I Need To Be Who I Am

I feel like I've spent a lot of time in my life trying to be good for who I was around, and I realized I lost more of myself in trying to be who others wanted me to be. I need to be who I am now, for me. I honor the sacrifices I made in not being my true self and accept the outcome of what it means to be my true self. I need to embrace my true self and know that I have nothing to lose, I need me.

Transcript

Hey everybody it's Alyssa here and today what I would like to talk about is a lesson that I've had recently and it's I need to be who I am not who other people need me to be. So what I would like to talk about with this subject is normally when I would be say around another person or a group of people I would usually always be agreeable make sure that I didn't do anything to hurt anyone's feelings make anyone feel uncomfortable I always just tried to conform to the situation and to say the other people I was around rather than you know just do what I wanted to do or say what I believed because I didn't want to make waves didn't want to make anyone uncomfortable or anything like this and I realized that me going along with what other people said and what they thought or just agreeing that was in a way I was suppressing my true self just so I could I guess you could say blend in or you know make sure that I was friends with everybody and that you know people approved of me and that I had their acceptance too you know I think there's a lot of different things that go into this actually but what I realized is that the more that I did that I was causing myself anxiety to be thinking about all these different things not to say or do just because of how it would make that other person feel and that's me assuming also how that other person would feel I actually wouldn't really know and anyway so yeah so I did that and it came with anxiety and it also came with me suppressing myself and not being my true self and it was really the anxiety in the ways that I was thinking which was holding me back and now I've been expressing myself more and being my true self and in that I haven't had the anxiety where I'm thinking about what somebody might think say or do I'm not really having those thoughts now now I'm just expressing myself and I've told myself that I accept the outcome of what it means to be who I am and what that comes with and it might hurt somebody's feelings it might make someone uncomfortable it might you know not be like you know such a I don't know might not be like the happiest interaction or something right and it was always important for me to make other people feel better like no matter what so now I'm being my true self and I know that yeah it can cause let's say waves or something like that but I accept that because we're each here on this earth to become our true self and I know the more that I'm my true self I know that I accept myself and then I'm able to accept others and respect others journeys and where they're at and I know not to take it personally because every person is on a different part of their journey right now and that is the truth and I think that sometimes our emotions can get in the way of actually seeing what's happening and surface level you know it somebody might get mad and then it would just be easy to say oh they just they got mad at me you know and whatever you know and that's mean or something and that's not really what's happening here that's purely emotional and what's logical and what's true is so far deeper than that of what's happening in our interactions so basically we all need to be able to express ourselves and accept the outcome that comes with that and then when other people express who they are we have to accept that and understand that that's their journey and that's what's happening here and whenever we say or triggered by what someone else does or says there's something that we need to look at within and everyone needs to be able to learn from each other you know we all have to learn from each other and I believe that we can come back to peace love truth and harmony as a positive cycle that we can all develop and yeah be able to live in that sort of cycle where we give love and grace to ourselves and love and grace to other people and be who we are no matter what that comes with no matter what the circumstances are or the you know the consequences that come with that it's just really important that we all be our true selves because it's going to take away a lot of stress a lot of anxiety and we all need to be able to learn from each other no matter what that looks like or feels like or what anybody thinks and at this point it's not about what anybody thinks anymore we don't have time to think about or worry about what someone else might think of us I've just had so much anxiety of that you know in my interactions in the past of thinking about all those things you know before I would speak before I would do something it's like that's just it's so much anxiety we just can't live like that it's just that's just an unhealthy pattern anyway that I've noticed that it would be it's a really good thing to acknowledge and you know let go of that because we all need to be able to adapt to the people around us accept ourselves accept other people and know that we are each having our own individual experience and we all have had different life experiences that have brought us to our thoughts patterns and behaviors and I know that that's true and there's no room for judgment here that's not what this is about this is about being able to support our mind body and soul fully and understanding what it takes to be able to do that and this is just one part of my journey and one of my lessons about I need to be who I am and not who other people need me to be and I know that that's an easy role to fall into you know I think a lot of us have but yeah it's just something really important to me and now I'm getting to be more my true self and accepting what comes with that and it feels really good because I'm like you know I made these decisions I trust in myself and I believe in myself and it's really important that we can all do that because we're here to live you know our full potential and I just wanted to share all that with everybody today hope everybody has a super awesome day thank you guys so much for listening I'll talk to you soon