Cassandra Bitterwolf

Delightful start to the day. I confess that it’s very hard to smile in my living situation because family members enjoy Crushing Anyone’s Joy. So if I smile they consider it a challenge; so by the time, I get out of the house practically running away most days, I’ve lost my smile, joy and serenity. And, some days when I return home for the day, I cry in my car in the carport because I’m expected to return. But your meditation reminds me that I have a choice in how I will show up outside the house. There is plenty to be grateful for: I have a home, a warm bed to sleep in, and family members who are what they are which isn’t always mean if I tiptoe and keep my head down and eyes averted. I know this will pass into something else and I want to prepare for that. Meanwhile, I’ll put on my smile in my wonderful crazy car and to everyone outside. They don’t have to accept it either but I release how they take my smile. It’s not mine to control. Thank you very much. Blessings to you and all on this journey. Warmly, Anne