You are the only authority to love yourself.
Sometimes we're at a loss with how to see ourselves.
We want to be happy.
We want to love ourselves.
We want to feel confident,
But we've gone unseen for so long.
We feel unloved,
Alone,
Like an alien on the wrong planet,
Unappreciated.
And so our smart minds try to tell us it must be that we're not good enough,
Not beautiful enough,
Not successful enough,
And we're depleted from trying so hard,
Worn out,
Rejected,
Unshosen.
Sometimes we feel so small,
So insignificant.
How could my life matter?
How could it matter if I'm not experiencing love or experiencing recognition or a more successful career?
How could I possibly be okay if all my life conditions are saying that I'm not?
We don't think there's any possible way we could possibly give ourselves permission to shine with joy and self-love the way our lives are right now.
Because if I was really beautiful and awesome,
Wouldn't members of the opposite sex be drawn to me like bees to honey?
Wouldn't I be super successful?
Wouldn't work and life be rewarding?
I can't possibly be happy when I don't like my life.
That might be like telling life that I'm okay with how things are and I'm not.
When I see a reason to be happy,
When someone else loves me,
Then I'll see my worth.
Well,
What if instead of I'll believe it when I see it,
It's I'll see it when I believe it?
What if it were you that had to change first?
What if your personal theme song had to change before anything in your life would?
What if you were the only real authority to see your true self?
What if you were the only authority to be happy,
Regardless of circumstances or what other people think?
Regardless of what's in your bank account or how your life looks to the outside viewer?
What if you had permission to see yourself the way you wanted?
Now,
Close your eyes.
Let the light come down from the top of your head down through your toes into the ground,
The earth,
The soil,
Three feet beneath the soil,
12 feet beneath the soil.
Anchored in your light going down,
Connected to you through you to the center of the earth.
Take some slow deep breaths.
Feel your connection to the earth.
This place would not be the same without you.
The earth loves you.
Life wants to move and exist through you.
Life wants you to sing and dance and tell your story the way only you can.
Life wants you to love yourself like crazy.
Life only cares what you think of you,
Because really that's the only thing that matters.
The energy comes up through the core of the earth,
Through the moist soil to the dirt,
To the grass,
To your feet,
Your beautiful body and spine that holds you up.
Make a gentle fist with your left hand and place it over your heart and put your right hand over it like you're cradling your own very heart,
Your precious love,
Gently holding your heart.
Say your own name.
Please forgive me for judging you as not good enough.
Forgive me for caring what other people think of you.
Forgive me for looking in mirrors and only seeing flaws.
For thinking of you as deficient and imperfect and not worthy of shining in the world,
Not worthy of my own love.
I was wrong,
So wrong.
Forgive me for being so wrong about you.
I am willing to see you differently and I don't care what other people say.
I don't care what my life looks like on the outside or which people are or aren't in it.
I am willing to love you like crazy.
Please forgive me for withholding my own love from you.
Let me know what you think of me.
Let yourself feel whatever comes up.
Sometimes the sadness just swells up within like an ocean wanting to stop holding itself together and just stream out through your eyes.
It's okay.
It's okay to be with the sadness.
It's okay to be with the craziness.
It's okay to be with exactly what feelings reside in this soul.
All feelings are welcome here and accepted.
Feel your heart.
Feel what it's like to receive your own love.
Feel what it's like to be free from needing anyone else to validate this.
Feel how good your love feels.
It is so good.
The little tender four-year-old inside you has only been looking for your love all along this whole time.
He or she is such a good boy or girl,
So worthy of love,
So worthy of your love.
It is okay to love yourself so much even if life isn't what you want it to be right now.
You are the only authority in your life and you know what you do about the people and powers who aren't receiving you?
Recognizing you,
Loving you back or respecting you?
You stop animating it in your mind with your awareness because your awareness is the only power.
You animate what you place your awareness on.
So in a way,
We're being a little crazy here.
We're saying,
What is reality?
Reality for you will always be where your awareness is.
So why not place your awareness on the very best,
The most beautiful things,
Your most beautiful self,
The knowing that you are divine spirit,
You are beauty,
Compassion,
Wealth,
And infinite potential?
Why waste one second of time giving your power away to a negative point of view?
No more.
You are the power,
My precious warrior friend.
There is only what you think of yourself.
You can place your hands down.
Keep breathing slowly,
Gently.
Think of all your potential.
Think of the way the wind blows against your skin and hair,
Of dipping your toes in a gentle Caribbean ocean.
Think of how the sun shines just for you.
Think of how much life loves you.
Imagine what it would be like to have a living relationship with yourself like the most electric love affair.
So sweet.
Stop looking for someone or something outside of yourself to mirror back your worth.
You have the power to do anything you want to do to make yourself happy.
You have absolute permission to be the only authority on how you see yourself and how happy you want to be inside.
Inside is where it's at.
You are where it's at.
Open your eyes.
Don't apologize for being powerful.
Go shine like only you can.
It's all depending on you.
