Enter into a deep silence,
A silence beyond forgiveness,
Beyond gratitude,
Beyond truth,
Beyond fears,
Beyond lies.
With your in-breath,
Invite silence.
With your out-breath,
Release yourself to be present.
As thoughts emerge in your mind,
Observe them like clouds in the sky.
Release them along with the emotions that they bring to pass by into the sunset.
Continue to breathe,
Allowing the silence beyond your thoughts,
Beyond your emotions,
To simply permeate your body.
This silence is something that you allow rather than enforce.
It's something that is given to you rather than something that you take.
You breathe it and allow it.
It may simply feel like relaxation in your body.
It may simply feel like something distant coming towards you.
It may be something you've never considered before or experienced.
And it may be something long since forgotten coming back to you.
When you invite it,
It comes.
Simply know that it comes and notice what the experience is for you.
You are aware of yourself in the here and now.
Aware of your body.
Aware of the thoughts in your mind.
You are aware of the place where you live,
Of the people in your life.
Who are the people you spend time with day to day?
Who influences your life?
Who do you learn from by virtue of being around them?
Who have been the people in the last few years of your life who you have spent time with,
Learned from,
Been influenced by?
And who have you been these last few years of your life?
What have you been teaching?
And in the last few years of your life,
What have been the major events that have caused you to think or believe new things about life?
Events that have helped you form new opinions,
New behaviors,
New ways of being?
Continue to have an open breath,
A relaxed body,
And a silent heart as you observe.
Simply observe.
And now,
Go back in time even further.
Travel year by year back to your early 20s.
Look through the years between now and then,
Who have been the influential people in your life,
For better or for worse?
Who has taught you how to be?
Who has taught you how to cope?
Who has told you who you are?
And what events between now and your early 20s have taken place that have formed you,
That have told you the world is this way?
What have you believed as a result?
And how have those beliefs shaped the choices you've made with your life?
Continue to have an open breath,
A relaxed body,
And a silent heart as you observe.
And with your next breath,
Release those images and memories,
Paying attention to the sensations in your body as you do.
And take yourself back even further in time to around your 17th year of age.
And observe with an open breath and a silent heart the people,
The places,
The events by which you have been formed.
What beliefs do you carry from this point in time?
How have those beliefs influenced your choices?
And with your next breath,
Release.
And take yourself even further back in time to around year 14 of your life.
And observe with a calm body and a silent heart the strong emotional influences in your life.
The imprints of the events that transpired.
Observe any intensity that you feel from that time.
Observe how those strong experiences may have influenced your decisions,
Your choices,
Your very beliefs about who you are,
Your value,
Your place in the world.
Experience these places in your body.
Aware of your body as a whole,
Allowing the energy to flow.
And with the next breath,
Take yourself back even further to around year 9 of your life.
Observe how your memories begin to become more visceral,
More emotional,
Less visual,
Less interpretive.
Your experiences at these earlier stages is almost purely without the ability to filter or interpret.
Everything takes place in real time inside your body.
And so,
Remembering to be aware of your body as a whole.
What,
At this stage of your life,
Were the impactful influences?
What people?
What events?
What emotional experiences?
Unconsciously,
What beliefs did you form?
And even if you can't put words to these things,
Be aware of the non-verbal experience.
With a calm body,
Open breath,
And silent heart.
And with the next breath,
Take yourself even further back in time to around year 3 of your life.
Being aware of the non-verbal experience of the completely impressionable mind of your 3-year-old self.
What activities were taking place around you?
What people were teaching you how to become?
With an open breath,
A present calm body,
And a silent heart,
Observe.
And with the next breath,
Take yourself back.
Take yourself back to around the 9-month period of your life.
What was life like for those around you?
What did their lives,
Emotions,
Thoughts,
Words,
And relationships teach you about what to expect from life?
How is what they taught you still active in you today?
How did your experiences in these times of your life determine the choices that you've made as an adult?
And with the next breath,
Take yourself back to the beginning of your life.
And with the next breath,
Take yourself back even further in time to your very birth.
What was your birth like?
For you?
For your mother?
For your father?
What was your journey like from early contractions,
Being pushed through the birth canal,
Feeling the air for the first time in your skin,
Feeling hands or objects connecting with you?
What did these precious moments at the beginning of your life tell you about what life was like?
What did they teach you about what to expect from the world?
What was your journey like from early contractions,
Being pushed through the birth canal,
Feeling the air for the first time in your skin,
Feeling hands or objects connecting with you?
And with your next breath,
Take yourself back even further to around the fifth month of pregnancy in your mother's womb.
What were the thoughts and feelings she had?
What was life like for her?
Did she have love and support?
Was she scared?
What did these early experiences in your mother's womb,
From conception to birth,
Teach you to expect from the world?
How did these early experiences influence the choices you've made in your life?
What did these early experiences teach you?
And now,
With the next breath,
Take yourself back even further to the moment of conception.
In that moment,
Life was formed.
Your life.
What was that moment like for you?
What effects did your conception have on the body around you?
How did it change its shape to hold you and contain you?
Stay aware of your body as this knowledge and these experiences come to you.
Stay aware of your nonverbal experience with an open breath,
A calm body,
And a silent heart.
And with your next breath,
Receive also the influences from the act of creation that took place between your mother and father.
What was the love like between them?
How did they treat each other?
What did they think and feel during the act of creating?
With an open breath,
A calm body,
And a silent heart,
Greet these influencers of your identity,
Of who you are in this world,
And see how these interactions have governed your life to this day.
And with your next breath,
Go back even further in time,
Before the act of creation,
Before coming into your body.
Observing your mother,
Observing your father,
Weeks,
Months,
And even years before they conceived you.
Observing the influences on them,
From their lineage,
From their life.
Understanding deeper what formed them,
And how that which formed them also formed you.
And with your next breath,
Take yourself even further back in time and space.
Take yourself back to your soul.
What were your soul's desires for its next life?
What influences did you seek?
What questions did you have about life?
What did you want to learn and discover in this lifetime?
And begin to see how your questions hold you closer to your mother and father.
And see how their patterns of behavior,
How the influences that they carried,
May have contained some answer to a question you had.
And see from there how you came into the womb,
Leaving your connection and knowledge of your choices behind.
Facing the unknown in the womb.
And as you begin to come back through the womb,
To trace the steps back to your physical body,
You will collect yourself.
The fragments of your soul that had been left along the way.
Coming back through the womb,
Collecting the fragments of your soul,
Left there,
Coming out into the world,
Collecting yourself even more.
Growing,
Becoming nine months old,
One year old,
Two years old,
Three years old,
Collecting the fragments of yourself left behind.
Collecting the awareness of all the influences on your life.
Growing through your childhood to nine years old,
To fourteen,
To seventeen,
To twenty.
Collecting your power,
Collecting the strength of your soul as you go along.
Releasing any limiting beliefs you've created.
And with an open breath,
A calm conscious body and a silent heart,
Making the journey back to yourself,
To this day,
To this moment in time.
Collecting all the fragments of self along the way.
Aware of all the influences people and events have had on you.
Liberating yourself from unconscious,
Limiting beliefs.
And with your next breath,
Lift your hands and place your fingers at the center of your chest.
Continuing to receive into your body your fragments of self.
Acknowledging the events that have guided and steered your life.
Allowing yourself to feel.
And in this place of integration,
Remain until once more you are full.
Filled from your inner voice.
Filled from the mystic,
The interconnected web of life.
Replacing your beliefs with truth.
Staying aware of your body as you receive truth from your inner voice.
To replace your limiting beliefs.
Remain here as long as the process is flowing.
And when you are ready to move on,
Begin to move your body and let the energy flow through you and out into the world.
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You You You
