Hello and welcome to your meditation for energy,
Cord cutting,
And contracts.
First,
Allow yourself to create an environment of privacy,
To allow yourself the space and peace.
Closing a door,
Turning on your Do Not Disturb,
And settling into a comfortable position where your body is not sending you any needs for adjustment or discomfort.
I recommend for this meditation to sit upright with a straight spine.
If you're newer to meditation and it's harder to maintain a straight spine,
You can put something beneath your seating bones to prop yourself forward just a bit.
Allow yourself to find a soft gaze and a relaxed body,
Releasing tension from your jaw,
Your shoulders,
Your back,
Allowing your hands to fall open and your face to soften.
Now I want you to imagine yourself in the center of a web.
This web can be large or small,
Complex or very simple,
And each end of this web is connected to someone you feel you need to play a role or to serve or to appease or to honor an expectation,
Someone you feel you have to play a certain part or withhold the true nature of who you are in order to stay connected to.
On each end of this web,
Imagine each person holding the other side of this web almost like a rope,
A cord,
And imagine around you their lay,
Papers and scrolls,
Demands,
Post-its,
All different kinds of paper that have been thrown upon you and thrown into you as if you were at the bottom of this web and those holding the ropes and the cords are on a cliff's edge.
And I want you to pick up one of these papers and just read what it is someone has demanded you to be,
Who you felt you have had to maintain,
The role or responsibility you have had to upkeep to stay connected or attached.
For example,
Must be willing to withhold your truth while I share mine,
Must be self-sacrificial,
Must give more and receive less,
Must be willing to clean up my messes and not expect help cleaning yours.
Anything that you have felt that someone has asked of you without words,
These are your energetic contracts positioned to you by the way someone has made you feel.
Now I want you to imagine yourself as if you are in the middle of this web and allow your temperature to rise,
Your internal core temperature.
Imagine a dark orange,
An ember glowing within you,
Rising up within you as it turns from orange to red and grows and expands within you,
Rising your temperature.
You welcome this,
Welcome this heat,
Welcome this internal fire and take a deep breath in.
And as you breathe out,
Imagine blowing this fire even bigger,
Breathing this fire into life and breathe in and out through your mouth.
Take another deep breath in and blow this fire again,
Causing it to grow.
And keep doing this,
Breathing in and blowing this fire larger and larger as it grows and grows,
Filling your entire body with heat.
And as it grows,
I want you to imagine each of these papers,
Each of these scrolls,
Each of these contracts,
Each of these tiny little notes that have been stuck to you.
I want you to imagine them curling and burning and crumbling to ash.
And as they do,
The fire is blowing the ash into the air,
Dispersing them like dust.
All of the expectations,
All of the things that you have had to maintain,
All of these contracts,
One by one,
Evaporating into ash.
Continuing to breathe in and breathe out.
And encouraging as the fire burns to breathe in and breathe out.
And as you breathe out,
Imagine even blowing the ash into the air.
Breathe in and breathe out.
And slowly observe that around you,
There are no more contracts.
You have been freed.
You can be whoever you want to be.
Feel however you want to feel.
Think freely whatever thoughts you wish to think.
And no one can take that from you.
And now imagine this fire has slowly started to take hold of these cords.
The cords are still in the hands of those who are holding the other end.
But the end that is attached to you is starting to weaken.
And continue to breathe in and breathe out and maintain your rhythm.
As you notice these cords weakening further and further.
Keep breathing.
And all of a sudden,
I want you to become aware of a cord that was behind you as it slowly snaps.
And then another.
And then another.
And now one in front of you.
And as it snaps,
Turn your gaze into the face of the person holding on to the other cord.
The person on the other end,
Standing at the cliff edge,
Who wishes to keep you energetically trapped,
Energetically stuck,
Obliged and committed to the role that they would have you play.
And I want you to imagine yourself able to gaze into their eyes with total acceptance for yourself and advocacy and inner strength and inner ability to allow this cord to release.
Continuing your breath as it singes the last part of the cord,
Keeping you connected.
And moving on to the last cord that you have been stuck with.
Keep breathing.
And stare at the last remaining thread as you breathe in and out,
Fueling that fire.
And I want you to imagine that last cord as it weakened and to break and allowing yourself in this moment to feel free.
Freedom by loving yourself and advocating for yourself and being fully in yourself,
Honoring your body,
Your wants,
Your desires,
Your needs,
And allowing every single hold,
Every single thumb,
Every single grip that has held you in place has loosened,
Weakened,
And broken.
Take a deep breath in now.
Allowing yourself to be fully free.
And finding some fresh movement in your body,
In your neck,
In your hands,
In your back.
Allowing your head to fall back in peace.
The peace of freedom to rest upon you.
You can be whoever you want to be.
You can do whatever you wish to do.
Your life is yours.
Your body is yours.
Your mind is yours.
And your heart is yours again.
And take a deep breath in again.
And release.
And take one more deep breath in.
And with a sigh,
Release it out.
And when you're ready,
You can open your eyes to the room.
