I trust that you are willing to put aside whatever distractions may come along or that you have brought into the moment with you so that we can do the work of discovering what in the world is going on,
Not just in the world around us,
But why the world around us is a reflection of the interior world that we are all living from at all times.
I have a couple of key lessons,
One of them is a little longer and when I get to it I will explain each section,
But for now I think we'll just get into the material.
Nice deep breath,
Don't make it symbolic,
Relax.
Let's go.
Imagine,
I don't know,
Two brothers perhaps and by circumstance,
Conditions such that they wind up living together in a house together in order to save money as they get older and more or less downsize their lives.
And one of the brothers,
We'll make it the older brother,
Has an endless problem with the younger brother because every day right around noon the house is reverberating with the volume turned up quite a bit so that the one listening can hear it with a kind of a soap opera,
One of those shows that's been running for a hundred years.
And at a certain point,
It doesn't take long,
Irritation mounts and the older brother comes and says,
You know,
I don't know,
He says,
I'm not the one to judge you but every day after you watch this show and we have our lunch on the patio like we do,
The first thing you do is you start complaining about this program.
What's wrong with it,
How it's not right,
All just endless,
It just goes on and I mean,
Look,
Dear brother,
If you hate it so much,
Why do you never miss an episode?
I mean,
You even watch the reruns,
At which point the younger brother,
Full of negativity at this point,
Turns to the older brother and says,
You know,
You don't know me,
You don't know me at all.
I mean,
What do you suggest?
What should I watch every day at noon to take its place?
Now,
I hope that that brief little story sets the stage properly for us so that we can see what a contradiction.
I'm involved in a daily drama that even as I'm watching it,
I'm criticizing or complaining or wishing that I wasn't,
And then when it's done,
I have nothing but judgments of the same and the drama that I watch on the television doesn't end in the mind that was watching it.
Which brings us to the talk title for our material today,
If we could post it,
Kate.
Oh,
It's already up there.
I'll read it now.
Close the curtain on self-induced drama.
Close the curtain on self-induced drama.
Imagine this younger brother goes back to his room,
And what is he doing there?
He's sulking,
Or he's going through an iteration of different reasons why his brother is always the way he is,
And how things should be different.
He wished he never had moved into that relationship the way he did.
All these things going on in the mind of that younger brother,
Where the situation that created that conflict is long gone,
But it still lives on inside of him.
Can you see that this goes on in you as well?
That just because a moment is over doesn't mean what makes us miserable about it just stops the minute that we exit the circumstance.
Something in this consciousness continues to play itself out,
Doesn't it?
So,
Imagine for a second somebody trying to put out a fire by flaming it,
By fanning it harder and harder,
Blowing on it to make it go out,
Where the more he waves the blanket or blows on it,
The higher the flames rise,
Never realizing,
Of course,
That the more he tries to put the fire out that way,
The bigger the fire gets.
The bigger the fire gets,
The more he resists the heat from it,
And so on and so forth.
And so you can see that there is this kind of strange circulation taking place in a consciousness that's unaware of what it is doing in the world or outside of it,
Because it can't understand what's going on within it to create it.
It sounds absurd,
That kind of action,
And yet that's exactly what we do inwardly.
Like the two brothers,
The more we struggle to close the curtain on whatever may be the painful drama of the moment,
And let's just pause with that for a moment.
Whatever may be the painful drama of the moment.
Have you noticed yet?
You don't need to be with someone to be in a drama with them,
Yes or no?
We're in dramas with people that aren't even alive anymore.
My brother that didn't do this,
My sister that was always like that.
This person at work that I'm not even with them yet,
And I'm already resisting what I believe is their wish to punish me,
And I'm by myself.
So the drama doesn't require a condition outside of ourselves to unfold.
All that conscious requires is another thought along the lines of whatever tormented it before,
And it's off to the races.
And of course,
As we described,
The more we're disturbed by these dramas,
The more deeply we get into them,
And the more deeply we enter into these dramas of the mental kind,
The more pain we experience.
This is a great mystery because it's going on right in front of our eyes all the time,
But we have so little awareness of it,
Why?
So we're going to set the stage,
If you will,
By bringing into this talk a hero,
A familiar hero for those of you that have been listening to me for a while.
You know that I like to use certain individuals,
Names that you'll recognize,
And bring them and their circumstances into a new setting so that we're watching something new unfold through the eyes of someone that we are ourselves intended to identify with,
In one respect,
Meaning that we can see that we have a lot in character,
And in common with this character.
And in this instance,
We're talking about Christine,
Our reluctant spiritual hero,
Who,
Bless her,
Continues to go see the good doctor,
Which represents Sophia,
Wisdom,
So that she can continue to learn where it is and how it is that she is still getting in her own way.
Because even though years of practice,
Years of study,
Have yielded obvious results,
There are times when those obvious results are just,
You know,
Like wiped off the wall because something takes place inside of us,
And suddenly we think to ourselves,
Well,
What's going on with me?
And this is where she is today when she goes to see the doctor.
And she,
As always,
Starts to explain after he's asked what's going on.
So she complains.
I don't know what to do about this,
She said,
But I tell you what,
It takes less and less and less to set me off.
I know,
She said,
We've talked about how ridiculous the idea is that someone else can trigger me.
They didn't put the shot that follows,
The echoes around the world,
They didn't put that in me.
But she said,
Even when the cause of this pain is gone,
I'm not even with those people or places and times,
But the thing just goes on.
It goes on in my mind,
And my mind won't stop.
And the more my mind gets involved,
The more the emotions get riled up,
She said,
And I'm irritated even when I lay down to go to bed or when I wake up in the morning.
Something's replaying the moment,
She said.
It's revisiting what they said or what they didn't do.
And as she kind of winds down,
I get it.
I'm still building the proverbial mountain out of a molehill,
But I haven't a clue what's going on.
Why is this thing still digging at me?
Where the more it digs at me,
The more I try to escape it,
And the more I try to escape it,
The more obvious becomes the pain,
But not the reason why it's repeating itself and replaying itself.
Can you help me,
Doc?
So before we get to the doc,
Anybody have any of the symptoms that our good Christine experiences?
I'll just,
Terry,
Take your response.
Terry,
Absolutely is.
The fact that we all know what that's like.
How can I,
How can I lose sleep over something that took place 10 minutes ago or 10 years ago?
So the doc says to her,
I can,
We don't have to do any tests at all.
Usually we do some tests to make sure it's not organic.
He said,
I'm sure though,
If I was to do some tests,
We would see organically the result,
The effect of this particular circumstance of this syndrome that you're suffering from.
But he said,
Let's just cut right to the chase.
You're suffering from what is intended to be,
If at all,
A temporary,
But very common condition in this world that has become epidemic at this point.
It wasn't always so,
Or at least it wasn't as evident as it is now.
He said,
What are you talking about?
And he says,
What you have is a MOPID.
You have all the symptoms of a MOPID syndrome.
Now,
For those of you that don't know,
A MOPID in some of my stories is an acronym,
But she doesn't always know that.
She goes,
A MOPID,
What is that?
Now what's wrong with me?
Is it,
Can I be healed or is it something terminal?
And he said,
No,
It's only terminal if a person refuses to deal with the truth of the syndrome and what it causes in them.
Well,
What is a MOPID,
She said.
And he said,
A MOPID stands for another moment of personal drama.
A-M-O-P-D,
Another moment of personal drama.
How many of you know moments of personal drama that,
Like the reruns that they are,
Or the so-called debut,
Or the,
What do they call it when the show,
You know,
The first showing,
What we call the first showing,
A MOPID,
Another moment of personal drama.
I leave the restaurant where that waiter was cruel or didn't serve me the way I wanted to.
A person on the freeway runs me off the road or tries to,
And boy,
I'll tell you what the drama goes,
A MOPID,
A MOPID,
Another drama,
Only to be replaced by another drama.
But what is never replaced is the level of consciousness involved in that trauma.
So we're going to look at that now together.
We're going to examine the trauma behind the drama,
The trauma behind the drama.
What is the trauma behind another moment of personal drama?
What is this drama we're looking at?
We examined a little bit of it at the top of the talk,
But basically it's what happens when this unconscious nature,
This sleeping mind begins to struggle with,
Try to change or control or escape an experience of the moment that it blames on the circumstances outside of itself.
Because the nature involved in that drama is yet to see what we are going to discover with clarity today,
That it never stops creating that drama in the unknown dark works of itself.
Now let's just pause for a second,
Because there are times when we're looking at new ideas,
Revisiting truths,
Where it's important we recognize we're talking about a kind of an ideal at this point in our development.
Clearly,
If a man or a woman knew that their own mind is literally talking them to death,
Tormenting them over things that wouldn't exist if that same level of mind didn't recreate the condition and resist it,
As if somehow or other that experience could be wiped away by walking away from one's own thought.
You can't walk away from a thought you don't want until you see the nature that's attracted to it.
So we need new understanding,
And that's what we're going to do.
We're going to look at the sort of the high and low of these constant personal dramas and begin to understand not just what's the trauma beneath the drama,
But how through that clarity we can begin to change our relationship to that stage where we suffer over and over again.
A drama that has no right to exist,
Let alone to steal our life.
So let's make a transition here before we get into this first key lesson that is in three parts.
Can you see,
I trust,
Because we've talked about it in different ways before,
And you're not going to see it with your eyes,
With these eyes.
You need to see it with the new eyes that Christ spoke about,
That in any given moment there are an infinite number of forces at all levels,
Macro,
Micro,
That are drawn together,
Something we don't understand,
That are drawn together for a purpose that is greater than the sum of their individual parts,
Because in every individual aspect of creation has a specific role to play.
But the specific role that an individual aspect of creation plays is to serve the greater force of creation,
So that it is itself part of what is unfolding moment to moment,
Where nothing can happen in any other way than it does.
Nothing can happen in that moment of revelation of this entanglement other than as it is happening,
Because everything is drawn together by a force that sits at the center of each and every one of those creations,
And yet that is in common with all of them,
So that whatever happens cannot be other than it is.
And this is not fatalistic.
This mind is fatalistic because it sees the appearance of a condition that it says,
Oh my God,
That's what happened,
And then it deals with so-called what it says has taken place.
It doesn't know what has taken place.
It's outside of it taking its place relative to what is imagined is happening to it,
So that what begins in any given moment can't be changed,
But how it ends is always being written.
We are in a drama trying to change what has begun,
Trying to change what is revealed within us in that moment by the light of God,
I might add,
By the grace of Christ,
By the grace of a light and another order of awareness that dwells in the darkness the darkness knows not,
But that without that light we would never see our actual circumstance.
So this brings us to the first part of this three-part key lesson.
I'm going to go through them one by one with you.
Please read along,
And then don't post.
I'm going to explain each of these parts.
I can't see Katie.
I guess you put up all three parts at once.
It's okay.
Read the first paragraph with me.
The perfection of each moment is hidden within its necessity.
The perfection of each moment is hidden within its necessity.
I just explained that above.
The moment can't be other than it is because it is the creation of something bringing into a greater creation the revelation of itself.
The perfection of each moment is hidden in its necessity.
After all,
What is the true nature of any moment revealed in the stream of time other than the ceaseless reconciliation of creation to the divine that never stops giving at birth?
The perfection of each moment is hidden in its necessity.
What is the true nature of any moment in the stream of time other than the reconciliation of creation to the divine will that never stops giving at birth?
The divided mind,
Supported by an ever-shifting false sense of self,
Creates the moment in time that it doesn't want,
And then,
Blind to its own creation,
Imagines a time to come when it will be free.
Please stay with this for a second.
We're as it is,
Supported by the sense of self that appears every time it reaches a conclusion.
This mind creates the moment in time it doesn't want.
And then,
Even as it's creating the moment in time it doesn't want,
That we're going to explain.
Maybe I should jump here.
This nature creates the moment in time that it doesn't want by telling itself the meaning of the moment in front of it,
Within it.
So here I am.
My mind's telling me,
You're the worst person you've always been.
My mind's telling me,
Oh my god,
What that doctor said,
I'm doomed.
My mind tells me what has happened.
And it's telling me that because it doesn't want it.
The moment's disturbed it.
So it creates the moment in time that it resists,
That it doesn't want,
And then,
Blind to its own creation,
Imagines a time to come when it will be free.
So first the mind imagines what has happened,
And then it resists its own dark imagining,
And then it begins to project a time when what it fears might happen won't,
Because it's laying plans to escape the pain of its imagined future,
Born of an imagined past.
So that all in all,
Third part of this key lesson,
This unconscious nature lives,
In quotes,
On a daily basis with the fear of any unwanted moment that seems to threaten the freedom it has imagined.
And so it's not by accident this nature is always in the throes of some kind of drama.
Is it not a drama when somebody does what you don't want them to do?
Is it not a drama when you hear the news and it's not the way it's supposed to be?
Is it not a,
Is it not a drama when you look in the mirror sometimes?
A bad hair day?
Another wrinkle?
Oh my god,
What's that spot?
Is that not a drama?
Please,
I'm asking you.
I'm asking you to see it with me.
And that drama never ends.
And it never ends because each moment that is new,
That is creation being given birth again by the will of the creator,
Each and every one of these moments isn't experienced that way.
It is seen through the eyes of a nature that properly disturbed by the possibility of its own rebirth,
Fights that disturbance by explaining to itself what has disturbed it.
And where does that nature get everything that it is explaining to itself its pain from?
It gets it from the content of itself.
It pulls the explanation for whatever pain it is in out of the past circumstances similar,
If not exactly the same,
To the one it is now trying to what?
Bring an end to that drama.
And it has never brought an end to that drama,
As you well know.
You can drug yourself,
Drink yourself,
Shop yourself,
Medicate.
You can do everything all day long and push comes to shove and it always does in a heartbeat.
I'm right back to worrying about myself.
I'm worrying about what may happen if this doesn't go the way it's supposed to.
I'm anxious.
God,
How did we become a race of beings that find value in anxiety,
That look for fear to set us free,
That where fear becomes our God,
Because it's what we turn to in order to tell us what has happened.
And of course,
Fear will always have a good explanation for the disturbance.
But fear can't see that what is disturbing you in that moment is that nature attached to what it believes is required for its security.
So despite the way we see it now,
And it is presently,
This daily drama is never,
Ever what we blame it on.
That's kind of what I'm wanting to get to here.
What if I absolutely,
Maybe not resolutely,
Meaning that it's not clear totally,
But man,
I suspect it.
I'm late.
Isn't that a drama?
Do you rush?
I'm late.
What if I don't do this?
What if it doesn't get done right?
Is that not a drama?
And in the throes of that drama,
Are we not constantly being visited by something that is saying,
Yes,
That's the case,
But all you need to do is rush,
Get angry,
Give voice to this frustration,
Punish someone,
Punish yourself,
Judge.
All it does is give us solutions to a suffering that wouldn't exist if we hadn't first got caught up in the drama of an unconscious nature set against itself without knowing it is so.
And if we knew that this drama is self-created,
Regardless how sure we are that no,
No,
You,
You,
You,
If we knew that we could begin,
At least in some small way,
To close the curtain on that show.
Whether that drama is newly opened,
Or how many of you know dramas like in New York,
This show has been running for 37 straight years,
And it's always a sellout.
How many of you could name,
If you were honest,
Old dramas?
Just think of a person you don't like,
And the drama starts.
And if we could see that this is true,
Then we would also begin as a summary of what we've said so far right now.
Let's bring up the second key lesson.
I can't tell you how significant this might be in your life were you to see the truth of it.
All personal drama is the negative effect of an unconscious mind as it struggles in vain to escape the pain of some story it doesn't realize it's writing,
Directing,
And starring in.
It's all about me.
There's room for you if you have decided that you're going to bring an end to whatever it is I'm blaming you for in my daily drama,
That you don't have to be on the stage with me.
This mind is the stage,
Isn't it?
This unconscious nature with its dark corners,
And characters stepping out into the light of whatever it is that moment brings up in that memory.
All personal drama is the negative effect of an unconscious mind as it struggles in vain to escape the pain of some story it doesn't know it's writing,
Directing,
And starring in that very moment.
Can you at least into it see to some extent that if in the moment when suddenly that great sucking sound pulling you onto that stage of suffering made itself evident,
The contraction,
The stress,
That if you knew for a split second that you were being drawn into a drama and not the beautiful drama of the divine as it plays out all of its aspects,
Possibilities,
And characters so that everything can see a singularity,
A unity in the movement.
No,
The drama we're drawn into is always a drama of being separate from what we blame the drama on,
So that in other words this daily drama is the effect essentially of an unconscious nature trying in vain,
As we've been saying,
To escape an unwanted moment,
The experience of an unwanted moment that it has created for itself as it identifies with its own conclusions,
With its old stories,
With its memories at every level.
Have you not found yourself seated someplace,
Maybe someplace beautiful by yourself,
And maybe you're enjoying whatever it is that you're doing,
And something in the machinery of that mind will click and into that flow of what might be something beautiful,
A taste of something bitter,
Someone who did something that whatever,
And the next thing you know,
One thought turns into an entire performance,
An entire play filled with pain,
So that instead of,
As we are intended,
And by the grace of God empowered to do so,
Instead of becoming aware of what is taking place in us in those moments,
Because in those moments,
And this is the only way we can actually become aware of them,
Something reminds us that lesson,
That idea,
That feeling that I had when I heard what was true.
Everything else comes and goes through this consciousness,
But what is true is a seed,
And it will remain there,
And in certain moments,
The light will bring this up,
And you'll see,
You know,
Wow,
I can feel it,
I'm being called onto the stage.
I'm not just being called onto the stage,
They're announcing,
And now here's Guy Finley,
The star of this particular drama,
And it is so attractive to this nature to be drawn into some drama where,
As it continues to write and resist its own story,
Can rise up and be the real victim,
The real person suffering,
Whatever it is that the mind has created through its own comparison,
So that instead of being aware of this,
Instead we go with it,
We run with it,
And the drama runs unaware,
As we are,
That the one who is sitting there and fighting this drama,
A man asked last night at a class,
What am I to do with this pain?
I've studied blah,
Blah,
Blah,
I know this,
I know that,
And I can't connect with the divine,
What do I do with this pain?
And the answer,
The real answer,
Is something that none of us want to hear,
Because in truth,
What has to happen is that we have to see how futile it is to resist the dark drama the mind creates,
Because the resistance is the continuation of that dark consciousness and the drama that it is writing and starring in,
In that same moment.
So the one that doesn't want the disturbance is,
In fact,
The director and producer of it,
That nature does not come to an end,
And we should know it,
Regardless how much it promises us that it will come to an end of itself.
So if we can see this is true,
To whatever extent,
As we get near the end of this material,
Maybe I should ask,
Can you see,
To some extent,
The truth of what I'm describing to you?
Can you feel it?
That's more important than thinking about it.
I can see,
Yes,
That's true,
I can see it.
I wake up in the morning in a drama.
How about the drama of waking up and wishing that you didn't have the drama of that dream the moment before?
How about the drama of waking up and suddenly your mind is presenting to you a list 82 miles long,
And now you're in the drama of,
How am I going to get all of this done?
That's drama.
That's not productivity.
That's not being a profitable human being.
You could,
And probably should,
I didn't have time to present it this way to you,
But why don't you make a list of your,
You know,
You might make a list,
You hear that Netflix,
Or Prime,
Or whatever one of these streaming things is doing that's going to launch a new show,
And you might even mark a calendar,
Because you want to be involved in that drama.
Why do we like movies?
Because there's part of this voyeuristic nature that likes to get involved in the drama,
Because we identify with all the characters on the screen,
Which is the purpose of that drama,
And why they charge you so much to see it.
So we are vested,
We are identified with whatever the character is that is stirred from its tomb in the moment where something troubles us,
Because it wouldn't be there if it weren't being kept alive for some surreptitious purpose,
Which we don't know even exists,
Until suddenly it pops up,
And now we're involved in its drama.
So that in these moments,
The real source of these long-running painful programs is that the mind,
This sleeping mind,
Is meeting itself.
It is meeting its own past and mistaking that encounter that suddenly produces what seems and feels like a new disturbance escaping,
Mistaking that disturbance for the proof that something new has happened,
And it doesn't even care if it's in quotes not new,
Because you have blame,
And blame goes on forever.
What is blame?
Blame is the flame behind these dramas,
In one way or another.
Blame is the flame that drives these dramas,
Like some dark steam engine beneath the stage.
You begin to even suspect that blame is the flame that drives these dramas,
That some excuse or justification or explanation that we always have for why we are being induced into an anxious state,
You remove even a vestige of that,
And some degree of being a victim of that unconscious nature is absolved,
Because you can't be quite as identified as you were the last time.
And as that develops,
And it does beautifully,
You'll even catch your own mind telling you,
Look,
You're not being responsible here.
If you don't get into this show and develop what you need to develop to escape this looming darkness that this person or this problem is producing,
Somehow you're going to be overcome by it,
And it sucks you into its world.
And the freedom from that powerful,
Ultimately,
Attachment that we have to that familiar pained sense of self is to recognize that this unwanted moment,
The drama of it,
Is not new at all.
One day you will actually see you can't have a new drama.
You can be involved with,
In quotes,
New people that,
By the way,
You ran to in order to escape who you were on stage with the moment before.
But every drama is the same drama because it's the same dark nature reliving itself,
But blaming the world around it for the experience of itself.
So the meaning of the moment that we resist is our own.
Think with me,
See it with me.
I hear that she did this.
Oh,
Man.
And you can hear,
I knew it.
I heard he said that.
Well,
What else would you expect from somebody of that caliber of character?
The instantaneous,
Critical,
Cruel,
Or snide remark followed by the disturbance of trying to deal with what this person should be because they're not as we imagine them and need them to be.
And every last bit of the meaning attributed to that moment that,
By the way,
Is making me mean ensures that the drama goes on because I no more act out what it is that I'm being pushed in order to do to resolve this pain.
I no more act that out.
And certainly I'm asking you,
Do you ever act out something and then you go,
Oh God,
I'm a terrible person.
Why am I like that?
I don't want to be like that.
Yes or no.
Do you not judge yourself often after having judged others or stepped into some storm blamed on someone,
And then you realize they weren't even involved in it?
Well,
Try to see this.
Isn't that a drama?
First,
The drama of not wanting what you said,
And then the drama of not wanting to be the person who did and said what you did and said,
And then the drama of how you're going to fix that downstream.
Talk about an endless suffocating stage show.
So the mind resurrects images from the past,
From its own memories,
If you will,
And interprets the moment that it's in through whatever that old tainted images that came into the moment with it.
And as it gives itself the meaning,
It resists what it has concluded.
And the pain of that resistance,
And it is painful because it is the mind set against the mind,
A conflict unending,
Provides all the proof we need that we are in a drama that was induced in us by some other person's drama.
So resistance,
In the meaning of this,
Resistance becomes the past defending itself.
Not resistance as in,
I realize what's happened,
And now I must do this or that or the other.
No,
That's downstream from the fact that what we are resisting in the moment is the experience of our own consciousness having concluded what it is that has taken place based on the meaning it gives to it,
And boom,
We're right in that trap.
Nothing new is being resisted.
You can't resist what is new.
How would you recognize it?
So the only thing that's being resisted is what is old,
And all that's old in that moment,
Any of these moments,
Is the meaning that this divided mind is giving to the moment,
Telling you.
Literally,
And you just have to grow up to see it.
You will grow into seeing it.
We're often awash with all kinds of hormones,
Chemicals.
Even before we know what has triggered the movement of all of that electricity through this system.
That's how deep it runs,
And that's one of the difficulties,
Is because the body,
The stress,
The anxiousness in it,
The adrenals being fired,
The body responds to the mind before the mind that has caused that reaction even is aware of what it's done to itself in its body,
And then the bodily reactions prove to the mind its conclusion.
So we relive the drama,
And we relive the drama,
Trusting that somehow or other,
If we just go through it one more time,
It'll have a new ending.
The drama ends when we understand that only by remembering the truth of ourselves in those moments can close the curtain.
It doesn't change the experience of the moment we're being given,
But it changes our relationship to the cause of that experience.
That light,
That beautiful light,
That for so long reveals what it does,
And that we take the revelation of what we see in ourselves as something to be condemned.
Imagine condemning the revelation of something that you have never seen in yourself as true before.
Can you see how how dark that runs?
I condemn,
I condemn the grace of being shown what I did not know is true about my own nature,
Because my own nature steps up and gives the meaning that I shouldn't be that way,
That that's not what a good person is.
And as we condemn the revelation,
So are we condemned to live in a drama that never ends,
Because the nature that creates it just goes on and on and on.
The curtain falls not because the drama itself ends,
But because we as men and women working to understand our relationship to the divine,
To our actual role in the ceaseless revelation of this rebirth,
This reconciliation,
We begin to awaken from the dream of the actor,
From the actor's dream.
Haven't you noticed that?
There's no me,
There's no you,
There's no I who knows what's happened until something's happened,
That something is resisting summarily,
Then I know,
I'm there,
I got it,
I see,
You don't.
And that I is the actor,
There's a legion of them backstage,
Waiting for the particular condition to extract from that unconscious nature,
Whatever the similar quality is to its character,
And up on the stage it goes into a starring role that we identify with because we don't know who we are,
Let alone how we're meant to deal with the moments like that.
But you begin to awaken to this actor and that dream of that dark nature,
And in that awakening,
In that revelation,
You can begin and will,
But you must dare to do so,
To drop that script,
To drop all of that thinking.
You know how that,
I don't have an idea where it came from,
That the comedian or the person making the speech,
They think they reach some great point,
They drop the mic.
Learn to drop the me,
Drop the I,
Drop the I engaged in the drama,
And walk off the stage,
Which takes a new kind of courage,
Not strength,
But the courage of a certain kind of conviction that having become aware of how you have been drawn into that role cannot continue if you want to know anything about the life of the divine.
