I want to talk about the importance of paying attention to your deeper feelings and your dreams.
It's a bit of a cautionary tale,
Really.
Years ago,
I went to see a very well-known psychologist in Vancouver.
He had a six-month waiting list and was considered a magician.
So I was aware that I didn't feel connected up.
I felt too separate and I thought maybe he could help me.
So he practiced a body-mind technique,
A modality.
Now the day before,
The night before I had my first appointment,
I dreamt that it was based on manipulation and he was too busy to process,
Basically.
That wasn't my dream and that it wouldn't work.
So you know,
Do you think I paid attention?
No.
Because at that point in my life,
I was impressed by six-month waiting lists and PhDs.
And I thought he must know something.
He must know more than me.
Now the thing was that I was a sincere seeker and I had gone very deep within myself.
And really,
I think I should have just meditated.
But anyway,
I went to him.
So after three years of this and thousands of dollars,
I had this terrible,
Terrible crisis and it felt like that every session where he had worked on me and touched my body,
It sort of stitched up the wounding.
The pus was coming through the stitches.
As if the issue wasn't healed.
Now this was an emotional and physical experience that I went through.
It was as if my body had different levels.
I think I was tapping into the etheric body,
The mental body,
The emotional body that are beyond our skin that the East talks about.
That's where I got this.
It was this data about what had happened to me or what I'd allowed to happen.
So I walked around for three months just in a terrible abyss,
Feeling more separate than I have done in my life previously.
But what was I to do is just to keep going.
And there are a couple of things.
One is sometimes on the journey,
The universe has to give us a bit of a kick because I was just going to be continuing on.
I mean paying thousands of dollars to do this.
And basically going the wrong way because I was really,
Really sincere and really sincerely on the spiritual journey and this gentleman wasn't.
And he was working with too many people so he was going on automatic rather than remaining personally connected.
It was basically one of the worst things I could have done to myself.
But the good news is I came out of that with greater internal authority,
Greater authority and more self-esteem because number one I didn't give up.
I just took it as that I had obviously made a mistake and that I believed that God still existed even though I was in this terrible place.
The other thing is I ended up connecting to heal myself after this.
I ended up connecting to my soul in a much deeper truer way.
So my data that came to me after this experience was more accurate.
And I also knew what real pain was.
And so I never allowed anybody else to do that to me again to,
You know,
And I never ignored the data like through dreams or my intuition about what was going to happen.
So that's the good news.
Just cost thousands of dollars.
Okay,
Bless your hearts.
