Welcome,
This is Taryn,
And I'm so glad that you're here.
This is a wellspring willow practice designed specifically for those moments when your mind feels high voltage.
Whether you call it popcorn brain,
Racing thoughts,
Or a scattered focus,
You are experiencing a state of hyperarousal.
It can feel like a thousand apps open at once,
And your internal processor is running hot.
I want you to hear this clearly,
Having a busy brain is not a failure of your meditation.
It is not a sign that you are doing this wrong.
Your brain is simply hunting for a signal,
It's searching for a place to land.
In this practice,
We aren't going to try to close all of those apps,
Or force the thoughts to stop.
Instead,
We are going to plug in a stabilizer,
We are going to use a somatic manual override to anchor your awareness in the heavy,
Quiet depth of your body,
Allowing the racing thoughts to move onto the surface without taking you with them.
Before settling deeply,
We are going to manually downshift your nervous system,
Starting with 3 physiological sighs,
Take a deep breath in through the nose,
And at the very top,
Take one more tiny sip of air to fully expand the lungs,
Inhale with me now,
And a small sip,
Now let it all out,
Long and slow,
Through the mouth,
Again,
In,
A sip,
And a long,
Heavy sigh,
Once more,
In,
And release the pressure,
Keeping your eyes open for a moment,
Or closed if they're already closed,
We're going to perform the horizon sweep,
Very slowly,
Allow your gaze to move all the way to the far right,
As far as it can go,
And now all the way to the far left,
All the way to the right,
Continue on your own,
Feeling the physical tug of the ocular muscles,
You are physically gathering the scattered sparks of your attention,
And pulling them allow the eyes to now rest in the center,
The search is over,
The search is over,
You have arrived,
As you settle now,
Deep into the stillness,
We have arrived at your intent for this practice,
Your anchor,
We're going to keep this very short and stabilizing,
So your brain has less to manage,
We'll offer three options,
Choose the one that feels most rooted in your body,
I am anchored,
Or space is safe,
Space is safe,
Or I am here now,
I am here now,
Once you have your phrase,
We're going to repeat it together in the mind,
Not just thinking the words,
Feeling the weight of them,
Repeat your intent now,
Silently,
Again,
Allow those words to sink into your body like a stone,
Dropping into still,
Deep water,
You don't need to hold on to them anymore,
You don't need to do anything,
Your only job here is to follow the sound of my voice,
I will hold the space for you from here,
We'll begin the rotation of consciousness throughout the physical body,
As I name each part,
Simply shift your awareness there,
And feel its weight,
Sense the density of your bones,
And the heavy pull of gravity,
Beginning on the right side of the body,
Sense the right shoulder sinking into the earth,
The heavy bone of the upper arm,
The density of the right elbow,
The weighted sensation of the wrist,
The palm of the right hand,
Now,
We count the weight into the right fingers,
Starting with the thumb,
From 5 down to 1,
5,
Heavy,
4,
Sinking,
3,
Dense,
2,
Dropping,
1,
Still,
The entire right arm,
Heavy and rooted,
Move your awareness down to the right hip,
Feel the depth of the hip socket,
The heavy lead of the thigh,
The weight of the right knee,
The density of the ankle,
The sole of the right foot,
Counting the weight into the right toes,
5,
Heavy,
4,
Sinking,
3,
Dense,
2,
Dropping,
The entire right side of the body,
A heavy anchor,
Move your awareness to the left side of the body,
Sense the left shoulder,
The heavy bone of the upper arm,
The density of the left elbow,
The weighted sensation of the wrist,
The palm of the left hand,
Now,
We count the weight into the right fingers,
From 5 down to 1,
5,
Heavy,
4,
Sinking,
3,
Dense,
2,
Dropping,
1,
Still,
The entire left arm,
Heavy and rooted,
Move your awareness down to the left hip,
Feel the anchor of the hip socket,
The heavy lead of the thigh,
The weight of the left knee,
The density of the ankle,
And the sole of the left foot,
Counting down the left toes,
5,
Heavy,
4,
Sinking,
3,
Dense,
2,
Dropping,
1,
Still,
The entire left side of the body,
The whole left side of the body,
Heavy,
Sinking,
We'll settle into the midline,
The central pillar of your being,
Sense the very base of the spine,
The pelvic floor,
Feel it spreading and grounding into the earth,
The space behind the navel,
Heavy and warm,
The center of the chest,
The heart space,
Feel a deep,
Unmoving stillness here,
The base of the throat,
Open and weighted,
The space between the eyebrows,
Cool and wide,
Now,
Sense the weight of the back of the head,
The heavy space between the shoulder blades,
The density of the tailbone,
The back of the heels,
Sense the entire body at once,
The whole body,
The heavy root,
Deep,
Into the depth of the ocean,
Still,
Weighted,
Anchored,
Now,
Gently move your awareness to your natural breath,
Don't try to change its rhythm,
Don't try to make it deeper or slower or better,
Simply observe the breath exactly as it is in this moment,
To anchor your busy mind,
We're going to give it a simple,
Repetitive task,
Labeling.
As you feel your chest and belly rise,
Mentally say the word,
Rising.
As you feel them fall,
Mentally say the word,
Falling.
Rising.
Rising.
In a high voltage mind,
A thought will inevitably jump in.
That's not a problem.
It's simply your brain doing its job.
When you notice a thought,
Don't fight it.
Don't judge it.
Simply acknowledge it by mentally saying the word,
Thinking,
And then return immediately to the sensation of the breath.
Rising.
Thinking.
Rising.
Falling.
Rising.
You are the silent observer of the breath.
You are the steady shore.
And the breath is the tide coming in and going out.
Rising.
Now,
We move into the sensation of opposites.
First,
Sense your popcorn brain.
Notice the thoughts as they pop up,
Erratically.
Hot.
Light.
Feel the bursting.
The staccato energy in your forehead.
It's a high frequency jumping from one kernel to the next.
Feel the heat of the thinking mind as it runs full speed ahead.
Now,
Shift your awareness completely,
Sensing the anchor,
The cool,
Heavy,
Dense weight of your bones.
The immovable pull of gravity on the hips,
The heels,
The back of the head.
Feel the sensation of being tethered to the very center of the earth.
Slow.
Feel the absolute stillness of your skeleton,
Of your bones,
Resting beneath the noise.
Try to sense both at once,
Integrating the popcorn brain with the solid anchor,
The hot,
Fast popcorn popping on the surface of the mind,
And the cool,
Heavy anchor holding you steady in the depths.
You are the wide,
Open space that holds both the movement and the stillness.
You are not the thoughts,
You are the one observing them.
You are the deeply rooted willow,
Moved by the wind in your branches.
Now,
We'll perform our manual override.
If your mind is still attempting to race,
We're going to give it a spatial task that it cannot ignore.
Without opening the eyes,
I invite you to sense the physical space between the ears.
Now,
Sense the distance between your temples.
Sense the distance from the very top of the head to the soles of the feet.
Now,
Expand your awareness to the volume of the entire room around you.
Sense the space behind the shoulders and the space in front of the chest simultaneously.
Hold the entire room in one wide angle.
In this vast space,
There is no room for popcorn to pop.
There is only the bloom of your presence.
The thoughts might still be moving on the surface,
But you're no longer swept away by them.
You are the anchor.
You are the root of the willow tree.
In the cool,
Stable,
Yet vibrant ocean,
Gently begin to bring your awareness back to the points where your body meets the surface beneath you.
Wiggle the fingers,
The toes.
You are carrying this stillness back with you into the world.
This moment is a return to your authentic flow.