Let go of any anticipation you may have from today's meditation and see if you can just tune into the sense of being.
Not being something,
Not being someone,
But just the sense of being.
The sense of your pure self.
The idea behind any meditation or prayer for that is to be and feel the presence that you essentially are.
The sense of being,
The sense of knowing.
So,
Feel free to close your eyes if you haven't already and let go of any sense of anticipation as to what's next.
And see how it feels like sitting without sense of anticipation,
Sense of what's next.
Generally speaking,
Our mind is constantly looking for stimulation as to what's next,
What's around the corner,
What's new and that very subtle impulse also accompanies you as you close your eyes and start meditating.
With practice,
You will be able to recognize that impulse and pacify it.
So let go,
Let go of that last thought and see that you are.
See that before anything is known,
Felt,
Experienced,
You are.
That has never been the case that you are not.
You always are.
That sense of being is the focus of meditation today and exploring the nature of that sense of being is equally essential.
So see that as you sit like this,
Already your body has relaxed and if there is any part of your body that needs relaxing,
Resting,
Adjusting,
Feel free to do that.
But make nothing of that.
Make nothing of any physical sensation that will arise in your awareness.
It can't disrupt your meditation.
It can't disrupt your sense of being.
Remember,
The meditation is recognizing your essential sense of being and exploring the nature of it.
So by definition,
Any thought,
Emotion,
Bodily sensation doesn't disrupt the sense of being.
It is because that you are,
You feel those sensations,
Thoughts and emotions.
So from that vantage point,
Your meditation now begins.
Situate yourself.
See the world from this perspective that you are the presence,
Knowing and being.
Hence the word awareness.
Aware means knowing.
Ness means being.
And you are awareness.
So smile and recognize that essentially all your experiences are because you are awareness.
All your experiences are here,
Are knowable because you are the awareness.
Because you are here,
Because you know.
Make it very clear from the get-go.
There is no other self-definition you are going to cling to,
At least for the duration of this meditation.
So continue to smile as you recognize and pay respect to this miracle of being aware,
Of being the awareness.
None of us remember requesting for being awareness,
Asking for being awareness.
This we are all given equally.
This is what we share equally.
This is the most fairest of all,
Shared equally to all the beings.
So smile and continue to see yourself as this awareness.
Continue to abide as awareness.
And see that your breath is already responding to this,
Is calm,
Deeper.
And see that all your senses are still working,
Functioning without any need to control them,
Without any need to manage anything you are.
In all your glory,
With the light of awareness,
Shines bright,
Without any effort whatsoever needed from your side.
You do not need to establish that you are awareness.
You are hearing these words,
You know that you are,
That knowing,
That sense of being is your first experience,
Your first knowledge.
And because it's before everything,
All your experiences,
It is always taken for granted.
It's like this zero,
Though all the numbers start from zero,
We never count zero.
When we start counting,
We start from one,
Two and three and so on,
But never the zero.
Meditation is being and recognizing the starting point.
So smile and do not delay,
Recognizing your sense of being.
And as you sit as awareness,
All the benefits of meditation flow to you effortlessly.
You do not need to do anything.
You do not need to induce parasympathetic nervous system or activate vagus nerve because they are already activated.
As you sit as just this being,
But as you know,
You have full freedom to be something else on top of this.
And this freedom comes with the price.
As soon as you become something,
You move away from this zero.
So be nothing.
Be nothing special,
Be just this,
The most intimate knowing of yourself without any layers of identification.
Before you are mother,
Brother or any relationship,
You are this.
Before you are any profession,
Lawyer,
Doctor,
Plumber,
You are this.
And as you explore your experience as this,
You can't even find your identification as gender.
Before you are any gender,
You are this.
So let go of any sense of identification and show courage to just abide as awareness.
Continue to breathe in and out naturally.
Continue to smile and pay respect to this knowing,
Understanding yourself as the light of awareness.
Do not go and find where this awareness is.
Do not try to create an outline of this awareness.
Do not assign any shape or even a colorless color to it.
Just like your eyes can't see your eyes,
The awareness cannot see itself as an object.
For your eyes to see something,
There needs to be distance between the object and your eyes.
And for that reason,
Because there is no distance between awareness and awareness,
Awareness cannot see itself as an object.
It's a sense of recognition.
It is not seeing an object as awareness.
So continue to smile as you continue to recognize your most intimate definition and see that meditation is taking place.
As soon as you touch,
As soon as you become,
As soon as you abide as this,
You experience the sense of joy and the peace like two fragrances from one flower.
So much so that the sense of joy and peace are synonymous to being aware.
Being aware of being aware.
And as soon as you are that,
The sense of joy and the sense of peace just presents themselves to you as you.
Not as two separate things,
Joy and peace,
But just as one.
So continue to smile and continue to enjoy what is beautifully represented in this phrase called Sat Chit Anand.
Sat means reality,
The truth.
Chit means knowing,
The awareness.
And Anand means the joy,
The peace.
Knowing the truth of yourself is joy itself.
Sat Chit Anand.
Knowing the truth of yourself is the purest joy.
Continue to smile as you respectfully abide,
Full of love,
Or rather as love,
As this peaceful presence,
Joyful self.
Nothing less and nothing more.
Just this and see how the sense of peace,
The joy and the gentle smile accompanies your recognition.
Did you notice that you did not need to effort for decades,
For years,
For months to recognize this simple truth?
That no scaffolding was needed for you to jump straight to recognizing yourself as the presence of awareness.
But there are pathways that exist that ask you to cleanse yourself first,
So that you can recognize yourself as awareness more clearly,
More readily,
When the time is right in some distant future.
But as long as you understand my words,
The language that is,
You understand that I am this awareness.
And once you recognize that you are this awareness,
We can write theories about this recognition.
And theories are words and words are objects.
When we use objects to describe something that is objectless,
Something that is pure sense of self,
The duality comes.
The separateness,
The separate object explaining the subject will make errors.
It can never be complete.
It can never truthfully create the model of reality.
Hence,
The differences,
Differences between your explanation and my explanation,
The disagreements between saints and religions.
Whereas,
The very guiding principle of all religion was very simple recognition of yourself as this light of awareness.
And once you know this,
And you read the scripture you like from the light,
From the vantage point of this awareness,
All of them makes perfect sense.
Rather,
They confirm what you know.
So,
Know yourself as this light of awareness and then venture out.
See things from this vantage point.
Live life from this perspective.
Show courage to let go of all self-definitions.
Essentially,
Just be this.
Abide as this.
And recognize yourself as this.
And as you do that,
You would invariably also recognize that all other beings are also just this.
Then you do not have to induce compassion from outside.
You become compassionate.
Because how can you be cruel to your own self?
To this awareness that you are is the same awareness that the other,
A so-called other,
Is.
This dissolution of otherness is the basis of love.
After all,
Love is the very definition of being one with someone.
The dissolution of otherness is the experience of love.
So,
When this knowing of you as self and other as self becomes evident in your interactions with other,
You call it love.
Essentially,
It is living life from this vantage point.
So,
Continue to smile as you become more and more familiar with the self you have overlooked in preference for all the objects of this world full of objects.
Continue to smile.
And see that your awareness is listening to these words.
Notice that without any effort,
Awareness knows,
Detects the meaning of these words.
It also knows if there are any thoughts that are doubting this,
That are making its own commentary on sight.
They are also known.
And this knowing of all your experiences is your proof that awareness always is.
Continue to smile and continue to pay respect to this recognition and see how you do not need my words to abide as awareness.
See how the gaps between your two thoughts has already widened.
That you recognize this gap as clear representation of you just abiding as awareness.
Notice that the gap between your two thoughts gives you this space and time,
This clear recognition,
This clear perception of yourself as awareness,
Not as an object,
Not as a colorless space.
But just that innate knowing,
There is always gaps between two thoughts,
Two emotions,
Two bodily sensations,
Two perceptions by definition.
But because they occur so rapidly that you miss the gap.
But in sitting like this,
The gaps become sufficiently wider for you to recognize that you are this gap.
Filling all the spaces between two thoughts and emotions and bodily sensations.
Giving you the illusion of continuity between thoughts and emotions and sensations that you felt that there was nothing else to your experience than shapes and colors and storylines.
But it is essentially because you,
The awareness,
Filling all the gaps,
That the sense of continuity pervaded all your experiences.
Hidden in plain sight,
Your truest definition,
The awareness.
Continue to smile and continue to recognize and abide as awareness.
See how beautifully all the gaps are nothing but the presence of you,
The awareness.
Continue to sit in your own light.