Hello beautiful souls.
Thank you for spending this time with me.
This reflection is for anyone learning to protect their peace,
Even when it means stepping away from the people they love.
So take a deep breath,
Let your shoulders soften,
And just listen.
And when you're done listening,
Take a moment to breathe in peace,
To release what's heavy,
And to remember you are allowed to love people without letting their pain become your own.
Thank you for listening,
And may peace always find its way back to you.
Sometimes they really push me to my limits.
I want to be the good one,
The good daughter,
The good sister.
Does it have to be so hard?
I often wondered who are those people in their matching pajamas,
Posting holiday photos,
Smiling together at the beach,
Laughing together at weddings.
Where was my Kodak moment?
Do they exist?
Are they real?
But then I remember to be grateful.
I have two amazing sons,
Two beautiful grandkids,
And I love being with them.
I'm so grateful to have experienced the unconditional love I feel when I'm with them.
And because of them,
I learned there is a better way.
My sons will have that.
My grandchildren will have that.
I'm determined to make that my legacy.
It's all about choices,
And I've made many.
I chose to stay away from those who hurt me.
I chose to love from a distance.
I chose to protect my peace.
I chose to heal myself,
And I will pass that on to my kids.
And I've promised myself I will never be a burden,
Never be ungrateful,
Never be cruel.
And I'm sorry.
Sorry they hurt you.
Sorry you never got what you thought you deserved.
Sorry if I was ever a burden.
And sorry I couldn't save you,
But you weren't mine to fix.
Words cut deep,
And those wounds don't heal easily,
But they can heal.
When you choose your sanity over the pain,
And stop feeling guilty,
And stop trying to make up for the pain you never caused.
I'm grateful that I walked away.
Grateful to have a family and a life I love.
And it hasn't been without struggles,
But I carried them quietly,
And was determined to fix them on my own.
And I'm proud of who I've become.
I'm grateful that I can hold compassion without carrying the pain,
And that I could witness what wounded you without letting it define me.
I've learned that love doesn't mean losing myself,
And I will never choose to be a victim.
I choose peace.
I choose joy.
I choose happiness.
And for once,
That's enough.