Hello again and welcome.
Take a moment to be still.
And notice what is being experienced right now.
Perhaps there is some tension.
Some stress,
Doubts.
Or many thoughts appearing.
Or a sensation is felt in the body.
Now there is nothing to change here.
Simply notice.
What you are aware of.
And also quietly notice how quickly the mind makes any of your experiences personal.
This is my stress and it's about me and how I feel.
Now pause for a moment and look a little deeper.
What makes it my stress?
What makes it about me and how I feel?
Is there in this awareness just an experience happening an experience of stress,
Or is the experience being felt,
Being interpreted?
As what is happening to a me.
Look closely now.
A sensation appears.
A thought appears.
And a feeling appears.
And almost immediately through the mind a past memory or a story arises.
This feels like that time before.
Oh,
I know what this means.
This is going to get far worse.
Oh gosh,
I can't handle this.
The present experience being felt now is being interpreted through remembered personal experiences.
And through this identification the me reappears.
A me who was having the experience again.
A me to whom this is happening as before.
A me who must do something about it.
And now it is no longer simply stress being experienced.
It is my stress.
It is always about me,
What happened to me,
What is happening to me.
What might happen to me.
What did happen to me?
What do I need to do about it?
The one who is now suffering is identified with and remembered as the one of the characters in the play of life.
Of previous suffering.
The one who was afraid,
The one who was hurt.
The one who must fix it.
The one who wants to put it to an end.
All our experience is centered around a me.
The victim.
And when there is identification with stress associated with the characters in the play,
There is no distance from which to see the play clearly.
No vantage point above the turbulence of the stressed or anxious mind.
The mind is caught within its own interpretations of what is happening.
And the me is struggling and suffocating within that interpretation.
And the habitual attachment to the contracted conditioned state of the me-self.
The victim prolongs the suffering.
Because as long as there is identification with the me,
The stress continues around the central me.
In the drama.
The experience is continually being reinterpreted,
Relived.
In relation to the me of then.
And the me of now.
And this perpetuates the sense that the stress is happening to a someone,
To me.
Now look again,
What is actually suffering?
Does the sensation suffer?
Does the thought suffer?
Does the feeling suck?
Does the experience suffer?
Or is it the identified me self that suffers?
And if it is the me-self that suffers,
What happens when there is a shift?
Away from this identification.
When there is no longer a central me.
Quietly notice what happens now,
When the identification is clearly seen.
When the filter dissolves.
Not from the perspective of the contracted identified me.
But from a higher,
More conscious vantage point.
And through this conscious seeing,
The identity of the me begins to fade.
What was once,
This is happening to me,
Can this condition reaction be truly seen?
For what it is now.
Without the interpretation.
Without the constant reference back to a me.
What is actually here?
Simply a lived experience,
A sensation.
Of thought.
And a feeling.
Nothing here in these experiences requires a separate me to experience it.
And as identification begins to dissolve,
The experience does not have to disappear.
But the suffering created around the centre of a me falls away.
There is no longer a me,
The victim,
With a need for any vantage point.
No more is there my stress.
Just experiencing as it is in the aliveness of now.
Now notice what is here when nothing is being referenced back to a me,
Back to a memory.
No story.
No owner,
No separate experiencer.
Just this open and free,
Unclaimed experiencing.
