Hello,
My name is Tess from The Big Heart Journey and this is a heart hug meditation.
I invite you to close your eyes and just settle into wherever you are.
Take a big deep breath in and as you let it out,
Send some thanks to yourself.
Thank you for taking the time to be here right now.
Thank you for remembering how important it is to make space for you.
Thank you for making space to go inside of your heart.
Take a minute and notice that heart of yours.
That heart of yours that's beating inside of your chest all day long without you doing a thing.
That heart that grows and heals and breaks and puts itself back together again.
Inside of that heart are all of the people you have ever loved.
Inside of that heart are people you have lost and inside of that heart are people you don't even know yet.
Inside of that heart is a deep inner knowing.
Inside of that heart is a voice of truth.
Just notice right now how is your heart feeling.
And however it is that your heart is feeling right now,
Imagine just giving those feelings a big hug.
And I invite you to imagine that you are standing on the bank of a river.
You are looking across to the other side but there is so much fog that you can't see what's there.
Rest here for a moment in the fog.
Let the fog hold you.
Let the fog be a portal and connect you with the first time you saw your child.
Can you imagine the feeling of excitement,
The feeling of love and wonder when you first lay eyes on your child?
How did your heart feel?
Can you picture their face?
Maybe imagine their little feet or their little tiny toenails.
What was that moment like for you?
Can you tune into how your body felt?
Can you imagine the first time that you heard them laugh,
Their very first giggle?
And what about the first time you watched them try something new?
Can you hear their voice the first time that they said,
I love you?
And if there are any other first moments with your child that give you heart exploding joy feelings,
Tune into them right now and hold all of these feelings inside of your heart.
You notice that across the river,
The fog is lifting and you see someone walking towards you.
You think that they look familiar.
They are smiling and you could recognize this smile anywhere.
And as they get closer,
You realize that this is your child,
All grown up.
And as they walk towards you,
Your heart skips a beat like it's the very first time that you saw them.
Paint the picture right now of how they look.
Who have they become?
Imagine that the fog has lifted and they see you fully and start running towards you.
You open your arms up and before you know it,
They have thrown themselves into them and you are holding them.
This person who you know better than anyone else on the whole planet.
This person who you have loved through all of their big feelings.
This person who has caused your heart to expand in ways that you didn't even know were possible.
This little tiny human that you've been able to spend so much time with is now a big human and it feels like the first time you held them in your arms.
You are filled up with so much love.
You are filled up with so much appreciation for who they are,
For who they have become.
Just hold them right now for a minute.
Sit with that feeling.
And imagine keeping this feeling inside of your heart.
And as the fog fully lifts,
You are here right now in your life.
Your child is close by and they are whatever age they are right now.
Feeling all of the feelings they feel,
Moving through this experience of being alive,
Learning about the world,
Learning about themselves,
Making mistakes,
Trying new things.
And as you right now pave the way for your child to become their most full self,
As you pave the way for them to explore who they are,
To learn about what being alive means,
As they learn about the world and make mistakes and drive you crazy and push all of your buttons,
Remember that both of these moments live inside of you.
The very first moment you saw them,
In the future them,
All grown up and hugging you.
Can you imagine reaching out in front of you and taking both of these moments in your hands and bringing them back and putting them inside of your heart?
And just for a minute,
Sit here with yourself and repeat these words in your head.
I am love.
I am light.
I choose connection.
I live inside my heart.
Take a great big deep breath in and as you let it out,
Just feel some love for you.
Some appreciation for you in this moment right now,
For all that you do each and every day.
And for all that you don't do,
For all that you are,
For you in all of your past moments and for you in all the moments that are coming.
And when you're ready,
Open your eyes and move into this life that you live right here,
Right now.