Today on Live Awake,
I would like to give you permission.
In this moment,
On this breath,
In the room in which you are sitting,
If you would allow me to,
I'd like to give you permission to come out from hiding,
To come out from behind the curtain of your life and be here on this breath,
Unapologetically you.
This means in this moment,
You are allowed to sit without the weight of your various identities.
You are allowed to sit here without the pressure of being appeasing or pleasing to anyone.
You are allowed to sit here in this moment,
Only to take care of your own self,
Your own heart,
Your own tenderness.
Let this moment be one of freedom and non-identification.
Let this moment be a reunion with the you you sometimes do not allow yourself to be,
The you you sometimes forget,
And the you that you are sometimes afraid to be,
If you do not know who this you is.
It is the one inside of you that feels relief when it comes home and closes the door.
It is the tender heart inside of you.
It is the you that was shushed when young,
That was contained,
Bullied,
Ridiculed into hiding.
It is the you you shoved inside when you were told to act more appropriately,
To be less truthful,
To hide your feelings,
To be more lovable by acting how someone else wanted you to.
The you that is free from being what you think others want you to be.
It is the inherent you,
The one you were born as before squeezed into tiny boxes.
The you that came into the world completely unembarrassed,
Unapologetic,
Deep as the ocean,
Ferociously wild and unencumbered,
Sensitive as skin,
Wise and wide-eyed.
The you you comfortingly return home to when everyone has left you to be.
I want you to be aware of this self inside of you.
I'm really aware,
Fiercely aware.
I want to lovingly encourage you to be this person.
I want to tell you you are allowed to be loyal to this you,
That in being this you,
You find freedom,
Your intrinsic freedom.
And that by being in your intrinsic freedom,
You lose the need to be anything other than this you.
You remain in your wholeness.
You shed what does not serve you.
You enter your lightness.
It is in this place of freedom to be as you are without excuse or hiding that you are able to easily see and feel where you are not aligned,
Where you are choosing to live not in your truth.
The places you are holding too much together,
Where you are not saying as you feel,
Where you are working hard at being perceived a certain way,
Where you are efforting to be loved as something maybe you are not.
Where you are afraid to be seen,
Exposed,
Vulnerable,
So instead you hide and revolt against those who come into your life.
You divide and sever yourself into many tiny pieces in attempt to be loved and accepted.
It is a sobering place to stand in,
Now aware of all the places you are being not how you desire to be,
Not how you know is true for you.
You are becoming awake to all of the places you are not allowing yourself to live from its most fundamentally vital ground.
You are becoming aware of the division of selves,
How you are one thing and choosing another for fear of not being received.
If you are feeling in pain at the realizations,
At the seeing of the holes,
Know there is nothing wrong with you.
Do not feel ashamed of this.
We are all doing the exact same things.
No person is completely living in their truth and freedom.
The pain of these realizations is a kind of beautiful pain,
The kind of pain that is loving you,
The kind of pain that is trying to bring you into a life where you are serving your most authentic version of you,
Not hiding from it.
Allow your pain to speak.
Let it magnify the places you are being restrained.
Let your pain be an indicator of where truth is needed.
It is a gracious sign for you to heal this into proper order.
It is guiding you to a life where you are not one thing but choosing another.
Close your eyes now.
Let everything around you be lifted up and away from you.
Let space become wide and open around the borders of your body.
Follow the gentleness of your breath for a moment.
With every exhale,
Drop more and more of your identity and image and begin entering your most simple,
Quiet self.
Hold yourself here,
Seeing the simple beauty you contain.
Notice in the very center of your being that nothing is lacking.
Notice the abundance of peace that is holding you,
And the abundance and peace you actually are.
Please hear me when I say,
Taking care of this part of you is your most important pursuit.
Everything you choose that causes this peace within you pain,
Everything you choose that causes this peace within you to feel compromised,
Sore,
Saddened or even threatened in the name of your highest good.
Please effort at letting go.
Please effort at choosing differently if the peace within you reacts in closing.
It is your gentle truth speaking to you.
It is the earth from which all else blooms.
Send lovingly,
Honestly,
To the ground within your center.
Realize how integral it is for you to listen to and honor.
By staying close to your peaceful center,
You will effort less,
You will make more truthful choices,
You will spend less time compromising the beauty that is intended for you and your life.
You are here resting in your divine nature,
That you can begin to mend your life into harmony,
Where you can begin to weave your truth into all of the places you are not already living this.
I want to give you permission to choose to love yourself first,
To remind you that in doing this,
The rest will follow and all that does not will fall away.
I want to give you permission to lie here on this earth and understand this is all for you and that you do not need to ever to be loved or accepted for anything other than what you are.
You are allowed to feel,
You are allowed to be as you so simply,
Perfectly are.
I want to allow you to let go,
To not hold it all together and remind you that the you inside of you is right here and knows exactly what you must let go of in order to rise above the things that are holding you hostage and rise above the things that are disturbing the peace of your core.
I want to give you permission to follow the deep and unwavering wisdom that is yours within,
To enter into your intrinsic freedom and to live firmly seated in this place.
Do not judge yourself,
Do not feel disheartened.
You are waxing.
This is a very good place to be in.
For from awareness comes choice,
From awareness comes integrity,
From awareness comes a deep and loving responsibility to keep choosing the path that leads you to your most authentic origin.
Begin to love yourself so much that all you are living aligns with and reflects that love.
This you deserve.
Go now eyes wide open,
Without fear.
Bring your life in line.
Force no pain away.
It is all conspiring to bring you home.
Go now.
Start exploring,
Expressing,
Choosing the truths that sit quietly within you,
That sit quietly waiting to guide you to nourishing life.
