Welcome my beautiful dreamer.
If your eyes aren't closed.
.
.
Then I invite you to close them now.
And just begin to gently let the outside world fade away for a little while.
Just take some long,
Slow,
Deep breaths with your eyes closed.
So you can start coming back into yourself.
Inhale gathering up any racing thoughts.
Exhale with a long sigh and just let it all go.
Inhale,
Gathering up any anxiety.
Fear,
Overwhelm.
And let it all go with long,
Delicious sighs.
Just let everything go.
So you can spend some much needed time connecting to yourself.
Learning more about yourself.
Delving deeper into yourself.
So you can heal yourself and completely transform your life.
So just let the noise of everything else drift further and further away.
As though someone's closing a door between you and everything outside of you.
You're leaving the surface of life.
So you can travel inward.
Into the heart of yourself.
The place beneath all the noise.
All the pressure,
All the responsibility.
The place beneath all the doing and trying and performing.
Just let yourself sink below the surface now.
Away from the static of your mind.
Down into the calmness of your own inner being.
Find yourself now,
Inside.
The quiet,
Safe landscape of your own inner world.
Today,
My beautiful dreamer,
You're going to delve into one of the most tender places within the human experience.
Victimhood.
It's the place where pain becomes your identity.
The place where what happened to you in your past gets to dictate your present and future.
It's the place where feeling hurt is a constant way of existing.
And here is how victimhood started.
Something happened to you.
Something hurt you.
Something was unfair.
Maybe someone betrayed you.
Maybe someone abused you.
Maybe someone abandoned you.
Maybe someone failed to protect you.
Life threw something at you that most people wouldn't be able to survive.
And you've carried this with you for many years,
Allowing its buyer to continue to burn inside you.
Charring your whole existence.
Now,
I am not saying that whatever happened to you doesn't matter.
Because it absolutely does matter.
It did happen.
But did hurt.
It wasn't fair.
You shouldn't have had to go through it,
But you did.
So now comes the question that could possibly change your whole life forever.
Are you going to continue to let what happened to you in the past?
Affect your present and your future.
Are you going to continue to let what happened to you back then Decide the size,
Magnitude,
Depth,
Beauty,
Pleasure,
Wonder and magnificence of your now and your future.
Do you really want to let what happened to you then mess with your life now?
Because I really don't think you want that.
I just think that maybe you're a little afraid of who you'll be without it.
Afraid of who you'll be without the old stories.
It's okay to be afraid of the unknown.
It's okay to be afraid of change.
I'm a spiritual teacher and I still get afraid.
When I step out my comfort zone and change myself,
Do something differently.
Fear is normal,
It's nothing to be avoided.
You can feel fear and still change.
You can feel fear and still transform.
You can feel fear and still heal.
You just put the fear in your pocket and you take it with you.
Then you take small steps in a slightly different direction that could change the whole trajectory of your life and your destiny.
But if you don't face your fear,
Then victimhood becomes a five-star luxury prison that you never want to leave.
Because you think you're comfortable and safe there.
But I'm here to tell you from my own experience.
That there's a whole exquisite world that you're missing out on when you stay stuck in what happened in the past.
Gently and lovingly to yourself now.
I'd like you to allow the pain of one particular moment in your past.
To rise up to your surface.
Not every wound,
Just one.
A moment in your life that you're still a victim of because you can't let it go.
One memory.
One person.
One moment,
One chapter of your existence.
Now once you have.
.
.
This one memory,
Please don't get lost in your head with it,
Because this has got nothing to do with your mind.
This is about the emotion,
Sensation,
Vibration.
Feeling.
This inner journey is from the neck down.
You can't heal your life from your mind.
You heal yourself from your soul.
So just try and stay with yourself from the neck down.
Feel where the pain of that old wound still lives in your body.
Maybe it sits on your chest like a heavy rock.
Maybe it's a tightness in your throat.
Like an invisible hand is clenching your neck.
Maybe it's a painful sinking feeling in your stomach.
Just find where the feeling of victimhood lives inside you.
And it doesn't matter what happened.
It doesn't matter what the situation was.
Because this is not about that.
Forget the logic.
Forget the mind.
Forget needing to justify,
Defend,
Accuse,
Understand.
Forget the reasons why it happened.
Just forget everything except how it feels in your body right now.
Because your mind has convinced you that this feeling means something that it doesn't.
Your mind says.
That moment ruined my life.
No one understands.
It's impossible to heal from this.
I'm damaged.
Broken,
Unsalvageable.
I can't change because of what happened to me.
If I let what happened to me go,
Then who will I be without it?
I'm nobody without it.
But none of that is true.
None of that is true.
Mmm.
My beautiful dreamer are infinitely powerful.
You don't need to drag the past with you if you don't want to.
And you don't need those memories as much as you think you do.
You can choose right now.
To feel the emotion of the memory and then let them go.
You can put the pain down now.
Without betraying the person you were when that pain happened.
I'm going to repeat that because it's important.
You can put the pain down now.
Without betraying the person you were when that pain happened.
You can put the pain down now.
So feel that feeling inside you,
Feel the sensations of victimhood within your own inner being now.
Feel the weight of those memories,
The heaviness.
The injustice,
The justifications,
The explanations,
The anger,
The resentment,
The pain,
The sadness,
The ache.
You built an identity around that trauma.
But now it's time to let that identity go.
So you can create a bright and beautiful new identity.
So you can finally reach the life you long for.
So feel all of that weight inside you now.
Feel the emotion.
The feeling.
The Victimhood.
And now.
.
.
Let it all begin to slide down the inside of your body.
Feel that victim energy gently sliding down your inner being now.
Down,
Down,
Down and seeping out of you into the ground below.
All of it just sliding down the inside of you.
And sinking out of you.
The tightness.
The heaviness.
The hollowness.
All of it,
Sliding down your inner being.
Into the ground below to be transmuted completely by the power of this whole entire planet.
Just let it all go now.
Yes,
It can be that simple if you choose to believe it.
Let it go.
The memory.
The proof.
The story.
Allow yourself to be free of it now.
Let it all fall away from you now.
Let the clench leave your throat,
The weight leave your chest and the hollowness disappear from your stomach.
And yes,
This might feel a little strange and uncomfortable.
Because change is uncomfortable.
Change is the rickety,
Wobbly bridge between the old chapter and a bright,
Beautiful new one.
So imagine as you're doing this,
You're walking across a rickety wobbly bridge.
And you're a little afraid and you're a little uncomfortable but you're also determined.
Determined to get to that life that you desire.
So maybe you do feel bare.
As all the victimhood drains out of you.
Maybe you do feel raw,
Naked,
Sensitive.
Unfamiliar to yourself.
That's the moment most people.
.
.
Turn around and run back into the arms of victimhood again.
This moment when people back out,
It's too hard,
It's too uncomfortable and they run to the loving embrace of their old outdated existence.
But just because change feels unsafe doesn't mean it is unsafe.
Please don't turn back,
Stay with yourself,
Stay with your heart,
Your soul and your inner being and just let all the old stories drain out of you.
Are you willing to believe that it can be this easy?
Can you?
Dare to believe.
That you just crossed the bridge of change.
That you just let go of all the heavy,
Incapacitating victimhood and walk straight into a bright,
Beautiful,
New future.
Dare yourself to believe.
Now I want you to feel something new start to emerge inside you.
Now that you've made all this clean,
Wide,
Open space.
By letting go of being a victim.
I want you to feel now.
A small bright light starting to shine within your heart.
This is your energy.
This is your life force that got buried underneath the victimhood.
The pastories.
The past pain.
Feel the light in your own heart now.
Feel how it's starting to shine brighter.
And brighter.
And brighter.
Until it illuminates all of you.
Feel it as the most glorious sensation.
A feeling of complete belonging and safety.
A feeling of optimism.
A feeling of hope.
A deep inner knowing that a beautiful,
Magical journey awaits you now.
We want you to feel your own power coming back to you.
The light within the heart of yourself.
Because whatever happened to you in the past could never,
Ever take your power away from you.
It may have hidden your light.
You may have let the memories and pain and stories swallow you up.
But you just let go of all that.
You just enabled your powerful inner light to shine again.
So let your inner power grow even brighter now.
Let it shine so bright that it bursts out of you.
And shines all over the whole entire world.
And as you feel this light shining out of you,
I would like you to please repeat the following after me.
I don't have to carry the past to prove that it happened.
I don't have to stay wounded to remember that I survived.
I can tell the truth about what happened without letting it entirely own me.
I can feel the pain without allowing the pain to become my identity.
I can allow change to feel unfamiliar and still choose not to run back.
I am not a victim.
I am not a victim.
I am not a victim.
I have a powerful light within me that shines bright.
I am pure infinite soul capable of anything.
Let those words sink into your DNA now.
Feel yourself changed forever.
As you very gently and very slowly begin to return.
Return to the space you're in.
Connecting back slowly and gently.
To the world around you.
Feel your powerful breath moving in and out of you.
Feel your inner light still very much alive inside your heart.
Feel that light shining everywhere within your inner being.
And please remember this.
That what happened to you might be part of your story,
But it is definitely not your whole story.
It happened in the past.
And it's okay to leave it there.
Because now you're shining bright and stepping into a whole new future.
So when you're ready.
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Open your eyes with your inner light shining brightly and go live the most magnificent life.
