So,
There's a,
I can't remember,
She's a guru,
And I don't remember her name right now,
But I've heard this teaching a million times.
It was just,
You know how sometimes you hear stuff and you hear it a different way and you're like,
Oh.
And I feel like this is one of my life lessons I've been learning my whole life,
And I'll get there shortly,
But I feel like this is one that our planet is learning collectively as well,
Is this,
We might have talked about this before,
But this completely different misunderstanding,
Or this misunderstanding of a completely different reality of trying to get love in life,
And it's unconscious and it's subtle and we can't really see it unless we're aware of it when we come to conversations like this,
To the opposite of being love.
And the guru was speaking about it in an extended way of like switching the mantra to,
Hers was I want,
I want love,
I want peace,
I want happiness.
To I am peace,
I am love,
I am happiness.
That's really confusing to our brains that live in a world where our entire life we've been trying to control circumstances to have peace.
I gotta go to Colorado to get some peace,
Or whatever it is,
Where we control conflicts,
It's like we don't wanna,
You know,
If we grow up in a traumatic household,
We're trying to control peace that way,
I don't wanna fight,
We're trying to control love,
I need to,
People please,
I need to be a different version of myself,
I mean we're doing it all day long,
Consciously not realizing like I need you to think I'm acceptable and lovable so I can be loved,
I need life to rearrange itself a certain way so I can be at peace,
And I need to achieve this and get that and have this house and have that money and all these things and then I'll be happy.
So when we have this conversation it's like,
Oh well if I let go of that,
I mean I still wanna experience life,
I still wanna do some things,
We say to ourselves,
Yeah fair enough we're humans,
Great,
We can go after the career that we want,
We can go after the house that we want,
We can go after loving relationships,
There's nothing wrong with any of that.
But it's so smart for us to catch on to the universal misunderstanding at play collectively,
That out there is the source of those things.
Out there can give us,
Remember,
Temporary feelings of that stuff.
And again,
This is gonna sound weird,
Cause I used to think it sounded weird,
I'm like what does it mean I'm the source of those things?
Happiness,
Peace,
Love.
So today we're talking about love,
But when we're born,
It is our nature to,
Before we're traumatized,
Before we're taught differently,
Before we come into a world that teaches us and wires into our brain innocently,
We accomplish,
We go,
We do,
We get love from people,
We morph ourselves in chameleon,
We control to have peace,
Like it's just in our language.
And so what we're gonna do today is just take a minute,
Because Carl Jung has a quote,
What is unconscious that stays unconscious becomes our life and we call it fate.
So our job in meditation and in healing is to say,
Okay,
Well,
Let me just bring what's unconscious,
So we're doing today,
Into my conscious awareness,
What I'm doing about love and why I'm afraid to just be love and how weird that seems to my brain.
Let's look,
Let's take a minute and look so that it's not just under there and then we spend our whole lives miserable trying to get something that we already are.
And the guru,
One point I thought that she made was beautiful.
One is coming from abundance,
One is coming from lack.
If we think we aren't whole and complete and loved from the source within us,
It's just our nature to be that then we're coming from I am at,
I am lack.
I don't have love in me.
I don't have the ability to be peaceful on my own without controlling circumstances.
I don't have the ability to be happy,
Without the job,
Without the money,
Without the status.
And so we're coming from,
You think about that,
This I'm small,
I'm little,
I don't have it and I have to seek it.
But one way,
It might confuse our minds,
But like,
Oh wow,
What if I'm whole and complete?
I just grew up in a traumatized world that kind of passed down to me that I'm not.
And what if all we have to do right now is just to be aware of when I'm trying to get love,
When I'm trying to get peace,
When I'm trying to get happiness?
Notice,
Notice,
Take your foot off the gas.
Oh,
I don't need to do that.
That's a trauma response.
That's a habit of my brain.
All of these habits are incredible because they kept us safe when we were little until we learned these spiritual principles because our parents most likely did not pass this stuff down to us.
These universal misunderstandings,
Universal misunderstandings.
So let's take a minute before we go into the meditation and look.
And I highly invite you,
But you can do whatever you want.
Pull out your phone notes or your computer notes or journal,
Piece of paper.
And let's write down any fears,
Any blocks.
Why am I afraid to be love?
Why would I be afraid to just today make that choice?
I'm going to start noticing when I'm trying to get love and I'm just going to be love.
So an example,
And I'm going to give you a quiet minute to write on your own,
But an example would be,
That's not fair.
It's not fair that I get to,
You know,
Maybe you're resentful because that's the voice I had.
I'm sharing with you examples in my head.
That's not fair.
I get to be love and everybody else who didn't give it to me like gets away with not,
You know,
And they get to have my love,
But I didn't get to have theirs.
So there's this little pissed kid in my head.
Maybe you think it's weird.
Maybe you think,
Um,
You're settling like,
Well,
If I am just love,
Then I want to have that experience in life.
But the ironic thing is when you are love,
You are in that frequency and then you attract more to you.
So you will be in more loving relationships.
So what the mind is telling us,
It's going to tell us every excuse,
Which is why I want to say,
Okay,
Mine,
We're going to bring these excuses to our awareness and these fears and these blocks because it's just not the truth.
So take a minute.
And if that's confusing,
Let me know in the chat and I can try to elaborate more,
But any fear is any blocks,
Any that's weird.
My family's going to think I'm weird if I am love like anything,
Just write it down so we can see what's going on in our heads.
Okay.
Thanks.
Bye bye.
You you you you beautiful okay so hopefully you have a little bit of a sense of why your mind's keeping you in this illusion so go ahead and get comfortable and relax for the meditation and get you a link of music you might want to just like quietly wonderful and so any time you're going through your day and you can notice inside that constriction contraction tension of people pleasing or hiding yourself or overcompensating or proving anything you're trying to do to get love with compassion okay that's that pattern in my brain that learned that misunderstanding and could I just move into the mantra I am love you don't need to do this and from that space if there is wisdom or there is an action step you'll know what to do it's just learning a new language learning a new way of being in the world so as you settle into your space just put all your energy gather back into your body you you please slowing down you you noticing any areas of tension in the body and could you allow yourself to bring your breath into these spaces and as your breath comes into these spaces could you allow yourself to just soften and relax the area of tension as best as you can you you let your body connect the ground under you maybe scanning from head to toe and noticing that you're grounded that you're connected under you but you're on the surface and with this next exhale let everything kind of cave down like you're on a memory foam mattress let your body melt into the surface allow your breath to make its way into the belly expanding like a balloon all the way up into the chest and out expand and out and allow yourself to settle a little bit deeper within quiet and safety of your inner world as we begin to take a journey beyond the known of our computer programmed mind into the truth of our wisdom and our knowing as we take a moment to perhaps look at this old belief we had about getting love as we all do it no one teaches this differently maybe it's one belief or a few you just to kind of look at these out in front of you for a moment and not from your head but from your heart from your wise body one by one I want you to spend a moment here asking is this true undisputed Lee true this fear mind will want to say yeah it's true and give you proof and then I want you to go a little deeper hmm maybe it's not I don't think it was true when I was four before I learned this I wasn't resentful to the adult I was I wasn't resentful to the adults around me I didn't care so we got to go deeper than our brains so just spend this next minute going down your list looking at your fears in your mind is this true and then once you hear no there might be a loophole here asking yourself could I be willing when it feels safe to let this go and open to a new thought you you you and as you begin to open your mind one by one begin to take a deep breath and let all of that go and relax and then asking yourself gently is there another way that I could be possibly open to seeing this or seeing these beliefs a new perspective a new way just rest in this quiet openness for a moment and see something new occurs you you you settling a little bit deeper within now your job is simply to open to a new way of being to begin to become consciously aware of the old way hold it loosely as it arises notice it with compassion and then open the mind to something new and let the mind do the work I forgive myself for believing I needed to get love I thank myself for that belief to keep me safe when I needed it to before I could see what I am learning now as I rest in the truth and allow it to permeate my being for a few breaths that I am whole and complete that I am loved that it is my nature that I can feel from within I don't need to know how and then radiate it externally full and complete giving and sharing from this place noticing when my mind is off letting it go and coming back home breathing and relaxing the body I am love you you I am love feel the peace that permeates your body with the remembrance of this mantra throughout the day you placing your awareness right behind your eyes planted inside of your body and behind my eyes I'm in my body I am on the surface deep breath in as you slowly come back stretching wiggling moving out of the meditation putting your eyes whenever you're ready thank you for joining me today you
