The Key Is Me

In all the struggles we have experienced at different spaces, places and times of our Life Journey, we hold the sense of those events in deep inner memory. Part of the problem is that we forget that we have grown since that imprint of pain and that we are no longer in the same MindBody space. Yet the awakening of the fear reaction will knock us back to the moment of memory and if that was embedded at a younger age, we automatically drop into that energy timeline. Remember who you are.

Transcript

Lovely.

So we're going to bring a beautiful energy in now to help us to really clear and calm and soothe ancient codes,

Imprints,

Patterns.

And these cyclical patterns are really what cause us a great deal of pain because they become deeply embedded in our being and they attach themselves to our rhythms and patterns of our body and to the cycles of this body in its life.

And the body loves that because it has some sense of this is what we're going to do next.

It's almost like its program,

Its calendar.

And when we just get locked into a system that is not serving us and it's running along our own timeline calendar,

Our own internal clock,

What happens is that we get very frustrated because it keeps coming up and we think,

Well what is it coming up for?

I'm doing all this beautiful work.

I'm taking care of myself and I work really hard at all of this.

But when I collapse into that vortex,

That downward spiral,

It's like we forget that we're fabulous and we just have the deep experience and that's when the anger,

The frustration,

The blaming and the shaming comes in.

So we recognize all of our patterns and our awarenesses of our self.

We thank this amazing body and this mind that can witness itself,

That here we are in the form but we are also transforming.

So we have this ability to step out and feel like we are the one that can witness who we are in this life and from a different perspective.

It truly is a wonderful gift.

So with the thought of that and holding in your heart what it is that you would like to release as an ancient code or a pattern that's got locked in,

We ask now in the sacred space that we are creating around us and as we begin to breathe into the body,

We welcome the highest vibration of light and love and feel this now with the in-breath coming in,

Deep breath.

And as you breathe out,

Drop your shoulders,

Relax your face,

Your beautiful face.

A new breath coming in.

Open the belly,

Open the chest,

Expand to greet the air and draw it into your being and breathe it out.

Go right to the end and right down to your base.

One more beautiful deep breath in and draw this breath from your crown and let it flow right through the centre of your being like your centre core,

Replenishing,

Refreshing with divine light.

Let it move all the way down and awareness of yourself with a centre core right through your body and into the earth.

And imagine that this beautiful light that we are holding now,

That is holding you and guiding you,

Is your guiding light.

We forget sometimes just to stand still and allow ourselves to be in our guiding light.

We get busy and we do and we ask our guides to be with us and to help us.

There is very little time to receive from them because we are not listening,

We are just being busy.

So we ask now that where we are resting in this space,

That we could allow deep inner rest of mind,

Body and soul to receive.

And the guidance that is coming in,

We ask that it be of the highest vibration of light and love that we can tolerate at this time.

And that we become aware that we are constantly upgrading our energy so that we can tolerate more and more light.

And if we are doing this in gentle increments,

Gently fulfilling,

Uplifting,

Upgrading our energy system,

We are also very aware that the contrast that we are seeing are indicators that we have shifted away from that space.

It feels like a great contrast,

A disparity,

A separation.

We start saying to ourselves,

I don't know why it's so bad at this time.

It's not that it's so bad at this time.

Our humanness has always behaved in this way.

It's not that we ever feel that we are in a state of being,

We are in a state of being at this time.

Our humanness has always behaved in this way.

It's not that we are in a space that we cannot come back from.

It is that we are awakening and we are calling in something different.

And the old energies that held us captive and still hold us captive are still playing in our mind-body system.

But when we start to notice that we are not happy in these spaces,

We are not comfortable,

Then we can be assured that we have shifted enough to look back and see it.

See it as different.

Then know I am different and hold that energy in you now.

That I'm not the same one,

I'm not the same frequency,

I'm not the same personality,

I'm not the same person that I was even yesterday.

I'm not the same person that I was yesterday.

I'm not the same person that I was even yesterday.

That I'm constantly shifting.

So in the awareness of that and the body that is holding all of this and the mind that is holding it captive,

I ask now that I begin to open up all the resources of memory,

All the ways that this beautiful body connects into memory,

Genetic,

Energetic,

Streams,

Ancient streams and into this life journey and all journeys.

Begin to open up all the access points to memory.

Begin to open up all the access points to memory.

And as we look into these access points,

We want to look very clearly now into the point of disappointment,

Despair,

Disillusionment and we want to look at the places where there was something that we so longed for,

We so desired and the disappointment was earth shattering,

Was heart crushing.

And we want to feel in this moment what it was like in those moments of despair when the thing we longed for so dearly just never arrived.

And in that moment we can see that the things that we longed for so dearly just never arrived.

And in that moment we can also know what we were feeling because the being that looks to others and learns through reflection and connection sees many who are in the space receiving just that which you so dearly have worked so hard for,

Have held so dear in your heart and easily they receive it.

And here another energy code,

It's not fair.

And that one is a very,

Very subtle saboteur because when we establish that as a code,

We start to view this life through the lens of the mind.

And that is not fair.

And another thought comes in,

I cannot have everything I want.

I don't get everything I want.

And we switch off a part of our life that we have been living in,

And another thought comes in,

I cannot have everything I want.

I don't get everything I want.

And we switch off a part of our heart that opens to desire,

The heart's desire.

And when we switch off this longing and this calling of the heart,

The desiring of the heart,

We dampen down the key that is the awakening key.

We are to desire still.

It is the heart's desire,

The calling for something else that is the key to our awakening.

So here I had the key,

I still have it.

But I've also had a life reality of pain and despair and disappointment,

And a sense that it's not fair,

And that no matter what I do,

I cannot get this.

And we hear all of these as codes and thought patterns.

And while you may have experienced it in your life,

Know too that you have experienced it in your life.

And you have experienced it in your life.

And while you may have experienced it in your life,

Know too that you have many of these codes linked to you because of your line,

Genetic imprints and energetic imprints.

For all those in your line who tried so hard but never succeeded,

Hear how important it is for you to succeed.

Because in the reflection of that pain it is that I will never give up.

And we push and push ourselves so hard in this drive to succeed because we interpreted success by an accountable action,

By a behaviour that is not a Right now,

Think about all those things,

Accomplishments,

And all that you have accomplished.

And all that you have accomplished.

And all that you have accomplished.

And all that you have accomplished.

And then think about all your achievements and everything that you have achieved.

And think about everything that you have accumulated.

And all of these things,

All of these things,

That say I am and I am worthy and I have got enough.

And think about everything that you have accumulated.

And all of these things,

These things that say I am and I am worthy and I have gotten enough,

Striven enough,

Given enough,

Created enough,

Made it happen enough,

Pushed myself to get.

All of these things have a dependency energy in them.

Could I feel completely worthy if the accumulations that I have created around me just withered away?

Could I feel completely worthy if the accumulations that I have created around me just withered away?

All the stuff.

And how would I feel about myself if all the achievements that I have created just withered away?

And then think about all the all,

Accomplishments,

All the things that say I am wonderful because and they just wither away.

And you are standing in this space and you are just thinking then who am I?

If all the stuff that I have created to feel me is just withered away,

Then who am I?

And then if all the things that I have created just withered away,

Then who am I?

If all the things that I have created just withered away,

Then who am I?

And then you are just standing in this space and you are just thinking,

Who is away?

Who am I?

Who am I now?

Just breathe into that space.

If I am this being that is not relying on anything outside of me to say who I am,

Then who am I?

Then who am I?

That I am this body that is here that is breathing.

I am this body that can walk and talk and eat and move and sing and dance and see and hear taste and taste and touch and feel and love and hold.

Who am I?

I am this amazing body that can receive and feel and give.

Who am I?

Who am I that is deep within this body that can do all this feeling and seeing and singing and soothing and laughing and crying.

Who am I that is deep within this space that can move this body in this way,

That can activate this body in this way,

That can move this body in this way,

That can activate this body in this way.

And if I am that beautiful essence that says to my body,

Go and hug that person,

What is guiding me as this body in this form to activate,

To show up,

To embrace another,

To look into their eyes,

To speak gently to their soul.

Who am I?

And then know that we are just working through the body.

That divine part of us is the divine.

That we are working through the body field so that we can show love and compassion and kindness,

Gentleness to others.

Even if you did not have all your accomplishments,

All your achievements,

All the accumulation of what you've created,

Even if you didn't have any of that,

Could this essence still talk through you,

Move through you and guide you as a human being,

A beautiful vessel?

Could it still be that the body and the being is of great worth because this body can connect to other souls and with the guidance it connects to souls?

We rest deeply in that space.

Relax your body now,

Relax your shoulders.

Allow yourself to just be here.

Create an agreement with you,

I am enough,

I am more than enough.

There is nothing that I need around me to define me in any way at all.

Let your entire body get that signal now and let your divine being in your mind of this body come to an agreement that because the divine is speaking through this body,

Would I not make this a sacred temple for this gift of connection?

And then what I am doing to walk and play and eat cleanly and live well,

Then what I am doing for the body is in the deepest honouring that this body can function in its highest,

Most divine,

Light,

Clear way so that the highest vibration of light and clarity can come through it like a beautiful crystal,

Cut glass with many,

Many facets,

Dazzling light,

Dazzling.

This is my vessel,

This is the vehicle of my form.

And is my form enough and do I need to perform to validate me?

Do I need to achieve to say who I am?

Do I need to get to be worthy?

It seems ridiculous.

There is no way that my mind can interpret in that way when I understand who I truly am.

This part of me that is pure light simply enlightening itself,

Illuminating itself through the body form.

Now with that sense within,

Come to a moment when you locked in the idea of disappointment and despair.

It just didn't work.

It just didn't happen.

Feel the loss of the human being,

The disappointment,

The frustration,

The anger,

The disillusionment.

Feel the heartache and feel the pain of the human experience and be willing to feel it.

All of these pains that I have known through my own life experience,

They are windows that I can look through because they are the windows that show the many souls in their greatest pain.

And if you were looking through that window now,

Knowing it as a deep pain in your own human being that is recording it and showing it and revealing it to you from the energy of your light being,

How much can you know because this beautiful body is willing to feel?

How much are you willing to know?

And as you stand and gaze through this window,

You can see the very,

Very many in your line of sight who have been holding this as an enormous pain,

An embedded pain,

Who put on a brave face and just try to manage.

But there is the pain because you're holding it in you,

Because you're holding it in awareness from your light being and through your human being.

And you can see it and feel it at the same moment.

And now,

If I can know this,

Now I begin to begin and open the key.

I find the key.

It is within me.

The key is in your heart.

The key is me allowing me to know this and to know that it is a great,

Great pain of our human evolution.

It is this contrast that is calling me to call for something else.

That if I in this moment,

Through my light being,

Could send a radiant light of absolute love and compassion and healing to this pain,

If I could send that in and heal all those who've gone before and me,

If I could do this,

I could change the frequency in me and my mind backwards and forwards in the idea of time that we have created.

I unlock my heart and listen to what it is that is the exact opposite of that despair.

And that is the gift I begin to plant into this dimension.

What is the exact opposite of that energy of despair?

Feel it now.

What is the exact opposite of the energy of disappointment?

And feel that now.

In the deepest,

Darkest despair,

Our heart will always call out for the exact opposite.

The code of our greatest healing is held in the heart.

What is your heart calling for that you called for in the place of that great disappointment?

What do you know because you were willing to have that massive experience?

What do you know?

Bring that knowing and that light of your heart and the love that you hold.

Bring it now into the heart and imagine as a key that you put it into the lock and you turn the key.

You are simply willing to turn the key and now allow you to rest in the idea that the key that you have,

You have placed into the lock and you have turned it to open it.

You feel the energy on that.

Just let it run right through your body.

Beautiful,

Beautiful.

Let it vibrate in every cell,

Bone,

Nerve,

Tissue,

Fibre of your being.

I know this because my human being was willing to feel.

It was willing to know so that this gracious work of light and love can be the gift that I leave as a legacy,

A legacy of upliftment to find our way again in a higher vibration of light and love.

From your light being,

Send so much love to your human being now.

Visualise yourself where you are with this beautiful white light pouring in now through the top of the crown and see it as a cleansing,

Clearing,

Cauterising,

Refreshing,

Revitalising.

Beautiful energy.

Standing in a shower of this light,

Let it wash through you,

Let it go into all the places where residue was,

Where it was being held.

All the little dark space is now being illuminated with the light as it gently washes and pours through you,

Bone,

Marrow,

Nerve,

Tissue,

Fibre,

Atom,

Every aspect of your being being refreshed,

Cleansed and cleared now.

In the deepest gratitude for this life,

This journey,

May we show up as our magnificent being in the gift that is this mind body,

With the soul that is connected to our divine light being.

May we do this journey with more ease,

More grace,

More flow,

More love.

And may this bless you every step and every breath of your journey,

My darling.

So much love here.

We take a deep breath in.

We allow ourselves to gently come back,

Rest in your body for a few moments,

Ground your energy,

Feel that you are here and you are part of this amazing walk of journey.

Such a privilege,

Such a wonderful privilege for this beautiful body,

This beautiful being.

And when we are ready to come back and be part of this world,

We can do so in a whole new way when we begin to see our life through a different lens,

We become very different and that is the gift of this transformation.

Many blessings,

My darling.

Namaste.

So much love to you.

Reviews

Thank you Joy! I needed this reboot to fill up with light and love ... my legacy. Much love

Wow! Thought provoking. I will spend time thinking about this and come back again. Thank you for this perspective.

Loved this visualization, the pauses in between and the questions… thank you sending you loads of love and light in deep gratitude, Dori 💜🤍💜

So needed this tonight. Best gift I got today. Thank you Joy

Another deeply profound and moving meditation. Thank you dearest Joy for your generosity of love! 🤍

Incredible🌸 as always you are so wise and on point with life and the deeper meanings behind our pain and how to shift it. Thank you🙏🙏🙏💜

One of the most beautiful meditations/healings I have ever experienced. Thank you Joy!

You always say exactly what I need to hear in the exact moment I need to hear it. Thank you!! 🙏 💜 💫

Thank you , dear Joy, for bringing these vibrant meditations to life with your experiences and your insights.

I am so very fascinated by our amazing selves... how we have constructed and stored these pains .. how those pains can belong to us and our lineage, and how this deep hurt could still evoke such a strong response after so many years of working through it.

This meditation worked through my heart ❤️ and it was truly a gift. Love and light to you, dear one 🙏

Thank you for all these wonderful insights which help me to relax into beingness. So comforting!

I have put this on repeat and listen each morning until I believe for my day <3

I love how peaceful and good your words make me feel. Namaste 🙏🏻

So amazing. What a gift. It was a privilege to be lead on this journey with you. I will return often.

This resonated deeply. Thank you for your gift of light & insights 💫🌷🙏

Thank you for guiding light and blessings into my being today…

A couple of observations: my initial perception of the background noise was that there was a tumble dryer going, which I later perceived as a ticking clock!

I agree with other meditators - a softer strike to the bell, both at the start and at the end, would improve the softness and the flow… Thank you for sharing! 😊

Wow. I’ll definitely revisit this ❤️

I will give this another go, as it’s deep and, oh so true. A High Vibrational transFORMative experience!