You Are Not Too Much | Self-Love & Shame Healing Meditation

This is an epic inner child healing meditation, one that touches self-love, healing shame, and releasing any fear of being "too much." Please enjoy the energetic transmission.
Important note: This recording was captured live, so you may hear a little distant background ambiance and occasional, non-distracting movement throughout the session. Thank you for receiving it in the spirit it was shared.

Transcript

We're just gonna do our best to slow everything down and just come into this moment and breathe and soften and feel that connection under you, Becoming aware of where your body is in space. Noticing the space between the front of your body and the wall in front of you, Noticing the space between the back of your body and behind you, Under you and the floor, If that applies, And to the right of you and the sidewall, And the left of you and the sidewall. Soften the eyes, I am behind my eyes, I am in my body, Breathing deep, Long slow exhale, I release that which is not mine to carry, I let it go, I am me and only me now. And as we settle in, We begin by setting our intention as always, I choose to be the one I am looking for this evening. I choose that my porridge is just right, I choose my bigness, Who I am and how I feel is normal. I choose love, I choose self-love today to bring to the parts of me that need it the most. So just breathing in and out, Just follow along with me. Good, So I want you just to see in your mind's eye now this beautiful safe golden light. This is a holy space for whatever your word is for source and any of your light beings and guides that you might connect to, Send and master, That they hold the version of you who's about to come into your mind in this light in high, High love. And so we invite in now a version of us or maybe multiple versions who felt too much, Who felt wrong, Who felt undesirable in their bigness, In their fullness and I call it full magnificence. Others might perceive it as too dark, Too problematic, Too much feeling, Too sensitive. That part that felt too much, Too sensitive, Too feeling, Too different, Too wrong. And whatever age shows up is just fine in this light. Maybe we get a flash of a younger part of us, But maybe we just have a sense and energy, A knowing that they're there. And we're breathing deep and long into that body and we're softening it as best as we can and we're settling into this moment and we've got this younger part in our mind's eye, Wrapped in golden light, Held in the highest love. And we're going to offer them God's love and our love, Our higher self's love and the earth's love now and the love of this space now. And so in your mind, In your mind's eye, You imagine holding their hand. And as we've done in meditation before, Why don't we allow your higher self, However that looks to you. So you, You, Human you, You're holding their hand, But your higher self is also maybe standing behind them or standing behind you, Bringing in divine support. And then above or behind that is the light of source. So maybe this waterfall of light is just trickling in, Surrounding little you, Higher you, Human you. And this whole vortex of being of light is also grounded into the earth. You see some energetic extension cords grounded down into the earth, Held and anchored and rooted by the earth. And sometimes you just instruct this with intention. Sometimes you see it. Sometimes you know it. Sometimes you sense it. We're all different. You don't have to feel it for it to work. Breathe and soften. All this light pouring in, As you hold the hand of little one who, For you, Maybe a phrase is stronger, If you felt too much, Too big, Too wrong. I want you to let them know, I'm here with you. I'm here. Our higher self is here. God's here. The earth's here. And then you're going to let them know you can do this. And then we're going to let them know, As the word namaste represents, Right, The light inside of me is the same as the light inside of you. And so maybe like the phrase, Or you like the word, We're just going to say to the little one, Namaste, Buddy. The light inside of me is the same light inside of you, Kiddo. Same light in our higher selves, Same light in God. Just breathe and soften. If emotions come up, Allow. Breathe and soften. If not, That's good too. Just hold this experience in tenderness and gentleness. You can't do it wrong, Okay? If you drift off, Come back. We're just sending our heart, Our love to all the ones in us who felt too much, Undesired, Too wrong. And as we soften our body and breathe, We say in their direction, You are pure. You are innocent. You are allowed to make mistakes. I am so sorry they did not teach you that. I am grateful to remind you now that you have healthy remorse inside of you. To ask yourself, Did I actually do something wrong? And if you did, You can ask yourself what the correct harmonizer would be. An apology or simply just a choosing of a different behavior next time. But 99% of the time, It's unwarranted guilt. And so to the one in us who felt too much, Too wrong, Too undesirable, Too emotional, Too big, Too weird. If they were to look at us in our mind as they are right now and say to us, Was I actually too much? What would we say to them? What's the truth? No, Absolutely not. They just didn't have the ability to hold you because they did not know how to hold themselves. They had no sense of boundaries and were wildly overwhelmed in their own life. That isn't your fault, We say. You deserve someone to gently guide you. To say, Maybe we don't cry for 10 minutes in a grocery store, But sweetheart, When I take you home, Let's sit and let all the tears out. So instead of you thinking your tears are wrong, You could have boundaries around it. No, This is the place where we let it out, Buddy. So we just let them know, No, No, No, Kid, You weren't too much or wrong or too emotional. You just didn't have a container, An appropriate container around it. Because those that came before you had no sense of what a container for themselves was either. You're doing so good breathing and softening. And I am so sorry that because of their lack of boundaries and appropriate meeting you, You thought that your bigness was a problem. I call all my power back to me from any place I may have innocently given it away here. To anchor into the truth of me. That yes, Maybe there are adjustments needed, Appropriate places, Ways to creatively express things, But no, No, No wrongness, No too muchness. Simply guidance, Education, Learning, A need for love. I'm so sorry, Little bean, That you did not get that. And I just want you to know there is a higher way available for you. And we are learning some of these new higher ways now. Healthy remorse, Boundaries, Giving others their energy back and seeing our own innocence, To name a few. Breathing in, Breathing out, Allowing any energy that's coming up to soften and flow. Letting sources light move through you, Higher self surrounding you, Adult you holding your hand, The earth holding you below. We say in their direction, Sweetheart, You were made this way by God. This is natural how you are, Your bigness, Your magnificence, Your feelings. Your expression is normal and natural and okay. You were made this way on purpose. It's going to be okay. Breathing, Softening, Sweetheart, We say to little us who's there in our mind, This is who you are supposed to be. You're supposed to feel, You're supposed to be big, You're supposed to be sensitive. You're supposed to shine, You're supposed to have a purpose, You're supposed to embody your truth. Breathing and softening, Directing the light in their direction from your heart to theirs, We say to them, Do you see how natural it feels and how good it feels to feel and be and shine and experience all the things we experience inside. Nothing is wrong with you. Nothing can hurt you in your experience. The light is here. When you feel and process and allow the totality of inner you, Nothing can hurt you here. It's natural, It's energy, It's flow, It's normal. This is natural and not bad. You in your fullness and allness is a gift. When we feel and release after, It feels amazing. You are the same as every human. This is so human. And sweetheart, All of you is welcome here. You are richness itself. Whatever you perceived as too much is just right. It's a full, Rich, Deep experiencer of all the colors of life. This is how you were made and it is safe and okay and welcome and loved. Breathing in, Breathing out and softening. To all the parts of me who were never given this truth, I am so sorry. This has been so hard. I am here now and I love you. I thank you for your endurance and trying the best you've known how. We release from ourselves any projections placed upon us of our too muchness, Of our too wrongness, Of our too sensitiveness, Of our shouldn't be like thatness. And we give it back to sender. Source assist me in returning this to sender with love. Clear and transmute any energy placed upon me that my feelings are wrong, That I am wrong, That I am too much, Too weird. I return it with love and consciousness. And right now, Great job. I feel this right now. I plug into source with my intention and I get my truth from God. God download in me, Higher self download in me, Soul download in me, Earth download in me, Download in me. The truth of my feelings, The truth of my emotions, The truth of my humanness, The truth of my essence, The truth of my sensitivity. Truth with a capital T that feels light and yes, And right, And just very much you. It's between me and God now. So I release with compassion for those who felt this way too. I'm so sorry to those of you that felt this way. But I'm choosing not to treat myself this way anymore. I forgive myself. I forgive myself for carrying this forward. And I choose to replace it with God's truth. And that will just whisper into my mind through the coming week. Use the words that feel good to you. So I allow this streaming light of source to cleanse me. I ground into the earth, Transmuting, Releasing any energy I no longer need. And I am connected to the truth of my soul. And I steward myself by holding little me's hand. And in safe, Small ways, I allow inner me to show him or herself to me. And to feel safe in my arms by saying, But you're so normal. This is no big deal. It's welcome here. Yeah. Yeah. You're a big feeler. You're a sensitive soul. You're wild and weird and cool and different. Yep. You were made this way. Good. Breathing in, Breathing out. And as you feel ready, I want you just to see in this beautiful protected light in front of you, This image we've had of earth and inner child and you and I, Yourself and source, Just moving safely. It kind of goes a little bit smaller into this light in front of you, Your inner child is safe and sound and secure and, And we're moving in this tiny little light in this light moves into the safety of your own heart, Integrated with you safe with you ever learning my mistakes and having no idea how to love myself was all part of it. I'm allowed to not know. And I know now, And I am safe with me. The shift is forever here. And I will continue stewarding myself in this way as I move forward, Because I am worthy and deserving of it. And so as we allow this to integrate, Give you another 30 seconds here to, To rest and be and breathe. And in your own time, My friends, Very gently come back to earth, Where we place our awareness behind our eyes and our body. Really feeling your feet, Your hips, Your legs under you. Inviting you to rock or sway just to bring a little movement back to the body. Maybe you want to roll your shoulders or neck. Deep breath in and out. And just gradually opening your eyes as you start to take in your environment. And just notice what's around you. And maybe you notice what you hear. Just notice what's different.