Fierce,
And beautifully feminine.
I immediately did an internet search for goddess warrior.
And I,
Of course,
Didn't have any idea what I would find.
But in addition to finding out that this is a very common problem among women and society as a whole,
I came across a book that piqued my interest.
It's called Goddess Warrior Training,
Written by Heather Ashe Amara.
I hope I'm pronouncing that right.
My apologies if I'm not.
And my goddess warrior training began the very next day.
I realized that I had been searching for the divine feminine externally instead of internally.
I realized I was waiting for someone else to give me permission to step into my divine feminine.
I realized I was waiting for someone else to create a safe enough space for me to step into my divine feminine energy.
And then I threw out that term divine feminine and replaced it with goddess warrior energy.
This one simple step released me of my resistance immediately and opened up a whole new journey to me.
I realized that this energy looks and feels different for everyone.
And I had to create a new narrative of what this divine energy means and looks like for me.
So I'll share a little bit of that with you.
And of course,
This is specific and personal to each and every one of us.
So it's up to you individually to explore what this means and what it looks like for you.
But I see the goddess warrior as the best of both worlds between the masculine and feminine energy.
She is fiercely protective of what is right and just.
She leads with love and compassion.
But her kindness should never be taken for weakness.
She fights only when she needs to and for the highest good of all.
And she fights and when she does,
She wins.
She is a force of divine energy that can effortlessly protect you from the storm and just as effortlessly become the storm.
I realized she is me.
I am her.
Fully and completely whole.
Embraced and empowered in the divine goddess warrior energy.
And sending you all love and light for you to discover and embrace your goddess warrior energy.
