I look inside the heavy load I've been carrying to see what I can get rid of.
Awkward moments galore that I now attribute to my neurodivergence.
Reckless decisions that put me in harm's way.
Romantic relationships I discarded like tissues.
The times I hurt people and did not treat others the way I wanted to be treated.
Deep regret and a shameful amount of shame.
Other people's problems that I took on as my own without limit.
From where I now stand,
I don't know how I stood it.
I wonder if I need a backpack at all.
I used to think I had to keep everything I came across and hold onto it forever.
Now I see that freedom is a treasure.
Yet I've been carrying more than just burdens.
Along the way,
I've also collected compassion,
Gentleness,
Forgiveness,
Love and kindness,
Patience,
Humility,
Generosity,
Courage,
And gratitude.
Unpacking and repacking,
May I continue to sift out the gems and let go of what I don't need.