IYL: Magnetic Energy Pt. 1

Welcome back to the Invigorate Your Life Podcast! Today we are talking about magnetism, potency, and energy. I share my personal experience on the path of aligning my energy with my most authentic self. Stay tuned for part 2, where we will be discussing ACTIONABLE steps to magnetizing your unique energy. As always, love you!

Transcript

Hello,

Everyone,

And welcome back to the Invigorate Your Life podcast.

My name is Molly and I'm your host.

This is episode four.

Hi.

Hello,

Everyone.

Thank you so much for being here.

I'm so excited.

We are finally on episode four.

I have recorded,

As always,

I've recorded and re-recorded this episode so many times.

I recorded the entire episode yesterday,

But my neighbors were being a little bit rowdy,

So I couldn't hear it in the audio,

So I don't think I could put that episode up.

It's just a little bit distracting.

So here we are.

It is currently 7.

41 in the morning.

I just dropped my husband off at his new student orientation.

He's going back to school.

Super exciting.

Lots of new changes and alignments.

Things are just going really great,

Right?

So today I really wanted to talk about magnetism,

Your energy,

Potency,

And just really the energy behind aligning with your most authentic self,

Right?

So just to set the scene for you guys,

I'm currently in the living room.

I'm never out here,

But I'm home alone,

Which is amazing.

That happens very rarely.

I'm actually moving into my own place with my husband.

It's just going to be the two of us for the first time next month,

And I'm super excited about that.

Like I said,

So many things are changing,

So many things are aligning.

And a few days ago,

I really took stock of my life,

And I'm so grateful to say this,

But I really feel like I am living in alignment with my most authentic self.

I have manifested almost everything that I want,

And I'm still making some tweaks to my energy.

I'm still noticing where I'm giving my energy to things that are not in alignment with my highest good.

I'm still noticing these things,

Right?

But overall,

I really feel so aligned,

And I want to talk about that with you guys today because energy is everything.

And the first thing I have to say before we get too deep into this is that you do not want to be where you are not wanted.

What you want is what wants you back.

You do not want to be where you're not wanted,

Okay?

That is like key number one to being in a magnetic and attractive energy.

So just a little story for you guys.

I have been on the job search for about two months now,

And it's been very difficult.

You know,

It's really hard on my self-esteem to be quote-unquote rejected by these jobs when in reality I know I'm just being redirected,

Right?

So just a quick example.

I heard back from this job,

And I was offered an interview,

And I just felt such an emotional charge to this job.

I remember reading the email about the interview,

And my heart was jumping out of my chest.

There was so much emotional charge from the get-go,

And I completely placed my self-worth in the hands of getting this job.

So I was desperate for this job.

I felt like without this job,

I'm going to have all of these problems with money.

I'm going to not feel complete.

I'm not going to feel fulfilled in my career.

What it really came down to was the identity that I thought this job was going to give me.

It had a certain amount of status.

It was higher up than the position I was currently in.

It paid more.

It had a very nice title.

And it wasn't so much the work that I enjoyed doing that I would find fulfilling,

But I just completely attached my identity.

I'm a person who does fulfilling work.

I have a fulfilling career because of this job.

So I come around to the interview,

And I am so nervous.

I'm feeling so much anxiety.

I have to completely stretch myself and bend over backwards,

Trying to convince this job to want me.

They didn't ask me about my qualifications,

And I was completely qualified for this job.

They asked me more abstract questions,

Which made me very nervous,

And I didn't see the relevance.

Of course,

Every interview question has its relevance.

I'm not doubting their interview process,

But it just wasn't a good fit for me.

I really wasn't able to let myself shine.

I wasn't able to showcase my own abilities,

My qualifications,

And my own personality and what I bring to the table.

So I just felt deeply uncomfortable,

And I really had to stretch myself and pretend to be someone I'm not,

Just kind of coming up with the answers that I think they would want to hear from me.

And I remember after the interview,

I just felt sick.

For the week it took for me to hear back from them,

I felt sick.

And whenever I finally got the quote-unquote rejection,

I just felt so sick to my stomach.

I was devastated because my identity was riding on getting this job.

I'm a person who has a fulfilling career.

I make a lot of money.

I have prestige.

I have status in my work.

That was all riding on this job.

I was assigning status and value to a title.

And it was arbitrary.

It was meaningless.

So two hours after I was rejected,

After I didn't get this job,

I got an interview for another position.

And I felt calm.

I was excited,

Playful,

But ultimately there was no emotional charge.

So I come around to the interview.

I'm in a position to completely be myself.

When I was interviewing for this job,

They were asking me questions that really allowed me to shine.

I was able to feel confident telling them I have no experience in that area.

That's something I'm excited to learn.

And they were receptive of that.

They said,

You know,

We breed an environment where we allow you to learn and we allow you to grow.

We don't expect you to come in knowing everything.

And so I didn't have to fake anything.

I didn't have to pretend.

I could just totally be myself.

And I knew if they don't want me,

That's a blessing because I don't want somebody who doesn't want me for who I am.

So the interview went exceptionally well.

And the next day I got the call that I received the job and I accepted the offer.

But that's not where the story ends.

They knew as soon as they met me that I was the perfect fit.

And they said they had to go through the other interviews,

You know,

Knowing that they wanted me.

And they were excited to have me.

They were excited for me to meet everybody.

I was attracting them.

My energy was a magnetic pull,

Pulling them towards me just as much as they attracted me.

We were attracting each other.

It was reciprocal.

And that's what I mean by energy is everything.

And something that I've really been struggling with in manifestation is the idea that you can have anything you want.

Because I wanted that first job.

On an egoic level,

On a surface level,

I wanted,

I desired that job.

But it wasn't a fit for me.

It wasn't an energetic match for my most authentic self.

And I feel like so often in manifestation,

We kind of lose sight of our most authentic self,

Which is who we should be coming back to every single time.

We are doing everything for her,

For our innermost selves.

We are not doing it for the status,

To impress other people.

And that's something that I've really been struggling with ever since I dropped the status and the need to impress other people.

And because there's a lot of competition,

You know,

There will always be competition in your life.

That's the thing about being competitive with your identity,

With the things in your life,

With your status,

Is that it never stops.

It's going to feel like there's always somebody on top of you.

There's always someone who's one step above you.

And something that I've been struggling with,

You know,

Is dropping that status because I'm surrounded by really successful people who are doing amazing things,

Who are living their dreams and are just making it all happen.

And then I kind of compare it to myself in an insecure way.

And I'm sure a lot of you can relate to this,

But,

You know,

I'm seeing people who are making double the money that I'm making,

Twice as much money as I'm making.

And,

You know,

They're established in their career.

They,

You know,

Have these big dreams and they're achieving it.

And then I'm over here and I am really,

Really happy and really content with the simple things.

I love what I do for work,

Even though it doesn't pay very much.

But it's meaningful work to me.

It's fulfilling.

I love what I do with my free time,

And I have no desire to turn that into a career.

I have no desire to turn podcasting or writing or teaching yoga,

Meditation into a career.

Because it's just my passion.

It's a purpose,

Not a career.

My therapist told me that.

It's a purpose,

Not a career.

And I think so often we associate your career with your purpose.

What you do for work has to be your life's purpose.

And if you have a life's purpose that you are,

Like,

Aware of,

Like,

You know what it is,

Then you have to make it into a career.

And as long as you're still working a nine to five,

You haven't made it.

You're not actualizing your soul's purpose if you're still working a nine to five.

But what if I just love the work that I do?

And I know that my nine to five is not my purpose.

But in a way,

Now that I'm saying it out loud and I'm thinking about it,

Isn't every action and energy we emit,

Every emotion we have,

Is that our purpose?

To just live and experience and be?

Be one on this earth?

You know,

Is that the purpose?

Maybe our purpose isn't accomplishing anything,

But it's just being.

And following your joy,

Following your bliss,

Following what you love.

Maybe that's the most important part.

I don't know.

I don't know.

I'm just kind of thinking out loud here.

I have no notes today.

I'm just totally speaking from the heart.

You guys know how I roll.

I'm here to share my experiences.

I'm not here to teach,

Right?

So how do you become magnetic and literally become a super attractor,

A magnet for your desires?

And I think we need to reframe that question or that sentiment.

I don't think we're a magnet for our desires.

Because I think our desires.

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I think desire is an emotion and I think it's fleeting and I think it's dependent on a lot of other factors going on in your life.

And I just want to say a disclaimer right now.

I am always changing.

I'm always moving and changing my beliefs and how I view life.

So I'm saying this right now.

Please do not take this as truth or as gospel.

I'm sure I will even change my beliefs on how I feel about desire in the future.

And I've changed it a lot over the past few weeks as I've meditated on this.

So I don't want you to think that I'm telling you you should or shouldn't desire.

That desire is bad or that it's good.

Because I don't really know how I feel about it,

Right?

I'm just kind of exploring things.

But I don't think that we're a magnet for our desires because I think desire is fleeting.

And it's dependent on external circumstances.

And it's dependent on the comfort zone and the subconscious mind and what makes you feel safe.

Even when it's not in alignment with who you truly are.

I believe you are a magnet not for your desires but for what is an energetic match to you.

You are a magnet for who you are.

That's really what I want to think about.

And that's what I've been considering.

I think that's such an interesting thought.

That you are a magnet not for your desires but for who you are.

So if you desire something,

Oh my gosh,

It's kind of like all coming together but I don't know if I'm going to be able to voice it.

So we'll see how this goes.

When you desire something and you feel like it is going to save your life by having it,

That's not who you are.

Because who you are is inherently valuable with unshakeable self-worth.

You are who you are.

But abundance comes from within.

And this is all after having our needs met.

This is after survival.

Survival is the base of all of this.

Survival is the root chakra.

Survival is where it all starts.

We need to have our needs met.

We need to have food on the table,

Clothes on our backs,

And a roof over our head.

We need to be in a safe environment,

A supportive environment.

But after survival,

Because I'm definitely not talking about survival because you can want survival and yes,

That is your birthright.

To survive and thrive.

But after that.

Because I've had desires,

You know I always say,

I've said this forever,

And I think I've even said this on the podcast,

If I had everything I've ever wanted,

I would be miserable.

I would be absolutely miserable if I had everything I've ever wanted.

Because what I've wanted is fleeting.

It changes.

It changes with my emotions,

With my moods,

With what I'm identifying with at that time.

And that's the ego.

The ego is all about identity.

The ego wants to cling on to something.

It wants status.

It wants power.

It wants prestige.

It wants whatever.

It wants competition.

The ego wants to be the best.

Even whenever it comes to spirituality and purging and,

You know,

The ego wants to be the most spiritual.

The most enlightened.

The most minimalistic.

The most detached.

This is all the ego that we're talking about,

Right?

So I've really been shedding back those layers and I'm stepping into the life that is truly mine.

My life.

And this isn't a life that is beyond me.

This isn't a life that is a destination.

But it's the entire journey.

I am so grateful for all of the moments that have led me to where I am right now.

I am so grateful for that job interview where I totally had to stretch myself and I was in a room where I was not wanted.

I am grateful to be in a room where I was not wanted.

So when I found myself in a room surrounded by people who wanted me just as much as I wanted them,

That reciprocal energy,

It made it all worth it.

And that's what I want you to find too.

Is that it's not about denouncing or denying all these experiences that you've had in your life that aren't totally in alignment with your authenticity.

They're not totally aligned with your truth.

But they led you to your truth.

Being in rooms with people who don't want you,

Make you appreciate and see the value and recognize when you are in a room where you are wanted,

You are loved,

You are supported.

When you are in a room of people who are attracting,

Who are calling you in,

You know,

They want you,

They are attracted to you.

That is so powerful.

So I'm looking at my life and I am living my dream life.

Even if my external reality,

There are still some aspects where,

You know,

There will always be improvements that can be made.

We're never perfect.

But within we are always perfect.

Within the flaws,

Within the wounds,

The shadows,

The healing that needs to be done,

We are already perfect.

But in the external reality,

There's always going to be something that needs to be done.

There's always a to do list.

So whenever you can,

Take a step back and just breathe.

You connect,

You connect with your energy through the breath.

The breath is the most potent present moment there is.

You are focusing on the breath.

You aren't focusing on anything else.

You aren't thinking thoughts other than I am breathing in and I am breathing out.

And that is so powerful.

So just a little life update for you guys.

What I've been moving through.

I'm starting my new job in about a week and a half.

And I'm so excited and I'm so grateful for the opportunity and I'm just so ready to continue my career doing work that I love.

And at the same time,

I am excited to find more,

Find a balance of both discipline and flow for the things that I love doing in my life and my passions and my creative projects.

And that's something that's a really difficult balance to have is flow and discipline.

Because whenever we're working with something creative,

You have to be in flow.

You can't completely plan it out.

But you have to sit down and actually dedicate time and energy and attention and focus to creating to get anything done.

So I always say to myself in my head,

I want to have a podcast.

I want to keep podcasting.

I want to make podcasts every week.

But then I don't sit down to do it.

I don't have that discipline.

So it's not going to get done.

But then at the same time,

If I completely force it,

I'm not going to come up with anything good or anything worthwhile,

Anything worth posting.

But it's just that balancing act.

We've talked about this.

So I know I haven't been as consistent on the podcast as I would like to be.

But I have this dream that I podcast every single week.

And I'm consistent with you guys.

And this is just like an audio diary.

Because that's something that I'm really struggling with is like perfectionism.

And I've never really thought of myself to be a perfectionist.

But I really care about this project and I care about you guys.

And the ego,

My ego,

Cares about how I'm perceived.

So there have been several episodes that I really wanted to record.

But I was not on the other side of the lesson.

I was still in the throes of it.

I was still in the depths of the lesson.

So I didn't feel ready to talk about it.

But I don't only want to talk to you guys when things are good.

When I've learned a lesson and I have something to share and something to teach you.

Because I'm sure so many of us are not on the other side of our lessons.

And we need to have that support.

Have that community where we are all experiencing.

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Sorry,

My cat's crying.

I do have her locked up right now.

She's in the bedroom because she's crazy.

You guys know this.

Where was I?

I know that there's so many of us who are going through the depths of our lessons.

Of our soul lessons.

And you need that community and that support.

And you need to know that you're not alone in what you're experiencing.

So I definitely want to be more present.

I have a dream that I'm super present.

And every morning I come on here and record.

Maybe I'm even posting multiple times a week.

That would be fabulous.

That would be absolutely amazing.

But I just can't commit to anything right now.

I'm really wanting to find more of a balance of masculine and feminine energies in my life.

Because I feel like I've been very much in the feminine,

In the flow,

In the energy of.

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My poor cat.

In the energy of.

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I'm going to let her out.

Let's hope she doesn't go crazy.

Hi!

Hello!

Say hi to everyone.

She says hello.

I think that's everything I have for today.

I feel like I was going to say one last thing.

But of course my cat always throws me off.

Thank you so much for being here.

As always,

If you have questions,

Any topics you'd like me to cover,

Please leave me a review and write it in the review.

Because that's the easiest way for me to communicate with you guys.

But thank you so much for being here.

As always,

I love you so,

So,

So much.

And I'll see you next time.

Bye!

Bye!