Aicha Mckenzie

I was really depressed. I hadn’t eaten in two days and really was not happy today. I was going through the motions. I tried one affirmation meditation — no change. I tried another one. There was some hope in me. I stumbled upon this meditation which was just what the doctor ordered. I had been thinking yesterday of ways might stop my agony — my family had pushed me to the edge without any care. From Saturday afternoon through Sunday and Monday I couldn’t stop crying. I didn’t want to “play” with them anymore and I couldn’t see a way out other than an exit strategy. My brother and his therapist tried to settle me down yesterday and the lies I found made things worse. There was lots of lying going on. I ate dinner with my family but it was tasteless. In gratitude, I lost ten pounds, mostly water I’m sure. You can see I’m trying to find something good in my situation. Then my Higher Power had me press this meditation. I was crying during my breakfast which I wasn’t eating again. I tried rubbing my hands together as requested and putting them on my heart with the statement you said that “I am loved.” I thought of everyone else I would have hurt had I just quit: all my friends who tried so hard to make me believe that I was loved, all my casual acquaintances many clerks I see all the time, everyone I try to encourage — that was my passion to uplift others. But my well is empty. And of course, my Higher Power who send me all these people who love me when my family only wants to change me. So I’ll live for my friends and acquaintances and people whom I’ll meet in future who need me to be there. I might be loved but These circumstances are really hard! I did Really Want to Thank you VERY VERY Much for this meditation. It is a game-changer. I don’t have any money right now. I have to live with this family because I’m disabled and the money I get isn’t enough to pay for any rent in this now very popular area. Thanks to your meditation I am reminded that I am loved. And theoretically, my Higher Power will help me through this MUCK. I did want to mention not as a criticism but rather the recording sounded as if the presenter was on a “speaker phone” such that the sound was distant and sometimes impossible to hear particularly when we would be rubbing our hands and I desperate to hear what you were saying. I don’t know if your other meditations are like that but it was hard to hear. You have my deepest gratitude. I sincerely pray that you and those you love stay well in all aspects. Blessings to you and all on this journey. Warmly, Anne