Hello,
Hello!
It is noon on April the 8th.
I can't believe how quickly the time is going.
Ah,
Bex!
How are you?
Who else is here?
Callie,
Hey from Ireland!
So glad that you are with us today.
I whirlwinded into this live with a big whoosh of energy.
Hello,
Tara!
Which seems to be the energy of this time.
So we are going to begin with a little grounding meditation and then we are going to tune into what needs to be shared today.
There is so much that is happening in the astrology.
Oh,
Tanya,
Jen!
Yay!
So glad everybody is here.
There's so much that needs to be just brought forward in our awareness because the world is very,
Very loud right now and the Aries energy,
The Mars and Aries energy has people impulsively saying and doing things that perhaps don't need to happen.
And I want to make sure we are in our power as we navigate because I really believe that when we are grounded and steady and we show up in spaces,
Our energy is the strongest.
And so if we can move through this time bringing calm and groundedness and clarity into the conversations,
The communities that we're in,
I feel like our impact is going to be so valuable.
And when others around are like this and we are just calm and in alignment,
We have a lot of power,
A lot of power to do good.
So let us begin with a little grounding meditation for the container for each one of us and then we will take a look at what we want to share.
Just saying hi real fast.
I see Jen.
Yeah,
Look at all the faces.
It's so good to see you here.
I think I saw Debra popping in.
Abigail.
Awesome.
Okay.
Cindy.
Hello,
Cindy.
All right.
Let's close our eyes if you're able to.
If you're not,
It's okay.
Chat is empty.
Interesting.
All right.
We're going to ground and then we will do some philosophizing about what is happening at this time.
If you're able to close your eyes,
Go ahead and settle yourself fully into this space,
This moment,
This time,
Your body.
And how do we do that?
You can begin by focusing on your feet.
So really pulling all of your energy,
Your attention down to your feet,
Which will then pull all of your energy or attention into your body.
When you focus on your feet,
You give yourself this central point that all of your energy can gather and it's the most grounded,
Rooted part of your body that connects to the earth.
So as you focus on your feet with your mind's eye,
You can see your feet.
You can actually wiggle your toes.
You can settle more comfortably into this body,
This moment,
Relaxing your muscles.
What you'll find is,
Especially because we're doing it in community space,
Which amplifies it,
Your energy is going to move through your body down to your feet.
So you'll feel that energy moving through.
It'll feel calming.
Things will seem to slow down in your mind a little bit more than they were when you arrived.
When you relax your muscles and you consciously slow down your breath,
You cue your body to safety.
So you let your body know in this moment and in the next little while,
This is a safe space for me to be fully present.
And then you choose to be fully present.
How do we do that?
When the mind has a thought come in that tells you what needs to be done or should be getting done or you'd love to get done or the people who are waiting for you,
You let the thought come in and you just gently allow it to go out your mind and into the air.
And then you focus on your breath again and you visualize your feet.
And then you invite more of your energy,
Your consciousness to become present.
As you magnetize more of you into your body and you guide your energy down through to your feet,
You'll notice that your body is starting to feel more full or more solid.
When there's a lot of fresh Aries action energy,
It can have us stay up in our minds.
And so this invitation is to come from the mind down into and through the body all the way down to your feet.
Each time you focus on your feet,
You strengthen that current,
That flow of energy that is you becoming present.
And then when you relax your muscles and you take a big exhale and you slow down your breathing,
You remind your body again that you are safe.
And what starts to happen is inside your body,
Things begin to calm.
The anxiousness maybe in your stomach starts to settle.
The fast pitter patter in your heart,
It starts to relax.
The anxiety that maybe was hanging around in your head is being guided down through to your feet.
And then you can just choose,
What if just for this time I give myself a rest from all the anxiety of my mind?
What if I can show up in this space and play in my mind?
Relax in my heart and play in my mind.
What could it feel like if my mind is just open and curious and not afraid?
What if I can follow the threads of the conversation and the comments and all the information that we play with here and just allow my mind to contemplate?
Perhaps to visualize,
To dream,
Maybe even to hope.
What if it could be light-hearted for a little while?
And somewhere in this time,
This spaciousness,
We get to re-center.
We get to calibrate to a community space where,
I don't know,
Maybe things are actually breaking down for the highest and best good of all of us.
Maybe something new is birthing through us and we just needed to be reminded of that.
And so we get to re-center together.
What if you could allow yourself to just receive in this time with me?
Nothing you have to do,
No expectation,
Just focusing on your feet,
Allowing the anxiety,
The overwhelm to go through your feet and into the earth,
And then slowing down your body,
Relaxing your muscles,
Your heart.
What if you could sigh and lean back and wiggle yourself more firmly into wherever you've landed for this time?
Maybe you could open your eyes gently with a sense of childlike curiosity.
What could happen if we play together today?
What could it look like?
What could it feel like for you?
And then you just let yourself receive.
I'm going to give you some information for your mind,
So I'll drop some astrology nuggets and share some of the ways I'm seeing it work in my life.
And some of the stories and the ideas I share will either ping something awake or weave in some threads in a different way than you had thought that it was all connected.
You'll go,
Oh my God,
I never realized that,
Or I didn't think of that with this,
With this.
And then all of a sudden,
It just sort of gels.
It makes sense.
And when our mind can make sense of things that seem incongruent,
That seem fractured,
When our mind can start to make sense of that and go,
Okay,
Well,
With that different perspective,
I'm now in my power because I can choose how I want to create.
Instead of reacting to all the fracture,
To all the disparate thoughts and ideas,
We see how it comes together,
And then we choose,
We consciously step into whatever it is that we want to do next.
That is the big picture energy for April.
We are completing this chapter that has been a certain way that maybe has not made any sense at all.
We are completing,
And we are beginning.
And all of this Aries energy that is swirling,
And you'll hear astrologers right now saying,
It's unprecedented.
Pam Gregory said,
I've been doing charts for 40-something years,
And I've never seen this many orbiting bodies in Aries.
It's 10 of them.
What is this?
When we're in our power,
And we have the information,
And our body is calm,
And it's trusting that everything is happening with some master plan that maybe we just don't understand yet,
We get to lean back,
Straighten our spine,
Lift our chin,
Open our heart,
And go,
Okay,
All right,
Now that I know,
Here's what I choose to do.
And what I'm finding right now is it's one tiny knowing at a time.
It's one next little step,
Big step,
Leap at a time.
There isn't a big master plan that's outlying itself right now.
In fact,
Some of the master plans I thought I had are dissolving and reorienting.
And trying to project too far in the future right now,
I believe,
Has us doing that from the old energy,
From this known what it's been.
And so if it really is new,
Unknown,
Fresh,
More different,
We don't want to seed it from the old plan.
And so we really are in this unknown in-between moment,
Which is why it feels swirly,
Which is why we see leaders,
And politicians,
And communities in an uproar.
I believe the strongest power is the one that's in truth,
The one that's in alignment,
The one that's calm,
The one that has its heart open.
So that is what we're going to be doing together today.
And we'll just see where it takes us.
All right,
Let's go back to the chat.
If you are new here,
Bex is our master greeter.
So as you say hi,
And she gets to know you,
She's going to add your name into this beautiful list.
But let me just quickly make sure I said hi to everybody.
Debra,
Yes,
I saw you.
I saw you.
Abigail,
Oh,
You logged back out.
Now your comment's not there.
I don't know what's going on.
There's a lot of changes happening on Insight Timer.
So we're all just rolling with it.
I made some notes of some things to update you on later,
But we'll get to that.
Renee,
Good morning.
Good morning,
Renee.
Jeff,
Oh,
So glad you're here.
Rebecca,
Look at all the familiar faces.
Roseanne,
Robert,
Yes,
So good.
I love it.
Christina,
Hello,
Christina.
Yeah,
Sometimes you have to gather up and get back in.
Okay,
For those who don't know,
And for those who do know,
We're going to do a quick little recap of some of the astrology.
Because for our minds,
To me,
It looks like we put our head down.
We're working on all the things.
We're doing life.
We're taking care of everything.
And we sometimes forget to look at all of it as a big picture.
Look back at the journey.
Look ahead,
Maybe at where we're going.
We're so tunnel focused.
We're so overwhelmed with just the things that have to be managed in our everyday life that we don't always look at the big,
Big picture stuff.
And so I'm going to give you a big picture reminder today.
And then we'll see where it's going to take us.
I found the note from my first reading with you from August 24th.
Fun find.
And thank you,
Thank you,
Thank you all.
Yay,
Love that.
Love that.
Hello,
Mel.
Callie,
Intentions of peace,
Love,
And kindness,
Hope,
Humility,
And intentions of wisdom towards all leaders,
Including leaders in the United States.
100% Callie.
I love that.
Do you know my daughter's name is Callie?
It's with an IE,
Not a Y,
But it's a beautiful name.
I have said that name so many times in my life,
And I just love the name Callie.
So welcome.
I don't think I've seen you here before.
All right,
Let's review.
We have,
And I'm not an astrologer,
So I'm giving you the sort of cycle understanding of astrology,
And then the energy feeling of it.
I'm an energy reader.
So if you want more on the astrology,
For sure do your own homework,
Do your own research.
There's so many talented,
Beautiful people who will be able to give you a lot more of the specifics.
I'm going to give you this big picture.
So when we are born,
Let's start with that.
When we are born,
The exact placement of all the planets,
Stars,
Everything,
Creates this blueprint for our human journey.
And the blueprint sets in place all these things that the soul is going to work with as the human.
I believe the soul comes with very specific ideas and intentions and concepts that the soul wants to work through.
I also believe when the soul enters the human life,
We forget all of that.
We forget all of that.
And so in this journey that we are taking as humans,
If we forget,
I believe eventually over our lifetime,
We're invited to remember.
Some people remember almost right away.
Perhaps they never fully forget.
Some people remember in their childhood,
In their early adulthood.
Some people,
Like me,
Wait until they go through a divorce and they're about 40 years old.
Some people maybe only remember when they're transitioning out of the body back to being a soul.
There's no right or wrong.
There's no late.
There's no early.
It's just the soul,
The human,
Having this experience.
The placement of all of the planets is what I call a blueprint.
We call it a birth chart.
It's a way to take archetypes,
Which are the planets,
And use them as different lenses to look at our individual story,
Our individual chart.
And when we learn,
Which I didn't do until I was 45 to 50,
55 now,
Taking me a long time,
I didn't really learn or remember how important the astrology was until much later in life.
So now one of my greatest things to tell anyone is you really should spend some time with the astrology because it's a shortcut.
It's a way to put on a pair of glasses and look at your life through this one lens or different lenses and go,
Wow,
Okay,
That makes a lot of sense.
I didn't see it that way before.
I didn't understand myself that way before.
There are a lot of programs or modalities that are based on that idea of where's the placement of the stars the moment you're born.
So Gene Keys is a really powerful one.
Human design,
I'm sure there's,
I think the I Ching probably relates to that.
There's lots of ways that you can,
Chinese medicine,
That you can look at your exact plan.
What,
Hello Jacqueline,
What I like to do because I'm a 5'1 in human design,
So I have this research leadership energy in me,
What I like to do is look at humanity as a whole through the lens of astrology and go,
Okay,
These are the big collective themes,
The big archetypes,
The big shifts that humanity is going through and then share those.
So as I feel and sense and research and understand,
I name something and then anyone in humanity who resonates with that is able to go,
Oh yeah,
I feel that.
I feel the truth of that.
I feel the alignment of that.
Now I'll take that information and go to my individual birth chart and I'm going to be able to understand myself better.
I'm going to be able to work with the big stories that are playing out in humanity better.
And so it's sort of both.
It's like this big collective,
But then also this individual impact.
What has happened in the last year and a half,
A little over that,
Maybe,
And that's probably been about a year and a half,
Is that all of the outer planets,
The ones that move more slowly,
So not the ones close to us that we talk about a lot,
Which,
You know,
All of those,
The bigger ones,
The ones that when they move into a new sign,
It's like the entire axis of everything starts to turn.
Those big outer planets,
Because they move very slowly,
Don't often all sort of overlap in how they turn into a new sign within a short time frame.
They usually stagger out because they're all on their own orbit around the sun.
What has happened in the last year and a half is all of the outer planets have all shifted into new signs within a very short amount of time.
Not only that,
They've moved into the new signs and then moved back into the old signs to review some stuff and then move direct into the new sign again.
So we've had this brutal,
It's a great word for it,
It's been intense.
It has taken,
Not just for individuals,
For humanity,
It has taken the structure,
The way that we felt comfortable in our lives,
Our existence,
Our understanding of being a human on this planet,
And Rubik's cubed it.
Moved everything around,
Shifted it all,
And now we're looking at this new understanding that is not what it was before.
So Rubik's cube is probably a great example because it came to mind.
You know how the colors all match on each of the sides?
If you mix it all up,
Everything's out of place.
What I believe is we're in this mixing it up and we're not going back to where everything is in the place that it looked like it was before.
So if all the colors match before,
All the colors do not match anymore.
And it's okay.
In the evolution of humanity,
So this is long term,
Even bigger than that,
In the evolution of earth,
There are these big cycles.
We talk about the ice age,
The time of the dinosaurs,
The beginnings of humanity,
The cavemen,
You know,
We have these big epochs,
Eras.
And what has happened,
And I'm not saying anything you guys don't know,
I'm just putting some words to it for your mind.
What has happened in the last 100 years?
So if you think of the whole of time,
And then the last 100 years,
It's this tiny,
Tiny little thing.
Think back to Egypt,
The birth of Christ,
If you believe in religion,
If you go back,
We're talking thousands of years,
100 years,
How much has changed so dramatically.
And I believe it's because we have so many souls,
So many humans co-creating on our planet.
We've sped everything up.
We've intensified the experience of being human,
Because there's so many of us.
Think about a classroom of students.
If you have two or three,
That teacher and the students can go deep,
They can go slow,
They can be very individualized.
You get 50 students with one teacher in one classroom,
And it looks like chaos.
That is what's been happening on our planet.
The more soul humans that are creating stories,
And visualizing,
And bringing things into existence,
And having things end,
And having emotions,
And creating waste,
And creating babies,
And creating all the things,
It's amplified and intensified.
So what do we do about that?
Well,
I believe what has happened with this turning of the wheel,
This shift in the energy,
As all of the outer planets have staggered to come into this condensed time frame,
And all move into a new sign,
It feels like a gear shift for humanity.
The word that came to mind is reckoning.
Maybe it's a reckoning.
I don't know.
That sounds kind of brutal.
That sounds kind of intense.
It feels like a timeline shift,
A potential evolutionary leap.
Gene Keys describes it that way.
It's an evolutionary leap.
He uses the word transmutation for humanity.
I don't know that it's anything wrong or bad.
I just think it's the next step.
It's the next phase.
When all of the outer planets turn in this way,
All of humanity is taken into that next evolution.
It doesn't matter where you live.
It doesn't matter if you're in a little town,
In the remote jungles,
In a huge crowded city.
That astrology is impacting the planet,
And everyone who is experiencing life in this planet.
It's just going to play out differently for all of us.
So for your mind,
It makes sense that things are a little chaotic.
It makes sense that the leaders who we gave our power to for so long are not receiving our power the way that they used to anymore.
It makes sense that individuals within this collective are starting to wake up to a different way of being as a human,
A different way of creating,
A different way of managing our mind,
Our body,
Our heart.
I also believe all the souls who entered earth to be alive at this time knew when we came into the body that this time would happen,
That there would be this dramatic shift,
This dramatic evolution.
And that was part of what drew us at this time.
We wouldn't be here.
I don't believe Gaia pulls the wool over your eyes.
You may agree to forget,
But I don't believe there are hidden clauses in the contract that are meant to surprise you or disempower you.
I believe everything that we're offered as an experience on this planet is for the experience of it,
And we knowingly enter into that agreement.
So this time is so much about being in our power,
About remembering our power,
About gently or powerfully or brutally,
Whatever the process is for you,
Learning how to be in our bodies,
In our power.
For a lot of us,
We're not used to having that much energy consciousness present.
We're used to handing it over.
We're used to deferring,
People-pleasing,
Allowing others to always make the decision for us,
Reacting instead of actually proactively creating.
My ears just started ringing.
We're not used to owning the brilliance of who we are.
And I feel like that's been with purpose.
It's so that we can experience the contrast of not having it in order for when we step into it,
All of these planets moving into Aries over the next week or two are going to activate,
Light up,
Fire us up individually.
And it's a collective shift.
So it may be turbulent.
It may be fiery.
There may be a lot of reactive energy.
When we understand it with our mind,
When we can go,
Okay,
All the gears are shifting.
Everything is turning into a new frequency,
A new vibration.
And I'm being invited to consciously participate in that,
Be aware of that,
To consciously expand and strengthen my power and to stay in my body as I do that.
Suddenly,
It doesn't seem as important what other people are doing,
Talking about,
Stressed over.
It's like,
Wait,
All my focus,
My attention is on my own process,
On me staying calm,
Centered,
Grounded,
Walking in alignment.
Okay,
I got to focus on me.
There isn't time for this drama because this is taking all of my attention.
There is a little thing that's going to happen next week also.
Trying to give this to you in doses that are perceivable.
It feels overwhelming,
Just like focus on your feet,
Run the energy down to your feet and just remember we're all in this together.
All these faces you see on the screen,
We're all in it.
And so if we can remember that and walk together,
It just becomes this incredible moment in time,
This incredible moment in time.
I was just saying to my husband and my children last night,
We were all together for my son's birthday.
I said,
You know,
This moment,
It's like the history books years down the road are going to be writing about this time.
And we're here.
We're the ones living this.
Like how epic,
How absolutely mind-blowingly extraordinary is that?
And so we get to create what history is going to be writing.
Yeah,
It's worth the time to focus on being steady,
To focus on being in our power.
Oh,
The thing that's going to happen next week.
I was like,
What was I just going to tell you?
You probably want to do your own research on this because Pam Gregory,
Who's an astrologer I follow,
Just sort of said it like this and my stomach went,
Oh,
So there's this planet called Chiron.
If you're not over 50,
You may not have experienced Chiron in the way that many of us over 50 have.
I did not know much about Chiron until I was about 48,
49.
And then Chiron just blew up a lot of things in my life.
And all of a sudden I realized the power of Chiron and I started to do some research as a 5'1 does in human design.
And as I researched,
I found that there's this thing called a midlife crisis,
But I don't know that it's connected in most of people's minds to the astrology.
Chiron is a planet that is in a certain place when you're born and it's usually generational because it's a 50-year cycle.
So it'll be for lots of people for many years.
You all have Chiron in the same place.
As Chiron makes its way around its own cycle,
At 50 years,
It's going to come back.
Oh,
Yeah,
He was here.
So glad you're here.
As it comes back to the place where it was in your birth chart,
It's going to check on how you're doing.
So Chiron is known as the wounded healer.
I mean,
Just let that sink in.
The wounded healer.
When Chiron comes back at 50 to your birth chart,
It's going to go,
How are you doing with that childhood wound?
The main one.
The thing that you really don't ever want to look at or talk about.
That one.
How is that going for you?
For me,
That was abandonment and not feeling safe.
We moved a ton when I was a child.
And so I was constantly in this place of upheaval.
And so Chiron came into my world again,
My awareness around my 50s and completely opened up my friendships,
My feeling of belonging,
My safety.
And it was chaos for a while.
In that process,
Chiron offers us the opportunity to work through that big wound.
To actually get to what the root of it is.
And if we're able to,
To transmute it.
That's why it's called the wounded healer.
The thing that was our greatest wound becomes the thing that we actually can take other people through in healing because we've healed it in ourselves.
So next week,
Chiron is going to do something in the astrology conjunct.
I don't know.
Someone might have to look it up for me.
Chiron is doing something the day before the new moon in Aries.
The way that Pam Gregory described it is it's giving us a chance to finally let go of that old story that we've been carrying around from our wounded childhood.
Finally stop the narrative that we've been running in our head that always plays,
That brings us back into being small and tiny and not feeling safe.
So we're going to have this emphasis on clearing that,
On seeing it,
Clearing that right before the new moon in Aries.
This new moon in Aries is to me like a declaration to ourselves,
To the universe,
To everyone around us,
Whoever we want to share it with.
This declaration of what am I doing?
Where am I going?
What is the path going to look like?
And it doesn't have to be a declaration of a seven-year business plan or a forever and ever and ever relationship.
It's a declaration of I'm in alignment and I'm going to go this way.
And this is the first thing that feels in alignment with that.
The first step,
The first oomph,
Right?
So all of that is going to happen next week.
Ilana,
Oh,
I saw your picture.
I'm so glad you're here.
Bonjour.
So happy to have the day off enjoying.
Amazing info and energy.
Mind-blowing.
It is kind of mind-blowing right now.
Yeah,
So interesting.
I learned about Chiron through one of the Oracle decks I use.
It is the planetary healer of dandelion.
I love that,
Dandelion.
And the keyword is wounded healer indeed.
Happy to learn more about it with you.
Beautiful.
The planetary ruler.
Yes.
Yes.
So let's take a pause for a moment.
Move energy to your feet if you need to.
Take a sip.
Is that what it is?
Robert,
Thank you.
If you could give me the nugget.
I forgot to write it down of what's happening next week.
I think it's on Thursday.
Is that right?
And then the new moon is on Friday.
So what is important to say is that you can't screw it up.
You can't screw up the new moon intention.
You can't screw up the shift in consciousness.
You can't screw up your path,
Your story.
Awesome.
You're going to be guided by your soul in your human story no matter what.
Every day there's choices that present.
We make a choice and we go in whichever direction the choice is going to take us.
The soul,
Big picture,
Working with the human is already a win in this lifetime because you're in a human body.
The fact that your soul made it into a body,
Took a breath,
And started creating an existence on this planet is all you ever needed to do in this life to be successful.
You showed up.
You took a breath.
So everything else is bonus.
Everything else is like,
Oh,
We get to work with this.
We get to try this.
We get to play with this.
And if this takes us in this direction,
It must be because there's something here for me.
And if this is a hard no and I'm not supposed to go in that way,
It's because there's nothing in this path that's actually going to expand me right now.
So I'm going to just constantly trust that simply existing is already a sign that everything is in place.
Everything is in alignment.
If we can lean into that,
And I could not have told you that in my 20s,
In my 30s,
In my 40s,
In my early 50s,
I could probably only have really told you that and meant it in the last couple of years.
Because I've always felt like there has to be some massive purpose.
If I don't fulfill the purpose and then I die and I go back to being a soul,
My guides are going to just tell me I was a failure.
And the more,
Just the more grace I have for myself,
The more I lean into this gorgeousness of being human,
The beauty of being alive.
It's like I exist.
I couldn't have done anything more incredible than be the soul that created this body with my mother and somehow arrived and took a breath.
Everything else is just extra.
So if we can lean into that,
Relax our bodies,
We're not on constant alert and defense and high drama.
We just focus on our breathing.
And then this information can come into our mind and go,
Okay,
Astrology is moving,
Humanity is evolving.
There's a current of energy that is collectively sort of gathering together.
Or carrying me in a certain way.
Why don't I learn more about that?
Lean into that current and work with the astrology,
With the energy,
Instead of trying to fight it.
So I can say these things to you.
I can go,
Okay,
So our wounds from our childhood may feel an extra squeeze next week.
Great.
What will I do?
I will probably create a little extra time to meditate.
When I feel triggered,
I'm going to remember in my head,
Like,
Oh,
Wait,
It's that Chiron thing again.
Okay,
So maybe it's not this big drama that I think it's supposed to be and that person didn't really mean that thing that got me all upset.
What if all of this is just consciousness,
Information,
Light,
Mirroring to me something that I can finally let go of?
What if it's serving me?
To have that thing pop up.
You shift the story in that moment.
You put yourself in your power.
And in that moment,
You get to choose.
So you can get all twisted with whatever the thing is,
Or you can go,
How would that be connected to my wound?
What does that make me feel of when I was a child?
Did that happen with my parents?
Not from a place of,
My parents are the worst,
Or I can't believe I have to think about my childhood,
Or I'm the victim of anything.
Just from a place of,
Wow,
If that is connected somehow to that,
Can I see the connection?
Because the soul will show you the connection.
The human will go,
The human will do this.
I do not see you,
You are not there,
And I do not want to address you.
But the soul will sneak through all that and go,
Wait,
This is the opportunity we've been waiting for to release that.
Let's take it.
Let's take the opportunity.
Let's sit.
Oh,
It's going to be uncomfortable.
You're going to squirm.
You're going to sit in your meditation and be like,
Uh.
But what if,
In that clarity,
Something you have been caring for your whole life can transmute?
Did you see I did a bow?
I tied a little bow,
Smoothed it out.
What if you and your power get to do that?
You and your power get to alchemize a story and then create something so beautiful.
That thing you're going to create is freedom,
Calm,
A quiet mind,
A more peaceful heart.
Not that inner friction or tension that's just always under the surface because we're so afraid to be with the thing that our soul is like.
All you have to do is be with it.
Just be with it for a moment.
And in that moment,
It will change.
Our ego,
Our mind,
Our human thinks that we're staying safe when we are like,
I don't need to look at that.
I've looked at that 20 times already.
Do you know how much therapy I did with that topic?
That childhood thing?
I have talked that to death.
The way my siblings fire me up?
No,
I'm over that.
I don't care about them.
They're not part of my lives.
Like,
Forget it.
Said from someone who has done all this,
Felt all this,
Right?
It's still not so easy at 68.
I hear you.
I hear you,
Cindy.
But you're here and you're listening and you're opening to it.
That is magnificent.
So beautiful to hear and receive what you just shared,
Bex.
Relatable.
This has been very scrummy for a while,
Sibling.
I just had my whole family here over the weekend.
Not necessarily for Easter.
I don't celebrate Easter.
But because that was the best weekend where my sister could come to town.
And so we all got together.
And it's so fascinating to see the way our siblings,
Our parents,
Family interact and observe it.
Not necessarily judge it or want to change it.
But simply observe it with an open heart.
With a heart that's like,
Wow,
I chose this family.
These souls.
I said yes to these souls.
So what are we learning from each other?
What is this about?
It's a little shift in how you look at it.
And it can transmute so much.
It can bring so much grace into the conversation.
I'll share this little moment because it was so beautiful.
It was just so beautiful.
So I have an older brother.
This is going to be a rest for your mind story time for a moment.
I'm the middle of three.
I have an older brother who's a year and a half older than me.
And then I have a younger sister who is almost four years younger.
My older brother lives in town.
We hardly ever see each other.
We just have very different busy lives.
My younger sister lives about four hours away.
She sort of dips into town and dips back.
And that's kind of how our connection is too.
It's good.
But it's sort of dipping in and out.
She's very busy.
And there's a lot going on here.
So when we all come together,
We haven't usually seen each other or caught up on news in a while.
We're not big texters or callers.
So when we come together,
It's like lots happening.
Well,
In the last six months,
My brother's oldest daughter had her first baby.
So the first grandbaby has arrived into our family dynamic.
His name is Harry.
He's adorable.
So Harry showed up at my house.
Shame on me.
I've only seen him once since he was born.
So in he comes.
I haven't seen the whole family dynamic with all of them.
They're very close.
My brother and his daughters and the wife are very close.
They come in.
Harry starts being passed around to all the people in the room.
I haven't seen my brother as a grandfather.
So I'm just curious.
And I'm getting the food ready and running around and doing stuff.
And I hear the baby crying and the baby stops.
And then the baby will cry again.
The baby stops.
Apparently,
Every time that happens,
It's when my brother gets the baby out of whoever is holding him when he's crying.
And my brother holds him and he stops crying.
So I go in the room.
My brother had taken Harry into the other room.
And my niece says,
It's crazy.
It's like they're best friends.
I don't understand it.
But he always can get the baby to stop crying.
So people move around.
Maybe an hour later,
We're all in the living room.
And I say to my brother,
Because he again took the baby from his wife,
Who's the grandmother,
And is holding the baby.
And the baby's just kicking his feet and playing with his toes and totally chill.
And I said,
Oh,
My gosh,
John,
It's like you guys are such good friends.
And he goes,
We're not good friends.
We're best friends.
It was the sweetest moment.
It was like everybody in the room knew.
John,
Harry,
Best friends.
It's this beautiful soul agreement that brought them together.
And I don't get to see that very often.
But when we come into the old dynamic with open hearts,
Fresh eyes,
Curiosity,
It's like we can lean back and see things,
See each other differently.
I've never seen my brother.
He was a great dad when his kids were little.
But I've never seen him enamored with a child like he is with this little boy.
It's so sweet.
And there's magic.
There's magic in the family dynamic.
And if we allow ourselves to show up wanting to transmute the wound,
Wanting to complete the old belief pattern,
Whatever it was,
Something can change for us.
So it's potential.
It's available.
It's not known.
And that's just one little example.
So that's Chiron.
Next week,
We really went down a rabbit hole with that one.
Yeah,
Is there anything else I want to say?
I think we're going to open up in a few minutes for readings.
So if there's anyone who would like to bring through a message,
And if you haven't done one before,
I would rather help someone who hasn't done a reading yet.
If not,
We'll go through whoever's available.
Ilana is like,
Hold up there,
Viv.
You can't get out of that one so easy.
All right.
Ilana is like,
Great.
I want the lesson,
Please.
Let me help you with that.
So here's what Ilana wrote.
Oh,
I am curious to hear,
What then is your take on the choice you made in your childhood to feel safe,
Like being a people pleaser,
Or unable to defend yourself?
And so for when you notice you keep doing it as an adult and resent it,
And yet not sure if I have to do the opposite,
Or if you can even like speaking up against big or small,
Firm of abuse or non-confrontational.
Yeah,
You've got a lot in here.
What would I offer?
Let me give you my example first,
And then we'll specifically look at you.
For me,
I grew up in a family that was constantly on the move.
My dad was traveling a lot.
My mom was home,
But angry because she was home.
It was very overwhelming,
I think,
For my mother to have three children.
So there was a lot of resentment.
A lot of underlying frustration and anger.
And as an intuitive little girl,
I could feel it,
But I didn't know how to fix it.
And I didn't know how to manage myself separate from my mother.
And then my father would come back from traveling,
And there'd be a big round of discipline because we were all so bad while he was gone.
And my mom would be crying.
I said,
There was just this,
There's just a lot in our childhood.
I also grew up thinking that was just normal,
That every family moves like that and is constantly disrupted with school and neighborhoods and houses.
And I just thought that's just how things are.
And later,
As a mom raising my own children and then going through a divorce,
I can see how the safety,
The sense of needing to feel safe in your home,
In your family,
In the ways that people communicate,
Feeling safe in the energy,
The frequency of the home,
Sets the tone for the child growing up.
In my woundedness,
So in my 20s,
30s,
40s,
Especially going through my divorce,
I looked at my childhood as through a victim mindset,
Through this idea that it was done to me,
That my parents made all these decisions and that I had no power.
And so I'm recovering from the life that my parents created for me.
And I think that's normal.
I think that's a,
I think the idea of that is normal,
That part of our evolution from full childhood into full adulthood,
Into full individuation is going through that unraveling.
How much is our fault?
How much is their fault?
What I have found over the last five to 10 years of lots of healing and meditation and journaling and writing and deep work is that my belief that the soul chooses the human story doesn't just apply to the good stuff,
The good stuff.
I believe the soul choosing the human story sees all of it,
Understands all of it.
And somehow it doesn't make sense to the human,
I don't think,
But somehow the soul knows that whatever that story is that we're going to live is going to help us work on the themes that we came here to work on.
So my soul put me into this little girl body that didn't trust the energy,
Didn't feel safe,
Didn't feel like she had a voice,
Didn't feel like she really belonged,
Felt misunderstood,
Never felt safe in school,
You know,
Always trying to fit in,
Always trying to make sense of things,
Trying to understand the energy when the words the adults were saying didn't match the energy,
Trying to figure out the body.
You know,
There was so much that makes me kind of emotional talking about it.
It's like the journey of my childhood into my adulthood put me into an adulthood where then I had those wounds.
So what do we do?
We recreate those wounds as parents,
As wives,
Husbands,
Partners.
We go into the relationship to work on the thing that we haven't healed from when we were a child.
So I step into a marriage,
Consciously choosing a marriage,
Where I didn't feel safe.
Things were erratic.
I could feel that the energy was off,
But I didn't know how to say it or trust it.
I didn't have the tools at that time.
I hadn't studied energy reading.
I was trying to read self-help books,
But most of them were for the mind.
We didn't talk about the body.
And then I had children,
And I was trying to parent from the way I had been raised,
Thinking that that was the best way to parent.
So we recreate.
We have the opportunity to kind of work through the things that came up in our childhood.
I believe it took me a long time to get to the place of understanding,
But I believe in that not feeling safe in my childhood,
There was the strengthening,
The conviction in me to create safety in as many of the places,
Relationships,
Communities as possible.
And so the more that I've healed my feeling of not being safe,
The safer my spaces and relationships have become,
Including with my children.
The more that I have practiced using my voice to name the energy I feel and see,
Which doesn't often match the words,
The experiences,
The stories that people are telling me,
When I name the energy,
It goes right to the core,
To the truth of what's underneath whatever the blah,
Blah,
Blah is that people are trying to claim.
And when I name the truth,
It releases the energy.
You can feel it in your body when I just did that.
It releases the contraction or the unsafe that created the need to try to cover something up.
It's like the truth can go right to the core and go,
And we breathe more deeply,
We drop into more safety.
So from a big picture story,
The soul that chose this human life that I'm living as Vivian couldn't have been able to hold this kind of a conversation or a space if I hadn't lived through the story of my childhood,
Embodying,
Experiencing the contrast that I'm now able to hold.
It's taken me a long time to work through that,
To get to that.
But that's the point of why my soul chose this journey.
It wasn't for the quick drop in,
Fix it,
Move on.
It was,
No,
Let's be in that.
Let's actually feel that.
Let's understand that.
Let's be able to put words to that.
Let's study it.
Let's not just ride over it.
Let's be with this.
That was my path.
Some of the most powerful healers and guides,
In my opinion,
Are the ones that have really some of the deepest,
Most trauma-filled early parts of their journey.
And I believe that takes a very strong,
Courageous soul that is willing to go into a life that is going to be so difficult.
It takes so much courage.
It takes so much strength to stay in that and to keep walking through,
And learning,
And transmuting,
And healing,
And owning,
And expanding.
Sometimes it's easier to just put the covers back over our head and numb out,
Which is what a lot of the relationships I've been in have had to work through.
There's a numbing out,
A not wanting to feel because the pain or the intensity of life is too much,
Which was a merit to my childhood,
What I saw.
But now it's like,
For me,
I'm not afraid of the depth.
I'm not afraid of being with the pain or sitting with someone in the pain.
And I absolutely believe in the beauty of this life,
In the flowering,
The magic,
The potential to create anything that we desire.
And when we move through those painful places,
We don't run from them or disown them.
We own them,
But we move through them.
We learn how to bring our energy in our body and release the anxiety at our feet,
And straighten our spine,
And open our heart again,
And breathe into this life.
It becomes easier to be hopeful.
It becomes easier to create.
A new moon in Aries arrives and we're like,
Yes,
Okay,
What should we intend to do next?
How,
What?
Not from avoiding or disowning,
But from,
Yeah,
I've lived this.
I've done this.
I'm so strong.
I'm so resilient.
My soul is here to create some things.
And it's going to come from the strength of who I am.
So what would I want to create?
What should we do?
Pluto in Aquarius,
Which is a big 20-year cycle that we're going through collectively,
Started in November of 2024,
And it's going to go all the way through 2044.
Pluto in Aquarius is that planet of transformation,
And it's bringing transformation in community spaces.
Over these 20 years,
We're going to see community redefined in ways we can't comprehend.
It's like we could hope that there's such a potential community experience,
But to actually live it,
Be part of creating it,
What?
That's really what I feel my work is going to be doing.
It's how do we keep deepening and steadying these kinds of experiences in community spaces?
How do we transcend the surfacy talk and actually get to this place where we can describe what we're feeling and name it and share it and support each other?
Celebrate each other.
We can have these ideas and go,
I have this idea,
Do you want to collaborate?
What could that look like?
What would it feel like?
Yes.
Right,
Bex?
And Lauren is here.
Oh,
I'm so glad you're here,
Lauren.
All right,
Let me go back,
And I want to make sure I addressed what Ilana is sharing.
It isn't just for me.
Yes,
It's for all of us.
Thank you for bringing this up,
Melissa.
I'm emotional hearing this.
It all resonates so much.
You're welcome.
Thank you for being here.
A different experience,
But yet as a fellow intuitive energy empath,
Same learning.
Yes.
Thank you for letting us connect so deeply and transmute alongside each other.
Exactly,
Ilana.
Exactly.
You get it.
Lauren,
Yay.
Yay.
I met Lauren in person in February when I went to Tucson,
Arizona.
She drove down and we got to hang out,
Which was awesome.
Yes.
Okay,
Jen,
Let's meet in person.
And Madeline,
Oh,
Thank you for sharing your childhood story,
Viv.
Yes.
I mean,
That's the point,
Right?
As a 5'1",
What I've learned,
Too,
Is my way of leadership is lived embodied sharing.
It's not theory.
I would love to teach theory,
But that would make me a professor in a university,
Not someone sitting here with a bunch of meditators you see right through all the games.
You can't do it that way.
All right,
Ilana,
Let me look back up here.
I'm curious to hear what then is your take on the choice you made in your childhood to feel safe,
Like being a people pleaser,
Or unable to defend yourself.
And so for when you notice you keep doing it as an adult and resent it,
Yet not sure you have to do the opposite.
Yes.
Okay.
So I feel like I answered it.
Let me address the abuse question for a moment.
Actually,
Do I want to?
I don't know that I want to in this slide.
It doesn't feel like this is the right space for that.
Maybe what I need to do is create a talk about that separately and put it into its own bubble.
I think I'll do that at some point when it feels right I will create something just about that.
For now what I would say is the I believe the journey of the soul in the human more than anything else is absolutely to love to come into harmony and alignment with ourselves.
When you talk about people-pleasing,
People-pleasing is I don't love myself enough to say no to the thing that you want me to do which I know actually I don't want to do.
So instead I'll look like I'm going to love you more by doing the thing you want me to do for you at the cost of not honoring myself.
We all do that.
I shouldn't say that.
Many of us do that in many ways.
I just did that last night trying to manage all the people in my house and it it wasn't the right thing.
I should have held my boundaries in a different way and I woke up at 3 o'clock this morning pondering all of it and like okay next time next time I will do it like this.
I needed that example to clarify and strengthen my boundaries even more.
But sometimes in the moment we default to the old pattern.
We do the thing and we're not realizing and then later we look back and go I wish I wish I had made a different choice.
When the soul and the human find this harmony,
This balance,
This commitment to the self over everything else,
I believe it actually serves everyone around us.
Because if I'm in alignment,
If my soul,
My body,
My heart,
My mind are all congruent,
Coherent,
At peace,
Communicating,
Honoring,
Then the way that I am engaging with everyone around me is coming from this really centered space.
And so that's good for everyone around me.
It may bump into other people's edges or boundaries or desires but if if I'm in alignment it serves all the people around me.
It may create different conversations.
It may change some of the things that are happening in our reality.
But if we're in alignment I believe that serves the people that we're bumping into or ruffling feathers with.
But it takes a lot of courage,
Or at least I believe for myself,
It takes a lot of courage to feel that alignment,
Know that it's going to ruffle some feathers,
And still speak that alignment into those spaces.
And I think maybe that's what you were talking to,
Ilana.
If I'm in the family dynamic,
Which I didn't have any of this on Saturday,
It was really nice to be with my family,
Not feel any things that I would have done differently.
It just all was good.
Last night with my son's birthday I didn't do it great.
I didn't hold a good boundary.
But Saturday I rocked it.
But when we're looking at the dynamics the way that we normally do,
The way that we normally are in those dynamics,
And we're not in integrity,
And then the thing starts to happen,
The pattern that we've played out for years and years and years,
We're not coherent.
We just can easily default into what we've always done and how we've always been.
And then if we're wise,
Later when we review and we look at it,
We'll learn from it.
We'll go,
Oh,
Okay,
Next time I'm going to use my voice.
This is what I said last night.
I'm like,
Next time,
Or at 3 a.
M.
This morning,
Like next time I'm going to say,
No,
This will end at this time and this will begin at this time.
And they're two separate things and we're not going to try to merge them all together.
Because when we merge them all together it doesn't work.
But we learn from that.
So now there's this coherence in myself that says,
Okay,
Next time I'm going to be clearer in my communication.
I'm going to use my voice better.
I feel like each time we do that,
Each time we activate that awareness and we make that commitment to ourselves,
Now I'm loving myself more,
I'm honoring myself more,
And I'm going to show up,
Which is going to serve everyone else differently.
So let me know if that answered your question.
Do you find yourself as an empath to excuse people's behavior because you couldn't?
Oh,
Ilana has got some good questions.
Yes,
Let's talk about that.
Jen,
Thank you,
Babe.
Thank you so much for being the beautiful you you are.
Thank you,
Jen.
Wonderful.
Robert,
Not opposites,
Balance with boundaries.
I love that.
Jen,
Exquisite.
Okay.
I'm getting,
Oh,
Hang on,
My camera went wonky.
One second.
We're going to do a quick reset.
There we go.
Okay.
And new perspective.
Here we go.
Do you find yourself as an empath to excuse people's behaviors because you can see the good in them?
How would I want to answer that?
As an,
That's not even quite the right word.
As an intuitive,
As someone who reads energy,
As someone who believes souls and humans,
And we have contracts and we,
You know,
Do these things.
I often will see the potential in what I believe the soul is here to do as the human.
And so when I,
In myself and in other people,
And so when I see the potential,
I like to speak to the potential.
I like to encourage the person who I see could be this thing to be that thing.
And what has happened,
A woman I used to work with once said it really well.
She said,
Sometimes you read energy and you tell people what's in their diary before they're actually ready to read the diary.
And that's probably the best way to explain it.
It's like,
I can see what is coming or what's ahead,
But they're not there yet.
They're here,
But I'm speaking to them there while they're trying to be here.
And that creates a friction or a misalignment,
Perhaps.
That's not quite the right word.
What would the word be?
It's like,
They're not there yet,
But I'm wanting them to be there and they know they're not there.
And so they feel lack.
They feel like they're not doing it right.
They feel like they're behind.
And instead of meeting them right where they are,
Can you feel the difference in that?
I'm assuming you can feel the difference in that.
What has shifted for me,
And again,
It just feels like the older I get,
The more compassionate I become,
The more understanding I am,
The more I'm like,
I have so many flaws I'm still working through.
I'm not going to try to tell you that you need to be anything other than what you are,
Because I'm still figuring it out.
And there was a time in my journey,
Especially in my spiritual awakening,
Where I thought I had it all.
I knew all the answers.
I had all the secret codes.
I knew everything.
I knew more than all the other people knew.
It was definitely a big sort of ego.
I can see and read and know.
So humbling happened.
And also more acceptance of myself.
It was like,
I love who I am right now,
And I don't want someone else to tell me that I should be anything other than that.
This moment I'm in,
I'm still learning so much.
I don't have it figured out,
And I'm not the version of me yet that I'm becoming.
I'm on the path to it.
I'm leaning into it.
But I want you to love me exactly as I am right now,
Not for who you think that I can be,
For you or for anyone.
And so in that journey with myself,
I have been able to hopefully be more that for everyone around me.
So yes,
I think we can speak to the good in someone.
We can speak to the potential in them.
But to me,
It's more,
Can we just love them right where they are?
I don't need you to change.
I don't want you to change.
I want you to be on the journey you're on.
And I'll tell you,
If you want,
What I see,
And maybe it'll inspire you.
But I'm still going to be with you right here in this moment as we're making our way to whatever that is.
Let me know how that resonates for you.
Yes.
I feel that way.
Robert,
Resentment requires forgiveness.
Forgive the person.
Set boundaries on the behavior.
Yes.
That's so beautiful.
I get this explanation 100%.
I do that with some people.
Yes.
Merci.
I asked only because I trust and see you.
Oh,
Thank you.
Thank you,
Alana.
I'm so glad that you trust the space.
That means a lot to me.
111.
Madeline,
What often serves me is to remember that as much as I trust my divine timing and soul path unfolding,
I also get to trust that for everyone else in my life too.
Yes.
Yes,
Yes,
Yes.
Yeah.
It's a curious thing,
Isn't it,
To be empathic or intuitive and sense and know stuff,
But then you want to tell them,
You want them to know what you know and see what you see.
And also,
Maybe they're not meant to.
Maybe they should ask you,
What has helped me?
And this might be helpful for you also.
What has helped me is to really practice any time.
I mean,
It's different in this space because if you ask for a reading,
You want what I'm going to share with you.
But in most of my community spaces,
In my energy sessions,
My work,
In my relationships here in my own current life,
I ask permission before I offer my opinion.
Maybe not with my children.
I could do better at that because they're grown up now,
So I could do better at that.
But I usually ask for permission before I offer what I see or know for someone.
And I always say,
Like,
You have the right to say no just as much as if you want to say yes,
And I'm fine,
Whatever you decide.
Asking permission of someone,
It's as simple as saying,
I have a reflection or an idea.
Do you want me to share it?
Is it okay?
May I share this with you?
And if they say yes,
Share it.
If they don't,
Don't.
And that builds safety.
That builds trust in a relationship.
Yes.
Jen,
I feel behind and somewhat stuck in my wounds.
I want to trust myself and I want to believe I'm going to be okay.
I feel hurt and misunderstood,
Maybe because I haven't truly felt home within myself.
Yeah.
Yeah,
That's huge.
That's huge.
What would I offer you?
I feel like the way,
It's like strengthening a muscle.
You know,
The way to develop or build trust in ourselves is to have those micro moments where we honor and trust and it strengthens.
The right way to describe it,
How would I tell you?
It's like micro successes,
Micro wins.
So when your intuition is telling you something or you're feeling like,
Okay,
I know this is the right thing.
Do the one little thing.
Don't do the huge,
Big master plan.
Do the one little thing and then pull back,
Reassess,
Feel into it.
How's that feel?
What happens is you start to communicate with yourself in real immediate moments and it reinforces.
You're like,
Oh,
That went well.
Just like I showed you.
Saturday went great.
Last night,
Not so great.
Okay.
Lean back,
Feel into it.
What will I do next time?
Okay.
So then I practice the muscle again.
So the next time I'm going to do it differently because I remember I've learned from what I've done.
I trust myself.
I know now I'm not going to do it this way.
I'm going to do it this way.
And the more I trust myself and I have another micro moment where I act on it,
You start to create a reinforcing loop.
Well,
I guess it's more this way.
You take a step,
You assess,
Take another step,
Assess.
It's like the little child that has to keep pulling itself back up to learn how to walk and it'll fall down and get up and fall down and get up.
But each time it stands up and studies it,
She,
He,
Each time the baby stands up and studies themselves,
They're a little more confident in the fact that they can stand up.
And so over time they can just get up and start walking.
It's the same for us.
So yours might be your voice,
Your throat chakra,
Jen.
If you're saying you feel hurt and misunderstood,
Maybe as you trust what you say or what you ask for,
Or how you share what your emotions are,
Your experiences are,
You'll be heard differently because you're speaking from more truth.
You're speaking from a calmer,
Deeper knowing in yourself.
So when you say something now,
Because it's coming through you so clearly,
The people who will be hearing from you will hear it differently.
And so the communication shifts.
I can feel my heart.
I hope it's okay,
But you brought it up.
So I'm assuming you want reflections.
I can feel my heart like,
Do I really want to say the thing?
Do I really want to be vulnerable?
Do I really want to open my heart?
Because it's been hurt before.
It's been misunderstood before.
And what if it's not safe?
And yeah,
I feel that.
So to everything we've been practicing here,
You slow down your breathing,
You call all of your power,
Your attention into your body,
And you run all your energy down to your feet.
Can you feel how you're in your body when you do that?
You're in you.
It's like you pull all of you into your body and you run it all the way down to your feet.
And then you relax your muscles and you remind your body you're safe.
You may have to do that over and over and over again just to get your body used to the feeling of you being at home in your body.
The more you do that,
The more you normalize that feeling,
The easier it's going to be for your heart space to feel safe.
If you're out of your body,
If you're everywhere else,
Then the heart is like,
Oh,
What's happening?
I don't know what's going on.
So if you just continue practice bringing your energy into your body all the way down to your feet,
Your heart starts to relax into that alignment,
Remember,
Of the soul,
The body,
The mind,
The heart.
And as you start to harmonize and feel safer in your heart,
The energy will more naturally flow out your throat.
And so you'll start to speak from your heart space just like I do.
And your words aren't rehearsed.
There's no script.
There's no map or plan.
It's like you're speaking from here,
From embodied,
Grounded heart space.
And then the words that come are,
They're vulnerable,
They're tender,
They're true.
They're powerful because they're your heart being shared through your throat.
When you're speaking from that place,
If the person across from you doesn't understand,
If you're sharing from this space and you can tell they don't understand,
Because you know what you mean,
Because you know you've said it clearly,
You then can change the communication.
When they're like,
I don't understand,
You can say,
Okay,
Can we talk about this?
Because I can feel what I'm sharing with you is true.
I can tell you what I'm feeling and speaking to you is authentic.
It's what I know I want to say to you.
So let's try to understand why it's not being clearly communicated.
What do you hear me saying?
That isn't an attack,
That's an invitation.
What do you hear me saying to you?
And when they reflect back to you,
You can go,
Oh,
No,
No,
No.
What I meant,
What I'm trying to share with you is this.
Or,
Oh,
Yes,
You're right.
So what then is the barrier?
If your heart is grounded and open and their heart is tight and afraid,
If you're grounded and steady and they're all over the place and you're speaking your truth and they're telling you they don't understand,
It may have nothing to do with you and everything to do with their energy.
But when you can see that,
When you can feel that,
When you're like,
I'm in my body,
I'm speaking my truth,
My heart's open,
And they still don't get it,
What you'll start to realize is it's not about you trusting yourself.
It's that they can't hear you.
They aren't present.
They can't understand what you're saying to them.
This is,
As my throat gets activated,
This is what we're going to be seeing with all of these planets in Aries.
People who aren't in their body are going to look like ping pong balls zipping around at massive speed.
And we're going to be watching them going,
What is happening?
What are you doing?
Why are you thinking that?
How do you see that?
That isn't at all what I said.
You thought I said that?
No.
When we're in our body,
Like what we're doing here together,
I can look at the choice I made last night of not honoring times and trying to make things work to make everyone happy,
And I can look at it and go,
Okay,
That was me.
That was me.
I could have shifted things and handled it much differently and better,
And it would have been a better night for everybody.
I didn't.
So I can own that that was me,
And then I can make the apologies and clean things up and do it differently next time.
If I wasn't in my body,
If I was zipping with everything else,
It would be very easy to go,
It was their fault in this,
And why didn't they?
And then I would just repeat the same pattern and create more turmoil and what?
So sometimes it's humbling to wake up and analyze and look at ourselves and go,
Yeah,
But the next time it's better.
We make things more beautiful,
More harmonious,
Because we're aware and we're choosing differently.
Okay,
I feel like I've really shared that one to the ends of what we need to share,
So let me go back here and look at the comments.
I think I saw that one.
Yes.
Okay,
Madeline.
Yes,
There's a reason for them that they are doing or not doing what it is,
And it's not my place to judge.
So pretty much what you,
Viv,
Described too really resonates with me.
Beautiful.
I know,
All the love for Jen.
See,
Jen,
When you bring this up.
Oh,
Your Chiron is in Aries.
Okay,
You got to look at the astrology for next week just to see what it is so that you can be like,
Okay,
I'm in my power.
What does this mean?
You could even look for an astrologer and go,
Hey,
Can you look at my chart and tell me what you would suggest?
Tell me what this means.
Yeah,
Be in your power with it,
Not in your victim with it,
And you may be able to let go of an old story in no time at all.
It will be amazing.
Yep,
100% over and over again.
So beautiful.
This is the message I was looking for.
Awesome.
Awesome,
Ilana,
And I'm so glad.
Thank you for keeping the conversation going in this way.
Alicia,
Is Alicia here?
I didn't see anything from Alicia.
Bex,
What does it mean to be in your body like being grounded?
Ah,
There's Alicia,
Kind of at 325 AM.
Lovely to see you.
So glad you're here.
This is exactly what I was looking for and deeply needed.
Thank you.
Beyond words can express.
Thank you all,
Jen.
So glad.
So glad.
Okay,
What does it mean to be in your body?
I love you too.
I love you too.
What does it mean to be in your body?
Let's,
Oh,
And thank you.
I just see you donated.
That was so kind.
What does it mean to be in your body?
Okay,
There's a way in my head I could tell you what it means,
And there's also the way you get to feel it.
So any of the meditations I create here,
Always we bring our energy into our body.
We run it down to our feet,
And we connect our feet into the earth.
Every time we do that,
That is what I call grounding.
It's,
I pull more and more of my consciousness,
My awareness,
My attention,
My energy,
My soul,
Whatever word you want to give to the life force that is naturally you.
I bring all of my power,
My energy into my body as much as I'm able to be aware of or to feel,
And I run it all the way down through my body to my feet,
And I fill my body up with me.
That's what I mean when I say grounded.
Thank you,
Cindy.
Your meditations are so good.
I repeat them.
I love it.
I love it.
Oh,
By the way,
I wanted to tell you,
The live replay from last week,
It got approved.
It's uploaded,
Which I didn't know if they would approve it.
I've never tried to do that before because I didn't edit anything.
It was the whole thing,
And they said yes.
I'm really super excited.
If you want this feeling or this kind of conversation,
I'm going to try bring more of these into the tracks so that you'll just have a mini podcast you can dip into anytime you need to,
And this feeling will be available for you.
The workers,
The beautiful,
Beautiful people that are helping build our deck may be walking by in a little bit.
I asked them to give me an hour and a half.
We may hear some noise.
We'll see what happens.
Robert,
My eyes are leaking like a waterfall.
My Buddha buddy.
So beautiful.
Why is it important to ground?
There's a couple reasons,
And I love that you brought this up,
Bex.
That's really good.
I believe the work of soul in human form is that harmony.
It's how do we learn to be the infinite in a finite experience at its optimal level,
At its most harmonious,
Highest functioning level.
The whole work of our lifetime is that harmonizing.
It's how does the soul and the body,
How do we learn to love that experience?
How do we learn to love all that we're doing even if we think we're making a mistake?
How do we get to experience all the emotions and be in our body to feel them?
How do we create relationships that stretch us and push us and test us and stay grounded and stay steady and deepen our love for ourselves?
Even as the people across from us are mirroring our worst traits back to us,
And then we have to look at them and heal them.
How do we love ourselves through that?
How do we love all of our choices so that we get to the end of the life?
We take our last breath and the soul emerges as pure consciousness,
Like freed from the finite,
And immediately turns and looks back at the human as like,
Whoa,
That was epic.
What a ride.
What an amazing experience.
And also,
You could have,
You maybe,
If you only,
If we had,
Why didn't we?
I'll go back again in a new story.
And then the soul perhaps gets back in line to come have another experience of being the infinite in the finite body.
It's intense.
It's intended to be intense because we're trying to take something with no form and put it into form.
We're trying to take something that is all,
Everything connected to the infinite consciousness of everything and have it separate and be an identity and an ego and have individual actions that have ripples in the collective.
It's meant to test us and push us.
So grounding,
Practicing bringing our energy into our body all the way down and filling our body up with our own energy,
I believe makes the process smoother,
Calmer.
It's the first step in harmony.
It's like if I'm in my body,
Then I can actually feel what my body wants,
Needs.
I can have a thought and metabolize a process in my body.
I can have an emotion and feel it.
I can listen to my intuition and trust it when my soul is trying to speak to me.
So being in the body allows that experience to be the best,
The most optimal.
Yeah.
The other piece I would say,
And then I'll come to the comments.
This is my own philosophy,
So this is not proven anywhere.
This is just what I have found in my work as an energy healer.
I believe that when the soul chooses to come into the human form,
There's a percentage of the soul perhaps that comes into the human.
So let's say in the soul in the universe,
It's 100%.
And the soul says,
Okay,
I'm going to go to earth and be in the life that is Viv.
I think I'm going to send 30% of my awareness,
My attention,
My presence into that life because the other 70% of the soul is doing other things or moving through other dimensions or teaching,
Creating,
I don't know,
Whatever.
So let's say 30% of the comes into my body.
And so I live my life with 30% of the infinite soul as the human.
And I may find that I can do extraordinary things,
Extraordinary things with 30% of my soul.
What if my soul was functioning with 50% in my human or my human was functioning with 50% of my soul here?
When I watched the movie Lucy,
I don't know if you guys have seen it.
It is intensely violent and also mind-blowingly interesting.
Her whole journey in that movie is about becoming 100% consciousness in the human form and what that means.
It's quite the journey.
I watched that and it was after I'd already been studying this in my energy work.
And I was like,
Except not that way or the way I see it.
What I have found in my own journey is the more I would remember about my soul,
About consciousness,
About the soul contracts I made,
The path that I'm taking.
I wrote books.
I've got two books up here on Insight Timer.
The more that consciousness would show me me,
Show me the universe,
Show me the things that I knew and flow them through.
Eventually I was like,
I want more of my soul to come play.
And so I've been consciously for years calling more of my soul to be present in this lifetime as Vivian.
And it feels like my soul is in a culmination,
A completion of the journey that I've been taking throughout all lifetimes,
All consciousness,
All dimensions.
And this life is like the masterclass,
The completion of the journey in a really beautiful,
Beautiful way.
And so I believe grounding,
Coming back to Bex's question,
Grounding is a practice that helps us bring more and more of our awareness,
Our power,
Our consciousness into our body.
As we get better and better at that,
I believe there's more availability for the soul to be more present even in the body than before.
And I think that amplifies the way that we love ourselves,
The way that we move through life,
The way that we hold space in community,
The way that we show up in our relationships,
The presence that we bring into everything that we do.
If I were to guess some of the greatest teachers,
So I think of Mother Teresa just as an example,
Probably what,
60,
80 percent of her soul was here just emanating consciousness?
Maybe.
So it's a different lens to look at the harmony of mind-body-soul and the importance of grounding.
I feel like the more we practice being so present in our body that it becomes familiar,
That it feels strange when we're not fully present.
It feels strange when we get caught up in the scattered energy.
It's easier and easier to drop into being fully here.
The more comfortable that becomes,
The easier that becomes,
The more we can magnetize more of ourselves into the story,
Into this life.
So,
Yeah?
Let me know if that was helpful,
Bex.
I needed a reminder.
And also,
The whole time I was doing that,
As you tune in with me,
You're calibrating to the way I am embodied,
Which helps you ground.
It's like when we do it in community,
It's more potent,
More powerful.
Awesome.
Awesome,
Bex.
Great question,
Bex,
By Lauren.
Madeline,
I have noticed,
Look at all the love for you,
Bex.
I love it.
I've noticed that previously I used to start crying when I arrived fully in my body.
Great awareness,
Madeline.
Nowadays,
More often,
I laugh spontaneously.
Oh my God,
I love this.
Like my system and heart is more familiar with the experience,
And it's a joyous arrival.
Does this make sense?
Yes.
Yes.
I was just talking to someone yesterday.
Oh my God,
I don't even remember.
We were talking about death.
Who was I talking to?
I don't remember in this moment.
We were talking about,
Oh yes,
It was Monday.
I had a call with someone whose father is not doing well.
We were talking about joy being the highest frequency and that sometimes when souls are exiting the human life and they're not willing or not ready yet,
That laughter is a pathway,
A gateway to help the soul because it's the highest frequency.
It's like,
You know,
It just helps you.
Yes,
I love that for you,
Madeline.
I love that.
Madeline,
Yes,
And it's beautiful.
Something I aspire to feel,
Beautiful one.
It's happening,
Jen.
It's happening.
Just your participation in this conversation,
You're calibrating to it,
Which is beautiful.
Jen,
You're already okay.
It just doesn't always feel like it while we're learning the lesson.
Agreed,
Robert.
Agreed.
Nancy,
I'm so,
So,
So grateful and extra excited to meet your acquaintance.
You're so wise and generous and so happy to check out your tracks.
Thank you,
Nancy.
That's beautiful.
Beautiful.
I love the way you explain that,
Viv.
Thank you,
Alicia.
Okay,
So beautiful.
I feel like we are complete with that.
I think we're complete with the conversation.
How does it feel to everybody?
I know we're going to do energy readings,
But I like the way the comments just naturally took us through this.
Let me give you a couple of the things I wanted to share and then we're going to separate our energy,
Which is how we end all of our sessions.
You don't have to be here live for your energy to separate.
We do it for the container,
But it's a good practice.
I feel like as we make our way through all of these shifts over the next few months,
As much as you're able to add that to your practice each day,
If you're going to be on a lot of lives or be in a lot of community conversations or you're in something that's really heated and you can feel yourself getting caught up with other people's energy,
Just do exactly this practice that we're going to do together and you can unravel not only your energy,
But the energy of the group as much as you're available to do.
I think it's best when the space holder does that,
But it always helps if anyone is unraveling the energy.
So I'll show you how to do that.
Practice that on your own whenever you need to.
First,
A couple things.
I added two more lives for April.
We're going to have one for the new moon in Aries next week and we'll have one the week after,
Which will be for Uranus moving into Gemini.
So if you want to add those to your calendar,
I put them up,
But I don't think they're live up yet.
The live replay is available.
You can listen to that.
Videos are pending and I have six approved waiting to pop up here for you.
I'm so excited.
Those will be coming out soon.
I don't know when,
But they are the messages that I create every Monday for leaders.
They're called the collective pulse.
They're five,
Six minute videos and you'll you'll get more of me,
Just what you want,
But talking to leaders.
So this is going to be an activation for those of you who don't see yourself as a leader.
I'm inviting you to watch them and see what it brings forward for you.
Because my guess is if you're here,
There's some community space that you are leading or a family space you are leading,
And you just haven't seen yourself as that leader yet.
We need the leaders to be in their power and in alignment.
My ears start ringing again.
So the videos will help do that each week.
I am creating my retreats.
Speaking about being together in person,
I'm creating my retreat this weekend and we'll be uploading it here.
It's going to be in Costa Rica in September.
It's going to be amazing.
We're going to have four days together,
Three nights,
And we're going to do this for as much as you choose to participate in it.
If you just want to soak up the energy and you can do that too,
But we're going to be together in Costa Rica.
So I will have that up.
Light Medicine is a resource for those.
This is the book.
The card I have here is the book that I would suggest if you haven't read it yet and you are really looking for some guidebook support of how to do this time,
How to be in this body.
The One Day My Soul Journey in the Gaia Tribe is a great resource.
Let me give you this one.
And then the Light Medicine is a resource of meditation.
So it helps you bring light into your body for very specific ascension symptoms or things that we commonly feel when energies are shifting and we're practicing being in our body.
Our body has things happen.
And so I've created this Light Medicine as a resource to walk with you through that.
I think there are six or seven up now and I'll keep adding to that.
And then,
Yeah,
I wanted to also say,
And I don't usually say this,
But I would love for you to share me with your friends,
With your community.
As we move into this Aries energy,
One of the things that I am practicing is actually talking about the work I do and inviting more people into my community and into my sessions and into the books and all the things.
So I'm going to start selling myself,
Which that makes my heart go,
Because I don't like sales and I don't like the word selling.
And so it's a big shift for me.
So if there are people that you think would benefit from what I talk about and what I share here,
If you want them to be part of this community,
I invite you to share me and then we'll see what happens.
We'll keep growing together.
Okay.
Thank you everyone for your brilliant questions.
Yay.
This was amazing,
Viv,
As always.
All right.
Let us separate our energy.
Thank you so much,
Viv.
Love to you and everyone in our community.
Thank you to every soul here.
I love,
Honor,
And appreciate you.
Marketing love.
Geraldine,
That's so good.
That I can get behind.
I can get behind marketing love.
It's marketing myself where I'm like,
Ah.
Okay.
Let's separate our energy.
So here's what we're going to do.
If you are new to this,
This will feel really good to you.
Thank you,
Jen.
Okay.
I want you close your eyes and see everyone who has been in and out.
Everyone who is still here sitting in a circle.
We're all in our chairs.
We've got our feet on the ground and it's a beautiful expansive circle.
Everyone in their power.
No one needing to be fixed or saved.
Each one of us just showing up exactly as we are.
In the center of the circle is all the stuff we talked about and everything I brought up for you and for everybody.
So it's this big cauldron of energy and story and emotion.
I want you to see you,
Yourself pulling your energy only,
Your power only out of the center of the circle and back into you.
So you're gonna bring your power out of the center and back into you.
And everybody else is going to do the same thing.
So we're unraveling what's in the center of the circle and each person is bringing their power back into their own body.
You'll feel it in your body.
You'll just feel the whole container shift.
As your power comes into your body,
I invite you to run it all the way down through to your feet.
Relaxing your muscles,
Using your breath to calm your body down as you bring your power in.
Anything that is left in the center of the circle,
We're going to see Gaia,
Earth,
Consciousness of our planet just gently reach and bring all of that down.
Take it all down into the earth.
It's just energy that's going to be transmuted and down into the center of the planet.
And then you see the center of the circle empty.
We're going to rinse it off with white light.
So you can imagine Source God,
The universe,
Just takes a hose,
A sprayer,
And just sprays all of us,
The center of the circle,
Everything off with white light,
Purifying,
Cleansing the entire space.
It may feel really good in your body as you get rinsed off with white light.
Like,
Oh,
Thank you.
Thank you for that.
With your feet firmly on the floor,
Feeling your power in your body,
Relax your muscles.
I want you to straighten your spine.
Open your shoulders,
Which is going to open your heart just a little bit wider.
And then as you feel ready,
You can open your eyes.
And just like that,
Everyone is in their power.
The work we have done is complete.
You can see yourself standing up from your chair,
Waving goodbye to everybody.
You can come back.
Your seat will always be here anytime you choose to return.
And thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Yes.
I've been sharing your page,
Live events,
Meditations for over a year,
Simply because it resonates so much.
Bib Madeline,
Thank you.
So good.
Yes.
Thank you for that.
Robert,
Everyone drink a big glass of water and replenish your body,
Because that was some beautiful energy work.
All right.
Thank you,
Everyone.
I will see you next week.