Hi friend,
Thank you for joining me today.
Perhaps you've been drawn to this meditation because there are some things that you're struggling with in your heart.
We're going to have a conversation with our hearts,
So get comfortable,
Gently close your eyes,
And let's talk to our hearts together.
Dear heart,
We have been through a lot,
You and I.
We have taken journeys to what has felt sometimes like the end of the earth.
At moments,
I have felt as if you might fracture into a million pieces that I would never be able to put back together.
And yet,
You have never abandoned me.
In the past,
I have built a wall so strong around you,
So tall and so deep that I thought I would never be able to dig you out.
And yet I have.
One stone at a time,
Removing the blockades that kept me from you.
You have taught me lessons,
Dear heart,
About grief,
About love,
About loss.
And there were times that I ignored you and refused to allow you to be open.
There were times when I buried you.
There were times that I wrapped you in a guilt so fierce that I thought I would never be able to find you again.
And yet,
Here you are.
And I love you,
Dear heart.
I would like to bathe you in light.
I would wake every morning just to tell you of my love for you.
I would find the softest strings of light and wrap you up in them gently.
And when those strings fall away,
The darkest parts of myself that I have stored in you will be gone.
I would like to walk into the world and have you seen by others,
My heart,
And not be afraid.
For you will get hurt again,
I will attempt to resurrect the walls around you that I have now broken down.
For I will get scared and feel alone and think that you are the only thing that I have.
So I must protect you by hiding you away.
Don't be afraid,
Dear heart,
For I now have the tools to open you again.
I can sit with my sadnesses and my hurt now.
I can wrap the softest threads of light around you to replace the darkness.
And I can sit with you until the threads fall away and you are open once again.
I can love you with everything I have because I'm learning to love myself.
The walls will come again,
But they will be of shoddy construction that even a gentle wind could blow down.
And you will be filled with love and light once again.
Thank you.