You know when life's chugging along great and suddenly you get news that shifts your energy so completely it's like you enter another world?
I had one of these moments last week.
It's too personal to share right now,
But the effect brought me back to an old wound that I'm still healing.
For a few days I felt the weight of fear and sadness in my chest.
I felt like I lost this joy that I cultivated over the past year.
The news came right as I was moving apartments and as we settled into our new and nicer place,
The heaviness in my chest colored my perception.
I felt guarded.
Minor issues became major ones.
I saw problems that weren't problems and people's comments felt like personal attacks.
When we're carrying an emotional weight the world looks different.
Every encounter is filtered through a lens that does not reflect our authentic well-being.
It's important to recognize when we're in a dark cloud so we don't make any rash decisions.
We can still do our jobs but we must have compassion for ourselves and remember as John Mayer puts it,
It's just a wave,
It's just a wave and when it comes I just hold on,
I just hold on.
I hope you excuse my singing.
Letting the wave pass is all we can do.
As we hold on new insights arise and we eventually get back to a grounded and energetic space.
Lucky for us we have tools to help us move through this process faster.
During the middle of the day feeling too dark to focus on my work,
I got on my meditation pillow and sat.
I rested into my body,
Felt the heaviness in my heart and coached my way through the pain.
An insight came related to the cause of this wound and after an emotional release of tears and streaks,
Some of that weight lifted.
My glasses changed.
I could see again.
The word relief comes from Latin which means raise again.
I felt relieved as the weight moved,
Uplifting my energy and my mindset.
It even allowed me to create and do the things that I love to do.
If I had to sum up the message here it's be kind to yourself when you feel down.
Be aware that your heaviness colors your perception.
Take time to attend to your well-being.
It's just a wave.
Hold on.
If you'd like to explore a meditation around this I created one called Feel to Heal that you can find on Insight Timer and I'd love to continue to support you as you move through some of these waves that life constantly hands us.
I send you so much love.
It was so great to share with you a little bit today.
I hope we connect on a practice again soon.
You're welcome to join my circle.
You're on Insight Timer and we can connect there as well with much love and continued support to you.
Namaste.
