Perfectionism Manifests In These 5 Areas Of Life - E58

Did you know perfectionism can show up in one life area and not another? I always thought it was a package deal. A tough weed that invades every inch of your garden. Then I stumbled on a study, where researchers reviewed perfectionism in 22 life areas, with work and studies being the most common among participants. Perfectionism was one of the main ways I protected myself from harassment at school and my father’s barrage of criticism. As an adult, it was eye-opening to see how this shame bled into every corner of my life.

Listen to this episode to learn about 5 areas where perfectionism can manifest in your life.

Transcript

Hello, I'm Annie Moussou, A certified EFT tapping master practitioner. I help women build confidence, Set boundaries, And enjoy healthy relationships. Welcome to my podcast, Hush Your Mind, Building a better relationship with yourself. On this show, I offer practical wisdom to help you clear fears, Limiting beliefs, And trauma, So that you can gracefully create a life you love. Welcome to episode number 58 of my podcast, Hush Your Mind, Building a better relationship with yourself. Did you know perfectionism can show up in one life area and not another? I always thought it was a package deal, A tough weed that invades every inch of your garden. Then I stumbled on a study where researchers reviewed perfectionism in 22 life areas, With work and studies being the most common among participants. So I started to reflect on how my partner Loic executes an architect's plan down to a T. He can be perfectionistic about exact measures and the project's budget, But if you look at his closet, A wild mess of strewed shirts and crumpled socks. On the other hand, I've tried to perfect every aspect of my life in the past, As if each one were a video game level to surmount. Perfectionism was one of the main ways I protected myself from harassment at school and my father's barrage of criticism. As an adult, It was eye-opening to see how this shame and fear of disapproval bled into every corner of my life. Perhaps you can relate? In this episode, I'm going to focus on five areas where perfectionism can manifest in your life. The first one is work and studies. One night, I had to draw one of the elaborate 19th century buildings on the campus for art class. I had no desire to draw right then, So I took a nap. That lasted until 6 a. M. In a flurry, I scrambled to start and finish the drawing in two hours. The result resembled the work of a child. Rough lines, Aggressive shadows, And odd proportions. I felt so ashamed during the critique session. This wasn't the first time my perfectionism caused problems. I knew I could do the work. It'd just take me 10 gut-wrenching hours, That's all. Upholding impossible standards meant I'd take much longer than others to finish tasks. If I felt unsure of my abilities, I'd procrastinate or avoid tasks altogether. Ironically, The drive to do well can hinder our performance. There's a vast difference between striving for excellence and perfection. Shame and fear fuel perfectionism. The intense pressure to perform eventually squashed my inner voice and love of art. It took many years for me to rekindle my creativity. So I encourage you to list the pros of pursuing quote-unquote perfection. Things like, I like getting praise. It feels good being number one in my class or team. I feel safe and accepted by others. Then weigh the cons. Things like, I have no free time. I'm afraid of failure, So I procrastinate. I never feel good enough. Reflect on your list of pros and cons. Observe the emotions, Sensations, And images that arise. What energizes you and what drains you? Your heart knows. Is it worth loosening your standards a tiny bit? The second area where perfectionism can show up is in relationships. Holding friends, Family, And partners to unrealistic standards causes strain in our relationships. If we tend to be perfectionistic, We may think our expectations are valid. We just want to help our loved ones become better people. For example, My best friend must never be late to a hangout. My daughter should always get good grades. My partner should always look impeccable. But no one likes feeling controlled or manipulated. When you compare loved ones to your ideals, It forges walls and crushes authenticity. You don't interact with your loved one, But an image of them. Relationships flourish when we let go of our agendas and meet loved ones where they are. It's tough. Obviously, I'm not saying let people walk all over us. Respect your boundaries. But the next time we criticize a friend, We can take a look to see if we have rigid standards. What if, In this moment, We're criticizing them because we don't accept something about ourselves? Is there a part of us that wants to save them from the rejection and shame that we've experienced? To nourish our relationships, It's best to first start with the relationship we have with ourselves. Embrace your light and shadow. Soothe your inner critic. Then feel the love that awaits. The third area where perfectionism can manifest is health and sports. After a health scare in 2009, I decided to avoid all unhealthy food. I experimented with different diets, Believing one would bring me optimum health. Various studies and books persuaded me to change my habits, Like reducing meat, Eating whole grains, Consuming vegetables raw, Eliminating dairy, And avoiding sugar, Including fruits. Though my discipline with strict dietary guidelines was admirable, My efforts to ward off illness stressed me. I read about nutrition for entire days, Forced Loic to eat like me, And beat myself up for having a cold. I had done it again. I let my perfectionism push me to extremes. Hmm, Perhaps my obsession to eat healthy was the condition called orthorexia? Have you experienced something similar? Perhaps you get caught up in perfecting your sports performance. Striving for excellence in sports cultivates a good work ethic and desire to improve your skills, Which likely helps all life areas. But we're doing ourselves no favors if we believe perfection is attainable. Working towards an elusive goal can feel overwhelming, Stressful, And bleak. Worse, It can lead to eating disorders and exercise addiction. Instead of focusing on results, Embrace the journey. Breathe deeply into your fear of illness, Failure, Or disapproval. Send love to any part of you that needs it. Here's a quote by Michael Jordan that helps me put failure into perspective. Quote, I've missed more than 9, 000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times I've been trusted to take the game-winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life, And that is why I succeed. End quote. The fourth area where perfectionism can manifest is physical appearance. When we're perfectionistic about our physical appearance, We can worry too much about grooming, Hairstyle, Or clothing. What's most heartbreaking is that many cultures glorify thinness or certain physical traits. A lot of us feel unworthy unless we look XYZ, Fill in the blank. In college, I had a friend named Emily. That's not her real name, By the way. We talked for two hours straight as soon as we met. I marveled at the ever-changing cuisines in the dining hall and wondered why she sometimes only ate chocolate-dipped bananas for dinner. She inspired me to crack jokes with our growing French vocabulary, Try salsa dancing, And uplift the most vulnerable. Then one evening, She confessed her struggle with bulimia. I didn't have the maturity and knowledge to understand. It shocked me that she hadn't been aware of her actions. I later learned that defense mechanisms like denial are unconscious responses to protect us from anxiety or pain. Emily reached out to me through the fog. That takes courage. According to Good Therapy, 30 million Americans will experience an eating disorder in their lifetimes. Eating disorders are the third most common chronic condition for teen girls. Studies show a strong link between perfectionism and eating disorders. We all feel the pressure to meet conventional beauty standards, But each time we criticize our body or someone else's, We've fallen prey to consumerism. I love this quote by Buddhist priest Koshin Ogui. Quote, A flower does not think of competing with the flower next to it. It just blooms. End quote. The flowers are leading the way. Can we look to them for inspiration? Get support if you need it. Eventually, We're all meant to bloom. And finally, The fifth area where perfectionism can manifest is the home and your environment. Do you spend tons of time and energy tidying your space? I used to get so stressed about cleaning my house because it meant that I had to vacuum, Dust counters, Wipe floors, And wash windows. It was all or nothing. When I discovered minimalism, It inspired me to declutter like a mad woman and create a home sanctuary. But it also aggravated my perfectionistic tendencies. Since I have few objects and furniture, I can more easily spot clutter. The space around objects speak louder, Creating an eerie museum-like aura. Those home decor magazines and cute Instagrammable offices sure don't help. Anything taken to extremes can be detrimental. I realized that perfecting my home and controlling my space helped me feel safe and accepted. And that's okay. I prefer not to deal with my mother-in-law's comments. Ultimately though, It's not about how we fold our shirts, Nor if our papers stack up neatly. It's about accepting that life can be a glorious mess. No one has it all together all the time. If we have the courage to leave a few dirty dishes, We can go outside and play. In conclusion, Stop dimming your light. It's easier said than done. We often learn early on to conform and avoid judgment. Then before we know it, This deep shame can seep into many areas of our life, Including our work and studies, Relationships, Health, Physical appearance, And home. Striving for perfection served me in many ways. I'm grateful for the temporary band-aid that it was, Especially in my childhood. And I also grieve all the times I dimmed my light to avoid upsetting others. I unknowingly gave my power away, Stayed small and bound. Until, As Anais Nin famously wrote, Quote, The day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. End quote. Throw off the shackles of shame and guilt. Integrate any part of you that believes you're unworthy of love and respect. Because even if it may not feel true right now, You've always been worthy and you'll always be. Thank you so much for joining me in this episode of Hush Your Mind. If you enjoyed it, Please feel free to visit my about page on my insight timer profile for my website and follow me for new content and live EFT tapping sessions. May you have the courage to love and accept yourself. Be well and take care.