Day 14: The Body Remembers Its Original Wound

I was seven years old when I went over my handlebars and lost my front teeth. That was the beginning of a wound that has never fully left my body.

In this session I'm taking you into something real - the way our bodies return to the same place over and over until we finally show up and witness what's there. For me it's been my teeth my whole life. A bike accident at seven. A root canal. A lisp through high school. Seven teeth breaking in the three months after my parents died.

The body doesn't forget. And it doesn't stop asking until we finally listen.

We'll do a somatic journey together into wherever your body keeps returning - the pattern, the place, the thing that keeps surfacing. Not to fix it. To witness it.

Because that's where everything changes.

This is day 14 of my 30-day Soul Art journey. My intention throughout: I am showing up for myself.

Come in. Get comfortable. Let's go in together.

Transcript

Hello, Welcome back. I'm Jocelyn. This is 30 days of soul curriculum through the journey of my soul art. We're going to talk about the body, What the body knows, The wounds that we have that carry over and over through our lives. And I'm going to do it through something that came up on my soul art journey. Yesterday I was talking about my 15 year old self and retrieving that and how it brought me back to my seven year old self and realizing I had memories that I didn't think I had. Talked about one memory, Which was this fire that was a house next to us. My mom wanted to keep me safe. So she locked me in the car while she went to go see. And so I've talked about that, But I had another memory and that other memory is a bike accident that I had when I was seven. I lost my front teeth and I'm still paying for that accident actually. And I'm going to go into that and how teeth have been one of my wounds that continually come up and it didn't start until that memory. And remember my intention for my soul art journey is I am showing up for myself and that means all versions of myself. I'm showing up for my body. I am showing up for all the pieces of this human life. All right, So let's just ground for a minute. I really need the physiological sigh today. This is like work for me when I talk about my teeth. Oh, It's one of those things. So we'll do the physiological sigh. And that's two gentle sips in through the nose and then opening your mouth and sighing it out. Okay, So it just sounds like this. Huh. So let's just do a few rounds of that. Two gentle sips in through the nose. And on the sigh out, You can kind of feel your body letting go a little bit into the support beneath it. So on your own pace, Do gentle sips in through the nose. Hmm. On that sigh out, Just feel with the support beneath you, Feel the weight of your body. You can even feel into the volume of your body. Sitting here where it is, Right? So two gentle sips in through the nose. Hmm. And one more. Hmm. I have found that when we talk about wounds in the body, People get very anxious. Our body is a vessel for our soul. And so when we start talking about things that are going on with the body, Sometimes our nervous systems can, You know, Go a little crazy. Let's talk. Then we're going to do a little bit of a journey together around the body and what the body and the wounds of the body are telling us. I was in a bike accident when I was seven and I was messing around with my bike. This is like 1983, Right? And I went over the handlebars. Now, Before that, I had, I would say, Perfect teeth. When I went over the handlebars, And I just got my two front teeth. They were adult teeth. I lost my front tooth and the other tooth got all messed up and my gums got kind of messed up. And this is one memory that I forgot I had, But when I went into it, It was really, Really vivid. Like I could taste the salt. I could taste my gums hanging down. Like I could feel everything. I could feel my heart race when I was going in the car, Having never been to a dentist before. It was a very traumatic experience. So this was like the beginning of my tooth trauma. From there, I had to get root canal in my front tooth. After that, I got all kinds of cavities all the time in my teeth, Even though I didn't do anything crazy with my teeth. I brushed my teeth every day. I never ate sugar. But after that, My teeth became this place of constant things going on. So my mouth became this place where I managed. I went through high school when I was a freshman. They finally pulled my tooth out and gave me an implant. But I had to go with my front tooth on a retainer through freshman and sophomore year. And I remember I was going to have my first kiss, But I couldn't because I had this retainer in my mouth. And it's just been through all of my life. So that was the first thing that I remembered. When I was talking with my seven-year-old self, I was like, Wow, This is a vivid memory. This I have. I can't even escape this memory. And then as I was thinking about teeth, And remember, This is I am showing up for myself, I realized that after my parents died, And they died, You know, Seven days apart in September of 2021, Within the first three months, I broke seven teeth. What? I broke seven teeth. They were not savable. Within that first three months when I was in shock, I had to go get seven teeth pulled and I had to wait almost a full year before they could put implants in. And then I had to wait another full year because they had to let the implant settle. I had two implant bridges and I just, I was in shock. So I never thought about it. I mean, I knew in the back of my mind, That's strange to lose seven teeth in three months, You know, After grief. But I realized I was in shock and I, I just went around and I didn't have teeth like in this side of my mouth and this side in my mouth and this implant got messed up. There's so much to it. But so teeth came back and I know that teeth are foundation. Like I can go look at the Louise Hay, You know, Heal your body and all the different pieces. But sometimes when we have things in our body, We need to go deeper than just looking up something. When I did this journey and I was like, OK, It's time to go into my teeth. I went into the Akashic Records and I went deep into them. I was like, What is up with this? This is this feels like a soul journey. It's been constant in my life. This idea that wounds not leave until they're fully seen, Until they're witnessed, Until they're breathed through, Until they're understood, Until the insight is pulled out of them. Just for a minute, You might want to think about Do you have anything in your body that continues to show up for you? Pain in Just for yourself, Is there anything that comes up in your body? That is telling you, Hey, Show up for yourself right now. Show up for yourself and look at this. This is my intention. I am showing up for myself. And that is a journey that I had to go on in the last few weeks. And it is so deep. And the other thing I realized, And this will come in in another day this week, Is that when my parents died, I didn't take care of myself. I called my homeopath. I was in shock, It's understandable. But I called my homeopath at one point, And I've been in homeopathy my whole life. And I said, My parents died and she knew my parents well. Started almost yelling at me, Take Ignatia. I guess she could hear it in my voice. Just take, You need to get the kids and yourself on Ignatia. And I began crying because she was the first person I told who knew my parents outside of my family. And her hearing it made me hang up and I did not call her back. And so I never took those remedies. I never gave myself the thing to heal. So that's going to come up in another live that I'm going to talk about. I wasn't taking care of myself and those teeth just broke. Literally there was no tooth except the root in my mouth. They're not always a problem. Today they don't hurt. But it was something in his body that came up over and over and over again. So I just want you to think for a minute. Maybe close your eyes and just think. Allow that question to sit. Is there something in my body that keeps showing up? That it's time for me to show up for me around. Alright, And we're going to do a little bit of of a somatic journey. So just gently closing your eyes. And get comfortable. You can lay back in a lazy chair. You can sit up. You might even lay down and just breathe. Let your palms stand open. Let your palms relax. Either on the bed, On your lap. Let your palms be up. And just closing your eyes mentally to yourself, Open my palms. Just say it silently to yourself. I'm opening my palms. The bottoms of your feet. Opening the bottoms of your feet. Opening the top of your head. Take a breath in through the nose. Let a cool stream of air, Like you're blowing out a candle, Come out through your lips. And on that exhale, Feel yourself settling into. Whatever support is beneath you. And one more time, Inhaling through your nose. Blowing out like you're blowing out a candle, Feeling the weight and the volume of your body be supported. And one more time. Inhaling through your nose. Blowing out air like a cool stream through your lips. Feel the connection between. The bottoms of your feet. Palms of your hands. And the top of your head. And gently. Bring awareness to your jaw. Anytime we bring awareness, We do deepen and relax. That area. So bring your awareness to your job. And just notice, Don't judge it. Just notice how you're holding your jaw. Is there tension? Are you holding it tight? Take a breath into the jaw. Inhaling. And exhaling. Just breathing into the jaw, Letting it slightly relax and soften. And then bring your awareness to the inside of your mouth. This is the place that we speak our truth from. Inside of the mouth where we speak our authenticity. Where you smile. Bring your awareness all the way around the mouth, The inside of the cheeks. The roof of the mouth. The teeth and the gums. The tip of the tongue. All the taste buds. The root of your tongue. The floor of your mouth. Breathe into this environment. Inhaling. And exhaling. What is your mouth holding right now? It might be something that's unsaid. A truth. Maybe something you swallowed down, Something you bit down on. Because the timing wasn't right? Just acknowledge whatever's there in your mouth. There's no need to release anything. This is just about witnessing. Wounds? In the body. They keep coming back until we witness them. Now just zooming out. Begin to bring your awareness across the whole body. You can do that by simply beginning to feel your body and its shape in the space that it's in. Can you feel the shape of your body? The volume. Feel the whole body from the top of the head. To the bottoms of the feet. To the palms of the hands. And just. Ask yourself. In this space. Where do I have a pattern? Where does the body keep returning to? Is there a place in your body that's calling your attention? Is there an injury or symptom that keeps surfacing? And is there a part of your body that has broken more than once? Let that place in your body come into your awareness. You might feel it like a felt sense. Your awareness might just be called. You might feel warm. Might feel coolness, You might feel expansion or contraction somewhere in your body, Or you might hear exactly that space. You might get a visual. Breathe into that space. Inhaling. And exhaling. Breathing into that space, Inhaling. And exhaling. And just ask, What are you trying to tell me? We're not asking what's wrong. We're not judging. Our body is brilliant. And it talks to us. What are you trying to tell me? What do you need me to know? And let whatever arises, Arise. Maybe it comes through one of your senses. Maybe you hear the words. Maybe a memory. Just allow it to come up, Allow it to arise. And if nothing does come up, That's okay too. Just keep breathing into that part of the body. Just the willingness to ask the question is beautiful and opens a doorway. Breathing in. And breathing out. And when you're ready, We're gonna slowly come back to the body. Back to the room. Back to your breath. Take a nice deep breath into your belly. Feel your belly move with the breath. Sigh it out with a little sound. Feel the vibration. Let that vibration wake you up back into your body. And let it go. Welcome back. So I'm going to give you a few questions. And you can let them float in the air, You can grab onto one, You can just listen and then let them go. Let it be in your energy for the day and see what comes up by the end of the day. Where in your body does a pattern keep returning, And what might it be trying to tell you? Is there support that you reached out for but couldn't receive? What was happening in that moment? And what would it mean to ask your body, What are you trying to tell me instead of what is wrong with you? Our bodies return to their original wound until it is finally witnessed. Until we finally move with it, Till we hear it, Till we understand it, Till we embody it. And it's not because something's wrong with you. Our bodies are brilliant. They know what they're doing. It's not because you're broken, But some things need spaciousness. Some things need that right timing. Readiness, Willingness, Openness. And sometimes it's the 10th time where it suddenly comes through. Ah, So if today touched something for you. Please go watch the other tracks up to today. We're on a 30-day journey. Share with a friend. Share with someone that you love. I will see you next time, My friends. And I hope you have a beautiful day. You let some of these things land gently throughout your day. Namaste.