Today,
I am up in the clouds.
I am light,
So light that I am up in the clouds.
Today,
I am still human,
And I feel myself in my body,
Yet my focus is somewhere else.
Not because I am distracted or because I am unaware of my mission on this earth,
But because I see beyond everything that I see.
Today,
I see more than yesterday and the day before.
Is there anything else to see,
To know?
Will it all fit into my knowing?
What is it that I know after all?
Could I ever say that I know anything?
Today,
I see more than yesterday and the day before.
And tomorrow,
I will be surprised with even more.
What for?
This is life.
This is me.
This is everybody and nobody at all.
What is this emptiness?
This stillness that gets stronger and stronger?
What is this that I feel that instead of going away,
It is here to stay?
Can I still be part of this world?
Can I still play and dance and put my feet into the water and my hair at the wind?
Can I still taste all the old flavors and remember how it feels?
Can I still get cold and warm and loud and quiet?
Can I still choose what to do and where to go?
Today,
I am up in the clouds.
Do I have a choice?
I don't think so.
Is it bad?
No,
Not at all.
Where am I going?
Maybe tomorrow I will know.
But for now,
I am up in the clouds,
Knowing how far I've come,
Not knowing where to go.