Good,
So welcome everybody from various parts of the world.
I haven't seen anybody from the Southern Hemisphere yet tonight,
We usually get somebody but anyway we'll perhaps see.
So as I say,
This is stream seven of 11 in 2022,
Part of the 11 part Self Realization program here on Insight Timer.
There were actually two precursor streams in 2021,
The end of which are also relevant to this program and in fact really set the tone for the program.
And if I'm lost I remember,
I'll just do it now if I can remember,
I can find it very quickly.
I just wanted to share with you,
And I'll maybe do it again later,
Something that somebody shared on the group about the two precursor streams if you've not watched those,
They're all now available as audio replays on Insight Timer.
And the two precursor streams were What Does It Mean To Go Within?
And A Journey To Silence.
And Michelle wrote in the group,
And the group's name is Nothing Special!
If you want to join that,
Nothing Special!
And she wrote this earlier posting the second one into the library and I felt it was quite an important experience so I just wanted to share it with you.
She says a reminder that the two precursor talks that beautifully preface Philip's current series are in the library,
Tab replay first and second.
They lay the foundation of concepts and terms and helped me see and grasp key concepts I had completely missed in my six years of meditation practice.
And that was exactly what those two streams were intended to do.
So I just wanted to sort of share that with you as an experience.
So if you haven't seen those and listened to the audio of those,
Do listen to them because they really do set the tone for everything else that's being shared.
So there's live replay number one and live replay number two.
What does it mean to go within and a journey to silence?
So I just wanted to share that experience with you.
And I see a few more people have joined us,
So Cynthia's joined us and Tammy also from California.
So as I say,
Am I on the right path?
It's a question that comes up a lot at events and has done many times.
People wondering whether you know,
Whether the path they're following is the right one for them.
Am I on the right path?
Am I doing something wrong?
You know,
Is this going to work out for me,
Etcetera,
Etcetera.
And,
You know,
Ultimately,
As somebody has already put in the comments,
The brief answer to that is there is no right or wrong path.
So you can't really be on the wrong path.
And there isn't really a right path either in the sense that,
And this is very important.
I've shared this in a number of different ways on the stream so far.
But as the true self is realized,
That's the nature of that is realized.
It will be seen unequivocally and with clarity that is beyond words and beyond anything that can be put into the human domain,
That there's never been a time and there never will be a time that you were not that.
And yet in the human experience,
We have the experience of forgetting that and suffering as a result.
And that forgetfulness comes from,
As I've shared many times,
The belief in the case of mistaken identity.
So that's the kind of like ultimate pointing.
There is no right or wrong path to this.
Yet we will each experience a unique journey through time and space to the realization of this,
The true self,
The infinite silence,
The infinite awareness,
The infinite consciousness.
And it's not a race.
And we've always,
Always been this.
And the only difference between the appearance of the realized being and those that are not is simply one has remembered and the others have forgotten.
And that's the real life being is clear that they are that and that everyone else and indeed everything else is an expression of that.
And there's no doubt about that.
So this can take a lot of pressure off the spiritual journey because ultimately if the realization of the self is our aim,
So to speak,
That which we are seeking,
Then because it's infinite,
Ultimately we cannot miss it.
The goalposts for this are the infinite in size,
The size of the universe.
And actually we miss it because it's so fundamentally simple and clear that we forget that that which we are seeking is already within us and is us.
And as we explained at length in the stream where we were looking at the transmuting fear into love,
The dissolving of the emotional trauma,
We did exercises there,
Which we can do again tonight in a different way,
To start to recognize that unchanging presence or unchanging awareness within us.
And it's that that we're seeking and it's that which we are.
Now it's important to recognize here that most of our seeking and for most of the planet is actually looking externally,
Much like on my trusty fiberoptic lock that I pull out regularly.
If we in the human form are one of these points of light and looking out in the world,
We're always looking for something that appears to be outside of us.
And the whole meditative journey and the whole self-realization journey is about looking down the fiberoptic first realizing the universal beingness,
The pure state I am,
And this I is not a personal I,
It's an infinite I,
Recognizing that even that can be experienced and witnessed as a phenomena.
And therefore there must be something that witnesses that.
I refer to this as the silent witness that then ultimately dissolves into the power behind it all,
In this case,
The battery which drives the whole universal experience.
But in the,
And this is where the metaphor is a bit limited,
Actually this infinite silence or infinite consciousness isn't just here,
It's actually everywhere and nowhere specific at the same time.
It's simply now here.
So we can't therefore have a right and a wrong path in that context,
But we can have the experience of deeper suffering,
Deeper trauma,
And also,
Shall we say,
A much more lighter form of that.
And that's really what the last stream was all about,
Which was trusting the heart.
Because if we go with the head,
Which is based on belief systems and conditioning,
Then we will inevitably suffer and the replay of that one will be coming again at some point,
Hopefully in the not too distant future.
But if we go with the heart and follow its calling,
The inevitable conclusion of that,
The inevitable realization that stems from that is the realization of the true essence,
The true self,
That which you truly are.
So we might want to call that in the human doing the path of heart,
But we can also refer to it as the pathless path.
We have the experience of moving through time and space,
But as the essence is realized,
It will be seen that there's never been a time,
As I've said already,
That you are not that.
And hence,
We call it,
It can also be referred to as the pathless path.
So the other kind of mistake about the external search is that you're looking for something beyond and outside of you.
And yet that which you are looking for is you.
And this body mind that we have is a vehicle for that true essence to experience itself.
Like you have a car,
You might have a car,
The car is something that you have,
But it is not that which you are.
And the same is true of the body mind.
It's a vehicle of expression,
A vehicle through which you can move through and experience life with also the beyond words opportunity to realize the essence of that within.
So the path,
Even though we move through time and we experience moving through time,
Actually a good way to look at this is that the path leads to you,
Not away,
But to you.
And this you,
Capital Y,
Isn't the personality,
Isn't the identity,
Isn't the experiences,
All of those things.
It's actually the essence that you truly are the infinite silence or the infinite awareness.
And every experience that we have in life,
And we may label them at the human level,
Some of them as good or bad or indifferent or trivial or whatever,
But all of them,
Ultimately all of them are in service of this realization.
All of them are in service of this realization.
So as that flowers and comes into recognition,
Remembrance,
Realization,
And hence the term self realization,
Because it is a realization,
It will be seen that everything that we have experienced to that point has actually been a kind of spiritual stepping stone to this realization.
Now,
These paths that we experience in the time space domain,
They can either be rocky or they can be less challenging by virtue of our choices that we make moment to moment.
The path of heart,
Or the path of going with the head,
The identity,
The ego mind.
If you consistently choose going with the heart,
Absolutely consistently,
As I've said,
The inevitable conclusion is the realization of the self.
Because the other explained at length last time when we looked at last time,
The heart never lies.
And it's always going to open you into invite you towards the next highest expression and invitation and realization of who you are.
And you remember I talked about the difference at length last time about the heart energy being inviting,
Uplifting,
Inspiring,
Expansive,
And often surprising,
Versus that which is coming from the conditioned mind,
Which is contracting should,
Must,
Ought to,
Obligatory,
And feels heavier.
The two are very,
Very,
Very different.
So that's really why we go with the heart rather than the head.
And that inspiration,
As I mentioned last time,
Will come up in moments of stillness,
Moments of quietness,
And then mind will kick in later and try to question that.
And that is then your invitation to dissolve that using the transmuting fear into love stream that I did,
Using the power of awareness to move through and beyond that to the realization,
A deeper peace,
And eventually the realization of the self.
I can just see that John there has made a donation and I meant to say right at the outset here,
So I'll say it now.
I just want to make a note of thanks here to Insight Timer for providing this platform to be able to offer live streams in a completely uncluttered way,
In a completely uncluttered way.
I've shared this message for many years now on many platforms,
And this is the cleanest one I've come across.
There's no adverts here.
People come to Insight Timer for meditation,
For peace,
For a deeper opening to themselves.
So I think it's a beautiful platform and the donations therefore help Insight Timer do what they do,
Provide the platform,
And people like me use this platform and share the message.
So thank you to John and also to Bob I can see who've donated and also to Ruth.
It really helps both Insight Timer provide this space and people like myself share the message.
I want you to just look at the comment here now from Bob.
Subconscious,
Conscious and superconscious choices.
The heart used to be more as it's maybe too much.
Sorry,
I'm not quite sure I'm following what you're saying there Bob.
Subconscious,
Conscious and superconscious choices.
The heart used to be more as it's maybe too much head and visual.
Yes,
I am.
I think the way you're referring to there are various levels of consciousness that we experience in the human form.
But when I explained last time we use brain too much for choices.
Ah,
Okay.
Yeah,
That makes it clear.
Thanks for that Bob.
Well,
I was explaining last time whilst I used the term heart I don't just mean the physical heart because although that's important and I pointed out some research by the Institute of Heart Math that shows about the energy field of heart.
The physical heart is also like a direct connection to the infinite awareness or the infinite silence that we truly are.
So when I'm using the term heart I mean both the physical and the heart of silence that we truly are.
And really we're only going to get to realisation and wisdom,
Peace from that which is beyond mind,
Beyond brain.
This is before and beyond all of that,
All phenomena and hence the live stream I did a journey to silence where I was explaining silence that I'm talking about isn't just the absence of sound.
It's the absence of all phenomena through which and from which all phenomena arise in front of that on the green screen of consciousness just like in the movies.
So we have the experience of making a choice it seems head or heart but really we are already this.
So this is the appearance of a choice and if you go with identity you will suffer head,
Ego,
Mind you will suffer if you go with the calling that's arising from within in that way I was talking about expansive,
Inviting,
Uplifting,
Often surprising and trust that then the conclusion of that and the realisation that flowers from that is beyond words and it's that's why you're here.
Just also want to give share with you a little another little metaphor to go with this.
Actually the title of it came to me from somebody who can't be on the stream tonight but a friend Jolene who I've been working with for a few years now and in various ways and she mentioned to me,
She reminded me of a game that we used to play of kids as kids and it's called various things around the world this game.
She referred to it as Tiggie It.
We used to call it as kids Tiggie It,
Otherwise known as Tag and maybe some other names and actually it's actually a great metaphor for self realisation this game because basically I'm sure you've brought the most people on here have probably played it but you go around the schoolyard and you basically touch somebody and say you're it you're it and they then have to run around everybody's running away from them until they can touch somebody else and say and they're suddenly it.
Now the game the universe is playing with us is Tiggie It.
It's touching us all the time saying you're it you're it you are it and we're running away like the school kids frightened of this realisation and that fear comes from the case of mistaken identity the belief that all you are is the body mind because the greatest fear of the body mind the ego mind is its dissolution and it equates that with death of the body vehicle but it's not the body vehicle that is dying it's actually the identification with it the attachment to it and most fundamentally the belief that you are that you are that because as I've explained in the prior streams it's that belief and only that single belief that you are this case of mistaken identity that is the block between you and the realisation and hence the stream beyond belief where we look at that in much greater depth than I've just shared there because that belief creates this inner sense of separation through which the polarities of love or fear emerge and when we get this tension or experience of suffering through this belief and then the conditions and the experiences that unfold upon that and from that the emotional body builds which is also the subject of the next stream so the universal game of tag going on and most of us are running away trying to run away because we're going with what's going on up here in the head the ego mind believing that's messages to be so instead of stopping pausing going within and within is not our direction it's an infinite set of dimensions to realise that which is already here so this is the universal game of tag or tiki it will we make the choice to stop be still and no that's it that's it really so it turns out that although it can appear and when people are lost deeply in suffering and you know deep compassion for that because you know that can be very very deep and very very profound for some people very very challenging actually all of life actually all of life is in service of life and some of those paths may be experienced as challenging the rocky road because we're going with identity we're going with the head rather than the heart and others can start to flower and flow more gracefully the more consistently that we choose heart and the inner calling what's Bob saying it you're it stop infinite dimensions realisation yes be still exactly Bob and so that again comes back to why this why this is and why I typically will refer to this as self realisation more up more frequently than the word enlightenment and I know I put that in the title but that was the to do is space available in the title then I would have preferred to have put self realisation and the reason I tend to prefer that the reason I tend to prefer that is because of that second word realisation realisation oh my gosh I am that and this I is the infinite I am that that being the infinite silence and it's the awareness itself the infinite awareness that is recognising remembering itself to be that only that can do that only that infinite awareness can recognise itself as that because it's such a high indeed infinite vibration if we want to express it that way infinite vibration is silence so realisation and self realisation isn't a small less identity self is a capital S self as infinite silence or infinite consciousness or infinite awareness realisation so hence the pointing that is used you get there by realising you are already there and there isn't a place it's not a point in time it is the essence of that which you truly are making sense to everybody so are you on the right path ultimately there is no path and all paths you know it used to be said 2000 years ago whatever all roads lead to Rome or the Romans said that anyway the Romans said that all roads lead to Rome I would say all roads lead to home all roads lead to home and no road is better than any other road although some it has to be said will be experienced as more challenging by going with the case of mistaken identity making sense trying to grasp it and apply it that's worth just picking up a little bit more your common that Mary Lou the making sense part this makes sense indicates an openness a readiness within us a recognition of something that's already known already known so it's like oh yeah it's the somehow some way I knew this or it was known would be more accurate and that's where aha moments light bulb moments come from actually you already knew it just been realised and so it is with this now the interesting part I want to also pick up on that is you then think trying to grasp it this part I would invite you Mary Lou and indeed everybody else on the stream just to witness just to let go of trying to grasp it because in trying to grasp it it will always be out of your reach you are stretching beyond and it appears to be outside instead recognise that that energy is there it's neither wrong nor right but simply observe it and recognise that it's actually a function of mind and mind ego mind identity will never get this listen to our just said that careful folks identity ego mind will never get this it won't be the identity that gets this it will only be the awareness itself that recognises itself as awareness and in the applying it if we let go of the grasping so to speak and witness that as an energy the power of awareness will dissolve that energy and the application part Mary Lou the application will naturally flow as insight inspiration invitation through which we then follow Mary Lou's at aha moment now good and that's why I wanted to pick up on your comment just to unpack that because it gives us an opportunity and this is why the comments and questions are important to look at it from another angle and everybody's experience and the questions are actually everybody else's questions and quite often I'll hear I didn't realise I even had that question until such and such a body said that and then I realised I did and the answer made so much sense and the reason it made sense was because you already knew Tracy saying seek ye first the kingdom indeed and realise that the kingdom you are seeking is already within and it is saying I wonder if I have to be religious to be spiritual that's an interesting question so these the trouble with words is the trouble with words you see words are incredibly limiting and we can use words and we need to be very careful with our choice of words and what the energy that's behind them in the context of self realisation because just like when somebody on the prior stream mentioned the word God I said well God it depends where you go in the world as to what that might mean to somebody and the same is true here of both the words religious and spiritual what does religious mean it might mean an organised religion or it might to somebody else mean what most people here in the UK perhaps would say as spirituality but spirituality but then using that word to some people here in the UK spirituality and what is spiritual could mean things like mediumship and channeling and clairvoyance and so forth and that's not what I mean by spirituality when I'm talking about spirituality the only context in which I'm using that is the realisation of the self so I would tend to drop the words the word religious it can mean many different things to many different people around the world and in the ultimate sense one is neither religious nor spiritual one simply is this awareness and spiritual and religious are just labels that we give at the human level that can mean many different things to many different people depending one where you are in the world and two the point in time you know a hundred years ago those things could have meant very different things to people to what they might mean today so this is before and beyond definitions and the pure limitations of words one doesn't have to be anything specific one simply is this so hopefully that answers your question and they thank you for asking that because that's an important thing that I noticed also you've said you're from Illinois so welcome to everybody in Illinois so let's just do my favourite little exercise with you all again the Who am I meditation and I'm going to give apart from the introduction I'm going to give another couple of little ways in which we can use that so whether you've done this many times or no times it doesn't matter it's worth repeating and repeating and repeating and then repeating again and repeating some more and then repeating some more so let's just close your eyes for now and as you close your eyes just simply become aware of the phenomena in your body whether it's the breath feelings sensations emotions whatever's here now just noticing the simple fact that it's here and that it's being observed noticed the phenomena may be changing they may be stronger or softer hotter or colder but they're just being noticed and just simply silently accepting that fact without any judgment simply allowing simply watching just resting in and as this asking the question inside who am I?
And just be with that and if anything comes that's great if it doesn't that's also fine and now who am I without a path?
Who am I without a path?
And just be with that who am I without a path?
And if anything arises good but be completely cool if nothing comes because that's also important whenever the moment's right for you just gently now opening your eyes good good so what would be good here if anybody wanted to share if they got anything on those two parts of the meditation who am I without a path?
Just a quick thank you whilst we're waiting here to Lee and Amit for your donations and Patty has shared on part two limitless perfect excellent so Stefan's got the big one I love that I love the ones you get there Stefan and the second one nothing to do and Mary Lou says on the first one I am the awareness and Tracy says nothing at all empty and Lee says space so let me just pick out on some of those so limitless exactly that you see the infinite that's what infinite is it is completely and utterly utterly limitless no boundaries no limitations whatsoever and that it has no path it knows unequivocally realizes itself as that it is the limitless infinite essence the big one nice way of putting it the big one indeed again just another expression of the infinite that Stefan's talking about and interestingly number two particularly also like nothing to do because in truth there is nothing that you have to do it's not this realization doesn't come about because of good deeds doesn't come about because of good deeds it comes about because you are it and there's nothing that you have to do no test for you to pass listen to that carefully no test for you to pass to realize this nothing you have to do and in truth there's nothing you can do about it because you are it you are it so particularly like that Stefan for those reasons Mary Lou said on the first one she got I am the awareness indeed you are and this awareness is infinite and it's not personal this self in self-realization is not personal you are the awareness and Tracy says nothing at all empty and again this is also good accurate you see this the realization of the self is like an emptying out of all of the identity all of the trauma all of the conditioning and what's left is actually can be referred to as an empty fullness when one is empty of the identity the conditioning then the empty fullness of the infinite arises and space also is also pointing towards emptiness slightly I want to go into Ruth before it disappears off the screen I felt anxious she said about not having a path now the one that's anxious there the whizzing up the screen here so hopefully gonna really pick them up the one that felt anxious there Ruth wasn't the awareness it's the identity what's happening there Ruth is that the identity is seeing she received the writing on the proverbial wall and it gets anxious about losing itself into the infinite for it for me it sees its demise coming now this fear or this anxiety which is the same thing mind will judge as a bad thing but from the perspective I've been pointing out is that that is actually an invitation to recognize that that anxiety or that fear is there witness it from that silent essence trust only the silent awareness and the fear will automatically dissolve so this fear is also like a previous one I think a comment you might have made on a previous one you mentioned about the word death and I said death is like an entry portal to the realization of the self and it's not the death of the body mind it's the death of the identity so don't judge this fear as bad take it actually as an invitation as something that's being held on to with this identity to be seen to be felt to be witnessed to be dissolved so it's actually an entry point and in fact it's quite this is a very common entry point into the realization so from where I sit this is actually a really good thing somebody I can't quite see I'm not sure yes they say I feel calm and blissful excellent and that experience of that is simply the perfume of the silence arising with that physical experience Amit is saying one more question whenever I try to meditate and I am just starting my mind wanders in all kinds of stuff how do I rein it in is it normal yeah actually it is very normal Amit very normal and actually what you're pointing out there and the experience you're showing that is exactly the kind of thing that people have when they first start to meditate and it's actually a very good thing might be surprising to you this is actually a very good thing because perhaps for the first time in your life you're starting to recognize just how much noise is going on up here and the number of different directions mind and thinking is trying to take you but the key point here Amit and everybody by the way for your meditation is to okay so that's been noticed that mind is doing it going left right up down forwards backwards what is it then that can recognize that all this movement happening what is it that sees that and can report it and share it with us here what is that that's awareness and is that awareness touched by the movement and the answer you will eventually see is no it is not I'm going to recommend when it comes available on the replay audio only that you look at look out for the transmuting fear into love replay I forget what number it'll be now it's that I think it's the next one after next that will come available on my timeline because I talk about that witnessing a great length in that one and I think it'll be very helpful to you actually I'll be very helpful to everyone but you in particular having raised that question so the key point here is you've recognized that movement but that which did the recognizing is awareness and it was untouched by it so now the key for you Amit is to go with the one that is recognizing and not the movement do not believe that you are the movement instead recognize you are the one that noticed the movement that makes sense somebody said I am just knowing that's disappeared off the screen but yes knowing and knowing of itself as itself and then Helen says hello I struggle to meditate when I start to focus on my breathing then my breath something becomes rare thank you oh I see right I think you're thanking me so even the phenomena like a breath it's still a phenomena and it's being observed it's still observed any phenomena breath emotion physical sensation emotion thought all of them are observed all of them are changing you are not the changing movement you are that which sees the changing even the state I am pure being not a personal I can be sensed I am his being so there has to be something before that that can recognize that before I am and that's awareness and eventually that dissolves into infinite awareness I came in late is this the point was that also Donna asking a question of that I am okay just as I am indeed but the I here Donna or Don a should I say the I here is not a personal I it's not a personal I it's an infinite I the awareness is not personal it's infinite it can see the personal it can recognize the phenomena but the infinite I is not personal and so you truly are okay as you are but as the infinite I and this doesn't make the human experience any lesser it actually makes it like a facet of a diamond for without that human expression there would there wouldn't be experience and the the self the true self chooses to express and experience itself express and experience itself in infinite variety in infinite variety so I've Ruth has responded to the insights I was offered that's a hopeful that makes sense to you so I think probably also just repeating something else said Maria is saying it can feel overwhelming at times yes it can do we need to ground to help us and if we struggle in as awareness okay says a few things here Maria all of the overwhelm all of the trauma all of the suffering comes from the belief that all we are is the body mind neither right nor wrong it is what it is and but it's just simply appointing to that's where the suffering comes from so if all the well is arising is coming from that belief in the case of my stake in identity and the emotional body that's built up now overwhelm the one that's being overwhelmed is the identity but as I was explaining the response to amit overwhelm as challenging as it can be in the universe and let's not diminish that it can be obviously overwhelm is a phenomenon that appears and if we allow that to ourselves to experience that without judging it as good or bad and even take away the word overwhelm and just allow it to be energy then the power of awareness will dissolve it and for you Maria you need to watch out for the transmuting fear into love live stream replay when that becomes available because that goes through in great depth the process of moving beyond the emotional body but also I'm going to be talking about it next time when I'm looking at emotions and blocks I'm going to take that transmuting fear into love further next time I'm looking at emotions and blocks so go back to the previous one when it's available but also if you can attend on Wednesday we're going to look at this further still you then ask do we need to ground ourselves do we need to ground to help us if we struggle breathing is certainly very helpful Maria physical connection with planet earth which is us express expression of consciousness itself will certainly help ground you and being out in nature will help ground you and bring you back to presence in a forest or by the sea or whatever so these will all help ground you and bring you back to awareness but also Maria as I've said to various people on the streams use that who am I meditation and the very first version I did of that is who am I and then use this one who am I without memory who am I without memory and what that does it takes away the opportunity of the mind to go to memory and it can very quickly be could bring people back to awareness and presence so there's quite a few points you can see that that's resonating with you from your little emojis so I'm glad that's helping and Amit is saying yes that also helps thanks for your wise advice I just want to comment here on the word advice I can be a bit pganistic with you when it comes to words sometimes because actually when everything I'm pointing at here isn't advice we may seek advice in the human expression we use the term advice but all that's being shared here is the wisdom that is already within us so it's simply a pointing to that which you already know and if it's resonating with you then it's because you already know so in this context it's not actually advice it's simply a pointing to a truth that's already there within you that you're now recognizing and that is in fact the role of the sage the mystic the guru is simply to point out that which you already know and they know that you already know that and so they're just simply reminding you of that which is already known makes sense so just looking at the other comments Donna said okay I can't remember or certainly respond to you now Don a awareness is before I am I am is like the first expression of consciousness you could call it spirit spheres of light this bit in the fiber optic level that's the I am Hiranyagarbha in the Hindu tradition the golden egg of creation it's very powerful it's a very pure energy but the mere fact that it's a phenomenon a phenomenon I am equals being means there has to be something nothing but an awareness that is before I am and you are that and that's the infinite silence Maria is saying how to loosen that belief except of noting it when it is there that is exactly the way to loosen the belief Maria notice the belief is there the mere fact that it's a phenomenon an appearance on the green screen of consciousness means it's been observed and therefore there's a witness to that and it will be seen that that witness is unchanged untouched unmoved untouched and unblemished and you are that one we collectively are that one that's how it is only through the power of awareness that the self will be realized that the emotional body will eventually be dissolved there are many tools many here on insight timer to take stepping stones to this awareness but the power of awareness is the ultimate tool the infinite tool and the great news is you are already it and that goes right back to the very first stream I did what it truly means to go within awareness is the answer for you are awareness infinite awareness infinite consciousness infinite silence it's the only tool ultimately you will ever need for you are it there's nothing wrong with the other tools they are stepping stones and that's fine those stepping stones are very important for many people I experienced some myself so this is not about lesser or more greater just recognizing the journey to awareness a journey to silence the second stream Linda saying thank you for your wisdom well it's not my personal wisdom Linda but thank you for sharing that the wisdom flows effortlessly from the silence and it is that which we all all have access to its universal wisdom and that's where the aha moments come from so again worth recognizing that Mary Lou is saying indeed it is thank you so much okay so that's reference to the really responses and I might say thank you very much for pointing me in the right direction it's a joy to share on it it's a joy to share especially with people who are truly open so I'm glad that you were benefiting and another thank you from Lee and that's another question how would you differentiate between awareness and delusion for a naive human interesting question so how would I differentiate between awareness and delusion for a naive human so awareness is infinite awareness is infinite unlimited untouched unblemished and unmoved and it's not personal I'm talking about infinite awareness here infinite silence infinite essence source true self now it could be said and this might seem a little bit outrageous but I'll make the point I'll make the point in this way to help emphasize it and bring clarity to it in truth all stuff coming from mind all thought all belief is a delusion it's only a matter of degree it may be mildly or extremely deluded and that's a kind of spectrum of suffering from mild suffering to extreme suffering so there's always some kind of sense of there's always some delusion there and that delusion gets dissolved with the awareness now when people are deeply towards this end of the spectrum where there's deep suffering a deep identification and indeed maybe completely this doesn't appear to resonate with them in any way shape or form as somebody asked about last time it's not that they're on the wrong path or anything like that it's just they're in they're in deep identity and their path is different and so actually we're all deluded until we're not it's only a matter of degree so hopefully that answers it for you Amit Jeremy's offering a thank you and thank you also from Tracy awesome question Amit thank you so oh yeah okay so that was Amit's question great question now this is a good one Maria saying great question but who is the questioner and that goes back to something I shared on one of the earlier streams the insight I offered then was this the answer I offered then was this listen to this carefully folks in relation to Maria's comment who is the questioner who am I who am I the question dissolves the questioner and the self is realized who am I the question dissolves the questioner and the self true self nonpersonal essence is realized and that is the importance of that meditation the questioner at first is identity identity only has questions awareness as infinite wisdom it has all the answers all the answers you ever sought the answers to those are within so the questioner is identity the deluded one to go back to the previous word until the delusion dissolves from the self is realized I'm glad that you like the answer there Alan and John says I am and I'm not some delusion this is actually quite a nice way of expressing it you know you see the the realm in the physical depends on polar opposites fear love delusion and not delusion and when delusion and not delusion come together what is left is that it collapses annihilates annihilates and what's left then is awareness that which is before and beyond the concept of both being deluded and not deluded do you see that folks being deluded is like fear and not deluded we can you might use the term love but the coming together those two polarities the polarities collapse and that which is left is awareness so the way John's written that is pointing exactly that how do you get people who say they're very interested in meditation and they really should start to come and join you to actually meditate you know what Jeremy somebody asked me a similar question to this a few years ago because quite often this can happen in relationships with husband and wife so partners and stuff like that and the response that I offered them is you cannot thrust this or force this upon anybody they have to feel cold they have to feel cold actually in truth everybody is cold everybody is cold but not everybody is listening and that's okay there's not that's not bad or good it is what it is but by not listening to the call you're just going to go deeper into suffering so we cannot force it or thrust it upon anybody but quite often what happens is over time especially as people see shifts so people come to say my events whether online or in person and people go through shifts and they can see changes that's up for some that scares some people but for others they say I want some of what you have I want some of what you have and that's the point to then open exploration well I got to this point by meditation by being open to a deeper truth a deeper awareness and it's in those open spaces and open moments where we can have a exploration of how one is here in this more peaceful meditative space but other than that it cannot be forced it has to be a calling and I'll often say on my events and whatever you whatever if you feel cold if you feel cold and then Maria saying and then the questioner becomes nothing but an appearance in the screen of consciousness exactly and we are till we are not and then we find we never have been yeah exactly actually both and you know because this human whilst it might be the main might be called an illusion it's actually a very important expression of the infinite awareness the infinite silence so it's both and you know it's not about ending life in this body it's about realizing that and then enjoying and embracing embodying that print that awareness principle and moving beyond the suffering Linda saying I have witnessed just that but the very way you but the way you explain it helps make sense exactly good Linda I'm pleased to hear that I'm pleased to hear that and again just to reiterate the reason you're getting it is because you already are it and know it and traces had a well moment so I'm glad you shared that Josie Bob saying everything comes to those who will who wait nothing ever comes to light indeed indeed and I would even go as far as saying although we experience time and space time this is before time before space it simply is eternal that's what eternity is before and beyond space and time so there's never such a thing as too late or too early and interestingly I was watching here on the UK we have quite a lot of sciencey type programs on the telly and there's a guy called professor Brian Cox he was quite well known now and I didn't catch all of this particular one but in one particular program he was sharing a piece of science that had now come he's a physicist come to the awareness that now but time isn't actually an intrinsic property of the universe and spiritually speaking this has been known for thousands of years time is not an intrinsic property of the universe it's a necessary element of function of consciousness to have experience along with space and form and contrast so just thought I'd share that I don't know which bit of physics he was referring to because I missed the rest of the program but I heard him say it and I thought oh yeah spiritual this has known that for thousands of years so this is science and spirituality coming together.
You're welcome Jeremy.
A guest is saying can you touch on your personal aha moment experience and also your before and after eternal changes that you've experienced or are experiencing.
Yeah I don't often do this and the reason for that is because people can get the impression that it has to be like this and it's not the realization can flower in many ways and there are many paths and so don't get the idea from what I'm about to share that it has to be like this because it will flower uniquely in your form.
But what I will say is that I began meditation following a calling that emerged back in the year 2000 consistently did that followed that absolutely consistently for 14 years and on that journey many many experiences and things unfold too many to list here but eventually realized that there was a deeper calling emerging and just felt absolutely compelled to follow that until this emerged.
And what I'm going to say here is beyond words but we need to use words to articulate it.
So in the deepest meditative space suddenly there was no sense of a body and identity as Philip there was just absolute sense of infinity and a recognition that one was that.
I'm not using I one was that.
And this was beyond time this was also clear it was beyond the space there was no thought going on here remember there was no sense of a body just a recognition and awareness that one was that infinite eternal awareness.
And in that infinite essence somehow two words emerged and they were infinite silence.
And in that same moment that those two words were heard the subtlest sense of a physical form began to reappear recognizing that one was that infinite silence and the body very very very very slowly re-emerged re-emerged but the recognition that one was that was unequivocally clear and many many other facets of that came at that point.
So that's a summary hopefully that's since that time that awareness has never gone yet the emotional body which had been heavily dissolved before that had continued to dissolve and that's like an ongoing process but now there's no suffering and still little bits and pieces may occur for you from time to time depends on how much you've dissolved beforehand more and more insights more and more clarity and part of it that came was a clear calling to share this.
As somebody said everybody's experience is different I guess they're all disappearing off the screen here now so I can't keep up with the comments here now.
Obviously my experience and energy ends like that into infinite I did oh it's gone I'm not sure if I can scroll down I put it down again I experience an energy that like infinite I did deep holographic breathing I have no body energy my awareness was love.
Yeah actually what I would say is what we call love is like a perfume of the silence it's like a perfume of the silence love grace peace joy these are like perfumes of the silence.
I think I've managed to scroll back up everyone's experience is different I guess yes everybody's the way it unfolds and how it unfolds can be very different.
I always think we try to know our universe externally through science and whatnot and through ourselves you know self-realization is the ultimate science in India in particular in the Eastern traditions they cut they think of this as a science and it's the ultimate science it's the science of self observation science is based on observation ultimately observing phenomena so self-realization is the ultimate self observation that comes to eventually self realization science can typically look outwards whereas this invites you to look inwards to the inner infinite dimensions.
Sometimes when I observe the sense of delusional self I feel that it's kind of an addiction like a perverse pleasure we can't overcome actually that's a pretty good description of it Alan it is an addiction I have said on the previous stream that the identity is a thought obsessed with itself and obsession is addiction the bit where you're saying we can't overcome it is true that the identity can't overcome that the great news however is that awareness can it is through the power of awareness that that delusional self will be dissolved so whoa the comments are jumping around here thank you for putting that into words that is a very beneficial on my path I don't have missed any comments above that I'm gonna try and scroll up and see what happens hopefully not no I haven't good okay my awareness was coming back to reality purpose for body what yes exactly Bob Maria your journey helps me cement my journey thank you my direct experience was the timeless I've always been searching for myself the void I stopped mind went into fear before the leap into the void indeed it does do that Maria so conquer fear next apparent deep step spiritual emergence and shoot and still is integration is deepening as this awareness good so you obviously had a profound experience there Maria trust that was seen and trust only that that awareness the rest will naturally follow the rest will naturally follow she me saying awareness is what we train for by doing meditation indeed the whole purpose of meditation you start meditation as a practice train in using shimmies words meditation begins as a practice and ends as a realization and then you will realize that you are in fact excuse me you are in fact the living meditation you are the living meditation begins as a practice ends as a realization you are the living meditation Maria thank you for giving me for saying that I'm experiencing a period of deep fear and sadness that I feel is somehow ripping the delusion of me apart is being excruciating Alan let that happen because the greatest fear of the identity is its demise that fear is an entry point that fear is an entry point to the realization so let it come let it be witnessed let it be seen let it be felt but know that there is an awareness that sees it is untouched by it is unmoved by and it will dissolve it will dissolve anyway I'd like to do a meditation now a longer one we have been going for the full hour and a half but I do like to do a meditation so let's do a meditation together for say 10 minutes or so and we'll see where we go from there great questions by the way so thanks for sharing those so just close your eyes now and simply notice the phenomena the breath feelings sensations emotions whatever phenomenon has here simply silently accepting watching witnessing without judgment resting as this witnessing presence and just be open now from your heart to the experience of spheres of light nothing to do nothing to visualize just be open to the energy of the spheres spheres of light is the pure state I am the infinite I am pure being and even this I amness is seen witnessed and a silent witness this silent witness simply watches witnesses and is a bit like a sliver of ice in an ocean of water and it's dissolving melting becoming one with the water and the water is an ocean of infinite silence infinite awareness be still and know this in silence you will realize your truth in truth you will realize you are silence infinite silence infinite awareness be still and know this rarefied atmosphere of silence transforms transmutes dissolves all that you are not effortlessly silently all that remains is infinite silence be still and know eternity one simply is eternally this knowing one is this rests as this always even as we bring this guidance to a close the awareness remains untouched unmoved unblemished eternal infinite silence and in a moment i will ring the thing shop owls three times the sound of the tingsha bells gently fades away aware of your body the chair you're sat in or whatever you may be lay on and whenever the moment is right for you if you haven't already done so open your eyes and remain as this infinite silence namaste i see you good good so thank you very much for joining us tonight just to reiterate look out for the resources on my timeline thank you for that jeremy look out for the results of my timeline because on there there are seven versions of the infinite silence meditation that we've just done um from a quarter of an hour fully guided max guidance i've called it just so that you can get familiar with the meditation so there's really very little silence in that one through to an hour and a half and each one of those contains the same guidance but with bigger silent pauses and the idea is that you can move between those 15 22 29 40 60 an hour and a quarter an hour and a half in steps whether it's seven days seven weeks seven months even seven years this meditation came from that realization that whoever asked me about it before it came from that to share it in this way the silence itself chose to share it this way so that's why it's called the infinite silence meditation it takes you to that realization so use those meditations because they take you to this awareness and you are this awareness and it didn't come from the mind it came from this so use those do watch the replays there's about four or five of them maybe even five or six of them there now as audios on my profile and if you've missed the earlier ones going back to that thing i shared earlier from michelle there's great benefit from integrating this with those but even if you've attended them listen to them again because you will get something different i'm not just saying that your heart will know that what is being pointed at there is true so uh thank you for those who managed to make a donation i think you will find a donation button on the profile uh jeremy so thanks for that just again just to repeat the thanks to insight timer the body and the platform for this really beautiful opportunity to create a distraction-free environment in which to share this message of self-realization the donations that come go partly to insight timer and partly to me in helping spread the message so thank you so much for those it's really appreciated because keeping the support in the platform is very important there are many platforms out there but there are very few that have this kind of distraction-free environment and that's really important stephan you're welcome i'm glad that you could join us uh bob's obviously happy as well and tracy and thank you for your donation there linda so thank you everybody for joining us from all over the world indeed bob the quote that you share there you are already that which you seek and from this place the joy flowers like a perfume effortlessly gracefully silently be still and no okay well we're going to close the stream now thank you so much everyone group is called nothing special exclamation mark nothing special if you want to join that a look out for the replays of these on the timeline on my profile that's more and more of them become available and do listen to them other than that have a great evening afternoon morning wherever you are in the world namaste me
