Jacquie Godsman

Thank you, Jac! I'm a lifelong runner uphill and also deeply spiritual. Only now, in my 50s, I'm accepting that the journey of discovering my autism and ADHD isn't complete without facing my sexuality too. I can't have those dark places in me anymore. It's nearly killed me - but I'm still here, shining my light. I've long known I'm a lightworker, a lighthouse. I've been called a light by many people. I know I'm here to help heal my family line, which has a lot of sadness in it. My tiny niece was even diagnosed with cancer at 11 months old (she's in remission now). I want to be properly there for her now she's nearly 5. I have flashbacks of what feel like past lives, where I was a green witchy woman in the bronze age, where I wasn't married, but I was loved and protected by my community, and I was a children's teacher and herbalist. In the 17th century I sense my current fear of swimming arose because I was isolated and chastised for being left-handed and different and not married. I was put on a ducking stool and told I had the devil in me. Sounds silly doesn't it, but science is backing up a lot of this traumatic memory now due to epigenetics, isn't it. Funnily enough, when my self started to break down in my late 20s, I experienced psychotic depression, and I had 'the devil' living with me for 18 months. Absolutely terrifying - this black, spiteful entity lived on my sofa and was always there when I came home from work to torment me. My 15 year hetero relationship broken down. I sense my inability to adapt to society, and deep loneliness may actually have a solution, and help me to shine properly. Thank you for helping me. Love is always the answer. 🙏🕊️❤️‍🩹🫂🏳️‍🌈🥰