Welcome to this space.
I'm Florence Lamoure.
And as I'm French,
I do apologize for my mistakes.
Here,
My aim is to contribute to see if meditation can help us in the COVID experience.
I'm ill for one week and I would like to share with you this experience.
I found a part of me.
A part with anger,
With sadness,
With fear.
I felt under my skin something was going on.
COVID make me facing the reality.
Reality of suffering.
Reality of understanding.
Or impossible to understand.
Facing the disease.
Facing the weakness.
And in this part of me,
I notice through the fever,
Through the pain of my back,
Of my eyes,
Of my lung.
I notice that I go through different mental states.
My mind was always asking myself,
Why are you so tired?
Is it your fault?
Is it a long experience?
Why are you so exhausted?
I've noticed during this experience that my mind was very busy,
Asking itself many,
Many,
Many,
Many questions.
I see a part of myself afraid.
I see a part of myself afraid to know,
Afraid to feel,
Afraid to see.
COVID makes us reflecting about what impermanence is.
What do you understand of impermanence?
Buddhism invites us just to consider life as an impermanence experience.
But before COVID,
It was clear in my mind that day comes before night,
Winter,
After summer.
And now,
Facing from the disease,
My understanding is different.
There is a part of myself,
There is a part of myself who is afraid.
I feel the blood under my skin.
I feel the virus.
I imagine it.
And there is also another part of myself,
Another part very deep.
I can just slow down and listen to the other part of myself.
I can listen to it and I can hear the noise of intelligence.
There is a part in my body who's got enough intelligence to fight from the virus.
There is an intelligence.
I don't have anything to do.
This intelligence is here.
The other part of myself can feel it.
I dare.
I can breathe.
Step by step,
Even if it's small breaths,
I can breathe.
And this part of myself is linked with this intelligence.
This intelligence is life.
This intelligence is love.
Love deep in my cells.
There is a place in my body,
There is a place all in my body who knows,
Who knows life,
Who knows that I'm alive.
In this place,
A part of me can go and breathe.
Despite the fear,
Despite the suffering,
There is a part of me who knows that life is inside.
COVID makes me facing the truth,
My truth.
A part of me is fighting against reality.
Another part of me is fighting for love,
For life.
And in love,
In life,
There is a virus.
The other part of my intelligence,
Inner intelligence knows.
This part knows.
We can hear a very small voice,
Very deep inside us.
We can slow down and give this voice the place to say,
I'm alive.
I can breathe.
I invite you to lie on your bed or if you prefer,
To sit down.
Sit down on your body.
Sit down on yourself for good.
Sit down for good on your body.
Or lie on your bed and let the weight,
Let your body be.
Just come back to who you are.
We are already here.
Our body is always ever here.
We forgot it,
But we are here.
Our mental states take all the space.
Just slow down and thanks of the COVID,
We don't have any choice.
We have to slow down.
And when we slow down,
We can meet another part of ourself,
A part.
We can listen to the body,
Listen to all the events,
Listen to fever,
Listen to suffer,
Listen to sensations.
Without following it,
Just listen to it.
Just be close to the inner reality.
Without judging it,
Without fighting,
We stop fighting.
I invite us to feel the weight of our head.
Feel the weight of shoulders.
Feel the weight of back.
Feel the weight of us.
Legs,
Feet,
Become friend,
Become friend with our body.
Take time to breathe,
Even if it's small,
To breathe and welcome everything which is here without judging it.
Without searching to change it.
No,
Just listen to this intelligence very deep inside us.
Just feel and welcome everything.
Welcome all the changes,
Emotions,
Fear,
Anger and justice.
All,
All,
All.
Without judging it,
Without trying to qualify it.
I do feel that when I'm lying,
There is a part of my body which can discuss with my conscience.
It's not my mind.
I don't have to think,
I don't have to analyse,
I don't have to know,
I don't have to understand.
I just have to listen too.
Life is here,
It is the intelligence I can feel in my body.
By love of myself,
By love of the circumstances,
I can reach a place which is already here on my body.
I can reach a place of quietness,
My mental space,
My mental states,
Change my emotions.
So,
I can act,
I can choose to stop my mental bicycle which is running and running and running.
I can choose to slow down thanks to the COVID and just welcome everything is here.
The part of myself with good fear and the part of myself who has just listened to the life,
Listened to this experience of humanity.
I'm a human being and I'm facing an experience.
We can listen to this small voice which is ever here.
We know this intelligence,
We know this small voice.
From the deepest of my heart,
I hope that this meditation will help you to see that in your own body there is an intelligence who would choose life.
We can be grateful to this intelligence thanks to life.
I do thank you for this share.
I hope I can from my side contribute to help to face this reality.
Thank you from the deepest of myself.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
