When we're carrying too much stress.
When we're stretched too far.
When we're stuck in the habit of procrastination,
I'm not choosing to procrastinate.
I'm stuck on this cycle of stress response that doesn't really work too well.
And it repeats and repeats and repeats.
I'm often very deprived of self-compassion.
Because I think there's something wrong with me.
Or I think I'm being lazy.
Or I think I'm being two-faced,
Presenting the world as,
You know,
Here's the mindfulness teacher,
Burnout coach,
Lovely person.
And meanwhile her bedroom is like a bombsite.
Because she can't pick the clothes off the floor.
So I think I'm two-faced.
I'm not real.
And I'm also ashamed in some way.
Heavy,
Heavy burdens on top of my stress.
And when I'm locked in that cycle.
I usually don't know anything about self-compassion.
I most magnificently am not kind to myself.
So the heart of this practice and what I invite us into today is really focusing on can I soften towards myself?
Can I realize that procrastination is nothing more than a maladaptive coping mechanism for stress.
Often shows up in those of us who are what I call other-focused work.
Or a presence in the world that are supporting and serving others.
We are can do.
We are committed.
And we often have tendencies towards perfectionism.
So when we are under stress,
We sometimes can be exceptionally cross with ourselves.
I saw the cycle,
The hidden habit.
The automatic stress response that we're not choosing,
But we're kind of rolling with somehow habitually.
Just adds to our our discomfort and our pain.