A grief meditation for the loss within the pelvis.
Speaking to the loss of cells,
Loss of experiences.
A grief meditation for loss within the pelvis.
Giving ourselves a moment to orient into the space by finding a position where your body feels held and supported.
Adjusting by just 10% in order to find that comfort.
That support,
That need right now to feel held,
Nested.
Orienting by gazing around the space and noticing what's around the space.
Noticing the smaller items to the bigger items.
Any changes with the light as you move around with your eyes,
Gently and slowly noticing what forms as you scan the area.
Until you find something nourishing and you pause and notice the edges of this item,
This speck.
Breathing into the body through the nose.
And noticing on the exhale how you can just feel this support again.
We're not looking for perfection,
We're not looking to be immediately deeply relaxed,
But we are looking to be supported enough to arrive here in this space.
Allow the jaw to soften slightly.
Allow the breath to deepen without forcing it.
Maybe even constricting at throat to begin with just to feel and hear the breath moving in and out of the body.
And bringing your awareness with the breath from the chest.
As it rises and falls.
Down towards the belly.
Deepening still down towards the bowl of the pelvis.
Starting to notice the edges of the pelvis.
As you bring your awareness down to this space.
Moving across.
Into the center of the pelvis as and when you're ready.
Where the womb lies.
Or,
In the case of there being no physical presence of a womb,
The energy of that space remains,
Bringing awareness,
Breath,
Tending,
Noticing what you could do to be even just 10% more comfortable in the space.
And as you bring your awareness down to the pelvic bowl,
Notice anything that arises,
Nothing needs to be analysed,
Nothing to change,
Just a simple noticing.
Noticing what happens when your attention arrives here in this space.
Yeah,
I'm right here with you.
Perhaps there is a sensation.
Perhaps numbness and nothing arises.
Perhaps there feels like there's a holding or a holding pattern of some sort.
Perhaps there's emotion.
And just really noticing.
What's there?
As you bring in this presence.
You are welcome here,
As you are.
You are held here,
Exactly where you are.
The pelvis is this one place where women learn to carry.
And they continue to carry.
Whatever was never fully grieved.
And in this moment we're welcoming in whatever's arising.
And noticing if grief does arise.
And sometimes it's grief that we can label and sometimes it's grief that we can't.
And we're welcoming in whatever's here and witnessing it in this moment.
We're acknowledging the self that might have disappeared.
The versions of you that were abandoned for survival.
The softness that was hardened.
Anything that was innocent and that was rushed.
Grief of any seasons that ended too quickly.
Any baths,
Any losses.
Any experiences the body never fully got to process.
That's what we're here for,
That's what we're witnessing in this moment.
And in this space today there is nothing to perform here just To be,
There's no healing to achieve,
And there's no release to force,
We're just here witnessing.
Invitation is to bring one hand to the lower belly or the womb if that feels available to you.
Continuing to breathe gently into the body,
Exhaling as and when.
I'm beginning to ask.
What within me is asking to be mourned.
Question,
What within me is asking to be mourned.
We're not here to search too hard.
We're just allowing and witnessing the body to answer in sensation,
Image,
Memory.
Emotional silence.
Because grief might live in the power versus tightness or an ache.
Emptiness,
A burning pressure.
Exhaustion,
Numbness.
Or just a feeling that you cannot yet name.
Remain here,
Remain gentle with yourself and your body.
The body does not unfold through force.
The invitation is to maybe even take a slower inhale into the pelvic space.
And as you exhale,
Imagine giving the pelvis the permission to stop holding everything alone.
Just for this moment,
Allow your exhale.
To give permission to the pelvis to stop holding everything on your own.
And in this moment you may wish to acknowledge the version of you that was never fully supported,
Or the body that kept going despite feeling exhausted,
Or the woman who learned to disconnect in order to survive.
Or the experiences that completely and utterly altered your relationship with safety,
Intimacy or softness.
And if any of these truths arise,
Notice if the body shifts even slightly when it is no longer being moved away from its true innate self.
You do not need to justify your grief for it to belong here.
The pelvis remembers what the mind often tries to move beyond too quickly.
So remaining here with the breath,
The body,
Yourself.
Holding you here.
Yeah,
I'm right here with you.
And if emotion arises,
Allow it to move.
Move with the emotion.
Knowing that you don't need to become anyone brighter or different or changed.
By the end of this meditation.
By the end of this space together.
Emotion is evidence that something mattered.
More than perhaps others acknowledge or maybe even ourselves acknowledge.
And as we begin to close together,
Continue to be with awareness.
With the power of S.
Begin to notice if anything feels different.
If there's a space that feels softer.
And perhaps even more importantly,
Can you remain with yourself without abandoning what you feel?
Bringing in a breath into the body.
Yeah,
When you are ready.
Welcoming you to slowly return.
With so much love.
