Overturning Rejection Protection

This also could’ve been called ‘expecting disappointment and waiting for the other shoe to drop so you keep your heart closed and your mind negative.’ I’ve noticed in my own life, that what I’ve come to know as my ego-mind trying to protect me from more rejection or disappointment - is a pervading sense of pessimism and distrust of happiness. This is about opening the heart and realizing your strength is actually in your lovingness. It is okay to be hopeful and optimistic.

Transcript

This meditation also could have been called expecting disappointment and waiting for the other shoe to drop so you keep your heart closed and your mind negative.

I've noticed in my own life what I've come to know as my ego mind trying to protect me from more rejection or disappointment is a pervading sense of pessimism and distrust of happiness.

Living life disconnected from my heart because a full exposed heart means pain down the line.

But then what happens as a result of trying to protect ourselves is that we're cut off from our own love.

We suffer when we are not in love,

When we are not in our hearts,

When we try to stay safe from the ivory tower of our heads.

So journey with me as I take you down a tranquil path back to your truth,

Your unique,

Badass,

Strong and trustworthy self that knows its heart is where it's at.

You can be seated or lying down.

I suggest your palms are facing up to stay open to the love and wisdom coming in.

Breathe in slowly through your nose,

Hold for a second.

Then breathe out through your mouth like you're blowing out candles.

Let's do that again.

Breathe in.

Hold.

This time sigh it out with sound.

Let it all go.

Let everything that doesn't belong to you go.

Don't even think about it.

You don't need to think or judge.

Anything that's not your awesome self can go.

One more time.

Now breathe normally,

But gently place your hands on either side of your neck.

Feel that you're assured.

Feel that you're held in the gentle love of this life.

Now let your hands go and take one hand,

Place it over your heart and just feel that you are so loved.

You are so secure.

You are calm.

You are not wrong.

You may have been lost,

But you are coming back now.

Imagine at the top of your head is a glowing stream of golden light.

The love of life itself from the angelic realm up above coming down through the top of your head as you breathe in.

Passing through your heart center and into your stomach,

Your power center,

Through your navel,

Through your feeling center,

And down to your root,

Your stability and connection to this earth.

Your strength and security.

As you exhale,

You are sending up this love,

Now a rainbow of colors all the way up through your body,

Through the top of your head to life itself up above.

Let's continue this breathing.

Golden light in through the top of your head,

Through your incredible heart center,

Your power center,

Your feelings,

Your root.

The light just loves your essence.

And exhale a rainbow of all that you are and all that you love right back up that passageway through the top of your head and up into the angelic realm.

Up into life.

Relax.

Breathe as you wish.

Relax.

You are safe.

You are enough.

And you always have been enough.

You may have forgotten who you really are,

But I'd like to remind you that you are love itself.

You have never been separated from it,

Though perception will have you feel differently.

Perception thinks it is protecting you,

But you are love and you have the power to shift perspective back to love.

There are no guarantees in life.

The people we love sometimes won't love us back.

The family we counted on will turn on us.

The project we created won't be accepted by some.

Our creativity will be passed over.

But your loving,

Your expressing is your wealth.

You getting to love and give love away is the great gift of life.

No one and no thing can ever take that away.

Breathe in love and let everything else go.

Again.

Closing up the heart after it's been disappointed one too many times may feel like a tool of survival,

But it actually causes suffering.

Your spirit wants to feel.

Your body wants you to be in it.

Your heart wants to share its essence.

I want you to dig deep and bring to mind the thing that causes you shame and fear.

The insecurities you try to stuff down and keep hidden from the world.

The things you will go to any length to hide from the world.

I want you to imagine taking them.

All these things that you're scared of,

Your fear itself,

Your shame,

And holding them up to great huge sunbeams coming down all around you.

The air of life itself beaming down in warm,

Bright sun that encompasses all of the air around you.

All that darkness inside that you think is so shameful.

All the fear you have about being unlovable,

Being a fraud who doesn't deserve love.

Let it mushroom out of hiding and into the great light,

The great warm light of the sun,

The very air surrounding you.

Specifically here to blow you wide open and shine into all the exposed parts.

It wraps all of your parts in gentle love,

In bright light,

In fall exposition until there is nothing left to hide.

All of the things you try to stuff down,

All in the light of warmth and healing.

Everything now dissipates into warmth,

Into beautiful rainbow colors.

You proudly own all of yourself now.

Breathe in the gentle sunlight of love and let it all be.

You have been so wrong about yourself.

See,

All that you are is beautiful.

All that you are is lovable.

No matter who you are,

What you've done,

What you haven't done.

Life is here with its big loving arms ready to wrap itself around you.

Will you accept this love?

Will you take it in?

Will you let its worthiness become you?

Will you love your own divine warmth?

Will you let your heart sing its song and dance its dance?

Imagine tomorrow morning before you wake up,

You're lying in bed,

The day breaks,

Your eyes open and you feel excited.

Yes,

I get to be me.

I get to feel my heart.

I'm not attached to outcome.

I get to go after what I desire.

I get to love what I love.

I get to be optimistic about everything I love.

My heart is alive today.

I love so much.

Thank you for letting me love so much.

Thank you for letting me get to be me.

I am not in charge of what other people think.

I am not in control of how they feel.

It doesn't matter because nothing will stop my love.

I am a powerful force to be reckoned with.

And I get to love whatever I want without any fear of rejection because I never reject myself and therefore nobody else can reject me.

Breathe in a golden light to your heart.

Let it swim there in giddy excitement.

Breathe out anything that wants to come out.

Gently repeat this a few times.

Breathing in the golden light to your heart,

It swims there in excitement.

Breathe out anything that doesn't belong.

Breathe normally now.

Floating in the feeling that it is safe to feel all of life.

It is safe to be optimistic and excited.

And that no one can take that joy away.

Your vulnerability makes you strong and beautiful.

It is safe to feel.

It is safe to feel.

Your loving makes you beautiful.

Feel free to open your eyes now.

Go into this day or into this night as the angelic creature of great worth and feeling you were born to be.

Your feelings make you beautiful.

Reviews

This is probably the best meditation I’ve ever done on here. It’s so much alignment to some key things that came up in journaling in prayer. The fact that I saw the lions and you came in guns of blazing repeating things that have come up through universal messaging, You are a catalyst for spirit. I rarely say that to people you have a gift.

All that I need to hear and feel in this difficult time of my life 🙏❤️‍🩹

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Just what my inner child needed.
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This was prefect for me and will be on regular rotation, thank you 😊

Such a comforting experience which rescued me from the pain I was feeling. Thank you 🙏🙏

Such a beautiful and powerful track! Thank you for the loving reminder and thank you for sharing your wisdoms. ❤️❤️❤️

This was just what I needed! Thank you so much! I love your voice.

Absolutely incredible. Everything I needed. Thank you so much for sharing. I will continue to revisit this.

Holy wow!! This was exactly what I needed and the most transformative meditation I’ve done in a very long time. Thank you so much 💖💖💖

Wonderful and exactly what I needed today! Thank you so much! ❤❤❤

I am gloriously loving by nature. Thank you for reminding me, Marlene. 🙏💖

God bless you for this amazing meditation that brings so much truth to the surface

Waw Marlene, your meditations are the most beautiful, creative and empowering on insighttimer! This one really lifted me up. Thank you so much and please keep creating.

I’ve been waiting for this and I didn’t know it. Thank you 🙏

Powerful! Thank you so much for this beautiful message and reminder.

I needed to hear this so much, my heart thanks you, my mind thanks you, I appreciate you. 🙏💗

Very cathartic and reassuring after a rough patch w/relationships

Loved this, really helpful for rejection trauma and anxious attachment styles

I loved hearing “I never reject myself therefore no one else can reject me.” I am really going to soak that in. Thank you. 🙏🏼

I needed this. Thank you. You make. Difference in my life and in this world. Many blessings!