Hi,
This is Brooks,
And I'm here,
And you're there,
And here we are.
And I don't know what I'm going to say,
Which is always best for me,
And I believe best for you too,
Because if I write out what I'm going to talk about,
Or go into all the details before I actually say anything,
It'll just be dead.
Like the words I say,
Just,
It's like worthless.
So I'm much better being spontaneous.
So here I am,
And the one thing I can say is that I'm alive,
And I'm awake,
And I'm breathing,
And I can hear the air purifier in the other room,
And I can see the light,
The glow of the reflection of the light on my desk,
And when I look up I can see the little marks of my,
Of registering my voice on this recording,
And they're purple or blue or something like that,
And they look like some kind of art.
So if I hum,
It makes a really great,
Really great kind of bluish purplish kind of abstract image.
It's really pretty.
And if I whisper real quietly,
Then it does these little tiny bleeps,
Little tiny bumps,
And that's nice too.
I figure there's a lot of fun,
No matter what,
You know.
There just seems to be so much fun,
So many interesting things to,
You know,
And fun things to do,
Like,
In the moment.
Here's my pen.
I pick up my pen and I'm doing some,
I started drawing,
I'm drawing like a scribble.
But it looks really cool.
It looks like rolls and rolls of clay dough rolled on top of itself.
Now it looks like a rose.
It's funny how that changes around.
There's something really freeing about being nonspecific.
To let my mind go where it wants to go.
My heart and my mind both.
It's like a bird that's been in captivity and it's released.
And it flies out the window and it's like,
I'm gonna fly over here,
I'm gonna fly over here.
Such a delicious freedom.
And it makes me feel ageless.
Even memoryless,
You know.
I'm just,
I'm here,
Not thinking about what I'm gonna do later or what I did previously.
My stomach just made a noise.
A slight sigh.
I don't think it got picked up on the recording.
It's letting me know that it's doing its job.
It's digesting the split pea soup that I had like an hour ago.
It's nice to know that the body's working and doing its job.
So many different parts.
It's incredible.
I think about this,
Like underneath my skin,
Because I can't,
Like when I was a kid I had this thing called the invisible man.
It was like a plastic model.
So the skin was transparent.
I mean it was transparent plastic.
And you can see all the organs underneath the plastic.
There's so many organs.
Like I was just fascinated,
You know.
I can't do that with my body right now.
I look at my body and it's like,
Well,
There's skin.
Looking at my stomach right now.
So there's skin and there's hair.
There's my belly button.
Because I have a little bit of fat on my belly,
There's a little fold that goes across there,
Which is kind of nice.
It means I got plenty of stomach.
But I can't see through,
I can't see the intestines and the stomach and the pancreas and all those wonderful organ buddies that are working right now for me,
Selflessly.
So lucky.
I'm the luckiest guy in the world.
I just took a second look.
I think they feel the good tidings that I'm sending them,
The thankfulness that I just sent their way.
As a result of all these things I have no clue about,
Or know very little about,
Like I'm here.
I'm alive.
That's really great for me.
I love that.
I love being alive.
There's something,
Something about it.
I can't even put it into words.
But I know it's special.
I know being alive is special.
There's something wondrous about it,
Just in the fact that it is.
There's aliveness here and I feel myself breathe.
I can feel the breath as I speak these words and my head vibrates through the resonating tone.
I can feel my forehead vibrate and the skin around my forehead vibrate.
Just thrilling.
There's no way I could have designed my body and make it work like it is.
I've given it a long time ago,
Sixty years ago.
I've given this body and it's still working and it's allowing these experiences.
Better than anything on TV.
I mean,
Although I really like TV and I like certain shows and definitely movies,
But the fascination of this whole about how this body works just enthralls me.
It's really quite incredible.
So thanks for being there or for being here and listening because it allowed me to have this experience.
I won't say that lightly,
I really believe that your being where you are and listening affects what I say.
Even though I'm recording this and saying this and recording it before you'll ever listen to it.
I still feel like there's a timeless thing that goes on and I appreciate your part in it.
I'm thankful for you.
Thanks for listening.
Take care.
Learn new thOEict testapa.
Forty-two year old This is mitigating my dullness over the years.
And receiving testing Prince Matrix 12.
6.
2012
