Hello my friend,
This is a practice,
A meditation to help you remember and feel a sense of clearing an inner debt and the guilt that we sometimes carry with us and move into the genuine presence of loving forgiveness that is real This is a balm for times when your body is carrying what it doesn't need to be carrying and it hurts.
So welcome.
And as you settle in,
Begin to make space for yourself here Let yourself Feel your presence being allowed to take up a little more space and get comfortable.
If you notice that you're slumping a little which we can do when we're carrying a lot without forcing anything Offer your spine some dignity.
Let your chest,
Your heart sense a little bit more of the sky.
Even lift your soft gaze.
And just begin to feel that your body is breathing and here and alive like always.
And there's no demand on your body to feel and breathe and be alive.
It's here now.
And how you're settling into the stability of the support underneath you.
And as you settle,
Let me remind you.
You were never meant to keep yourself small enough to never get anything wrong.
You were never meant to turn every mistake into a life sentence.
You were never meant to become perfect.
Before you were allowed to be free.
So in this practice,
There's no need for you here to identify a transgression or confess or make amends or even decide whether you deserve forgiveness.
Because you're not fixed,
My friend.
You were never meant to be.
Here you can claim back your right to be fluid and free and imperfect as you enter the truth,
The spirit of all is forgiven.
Just breathe with all is forgiven.
For a couple of breaths and see if you can drop your shoulders away from your ears as you do How does that feel?
And now remember a time perhaps when you held stress about something.
And then someone was kind,
They were forgiven,
Forgiving.
And they told you not to worry.
How that felt because you already know this feeling.
Someone has said to you,
Oh please don't worry about it.
Someone has smiled.
And welcomed you when you expected disapproval or rejection.
Or you yourself have looked at another person and thought,
I really don't want you carrying this.
And you let that person recognize the signature of that mercy Because there's no need for someone to feel bad and there's no need for us to make ourselves or anyone suffer.
How beautiful we have the capacity to lift that suffering away.
I really don't want you carrying this.
How does that feel?
What does your body do when it realizes it's no longer being charged to death?
What does it do?
What does it feel like?
And how would you describe the feeling?
May be a release or release.
Maybe a feeling of being set free or let out of a room you didn't realize you'd been locked in.
Maybe it's like putting down a heavy bag you've forgotten you were carrying.
You're so used to carrying it.
Or discovering there's nothing chasing you.
And your forehead smooths and your jaw remembers it doesn't have to hold on.
Perhaps you feel a little more space around your heart More room to breathe.
More room to move and love.
And decide and create More room to be human and just be you.
Breathing with those feelings.
What you're feeling all is forgiven The debt has been cancelled.
There's nothing left to collect.
No case being built against you,
No tally being kept.
A school card.
No one waiting to catch you getting life wrong.
That's all illusion.
All simply thoughts,
None of it's true That beautiful feeling is true.
Of oh,
I don't have anything to pay for.
There is no debt.
I don't have to keep paying for this.
Breathe into your heart.
And out through your heart.
Feel your ribs float open Feel your chest release.
Freedom inside your heart.
And now shifting.
More and more into a loving presence.
What if there is an unconditional loving presence smiling upon you now?
One that loves you purely and only wants the best for you and for you not to suffer.
But to enjoy all your humanity.
That you came here to experience.
A presence,
A sense of love that you can turn toward and draw closer to that looks upon you without searching for fault.
An energy that only has pure love and cherishing.
It's gays.
This presence knows what you know,
That peace is your treasure and it holds that peace and it's extending it towards you.
It's being offered that treasure into your own hands now.
You can reach out and touch it and receive it and draw it close.
This loving energy.
See is your confusion and your passion and your mistakes and your trying and your beautiful humanness and never withdraws its love.
It knows the whole story and it isn't keeping a record.
It's not disappointed in your humanity.
It has no interest in punishing you.
It's only impulses.
May you be free.
May you not suffer unnecessarily.
Imagine and feel that love pouring towards you.
With no interrogation attached.
Flowing like light into your body,
Moving in.
That kindness melting all the tiny muscles on your precious face.
Letting go of the stress held in your brow so it melts like butter Freeing your jaw so it can let go.
And how your shoulders drop into their home away from your ears.
And how your shoulder blades melt down your spine as this love travels through your body.
And your heart and your ribs feel light and open.
Your belly,
Your hips,
Your hands.
Your feet.
All light and open.
And everything settles to the earth.
Home again.
Safe and light.
And free.
Fully inhabiting and at home in yourself again and at home on earth.
Enjoy this moment for a few more breaths.
How much of the sky can you show your heart to?
Maybe opening your chest giving even more dignity to your spine,
Lifting your chin and your gaze.
Feeling the earth as your rock and your anchor supporting you.
All is forgiven.
Nothing is being held over you.
Feel the space that lives inside of you.
What would you like to do with all that room?
To be available for life today.
You can stay here with that question,
That opening.
Or if you're ready.
Begin to draw yourself back to life in the moment.
Fluttering open your eyes if they've been closed.
Sparkling your fingers and toes.
Awakening the energy.
In your chest and spine.
And taking some clear breaths,
Stretching out,
Letting yourself follow your body's guidance organically As you move forward into your day or evening,
May you feel safe,
Loved,
Celebrated my friend.
You're so precious.
You deserve to enjoy the preciousness that you are and all your potential.
And that is my wish for you.
Thank you for practicing and thank yourself And until next time,
Take care of yourself and bye for now.
