Sacrifices

I had the thought for a long time about wondering if it meant anything about the sacrifices I have made. I share my thoughts on how the sacrifices we have made do mean something and what it means to me. These experiences were necessary to bring me to where I am today, to know the truth was in my willpower, my heart and soul, the peace, the love, the pain, and the trust and belief that I had in myself. The unjust situations were the catalyst to push me closer to what my heart and soul knew to be true. I am thankful for all of my experiences as it is to be understood, not fought against, one of my biggest lessons I am learning.

Transcript

Hey everybody it's Alyssa here and today what I would like to talk about is sacrifices and how the sacrifices we have made do mean something.

So I thought about this for a very long time about the sacrifices I have made and sometimes I would have the thought like oh does it mean anything you know does it mean anything that I tried to be good you know in all these situations where in these situations that were unjust or the things that were happening to me were unjust you know I thought to constantly be in opposition with what was around me felt like I had to sacrifice all of who I was make all these sacrifices just to survive so I realized that in all those times where I've had to make those sacrifices is where I found my strength so if I hadn't been in all those situations where I was trying so hard to fight for my heart and soul then I wouldn't have understood what was wrong in the world I wouldn't have understood what was you know light and dark and a lot of the times these unjust situations that I was experiencing they would push me into a really dark place but that didn't mean that the light wasn't there and I'm understanding that I needed to have those experiences to build the strength in myself to push me closer to the light to push me closer to the love to push me closer to what my heart and soul knew to be true and to hold close to what your heart and soul knows to be true in these situations is building our strength it is building our love for ourselves it is building our goodwill of heart it is strengthening these things within us that we came here with that is the core of who we are that is has nothing to do with you know the structures around us or the people around us and now at this moment in time where I am in unjust situations I realized that I have learned so much out of my entire life of all the sacrifices that I have made in the unjust situations that now I am stronger now I am able to hand handle these situations better I am able to love myself more because of how the unjust situations were showing me to not love myself and showing me not good things for myself all of those unjust situations showed me what wasn't good for me which did push me to what is good for me so the negative experiences have pushed me to the other side of what is good for me the negative experiences were the catalyst to push me closer to myself my heart and soul what I knew to be true and what I could do to rely on myself to have the resources and tools to make something better you know so I know that if I didn't have the unjust experiences I wouldn't know what is just and right and true and love and care so I realized that those sacrifices I made have only shown me more of who I am and how I feel and what I believe in and it's shown me that I don't have to adhere to the unjust situations and believe what other people say all of that negativity was showing me what is right and what is good and what is loving because it pushed me to understand what that is and that's what we came here with you know that's the core of who we are so it's just been a really huge learning experience to keep keep the love that we know in our hearts among the opposition and know that yes what is happening is unjust and isn't fair or whatever but knowing that that doesn't define us the way that we choose to handle that is going to help prepare us for future situations when we deal with things so that's why I feel like at this time in my life I feel so much more prepared and so much more stronger because I went through all of that I made all of those sacrifices just to survive and just to exist and had to keep believing in myself and had to keep trusting in myself deep down even when I didn't know that I was deep down my heart and soul was telling me what was true and all of the anger and the sadness and all of those negative feelings they had their place and it made sense and if I hadn't had so much pain then I wouldn't have had to try so hard to find the light if I didn't have so much pain and it forced me to see something different to see what I was missing and sure a lot of the times my pain has just pushed me into a dark corner you know it's not all the time that I felt that I could see the light you know in my darkest times I couldn't see the light but it doesn't mean that it wasn't there and it's taken me a really long time to understand that my sacrifices do mean something and it means something for me because that's where I found my strength that's where I found my heart and soul all of those negative situations have been the catalyst to push me closer to what I knew was true in the love and care and the light of this world and it's just really important for me to see that I know that we can overcome these challenges I know that there is a way out I know that there is a better life that we can make for all of us and we start as an individual to make a better life for yourself as an individual when you see these things that weren't good what can we do to change for the better and use these experiences to know that we can change for the better and we have these examples of the negativity and of what is unjust to show us we do need to change for better and how can we change for better and if we weren't born into such darkness then we wouldn't have understood why we needed to change for better this is the catalyst to show us what needs to be changed and why it is so important that the change needs to happen for the better so we do not have to perpetuate a cycle of negativity and pain and hurt and criticism and all these different things that happen that we don't have to perpetuate a hateful cycle just to exist and to see what is happening is the biggest catalyst for the need for change and how we can change for the better and why it is so necessary to change for the better to change the way of life the quality of life who we are the potential of our existence to be able to evolve into an ever-learning ever-loving everlasting endless way of unconditional love and peace and harmony that exists and that is real and I'm going to do everything I can to propel myself forward into the change for the world the change that we need and to know that I have enough proof of all the sacrifices that I have made and everything that I have went through and all the examples of what I have seen to know that there is no greater need than for us to change the world for the better and I am not going to give up on that for myself and for the people I will not give up on myself for any opposition of anyone ever and all of my experiences have showed me that so anyway this is just something that I had in my mind today about the sacrifices that I have made and how it does mean something and the sacrifices that I have made were to show me what I needed to understand so I can make change for the better to see what was going wrong is what's shown me how can we change for the better and I'm going to do everything I can to make that happen in my own personal life to fully love myself in the way that I've always wanted to and to know that I have that freedom and now I don't have to give that freedom away anymore because I'm not in a compromise position anymore I'm not a kid anymore now I know that I can fully love myself in the way that I always wanted to and help show others how to love themselves too and know that there's no need to feel guilty for that and there's no need to feel manipulated to do that there's no need to have anybody say that there's something wrong with that that is something that I'm going to express and empower in myself and other people because it is absolutely necessary and it has been a huge part of what we have been missing here is love and how to love ourselves and take care of ourselves for real not temporary not just do a quick fix everlasting peace and love for all people that is what I'm going to work towards and I will not give up on that