Music Hello my dear friends,
Hope you're doing well.
I was discussing with a friend of mine from the past many many years ago when I was probably in my late teens or early twenties.
The discussion was about what I'm doing in the world and his question was why did you leave a career which you build up over twenty two years.
So I said very simple,
The level of satisfaction that I was getting from my repetitive activity was much less than invested my time for something positive in the world.
The other one was an activity which was quite lucrative,
It was paying and I was probably very happy but the satisfaction level was different.
He is still working and he said that what's the way out.
I said determination and just that kind of strong urge to get out of your comfort zone and plunge into the unknown.
It can go positive or it can become negative,
We don't know.
But if you really feel that you can do something much different and more satisfying even if it is uncertain or even if it is hard work or even if it is hardship,
It's fine because that will take you forward.
Our problem is usually that we are so used to comfort zones and many of our relatives or families or dependents are depending on it,
We are afraid to come out of it.
Because we will think 10 times the pros and cons and finally we won't take an action and we allow the comfort zone to continue.
I said that's probably the reason why I decided to take a plunge here.
He asked me what are the repercussions you experienced.
I said one of the main things I experienced is many of my old contacts disappeared because they were just connections based on a profession or a situation or a position that disappeared and completely vanished.
So many of my past friendships,
They just vanished.
I tried to rejuvenate some of them but they wouldn't come back because they can't see me in a different atmosphere,
Doing a different thing or following a different passion.
They can't see me like that.
It's not my handicap,
It's not my problem in fact because I decided to pursue something so totally different from what I used to do all these years.
So definitely it was nothing I could have done about it.
Of course I didn't call up everybody and say that I'm leaving this profession and stuff like that and many of them thought that I will continue in the profession and I did try for that.
I had a kind of a partnership company and I tried to continue in my profession because I had tremendous contacts and people trusted me.
But the person whom I trusted the company with took it away,
Speaking bad about me and stuff like that which is history.
That was his way of doing it.
Anyway,
My profession is totally deleted and a new activity started and many people who actually connected to me,
I felt that they have some kind of an ego barrier.
First of all,
Many of them cannot accept or appreciate that I chose to follow my passion or I chose to do something totally different and intangible and uncertain in life.
Almost like a suicide means exiting a profession which is paying to something which we don't know about.
It's suicidal for many people and they wouldn't really want to be part of it or even support it in a way.
Some of the earlier supporters I lost because they thought that I'm crazy.
Another aspect is that some of them had ego issues to connect to me and they say,
Oh,
That's not my philosophy or that you're trying to say something which is intangible and immeasurable in fact.
So they didn't want anything to do with it.
So they left as well.
And then there are certain people who later on found that I have certain popularity and I do things in the world in many countries and stuff like that.
And then ego rose in them.
Some of them called and said,
You know what,
We can't look at you as what you are today,
But if you like to have a connection like before,
We can continue.
And I never ever disowned my past.
You should never disown your past.
You should know where you started from,
What you have done in the past.
That's all past,
You know,
It's all past and it is part of our reality.
So I never disowned it.
I maintain some of the friendships at their terms,
Means I just follow it so that these relationships are maintained because I never intended to cut off all my past relationships,
Nor I am ashamed of my past or I have any wrong feelings or disrespect about my past.
I respect my past.
Past made me.
All these experiences have come handy and I also learned a lot from the life I lived.
So I have great respect.
Everything helped so much of hardships I experienced,
Which taught me lessons.
And also some of these great friendships,
Which I had,
They were all situational.
When I had a position,
When I had these contacts,
Which they liked,
They were with me.
When I didn't have them,
They left.
So when you change your track,
Sometimes these situational friendships just vanish.
So then you realize who will be with you for sure.
So that was a big lesson for me.
This friend of mine was asking me,
What did you lose?
I said,
I think I lost nothing.
Of course,
I thought I lost the comfort of a regular income,
The security connected to it that way.
I think I didn't have that kind of satisfaction.
It was always pressure,
Corporate business,
Work schedules,
Travels,
All those things.
And I don't regret all that because my age was also in my favor those days,
Twenties and thirties and even forties.
But I had to come out of it at some point in time because there is a thing called retirement.
Now I don't have retirement.
So I said,
I would like to continue to do something until I drop dead.
This is what I'm looking at now.
And so many people are there and new friendships have come,
Powerful friendships,
Reliable friendships,
Trustworthy people.
And I was thinking the man who snatched the business,
Which I started with him and thought he's done the right thing.
At some point in time,
He will also.
