No More Self-Abandonment

Cultivate a deep connection to yourself through this guided meditation, aimed at gently guiding you to meet the parts of yourself that were once abandoned. This is a practise of self-nurture and deep inner compassion. Return home to yourself.

Transcript

This meditation is created with the intention of guiding you towards letting go of any attachments that are keeping you stuck or out of alignment. And before we begin, An important factor in all of this is that you let go of any self-judgement. No judgement is welcome here, Only compassion and understanding. The worst thing we can do is to berate ourselves, So it's important to treat yourself with kindness as you would do to a child or a loved one. We all become attached to things from time to time, Whether it be to other people, To a place, To food, Alcohol, Stimulants, TV, Shopping. We can become attached or addicted to what seems like an unlimited amount of things. And no matter how much you want to give it up, Even though you know without a doubt that most if not all aspects of your life would change for the better, You still cannot let it go. Even with the purest of intentions, Or so it seems, You still cannot break this habit, And so it continues to run your life. The thing is, Even though you think your intentions are pure, And that you do truly want to give it up, There is a stronger force beneath it all, Running the show, That maybe you never knew was there. So what's really going on? Somewhere along your journey, Often in childhood, There was a moment, A moment when you felt something too overwhelming to face. Perhaps rejection, Abandonment, Shame or fear, And in that moment your body and mind did what they were designed to do. They protected you, They buried the pain deep, Because it was too much to carry. The nervous system reacted in a way that science explains well. The amygdala, The part of your brain responsible for detecting threats, Marked that experience as dangerous. From that point on, It worked quietly in the background, Shaping your reactions to avoid ever touching that pain again. And so without even knowing, You learned patterns and behaviours that gave you a sense of comfort, Escape or numbness. These might be substances, Habits, Distractions, Anything that brought even just a moment of relief. Over time, Your brain made a connection. This thing, This substance, This habit or pattern, It helps me to not feel the pain. And your body remembered. Your brain remembered. The cycle began. Not because you're broken, But because you're human. Because there was once a wound, And your nervous system tried to keep you safe. Addiction then, Is not a weakness, It's a survival strategy. It's a message from a part of you that needs healing, Not punishment. So now, As we sit in this stillness together, We invite that wounded part out of hiding, Not to relive the pain, But to gently let it be seen, Held and softened. You are here and you are safe, And the healing can begin where the pain once rooted itself. So from this, The questions arise. What are you afraid of seeing within you? What are you pushing down? There is something within you that wants to come up to the surface, To be seen. But your fear of pain or unwanted emotions is keeping it buried down and hidden, Underneath the layers of destruction and dependencies. So where have you abandoned yourself? Now is the time to come home, To the truth of who you are. So take a nice, Slow, Deep breath, In through the nose and out through the mouth. Let's do a few of these breaths, Inhaling wisdom, Truth and understanding. Exhaling any limitations you have placed upon yourself. Let go of anything that's been on your mind, And take your full awareness into this moment. Let's do a body scan, And as we go down the body, Allow yourself to relax, Release, And soften any areas of tension or tightness. Starting with the forehead, Relaxing the forehead, Softening the eyebrows, The cheeks. Relax your jaw, Allow your shoulders to relax, Your arms to release. And your hands to soften. Now take your awareness to your belly, And with every breath, Softening and relaxing your belly a little more. Allow your bottom to relax upon wherever you are seated. Relax and release your legs, Your ankles, Feet and toes. Now as you breathe, Imagine that you are breathing into every cell within your body, Really feeling into the wholeness of your being. We will start by setting a powerful intention. The words that you speak are not just words. There is a powerful and magic force behind your words, Because your underlying intention is what allows the words to manifest into your physical reality. This is your declaration to the universe. Speak it clearly, And I recommend that you speak it out loud for more power, But you can speak it within your mind if you are unable to speak vocally. Try to really feel these words as you say them. Repeat after me. Universe, God, Source, Please allow me to see with such clarity the truth of what I have kept hidden. Please help me to uncover and fully see with open eyes what has been keeping me suppressed and unconscious. And from this knowing and understanding, I free myself from the chains that I have placed upon myself. I am ready to break free. I am ready to experience true freedom. And to connect to the truth of who I am. And so it is. So as we move on, I'd like to ask you some questions. And these questions are created specifically for you to ask to yourself. So basically you are opening up a dialogue with yourself. You could visualise yourself as a child at any age that feels relevant to you. Perhaps the age at which this attachment or addiction began. Or you could also imagine that you are speaking to your soul or your higher self. Your imagination is your own unique power. So please go with what feels right for you in this moment. And you can change or adapt this at any time to suit your needs. There is no right or wrong here. If you do receive answers, You can write them down. Or just sit with them. Be present and allow them to come through. If emotions arise, Allow them to be there. Again, It's important to hold yourself with compassion and understanding as you would a child. You can ask yourself in the present tense. So repeat what I am saying, But to yourself. I suggest for you to pause the meditation at each question. And take some time in stillness to reflect. Here are your questions. What did I need back then that I didn't receive? What emotions have I tried to avoid at all costs? What have I been trying to fix with something outside of me? If I could speak to my younger self right now, What would they need to hear? Where in my life am I abandoning my own needs or truth? What would it feel like to choose myself completely? What does my soul want me to remember in this moment? How can I now choose love and compassion for myself rather than self-abandonment? Take a breath. In through the nose and sigh it out through the mouth. Come back to your body and breath. If you feel some wounds may have been opened, Please do not despair. Allow the pain to be there and allow yourself to feel. And rather than becoming involved or attached to the emotion or the event itself, See if you can just allow it to be there. Become the observer, As if it's a movie and you are watching it all unfold on a TV screen. You are now beginning to see the truth. And this is the start of deep inner healing. You are breaking through your limitations to become stronger, More aware, With a deeper sense of purpose and a new passion for life. You can come back to this meditation again if you feel called to. And with each time you are free to change the age or the image that you have of yourself. And you can also add any questions that might feel relevant to you. May your journey of transformation unfold with grace, Strength and deep inner healing. Sending you love, Peace and blessings. Thank you.