What grief has given me?
Grief.
Grief has given me back faith that's deeper than I could have ever expected.
It's given me a whole new way of looking at life.
It's given me a depth of understanding.
I mean,
If I look at the small things,
Well not small things,
But the more tangible things.
Grief gave me my childhood house and gave me an entryway back into human design,
Into the Akashic Records,
Into soul art.
It gave me all of that.
Grief gave me a relationship with my parents that I never thought I could have.
Gave me an understanding of who they were,
Of how they live on in me,
How they live on in my kids.
Grief gave me many stories to tell.
But like bigger than that,
It gave me a,
I don't even know what the word is,
It gave me an entire paradigm shift.
It gave me trust back.
It gave me this surrender to the creative forces.
It gave me open-ended creativity and a way to access truth and inner wisdom through it.
And not only truth and inner wisdom,
But accessing realms,
Dimensions,
Lifetimes.
Grief has given me pieces of myself I didn't even know I had.
Grief has given me the opportunity to cry and yell and stand up for myself.
It's given me the opportunity to save my marriage.
And it's given me the opportunity to let go of the pressure,
To see life in a totally different way,
To be friends with people I didn't think I would be friends with.
Grief has given me myself back,
But like this bigger,
Truer version of who I am.
Like this authentic piece of me that was always missing,
They gave it back.
Or born it in me in a way,
Right?
Grief has given me children who live with depth and gratitude and authenticity and beauty.
Grief has given me a connection with so many people that don't even know it yet.
It's been an awakening.
It's been freedom.
It's been trust and surrender and strength.
It's shown me the truest parts of myself,
Even if I didn't ask for it.
