Love Is More Powerful Than Fear, No Matter What The Ego Says

The start of the spiritual journey can be very confusing but Premasudha cuts to the chase and reminds us that Love Wins. Love wins because it is the true reality underneath this illusion.

One of the best ways to bring feel more peace is to keep a constant focus on Unconditional Love and Kindness and try to express these everywhere in our lives, inside us and outside us. Gradually as we keep our goal (to love and express love) ever in our minds, we gradually become more forgiving with our own mistakes as well as the error of others.

The questions and comments of others highlight difficulties we all might encounter and remind us everything is one. We are not less than others, or more than others. We are equal to others and we are all trying our best here in the rough school that is the earth plane.

Premasudha's Satsangs are very accelerative. People who attended regularly tell her that they are shifting into greater awareness as trust deepens and understanding grows.

Transcript

Blessings to you.

Blessings,

Blessings.

May Amma's grace be with us.

Yeah.

Good.

Good.

And everybody's propped.

Good.

You know,

This satsang is a continuation from last week,

Particularly.

And there'll be a lot in it,

But may it be very reassuring for you because,

You know,

The purpose of life is for us to love,

To allow our love come through us,

The love of our true natures.

In the heart chakra we have the choice of love and fear.

On the way to spiritual mastery,

Fear will arise.

It just can't help it.

So,

It's not a bad thing.

And remember,

The best thing you can do is in the satsang,

Just be very present and make notes afterwards.

Listen to it again and make notes.

Because if you're making notes,

You're splitting.

And that will keep your ego happy.

Yeah.

You're splitting your focus.

Yeah.

Good.

Just be with.

That's it.

Oh,

This big love is coming to you.

Very beautiful.

Coming through me.

I mean,

It's coming through the air you breathe.

This love.

It's everywhere,

This love for you.

But sometimes if we're carrying fear,

We don't feel it.

So,

This is.

.

.

I want to reassure you that you can clear fear and your ego can die and you won't die because you're immortal.

Okay.

So,

I had a conversation with someone who attended the last satsang.

And she was talking about how she was feeling so sad because she could see,

Looking at her past,

How many opportunities she missed,

You know?

How.

.

.

Because she didn't love and honor herself,

She sometimes didn't follow through on things,

Career things,

Artistic things.

And just,

You know,

It was as if her path had been littered with possibilities that had not been followed through.

Okay.

So,

She was in mourning about this.

Okay.

This is how fear clears,

You guys.

You see what you've done.

You see how your perceptions distorted your experience of life.

And caused you to act in ways that did not serve your true nature.

And you feel it.

And you cry,

Maybe.

And you just keep giving it over to the divine.

Keep talking to Amma,

Krishna.

Keep your focus on where you're going,

Moving into more truth.

And I'll tell you,

What will happen is the mourning will lift.

And afterwards,

You won't do that.

You will seize the moment in your life.

This is how we let go of fear.

It's through this way of being,

Not doing so much.

It's where we become freer as a result of seeing what we're doing to ourselves,

Or what we're doing to our true nature.

And feeling the grief.

And giving it to the creator.

And then our ego dies,

And we move more into our true nature.

Okay.

So,

A person who is aware,

Will be aware of many ego deaths that they go through.

And many births of a bigger understanding in them.

So you might have like,

I don't know how many.

I mean,

I've gone through countless ego deaths,

And countless births of a new understanding.

And I,

You know,

I just feel this is related to actual births and deaths that we're having on other dimensions.

You see?

I mean,

It's so big.

The truth of what we're doing here is so big,

That anything you can do to expand your mind,

Expand the kind of box of your mind,

To see the bigger picture,

Will free you.

Will free the love in you.

And when we feel the grief at some of our self-sabotaging behaviors,

This box gets bigger.

We just don't do these things anymore.

Okay.

Now,

It's really important to understand you cannot fight fear.

If you fight fear,

It will get bigger.

You know,

There's a story of the White Knight,

Who was a very noble young man,

And he set out to rid the land of all the Black Knights that were causing so much trouble.

So he went after them,

And you know,

Disposed of them.

And as he was getting older,

He looked,

He was washing his face in a stream or a lake,

And he saw that he had become a Black Knight.

You see?

So we become what we focus on,

So that's why it's so important to keep the focus on love.

Loving yourself,

And loving others.

Okay.

So,

A good way,

You know,

Amma talks about how if we want to expand our minds,

And you know,

This also seems to me a kind of a cure for fear,

Is if we just go around expressing love and kindness.

We seek to embody love and kindness,

And we express it.

And I'll tell you,

You will clear your fear by doing this.

Because what will happen is,

You'll,

You know,

You do it,

And then you find that you're expressing love and kindness to someone who is not receiving it,

Or not giving it back,

And maybe even doing something hurtful for you.

See,

And inside,

This might be scary for you,

But so you just keep this kind of loving embrace of yourself,

That,

You know,

You're here to love yourself and others.

You embrace yourself,

Your hurt heart,

You take it to the Creator,

And you're wiser next time.

Now,

This is hard to talk about,

Or this one finds it hard to talk about,

Because this is actually so deep about what happens when you go forward in this love,

And go to share it.

But I feel like as I progress,

I'll be able to speak about it more.

But at this point,

I just don't have many words.

So,

I want to talk about,

Again,

It's another cure for fear,

And it's exposure.

It's when we're exposed.

You think of how our ego is exposed.

I almost feel like this is too much for you.

I may be hammering you too much.

Hold on.

You're very beautiful.

I'm coming back to this.

You're very,

Very beautiful.

Please,

That is the main thing.

You are love in human form.

You're very,

Very beautiful.

It's like I'm feeling so sad.

You're very,

Very beautiful.

Please,

Just open up to that.

Just open up to the possibility that what's coming through this one is true,

That you're very,

Very beautiful and beyond priceless.

The whole point of why the words are coming from me is to help you shine up your diamond,

To help you shine up your heart,

To blow some dust off your gold so you can see it more and you can access it more and share it more.

That's it.

That's it.

Good.

There's a receiving love.

Some of you are really doing it.

There's some who are a little shy about it,

About this receiving love.

Megan,

Receive love.

Yeah.

You're entitled.

You deserve it.

Yeah.

That's it.

Bethan,

Receive love.

That's it.

That's it.

Michael,

All of you.

That's it.

Saskia,

All of you.

Okay.

So,

You know,

When I say your names like that,

That's the exposure.

That's the exposure I'm talking about.

It's like you're exposed.

The defenses are exposed.

And so you end up shifting into more truth because there's nowhere else to go.

I mean,

You can hang out with your defenses,

But it's not a lot of fun.

That's it.

Yeah.

Max,

You receive love.

That's it.

You know,

Just go to yourself.

Okay,

I've got this opportunity.

I'm going to take it.

That's it.

That's it.

That's like premisuda.

Yeah.

Seize every opportunity.

It's like this moment will not come again.

That's it.

Remember,

This is what helps the world,

Makes Alma happy,

Helps the people around us.

It's if we accept love.

Okay,

Good.

Okay.

Good.

There's a high level of deservability going on.

Okay.

Okay.

I'm very happy about this.

Yeah.

I'll tell you,

You guys,

You've turned up.

It's like only sincere people turn up for this.

Okay.

Okay.

Yeah,

I can feel this big transmission.

Mm-hmm.

All right.

So,

The biggest point of exposure is our deathbeds,

You know?

We're totally vulnerable.

Our bodies are leaving.

I mean,

Our bodies are on their way to turning into dust.

And there's nothing really we can do about how we've lived our lives,

Except maybe,

You know,

We'll be joyful,

Or maybe we'll be mourning our choices.

Now,

Hopefully,

If this happens to any of us,

We quickly give it over to the Creator and surrender and come to peace and think about God when we're dying,

And maybe not have to come back.

See,

It's all very healable.

When fear comes up to be cleared,

It seems like it's kind of hell and damnation,

That it's like from an Old Testament judgment,

And it cannot be alleviated.

It's permanent.

It's like being branded.

There's no way out.

That's what it feels like when fear is coming up to be cleared.

But it is cleared by our egos letting go and our minds letting go.

Yeah,

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

I can feel this.

You're doing it.

There's this big letting go going on.

Yeah,

Why not?

I mean,

We don't want to waste time.

That's it.

So,

You know,

When we're letting go of fear,

It's a little bit like the deathbed again.

We see what we've done,

And it seems permanent and inalterable,

But what happens is you just bump up to a higher vibration and your whole world changes.

So,

I just want to talk about some of the things that happened to me when I was carrying fear I didn't know about.

So,

When I would go see Abraham,

I would go down to the U.

S.

And get a plane from Bellingham,

South of Vancouver,

And I would always get searched every time.

You know,

I'd take my car and leave my car parked in Bellingham,

Crossing the border.

I would get searched every single time I was going to see Abraham.

And,

You know,

I was scared of going to see Abraham,

And they could smell the fear,

So they thought I was smuggling something.

So,

This happened every time,

And I just,

You know,

Went through it.

I mean,

At first I was,

Like,

Scared.

I mean,

They were often bullies,

You know.

But then,

You know,

They never found anything because I wasn't doing anything wrong.

And finally,

The time happened.

It came that I stopped getting searched at the border.

You see,

Your life will change.

Yeah.

I'll tell you another personal experience with fear clearing.

This is years ago.

The year that my kids spent six months with me and six months with their dad because I was sick,

You know,

In the way of the universe,

Both Peter and I were randomly audited that year.

And it was the year that I lied on the form because no form had the possibility of children spending six months with the mom and six months with the dad.

Do you see what I mean?

So,

We got audited,

And I was,

Like,

Terrified because,

I mean,

Because of the mess of this.

And,

You know,

It resolved very sweetly with no problem.

Yeah.

So,

You know,

When fear is clearing,

We can feel like that they're tanks,

That we're facing a row of tanks who are heading right for us.

And that's how I felt about dealing with the tax system when,

You know,

It was incorrect on the form.

I felt like I didn't have a leg to stand on,

And I didn't know what was going to happen.

I just felt like a big foot was going to squish Pramasutra.

That's what it felt like.

And it all ended benignly.

Now,

It ended benignly because this one allowed the fear to clear.

I kept turning to,

Well,

I didn't even know Amma back then.

I kept turning to the creator,

Giving it to the creator,

Giving it to the creator.

And it all ended well,

And I was carrying less fear after that,

More trust that the creator really existed.

It's like being a scientist and testing over and over again.

Is the creator really there?

Is Amma really there?

And then having it proven that indeed you're supported.

You know,

Again,

Don't make this too heady.

Don't kind of try and figure it out with your head.

Yeah,

You can't do it with your head.

You do it through your heart.

It's like if you think about how mold grows in dark places,

And then you put,

If something's moldy,

You put it out in the sunshine,

And it dissolves.

That's the same with fear.

That's it.

That's it.

Okay,

Good.

You're allowing a deeper comprehension.

This is very good.

That's why I actually think all the focus on privacy is just where,

You know,

Helps fear and corruption hide.

I mean,

What are we protecting with our privacy?

Just focus on loving and living in truth,

You know.

We talk about fear of vulnerability because it can be very common among spiritual seekers.

And,

You know,

It's hard to contact,

It's hard to merge with your true nature if you're frightened of vulnerability.

Okay,

Just get the concept,

You know.

It's like being in your deathbed.

You're totally vulnerable.

So if you stay scared of being vulnerable,

You'll just play in fear all the time.

And if you just go,

Okay,

I'm dying,

And hopefully it's a loving universe,

And please help me,

God,

And turn and really face it and allow the love in,

You could be brought into surrendering to God at the point of death and finish your lifetimes.

Okay,

So one of the things I feel often working with people is this fear of vulnerability.

And sometimes people I've worked with very deeply for a long time,

But they'll let me know that this work is not more important than a holiday or some other thing that they're doing.

It's just like,

And it's like,

You know,

Maybe they're not aware of what they've received.

You know,

It's like a way of,

You know,

I don't,

It's like I don't take it personally because I know it's scared of vulnerability.

And it's,

You know,

There's not much that this one can do except just love them.

Because if,

You know,

Supposing I go directly to the,

About the vulnerability,

Often the person will put more defenses up.

So I've learned not to do that unless I feel a person really,

Really ready.

Right,

Okay,

Good.

There's some of you getting really,

Really ready.

Because you know there's nowhere to go.

And you know what,

It's lonely and unhappy when we're hiding in our fear.

It's just not a lot of fun,

You know.

Yeah,

We all know that.

We can have excuses till the cows come home,

But the bottom line is we're stuck with our own experience of life and what we're doing with it.

Okay,

Now I really want to emphasize your beauty again,

You see.

Your beloved children,

Amma's children,

Your beloveds of this one.

That's it.

Yeah.

Please,

Please do not judge yourself for any fear that you're running.

Please,

Please,

Please,

It's just your ego trying to keep you small.

Remember,

It's like somebody who's on the spiritual journey in sincerity is as perfect as a human being gets.

And Amma talks about,

You know,

If you sweep the floor,

You know,

You get the dust.

But it's when you mop the floor that you see the amount of dirt.

You know,

It's like this kind of work,

Our fear will show itself.

Because it's like we're mopping the floor,

We're not just sweeping it.

Right.

And you know,

It's the heroes that mop the floor.

Truly.

Okay.

Okay,

Good.

You know,

There's some of you that feel when you deepen that you just find thorns.

Yeah.

And you know what I'd say?

I'd say if when you're deepening,

You feel that,

That you're just encountering thorns within you.

Understand they're clearing,

Please.

They're coming up to be cleared.

They're not.

They're impermanent.

They're melting.

Right.

Estelle,

There's love coming to you.

Receive love.

It's so funny.

These new names are coming up like this.

Yeah.

That's it.

That's it.

We're all going home together,

You guys.

We're heading home together.

Yeah.

Yeah.

We're heading home together in Amma's grace.

Walking with Amma home.

Walking with Christ home.

Walking with Buddha.

All of you.

All of you.

That's it.

That's it.

These satsangs can be like a loving river that you're in.

And you're in this river and it's flowing.

It's taking you home.

And it's all Amma's grace.

That's it.

And Amma is inside you.

You know,

The Eastern sages would say that your soul created the existence of someone like Amma to help lead you home this life.

Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm.

Amma is inside you.

And she's a visible expression of your own soul helping you come home.

Yeah.

That's it.

That's it.

And do you know how deeply there is this taboo against the personal?

Okay.

And this is part of why we get frightened on the journey.

Because it's a fear of the love inside us.

And in our culture we are so,

You know,

What did Eisenhower call it?

The military industrial complex.

He said years ago that military industrial complex was going to take over.

And it's we get these forms.

We have these structures.

And the individual is being downgraded,

Downgraded,

Downgraded.

And so,

This is to turn and love your heart,

To come from your heart,

Is a very radical thing to do at this time.

Right.

Hmm.

And it's interesting.

I'm getting these words and there's a lot of phoniness associated with it,

Like a false falseness that makes it even harder to stay in truth.

But I'll tell you,

The thing that keeps you in truth is your soul.

And your soul is invincible.

Nothing is stronger than your own soul.

Nothing.

So,

When you set your heart on moving into truth,

Your soul,

Your inner alma starts giving you experience after experience after experience to help you embody truth more,

To face your fears and clear them.

You know,

The truth of it is,

You know,

We're like abused children who've been put in a new family and we want love,

But then we're running from it.

Well,

This is what it's like to deal with yourself psychologically on the journey.

You really want love and part of you is running from it.

And it's just to observe it.

You just observe it.

You guys think that's not enough,

But it is.

All you have to do is observe it and feel how much it gets in your way.

Yeah.

There's a tightness or a tension in you,

In the group,

As you're deepening.

You're wanting to deep,

But part of you is kind of withholding,

Going not allowed,

Not allowed,

Not allowed.

Right.

It's okay.

Don't push it.

You just notice.

You just notice.

Okay.

Now,

There are two points of this point of the observer.

Okay.

If when you observe,

You are listening to the expert who's telling you what you should do and shouldn't do,

That's ego.

A lot of people get stuck on the journey there.

They think they're observing,

But the ego is doing a facsimile of the observer,

And it's a way of keeping you in its control.

I know people who've done this for 20 years.

Please.

When the soul observes,

It's very neutral.

It's just neutral.

Just like,

Yes,

That's how it is,

And it's that observing that heals us.

It's like the soul observes,

And so our ego shrink.

We're identifying with our soul.

We're opening to our soul's perspective,

So our ego shrinks.

I once read a murder mystery one day,

And then I had a bad dream that night or kind of a limited dream,

And I realized that the reading of this murder mystery had soaked my psyche and death,

Basically,

And that wasn't the wisest thing to do.

It's like that.

I didn't berate myself for reading this murder mystery.

It's like it's already happened,

So what we do,

It's like all we can do is observe it because anyway,

It's already happened.

Abba says,

Right.

Part of you,

Some of you,

It's like it's coming up.

It's coming up in a lot of you,

This I'm not good enough.

Yeah,

You know,

You're immortal beings,

So I don't know how you're not good enough,

But I know how tricky the ego can be.

Right.

You know,

That's a point of acceptance to just accept how tricky the ego can be,

And if you accept that,

It will make it easier for you to see how it's operating.

Yeah,

The ego's like a tyrant that will use every trick in the book,

Like a narcissist,

You know,

Using every trick in the book.

You know,

There's something I really want to spell out.

Abba has talked about how some of us are in love with our pain.

It's like a little pain baby,

Like darkness,

You know?

Pain baby of darkness,

And we love it,

And we love feeling helpless with it,

Powerless.

We love this pain baby,

And you guys,

It just doesn't work.

I notice sometimes people in sessions,

They'll just have excuse after excuse after excuse,

And I understand why.

I had real trouble giving up my pain baby,

Totally.

I just didn't want many more lifetimes,

So that was very motivating,

But I'll tell you,

This one is at the point where I don't allow it.

If people want to stay,

You know,

Take care of their pain baby,

I'll go like,

Well,

You know,

Take a break from working with me maybe,

Just because I spent 20 years going round and round with,

You know,

And often the individuals didn't even want to grow,

So I don't do that anymore.

And I know that as soon as you really see that you have been hanging out with a pain baby that does not exist,

It's all in your head,

It's all in your ego,

It's all in your mind,

There is no one,

Nothing stopping you from moving into truth.

Nothing is stopping you except you,

And a love affair with pain,

You know.

Yeah,

But you know,

There's a,

You know,

In the X-Files,

Scully says,

Well,

I know what,

Tears and a sad story get me.

Yep,

Doesn't really get us anywhere.

I don't want to be too hard on you.

Please remember this,

You know,

Being attuned to pain has come from many,

Many lives.

It's not your fault at all.

It's just your decision about where you want to play this lifetime.

And please,

Some of you,

I can feel it,

You almost want to go into self-hatred over this love affair with pain,

And don't do that.

That is this pain baby doing that.

Don't do that.

You know what you can do?

You can imagine all your pain,

Like,

In a bundle and give it to Ama,

Okay?

Just keep doing things like that.

Keep steering your psyche to the light.

You cannot fight this stuff,

But you can steer your boat to the light.

You can use your tiller.

Use your imagination.

This one,

This is actually,

I would say,

How it was done through imagination.

I used to throw compassion balls to the outcome I wanted,

Like to the loving outcome I wanted,

And I would tie a rope from this ball of compassion around my waist,

And I would throw it to the outcome I wanted,

Say,

Being more aware,

More awake.

And then I would just live my life.

But I was very good at steering in the direction I was going.

Do you understand?

And,

You know,

Fear came up,

And things came up,

And I just lived through it.

I started noticing that I was getting more peaceful,

That my life was getting better,

That I was more truthful,

That I loved myself more,

Right?

It's very slow,

You guys.

It's slow,

Slow,

Slow,

Like pregnancy.

Like chipping away at a big rock to make a beautiful sculpture that is your true nature.

Chip,

Chip,

Chip.

Okay.

I just want to say that everybody here has,

Like,

A path to the promised land,

To the land of truth,

To feeling loved and embraced,

And that you're okay as you are.

Yeah.

Like,

There's a big reveal,

And then it turns out you're okay after all,

That you're really on track after all.

That's it.

Everybody here,

Everybody here has this pathway.

I can see it.

Yeah.

And you know what a truth teller I am.

I don't flatter.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

See?

You're all,

Like,

Gay students.

All good.

That's it.

But also be open to learn.

You know,

You can be an A student,

Be open to learn.

If you think,

Like,

A students are the ones who have dreams about failing,

Right?

And they sit at the front of the class,

And they really listen to the teacher.

It's like,

Be like that with Amand.

Really listen.

Don't go,

Oh,

I've got it all sewn up.

I know you're not going to do that.

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

So,

You know,

The way you make progress on the spiritual journey is increasingly you will be aware that you are not the doer of your lives.

You know,

So this one went to England.

You know,

It's interesting how this happened.

I really wanted to travel,

And I couldn't find any way to do it when I was 25.

And I looked behind the door of the passport office,

Sort of,

And there was this thing about that if you had grandparents who were born in England,

You could have patriarchal rights,

You could go to England and work.

So it was like the universe wanted me to go to England,

So I would find a way to do it.

I would be shown how to do it.

Yeah.

You've got to understand that if your life plan has you to do something,

You'll do it,

No matter how impossible it seems.

Yeah,

I'll tell you,

Working with a Hawaiian kahuna was pretty much now for something completely different in my life pattern,

But it had to happen.

Same with working with Amma.

It had to happen.

There is a possibility of you relaxing into this a little bit more.

All you have to do is observe,

Really,

And steer your psyche toward love,

To Amma,

To grace,

Amma's grace,

To the fact that Amma is inside you.

Amma will say that when people attach to her physically,

They will encounter sorrow.

This one's reading of it is,

Yeah,

If they're seeing her just as a physical,

They will have to experience the separation that they're carrying in their psyche.

They'll have to feel the sorrow of the separation in their psyche in order to feel the true Amma inside her and who is inside you.

In my experience,

The closer I got to inside premasuddha,

The closer I got to Amma.

Some of you are going,

I'm doing it wrong.

Oh,

Please don't do that.

Just hearing this will melt your separation.

Please don't.

Don't make any walls bigger.

Please just allow everything that's said.

It's melting your separation.

That's the whole point of satsangs.

Yeah,

That's it.

It's just melting your separation.

Before you come to satsang,

Just go like,

Think of a golden river and separation melting and just jump into the satsang.

It's like that.

Except as we become as little children,

You cannot enter the kingdom of heaven.

It's because we're just observers.

We're like little kids holding onto the hand of mommy and daddy and just going along for the ride.

We're going to open up for questions.

Anna said it's okay for us to go over till 10 to 10,

My time,

For anybody who wants any questions.

But before we do that,

Again,

There's a need for the focus on your beauty.

Yeah.

You know,

And I understand that maybe your beauty might not be validated in that many places.

It's okay.

That's a tragedy of our lives,

Really.

Do you know?

Yeah.

But your beauty is really being validated here in a very,

Very deep way.

Yeah,

Please.

Good.

Good.

Good.

Some of you are much more open to receive this now.

Good.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Sometimes I think that Zooms are even more powerful than being with someone physically because through the Zooms,

There's a level of depth that can be reached that might not be able to be reached if somebody's physically present.

Yeah,

It's very beautiful.

Okay.

So does anybody have any questions or comments,

Observations,

Anything?

I just want to say,

You know,

The surrender into more love,

It's like a relaxing into it,

Physically relaxed into it.

Yeah,

That's it.

It gives you a new baseline of relaxing.

You know,

And if fear comes up,

You know,

Sometimes after satsangs or anything,

Just say a mantra.

Say a mantra.

Imagine yourself in Amma's body.

Really,

That's such a powerful thing to do.

Imagine yourself inside Amma's body.

You know,

This use of the imagination can save years on the journey.

Yeah.

Hi,

Prima Sudha.

It's Bethan.

Hi.

It's all very appropriate,

As ever.

But today,

I've been very on edge,

And I realized it was a lot of fear that was coming through,

Fear of rejection and fear of failure.

So I recognized that and saw it rather than be taken by it.

And with that,

Then came up a lot of anger and disgust and partly wanting to scream and just like tantrum and spit and all of that.

So I recognized all of that as well and just saw it coming through and what was apparent and then be able to separate from it.

And then it just kind of eased.

And yeah,

It's kind of just kind of brought me to a calmer place,

Then be able to see all of that.

And then with what you've been saying,

It's just helped lift that even more.

So I'm very appreciative of your perfect timing.

Thank you,

Prima Sudha.

You guys,

Bethan,

Thanks.

We're all one.

Do you understand?

We're all going through all the same things all at once.

It's all one.

Mm hmm.

Right.

There's no separation between any of us.

Mm hmm.

Please get that.

Yeah.

That's it.

Doesn't matter what you find in yourself.

I promise you that I'd like to say something.

It's Miriam.

Miriam.

Yeah.

It's interesting that we're talking about because we spoke about fear again,

Fear last week as well.

And I haven't listened back to the whole of the last week's satsang.

I've listened to some of it,

But I will listen to it again.

And this week,

I mean,

My life is what I call up in the air.

So,

You know,

I don't know how I'm going to pay my bills.

There's lots of things going on in my health anyway.

But in the middle of it,

It's not in the middle of it.

It's just brought up how,

Like you're saying,

Fearful I am and how fearful I have been for most of my life.

And I can get to that place in my head where I am feeling desperate.

In fact,

Not just my head.

My whole body is feeling desperate,

That feeling of desperation.

And there are other things that go with that to do with my health.

But it's that thing of knowing that I've been like this for a long time.

It's not something that's just happened.

But being able to,

I think that you said,

Not to fight it,

But to be able to recognize it.

And also I'm attached to things,

You know.

I'm attached to things inside of me and I'm attached to things outside of me.

And some of those things I need.

I need to have a roof over my head.

But at the moment,

You know,

The attachments to everything seems like.

.

.

Miriam,

Can I interrupt you just a sec?

Can you go to the heart of what you're wanting to say?

Just go to the heart of it.

I guess I will say I need to,

I want to,

Not need to,

I want to let go of my attachments because they are keeping me in fear.

Okay,

Okay.

So Miriam,

What you do is you focus on love.

Alma talks about how you have a glass of salty water.

If you keep pouring fresh water into the glass,

You'll end up with a glass of fresh water.

Okay,

So if you focus on love and self-forgiveness,

Self-compassion,

You will get brought to becoming more non-attached.

What most of us do is we use our egos.

We go,

I don't want to be attached and we'll kind of sit there and kind of fight it.

And it's not solvable there.

It's solvable through this conscious focus on wanting to become more loving,

To know what love is.

Does that make sense to you at all?

I'm not quite sure,

But I'm going to try.

Yeah,

No,

Good,

Good,

Good,

Good.

You see,

Our heads reign supreme,

Our intellects,

And our hearts are very downgraded.

But the way you evolve is by dethroning the head and bringing the heart up,

Allowing the heart to come up.

That's why the pouring fresh water into a cup of salt water works,

As opposed to focusing on all the salt in the water.

You see,

That's what our heads want to do,

Focus on all the salt in the water.

It's like that doesn't change anything.

Pour fresh water in.

It's like drop the pain baby and seek to bring love in.

Okay,

Miriam,

Are you willing to receive love right this minute,

Instant from coming through this one?

I can feel my heart and I'm going to say,

I'm going to try.

Okay,

It's a yes or no question.

Yes.

Okay.

Okay.

You see,

The ego goes,

Okay,

I'm going to try.

It's going to be hard.

It's going to try.

It's a yes or no.

It's a yes.

And Miriam,

I can feel it.

Part of you doesn't feel it's possible.

Sweetie,

It's like,

You know,

Just go,

Why not?

Just go,

Me too.

You know,

Step over this line of separation that you've got.

Just step over it.

Go,

Me too.

You're receiving this love now,

Miriam.

It's coming.

It's coming.

It's okay.

You've got to get used to this a little bit in your head.

I can feel it.

Yeah.

How are you right now?

I'm not sure,

Really.

I think I've got some resistance.

So you're feeling some resistance,

Yeah?

Yeah,

I feel some resistance.

And I think what you said about,

You know,

Because it's like,

I do have that feeling.

I need to let go of all of these attachments.

I need to let go of what the outcomes are.

I need to let go.

I do feel like that.

But I think it's that I've only just started realizing that I'm attaching myself to all these things.

Yeah.

You know,

I get what you're saying,

But we're not the doer.

I think just be with yourself,

Okay?

And hopefully you'll listen to the satsang again.

And,

You know,

The knowledge just dribbles in,

You guys.

It just comes in.

It will gradually,

If you just turn week after week,

It will just gradually come in.

And if I speak to you in a year,

Miriam,

You will have a very different perspective than you do now.

And it will just happen organically.

It's like pregnancy.

And even you,

It will work for.

You're very dear.

Even you.

Yeah.

Yeah.

There's nothing stronger than love,

You know?

And if we turn up,

We get it.

It's like the clear water gets poured into the salt water.

But this is where I get,

Like,

I'm getting so old,

You know?

So I'm like,

I used to go on at great length about resistance and everything.

And now I'm like,

Meh.

It's like shift.

Come on.

Do it.

Come on.

No excuses.

Just jump.

Imagine yourself jumping.

Geronimo!

Jumping into truth.

Yeah.

Okay.

Thanks,

Miriam.

That was a lot of the others understand and resonated with what you were talking about.

It's very good.

It was comforting.

Yeah.

Yeah.

But,

You know,

When I'm in sessions with people,

It just happened recently,

And I said to somebody,

Okay,

You're arguing for your ego,

You know?

Why would you do that?

And so they saw that and then jumped.

That's the exposure,

You guys,

I'm talking about.

We get exposed.

We see that we're arguing for our ego.

Why would we do that?

Yeah.

Except that it's human.

It's okay.

Does anybody else have any questions or observations?

Yeah,

Premasutha,

I have a question.

I'm in the first time here.

And I think we all probably know,

Depending on the types of fear we have experienced,

Or I would even use sometimes the word panic,

We may have experienced in our lives.

Yes.

It's probably one of the most intensive,

Crucial emotion,

Or however you want to call it.

Right?

We may feel,

Especially in the moment when it shows up.

Yes.

I mean,

What you're saying is,

From an intellectual point of view,

100% agree,

Is the antidote against it.

Love is the antidote.

And it's a way.

It's our spiritual path,

Our spiritual growth.

But when it is in the midst of the fear,

The panic showing up,

What would you say to that?

Like in the very moment?

Because it's easy said what you're saying,

And I 100% agree with that.

Yeah.

But what if it's raising its tail?

I know.

I know.

Because you just want to get rid of it.

And I think for all of us,

We may have our own tools that we're working,

But sometimes it's not just feeling through it.

It's more like pushing it over by a mantra,

By breathing,

Whatever our own personal tools may be.

Because the feeling through it is so difficult.

Okay.

But you said pushing it over with a mantra.

You see,

If you're using the mantra to fight it,

It's not going to work.

Saying your mantra,

Observing you're in fear and saying your mantra is what will work.

But using a tool to push it.

Okay.

I would say using a mantra is still a technique which helps me when it shows up.

Some kind of overriding it.

Yeah.

Sweet one.

Sweet one.

I'm just pointing out.

I'm just pointing out.

It's like a level of it's like corruption because you said push it.

So sweet when I'm trying to shine light to help free you,

Please.

It's not like you're wrong.

Okay.

Okay.

We don't know we're doing this.

We don't know that we're using our mantra.

It's like to push it.

It's like it's a subtlety.

It's like you could say your mantra,

You know,

Holding on to your mantra,

Holding on to the feed of Amma while you're feeling fear.

And that's different than pushing it away.

Okay.

They're real subtleties.

Yes.

But this is where it is the subtleties of seeing what we're doing that allows the fear to be cleared.

Okay.

I want to speak to you.

I can feel that the love power in you that's wanting freedom and expression and the stronger in us,

The more fear,

The stronger the fear is.

Okay.

So it's like,

I have a lot,

I feel a lot of compassion for you because this is kind of where you are.

It feels like there's so much your soul's like so strong.

There's so much love wanting to come.

And the fear,

The ego's going,

No,

No,

No,

No.

And yet,

Yeah.

And it will come up violently.

And the terror,

I,

Yeah,

You know,

You know,

You know the cure.

I mean,

The thing I did is I just walked around in fear.

I mean,

I couldn't do anything else.

And then I noticed that my body would get exhausted and I couldn't keep it up.

And the fear left.

It's like,

It does feel like you're facing tanks.

There's no cure for it.

You're in it.

I mean,

You can mantra holding on to Amma's feet,

But yeah,

You're in it.

Yeah.

And this is what's the hero's journey.

It's such a hero to stand there and feel all this fear.

But I'll tell you,

Man,

You'll go through it quicker and quicker and quicker,

Quicker and quicker.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah.

And the love in you is going to get stronger and stronger.

I can feel it.

And you will feel this fear.

It will lose hold.

It's like when I talk about crossing the border and getting searched,

And then it stopped happening as my fear reduced.

So your whole life will go gentler.

But it's like,

I feel that you need the acknowledgement from this one about the quality of the love within you that is wanting its freedom.

It's very,

Very,

Very powerful.

Yeah,

You know this,

You know,

I'm like,

I get you,

Man.

Yeah.

And you know what?

This is what helps.

When somebody gets us,

It's like we start feeling that,

Oh,

It's more loving here than we thought.

Yeah.

I mean,

This is how simple it is in one way,

But to get to,

Like,

I can feel you really this,

You're allowing the witnessing.

Okay,

I want to work with this a little bit more.

Right.

Right.

You know what it feels like is that,

I don't know if this is going to be helpful,

But it feels like you might experience fear three more times,

And then suddenly it's going to get much easier.

Okay.

Yeah.

And I even hesitate to say three times,

Like,

May it be less than three times.

May it be done today or once.

But I'll tell you,

Man,

You've got an exit door from the trap you're in.

I mean,

I can feel it.

I can feel it.

It's like this love in you is so invincible,

And you're so sincere about how deeply you've allowed the activation of your soul.

Do you understand?

Yeah.

Okay.

So,

You think,

Isn't that interesting?

Because your ego's coming in going,

Oh,

No,

I couldn't have done it that deep.

I think she's,

I don't know if I'm that deep,

You know.

This is what we're like.

Yeah.

Okay.

How do I put this?

I'm going to ask Amma to surround you with a lot of grace and support around this.

Okay.

I also kind of wanting you to realize that you can find the exit door to this.

You do not have to be stuck in this.

Interesting I'm getting that the exit door is a deeper level of prayer.

I just made a video on my YouTube channel,

Wisdom in the Feminine Spirit,

About levels of prayer.

It's just in the,

Yeah,

And I'm talking about when we pray,

To pray with just the abandoned helplessness of a little child who's desperate for their parents.

Pray like that.

Yeah.

It's okay.

I don't want to push you.

Yeah.

You bless your heart.

You know,

Your smile is like this innocent little child.

It's like kisses,

Hugs.

You're on the right track.

Yeah.

Good.

Yes.

Yes.

Yes.

Good.

Yes.

Do you know that just doused some fear?

This is why the focus on love is so important.

It's love that solves it all.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh,

This is thrilling.

Good.

This helped everybody.

Yeah.

Good.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Blessings.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Special amounts of love to you,

Varadarajan.

Lots of love to you,

Man.

Yes.

Gobs and gobs.

Yes.

Yes.

Please.

Yes.

Right.

Okay.

Good.

Good.

Good.

Good.

Good.

And remember,

All of you,

Just go,

Me too,

Because it's coming to you guys.

Just say,

Me too.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Right.

Yeah.

Right.

And something I think,

You know,

Remember that teachers,

It takes you,

The teacher might look like a butterfly,

But you didn't see the teacher through the caterpillar stage,

You know,

Or the mush stage.

You know,

I wish I had a video for what I was like.

You guys would,

You guys would be shocked,

Really.

I'm sure you'd be shocked,

Really.

So like,

Give your own journeys the benefit of the doubt.

I mean,

Like I say,

I got happy when I was about 60,

But,

You know,

I think I was a very hard case,

But,

You know,

I mean,

Really,

I walked around until I was about 60 going,

What's wrong with me?

What happened to my life?

Really?

Please help me,

Abba.

Yeah,

Really,

Really.

So this is a lot of the motivation of this work is,

Can it be made easier for you?

Can this be shared so that it's easier?

Yeah.

Like not easier in a weak way,

But easier,

Like the way life is easier for well-loved children.

If we're well-loved children,

Life is easier.

We have self-confidence.

We know someone loves us.

And if we didn't have that,

We can still get that through Abba,

Through any truly loving teacher,

Through even thinking about Christ,

Buddha.

Yeah,

Because this whole world is made out of love.

Like,

Actually,

That's your progress.

The more you can see that this whole world is made out of love,

That is your ego getting smaller.

That's the acid test.

You know,

There's wars are everywhere and everything.

You know,

In Canada,

Strawberries,

I was in the shop and strawberries are now $16 a pound in the shop.

And I went,

I just so feel for the families.

But,

You know,

We'll get through all this,

You know,

Love wins.

We're here to learn.

We learn because God wins.

So we do learn.

We'll learn this lifetime or next lifetime.

Yeah.

Well,

You guys,

Thank you for coming.

Yeah,

Just unbelievably.

Thank you.

You know,

Yeah.

You know,

And remember,

You come to mind during the week.

You know,

It's like even I'll see your faces.

Please.

Yeah,

Please understand this.

Oops.

I lost you for a minute.

Yeah.

Please understand this.

Isn't this interesting?

I keep losing you as I'm telling you how much I'm thinking of you.

Remember,

Everything's a metaphor.

Hi,

Sebastian.

Hi,

Sweetie.

Hi,

Sebastian.

Yeah.

Okay,

You guys,

See you next week and all my love comes to you 24 seven and you don't need it,

But it comes.

Okay.

Okay.

Bye.

Bye.

Bye.

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