Not being enough or not being good enough,
It is one of the biggest reasons in your mind for not doing what you are,
Let's say,
Supposed to do.
And I kind of say it in this way,
Supposed to do,
Because who is telling you what you are supposed to do,
But I mean in the bigger picture,
You are the one,
Your mind is the one keeping you small.
Your mind is the one saying that you are not good enough,
That you should learn a lot of things before you start doing it,
You should have a certain degree,
You should have a certain plan,
Schedule.
I started playing with that and I still am playing a lot with this,
From,
Well,
In the past for sure not being good enough,
As in,
I don't know what my talents are,
I don't know what I have to offer,
I feel that I have to do something else,
But I don't know what,
I cannot think of it,
So I have to overthink it.
And with that you just limit yourself.
What if you could just explore?
If you could just try out different things and start feeling into whether this is something for you.
You come from a different place where you start experimenting what makes you happy,
Allowing yourself to do that,
Because all the constraints,
Not doing it,
Are usually a mindfuck.
You can say,
But I need money for my mortgage,
I have to pay my family,
I need this and that,
I am too old,
I cannot do this,
I am too young,
I cannot do this.
And this is all limiting you to put into the world what you have to put into the world,
Your unique gifts and talents,
Your unique energy.
You don't need to know what it is.
I strongly believe that your mind is the one limiting you.
And again mind is a word that is used by different people in different ways.
I see it as the whole concept of all the programmations,
All the identities that you put onto yourself,
All the limiting beliefs that you have taken up from your parents,
Your education.
Not being good enough is also just a story.
On the path from thinking to being,
I worked in academic research for 25 years.
At some point,
It's like 3 years ago now,
I felt that that was not my path anymore.
I was not happy anymore,
Working in university,
Doing scientific research in the field of philology,
But I was so specialized.
I was highly educated,
I was an assistant professor,
I was so focused on one particular topic that everything in my system said,
You cannot do anything else.
Still I was there with this feeling that I didn't want to do that anymore.
My mind went like,
You are too old to change,
You are too specialized to change.
And that caused me a lot of pain.
It was only when I had a serious meltdown,
A dark night of the soul,
When I needed that to get my reset,
I needed to hit rock bottom,
To see that there are other ways,
But I should be open to exploring,
Experimenting,
Trying new things,
See what made me happy.
It basically had to reset,
I had to reset my whole life,
I had to reset my whole way of approaching life.
I had to let go of unhealthy control,
I had to start feeling what I wanted,
Rather than thinking and planning.
I had to gain trust,
That I am also enough.
And it became of course a whole journey of its own,
And I am still walking this path,
From thinking to being.
But now I come from a different,
I show up from a different place,
I know much better that,
How I can recognize the signals.
And that's what I truly wish for you as well.
To escape these limitations of your mind,
To go beyond this programming of the old world.
Because you are enough,
And even much more,
Your unique talent,
And what you have to bring in the world,
Is something which is unique,
And needs to be explored.
