Today I want to talk about the freedom that I have to write a new story about myself at any time,
Any point of my life.
We grow up surrounded by people telling us what we are,
How we are,
And we tell ourselves who we are and what we are according to what others tell us about ourselves and according to what we believe that it's true about ourselves.
And then years pass and we still believe that we are those particular things,
That we have a list of characteristics that we didn't even look at,
We didn't even check to know if that really resonates with us.
We simply bring that list with us without even question if that is really what we are and if that is really what I want to be,
What I feel that I am.
And then over and over again I tell myself what I am inside of me according to that list because I forgot to ask myself if that list is really who I am.
And so because I forgot and because I believed once that that was true and I didn't question myself,
I continue telling the same story over and over again to myself and to others about myself.
If for example once while I was growing up someone told me that I was so kind to others and I really believed that I was kind to others and then time passed and I still believed that I was kind to others and I never checked to see if that really resonated with me.
I still believe that I'm kind to others and so I am going to tell others and I'm going to show others that I am kind to others but then let's say that I feel angry about something and then suddenly I feel this anger wanting to come out but then because I believe that I am kind to others and because people told me that I was kind to others and because those were the expectations of others towards me,
I repress my anger because in fact what I believe is that I'm kind to others.
Maybe I don't have to believe that I have to be kind to others but at least I believe that I am kind to others and that is what others expect from me and then I don't express my anger because I am kind and so I prefer to repress myself the way I feel,
The way I am in fact instead of being who I am,
Who I feel that I am and this works with any belief that we have inside of us.
In fact,
I am not a list of characteristics or definitions,
I can't be because I am in constant change.
Today I may feel this way and tomorrow I may feel another way and so I am free to express anything and to be anything.
Imagine if I was that list of characteristics that I believed I was or that someone believed I was and if my life was an accumulation of characteristics written on a list,
How could I expand,
How could I discover things,
How could I be more and express more and feel more and try more things and experiment more things,
How could I be more,
How could I be me as a free spirit?
I couldn't if I was that list of characteristics,
I couldn't be myself in fact because I had to be that list for me and for others.
Instead I am a free being and that's the only way that I can make choices,
It's by believing that I am a free being so what I choose to do is letting go of that list of characteristics that I brought with me over and over again because that doesn't serve me,
That doesn't bring me joy and this doesn't mean that that list only contains what is bad,
No,
It can be actually felt as good but yet the good also represents a limitation so I choose to believe that I am free instead of being kind or rude or sensitive or insensitive or tall or short or smart or dumb.
I choose to believe that I can be whatever I want to be,
Whatever my feelings bring to me,
Whatever my moment brings to me,
Whatever my expressions show to me,
I believe that I can be who I want to be and who I really am at any moment of my life without being attached to a list of beliefs that define me no matter what others think,
No matter even what I think because in the end I am free,
I am this free spirit,
Free being and that's the only way to achieve a higher perspective,
My expansion,
A higher consciousness in this moment in life and so I allow myself to write and tell another story about myself and from that moment on I am no more allowing myself to be part of the repetitive pattern of describing myself as a list of characteristics.
