Tender Revolution Ep. 7: Call Back Your Power

Welcome to The Tender Revolution.

I'm Katherine Liggett.

You know,

Dear soul,

That you are so much bigger than you appear to be,

Than the face you show to the world.

Your mind may be mired in self-doubt,

But in certain quiet moments of grace,

You feel it.

You feel the expanse of your power far beyond this body,

Far beyond the stories that make up your life.

You are huge.

You just haven't known how to live from this place quite yet,

How to make this your center.

And there are many good reasons why that is.

For one,

We learn from the beginning that our energy belonged to those around us,

Not really to ourselves.

We old souls came in as wise ones,

Able to help those in our families that didn't have the support they needed.

We became caretakers far too young,

Not because our parents or siblings asked us to be,

But simply because we had the genius to become exactly what was needed in our families.

And because of this,

We learned to live with our awareness turned towards others instead of cultivating the potency of our own desires,

Preferences and needs.

In a word,

We became people pleasers simply because we innately have the wisdom and intelligence to mirror exactly what's needed in any situation for any person.

And often we're greatly rewarded for it with their gratitude and attention.

So we keep living this way.

But there comes a time when we feel empty because the adoration isn't for us as our true self.

It's for the mask we've created for the benefit of that person.

It's like we've been holding a puppet up to our reality.

And then we wonder why we feel left out of all this goodness that seems to stream towards us.

It's all going to the puppet and we stay hidden in the background.

Then there's trauma.

Most of the highly sensitive people I know have endured trauma that would bring you to your knees in tears at their feet.

And when we're trauma survivors,

It feels profoundly unsafe,

Life threatening,

Actually,

To draw attention to ourselves,

Especially to parts of us that feel vulnerable.

And being in our power,

Being seen like that is the most vulnerable thing there is.

Healing from trauma is the work of a lifetime.

And though I'll leave it for another episode,

Know that it plays an immense role in why we keep ourselves small.

Quite simply to our bodies,

It feels like the only safe thing to do.

Finally,

Our comfort in hiding ourselves also stems from lifetimes past.

In so many lifetimes,

We've grown accustomed to dimming our light out of self-defense.

For if we shine too brightly,

We believe we might just get taken down.

Just like in those lives when we were seers and revolutionaries who paid for our truth with our lives.

So now is the time to turn your genius inwards,

Dear soul,

Towards the great power that is you,

Towards your authentic self,

Towards your astonishing brilliance.

That being said,

I want to make it clear that owning our power isn't something that suddenly happens to you and then you're set for life.

Connecting to all that we are is always an imperfect and fleeting experience.

We feel it.

And then as humans,

We necessarily forget again.

Our journey on this planet is about remembering.

And in order to do so,

We must forget.

It's like breathing.

We can't have an inhale without an exhale.

So I invite you today to deeply soften any expectation you have for yourself to once and for all claim all that you are.

That will never happen,

Dear one.

But the thing is,

Once you do feel your power or even a sliver of it,

You will never forget it completely.

The imprint stays with you and in time,

You'll find it again.

You will have seen the treasure map.

My wish for you in today's exploration is to experience this felt impression of your power or part of it so that it will be a guiding light that will again and again call you back to all that you are.

This is a journey of great potency.

It's an invitation to call all of your power home to you now,

To amplify your energy and take up all the space that you are meant to occupy.

All your power from lifetimes past,

All your power that has been fragmented from the trauma,

All your power that others unconsciously took from you.

It's time.

The world needs you to own all of your energy,

Your wisdom,

Your presence,

Your heart.

You are here for you.

You are here to take up space.

You are here to own every part of you.

You are here to be sovereign.

You are here to call back all of your power.

So when you've found a place where you can relax,

Let's begin.

Feel that your body has mass here.

Notice the places where your body contacts the surface you're on.

And with every exhale,

Allow yourself to sink into heaviness.

And at the same time,

Notice a tallness in the spine,

Even if you're lying down.

Notice that you're taking up space here.

Slowly breathing a little bit more deeply into the pelvis,

Softening the belly to receive a deepening inhale and allowing a deep exhale.

From this place of softness and the pelvis,

Feel yourself rooting down into the earth,

Sending a cord or roots downwards,

Connecting to the center of the earth and all of the ancient power wisdom that's there.

Continuing to breathe as you feel this connection to earth more and more.

Feeling yourself received by the earth,

Supported by the earth.

I invite you now to open your inner eyes,

Your imagination to a time and place where you felt very contracted and small,

Where you were hiding who you are,

Your power.

Really bring yourself into this place,

Into your body at that time.

Look around you at the people who are there with you.

And notice what feelings are arising in your body as you experience their presence.

Breathing into them,

Naming them,

Allowing the full potency of what it was really like to be there in that time and place to fill your energy now.

And notice how large your energy feels in this time and place.

If it were a light of a certain color,

How much space would it take up?

Notice that now.

Perhaps it's a negative,

Perhaps you're shrunken inward.

Maybe it's just very small around you.

I invite you now to visualize spiritual support landing in this time and place with you.

So it's not just you and the person or people who were there,

But it's also your guides,

Your angels,

A particular figure.

Imagine that they're there with you.

And begin to breathe and visualize that your inhale grows your energy field and your exhale relaxes it back a little bit.

So see that light or that color that your energy field is growing with the inhale and then relaxing back with the exhale.

You are fully supported by the spiritual figures with you.

Your energy field moving in synchrony now with your breath.

Noticing that you have some control of how big you get.

As you start to fill the space.

Imagine a spiritual being of great power and potency standing behind you.

Perhaps a figure like Kali,

The goddess of creation and destruction.

Someone truly invincible and all powerful is right behind you.

Perhaps holding your shoulders as you Breathing and noticing now how big you've become.

Your body and your energy now becomes bigger and bigger.

Notice how you feel in this place of expansion.

If it feels frightening or uncomfortable.

Allow part of you to soften and receive the support of one of the divine figures there or all of them together.

And remember never to force this.

Only grow to a height that feels safe enough for now with the support that's with you.

Feeling them holding you.

You may notice now that the person or people who were with you look very small and insignificant compared to the expanse that is you.

How do you feel about them now?

From this place with the witnessing of the divine beings around you.

You now say this prayer that is heard across time,

Space,

And all dimensions and realities.

Please add your own words if you feel called and you might place one or both hands on your heart.

I call back all of my power now across all lifetimes and experience.

All the power that has ever been taken from me I call home to me now.

And so it is.

Breathe now into the space.

And notice how you feel.

See,

Sense,

And feel yourself as grounded and confident.

If this doesn't feel true for you,

Hold yourself and be held by the divine hands around you exactly where you are.

Breathing in to just how you feel right now and allowing.

Make an imprint of this knowing that this experience can be like a map that helps you remember and come home.

I wish you great exploration of your expansiveness and thank you so much.