Put The Pain Of The Past Behind You Gf Live 10-24-26

Key Lesson #1: We want freedom from resentment, but we cling to the reasons that give us the right to feel resentful. We want a new life story, provided nothing challenges what we've already written about who and what we are. One part of us longs to be free; another insists on maintaining the conditions of our captivity.
Special Exercise: When you catch yourself looking back and feel tempted to return there in order to shore up some sudden shaky sense of self, remain there in the present moment watching that nature shake itself apart until it no longer exists. Each time you agree to not look back to who you were, you have taken the first step into a higher inner ground... already present within you.
Summary Key Lesson: Leave the past behind you; the only possibility it holds for those who seek the higher ground is found by seeing it for what it is: dead. Our willingness to die to the past is the entrance into the Divine Now.

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It isn't a conviction of mine, But. . . A fact well proven that it is possible for you to have a completely different relationship with The moment. So then. Rather than it. Presenting a constant tug of war between what you want versus what you're being given. You can start to realize that. There is another order of relationship you can have with the moment as it unfolds that has nothing to do with this constant unconscious action of ours. To look at. What is unfolding in front of us through the eyes of the past. Kate, Let's bring up the talk title. We're going to get right into it today. As you can see, The talk title is Five Insights to Put the Pain of the Past Behind You Where It Belongs. I think rather than go through it. A series of introductory comments I want to just. Dive into the material necessary to understand. What that means to put the pain of the past behind you where it belongs. There was a great movie, If you never saw it. You should. It's worth it. It's called the remains of the day. It starred Anthony Hopkins and I believe it was Emma Thompson. And the story was placed in pre-war. Where Anthony Hopkins was the head butler. At the Darlington Manor. The home of Lord Darlington, Who was a British nobleman. And the events of this story unwind around a series of meetings that were being taken place at his estate amongst the nobles and the lords of the day who were trying to figure out how to avert or deal with what looked like a coming German invasion. The name of The character Hopkins played was Stevens. He was the head butler and his father. Was a long standing butler at the Darlington Manor, But was the, I guess you'd call him the sub butler. Emma Thompson played a. . . The main housekeeper, And she was a beautiful soul. And you could see there was a kind of nuanced relationship going on between Stevens and herself, Between Hopkins and herself. But it kept getting pushed into the background. And the reason it did was that Hopkins, As Stevens, The head butler, He had this sense of impeccable dignity. If I could speak with the English accent, I would. His devotion to his role took precedence over everything, Anything that life asked him to see or feel, It was all pushed into the background. So that actually during this, One of these conferences, His father has a stroke, Starts dying. They put him upstairs in his little room. You And so busy is Stevens Hopkins with his role as head butler to ensure everything goes right. He actually ignores that his father is laying up there on his deathbed, And it turns out to be so. And then the story unfolds that Hopkins, Stevens the butler, Sees that Lord Darlington is actually beginning to and actually assuming the role of a Nazi sympathizer. And he sees this happening in the meeting with Nazis. While on the other hand, Darlington is playing the role of a British nobleman trying to prevent the very thing that now he's enabling. Anyway, It's a fascinating story. And you see, Stevens believes that it's not his place to question what Lord Darlington is doing. And while all of this is unfolding, There is this, Again, Nuanced possibility of a relationship between himself and Emma Thompson, The housekeeper, That seems to like the possibility of love. But no, Head butler dignity keeps retreating into that professional reserve that he had fast. Long story short. Everything goes to hell in a handbasket. And years later, He's traveling. At last to go see Miss Kenton, The housekeeper, Emma Thompson. Potentially use sense to rekindle what he never did and he finds out that she's married. And she's not coming back to the household. And so it is that he comes to this sort of the ashes, The dying embers of the opportunities that were presented to him and that he never took the time to serve because of what he thought was the personal cost to himself. Do you understand the story? I don't want to spend any more time on it because I have so much to share with you. You get the idea? Dignity, Self-image before all else, No matter the cost. Because it's important to preserve who and what I think I am, No matter what it is that comes into the moment that says, But there are other possibilities beside being so identified. And not just identified, But compromising oneself because of that identity, As he did knowing that Lord Darlington was in cahoots with the Nazis. So we read or we watch a story like that and we wonder if we do it all. How can a man, Any person, Be so identified with this idea, This image of dignity, Of self-preservation, To turn away from the call of his own heart? And we may think, Well, That's, You know, That's just this person. I want to show you that it's not just this person, But it is that we are the possession of an unconscious nature that we have no idea is calling the shots the way we do. So what we're looking at is not a story of some running tragedy, And that's really a good phrase, Running tragedy. The tragedy is unfolding, Even as it seems to be his personal triumph as head butler and making sure that he preserves the dignity connected to that role. So that running tragedy isn't just Anthony Hopkins' sorrow in that story. It is the story of a nature. That that. Is loyal to something that cares for nothing but keeping in place a certain predictable and highly familiar, If not flattering, Sense of self. I'm getting ready to make a transition. I want to make sure we're leaving behind the story and seeing how this is and should be somewhat self-evident to us in our relationship with others. Are you tracking with me, Please? Because if you are, I'll ask a question. Who or what are we being loyal to? You must see yourself. Who or what are we being loyal to when we spend an hour reliving an argument? We do it. Or when we look away, As did Hopkins, From what is wrong. Because it rubs against our image of what it means to be a right and dignified human being. Or maybe we deny a new kind of love, Whatever it might be, A love for someone, A love for a new art, A love for a new action. And we abandon the dawning of that new possibility of discovery for the sake of what? Why do we say no? Because there's some unspoken fear. That tells us that if we pursue whatever that relationship may be, As did Hopkins be deflected from discovering his relationship, It might cost me this treasured sense of myself. And this treasured sense of myself is rooted in an image of myself. That I can't afford to mess with because if I do, I won't be sure who I am. We usually think of these kind of actions as protecting ourselves, Even calling it what we would say, I'm being true to myself. But I want to look closer at this with you, To what nature in these moments Are we being loyal? Let it come together in you. An example. Some small disturbance, You call the shot. Maybe one of your own thoughts talking to you about yourself in passing. Someone says something. And that moment, For whatever reason, For us becomes like a grain of sand in the shell of ourself, Irritating something. And not just irritating some in that moment. But hours later, Days, And for some people, Lifetimes. The recollection of that situation. Triggered by some common familiar sense of something in life and boom. That happened five years ago and I'm still reliving the remains of that day. Only I don't see it. I'm living the remains of that day. Still looking back on it. Still deriving an identity from it. And if you can see this is true. In any measure, It would spur you to ask, As I'm doing here. To what end, Looking back? On a moment that was painful. Given the pressure of a situation that seems familiar to it. What do the two have in common? And why would I do that? What is the cost? Of being so attached to and depending on a nature that not only can't step out of the past. But that consults its own fearful reactions on how to escape the experience of them. My mind returns to the past. To a similar pain. To tell me how to protect myself. From a problem that is similar to the old one. Failing to see that this mind actually looks back to the nature that created the first problem to solve the pain in it. If you're following me, I'm going to make a big transition here. I trust you are. In the New Testament, Perhaps you've heard it, I've referred to it a few times. Probably not enough. For where your treasure is, Said Christ, There will your heart be also. For where your treasure is, There will your heart be also. Now, Hold that thought and then consider with me the strange treasure of a grievance with somebody. Of a problem that took place yesterday or 10 years ago. Inwardly, We're going, I hate this. I don't want this. But we can't take our eyes off of something inside of us telling us we can't afford to leave that there because if it's left there, It's unfinished. So where is my treasure in the moment when I'm troubled by something that seems to be similar or that feels like it did once upon a time, Where is my treasure? And there's the answer. My treasure is where my heart, Where is my heart? It's in the past. It's in the, My treasure is in the sense of myself as it's restored by remembering a similar situation and letting it tell me where and what it is that I can and should do at this point. Do you see it with me? Not asking if you like it, I'm just asking, Can you see it with me? I have to keep moving along. It may be an uncommon connection. In fact, I'm sure it is, But there is a definitive connection between where your treasure is there with your heartbeat also, And something again in the New Testament in Luke. Christ is talking about the coming of the kingdom. And right in the middle of talking about the coming of the kingdom, Which doesn't mean sometime in the future it's coming. Rather than it is here and it is come, Thy kingdom come. He says to the people, He says, Right there, He says, Remember Lot's wife. It's the only place, It's the only, Christ never said those words, At least in any recorded scripture, Written scripture, Remember Lot's wife, Which is out of the Old Testament. And I don't have time to tell you about Lot's wife in general. But after he says, Remember Lot's wife, He says this. Whoever shall seek to save his life shall lose it. And whoever shall lose his life shall preserve it. " What a strange connection, Isn't it? Remember Lot's wife. Remember, Once upon a time, These people were called to a higher ground to escape the destruction of a level of consciousness, Which was what Sodom and Gomorrah represented. They're told to leave that, And Lot's wife goes to leave, And she can't leave it. She turns back, And they are told by the angel, No matter what, Don't look back. And she does, She's turned into a pillar of salt. Whoever shall seek to save his life shall lose it, And who loses it shall preserve it. Connected to Remember Lot's Wife. We can consider, If you're following me, Lot's Wife, The story of it. As the revelation of a lower divided level of self. Whose feet are walking away from the old world while her heart and mind still belong to what is behind her. She's walking away. With her feet. With her body, But her heart and mind are not headed towards the higher place. She is divided into something that says, I don't know, And I must, I don't know if I can leave this behind me. Are you following the story? It's pointless if I go on, If you're not. And the moment that she is drawn to look back, Onto what she is identified with. She is, So the story goes, Transformed into a pillar of salt. Now this is a story, A spiritual teaching. Because being turned into the pillar of salt in the story of Lot's wife. Divided as she was, Invited and walking in one direction, But pulled back in the old past into all the past relationships. That turning back is the same as the crystallization of that unconscious nature within her, Within all of us. That is so identified and attached to the image, The dignity of oneself, One's past, One's ideas and ambitions. It's so attached to it, It can't walk away from it. It must return to it and return to it and return to it. And with each return, The further crystallization of our possibilities. I want to go on if you're following me. Because here's the connection. How often, And you must ask yourself this, How often do you want to leave some painful state? Behind you, Yet you can't let go to the attachment of the very thoughts that as you invest yourself in them, Create the pain. How often do you want to leave some painful state behind you, But even as you think I should be going this way, You're looking at the very thoughts and reactions that are ensuring the reincarnation and the crystallization of that identity being preserved by looking back. Do you see it with me? Kate, Let's bring up the first key lesson, Please. Read along with me, Everybody. We want freedom from resentment. But we cling to the reasons that give us the right to feel resentful. We want a new life story, Provided nothing challenges what we've already written about who and what we are. One part of us longs to be free. Another part of us insists on maintaining the conditions of our captivity. This is the classic description of a divided soul. Actually what Christ called mammon. That which loves the idea of something but despises what it has to go through in order to become something new and reborn. So I'm going to now move into a a supporting section of all the ideas that I've just presented to you. So that we can see them in real time. Teachings, Any form of teaching what is true. Is worse than useless if you, As an aspirant, Don't apply what you understand at whatever level. To the moments in which you find yourself feeling like, I'm in pain. I'm a captive. The past, I can't get rid of it. It keeps coming back. Why does it follow me around? Unless we're able to look at such moments through the eyes of a new mind, Metanoia, Christ called it. There's no chance because we will see the present moment through the eyes of the past, And the eyes of the past will pull us into everything conditioned within us to make sure that our experience confirms our identity as opposed to revealing it superfluous, Useless, Because all it does is repeat itself. So with this in mind. Here are five familiar ways. This divided level of self. Deceives us, Tries to drag us back into its past. Here's the first of five ways that we're tempted to look back and return to the pain of the past. First, Number one, Self-judgment. Self-judgment. Key lesson number two, It will explain the first of these five ways we are deceived into returning to the pain of the past. Read along with me, Everybody, Please. Ahem ahem There is no self-judgment. Without an unconscious nature. Looking back into the mirror of itself. And comparing the image it has of itself to what it actually sees about itself in the moment of question. You ever wondered why you judge yourself so harshly? The thought behind any form of self-judgment is, I shouldn't be like this. Well, Why would I even think to myself, I shouldn't be like this, Unless in that moment I'm actually being like what I shouldn't be? Wait a minute, How can I not be what I am being? Because inside of this nature is an image of dignity, Of self-preservation, Of importance, Of being significant. And the minute that this image runs into any situation that says, You know what, You are nothing like what you imagine yourself to be, That's when self-judgment appears. Because self-judgment proves that as the judge, I am superior to what is being judged in me in that moment. Are you able to see it with me? If you can, It's fantastic. So from where comes this image? Of this person that we should have been but didn't make it. Hating yourself, Talking to yourself. From where comes that image saying, You know what? This isn't how you should be. You should have been like this. By the way, This is called hell. This is where mechanical religion destroys the human soul because it drives it into a state of conflict that can't be resolved by the unconscious nature trying to marry what is with what should have been. So where is this image? Where does it come from? The same mind that's prosecuting us for failing to live up to its imagined perfection. The mind prosecutes itself for not being perfect the way the mind says and imagines itself to be. So it's life literally of that nature depends on looking back on itself because that's the only place where it feels safe, Even if it doesn't want to experience what it's looking at. I've got to move on. I trust you're following me. Number two of the five ways we're tempted to look back and return to the pain of the past. The second way is called fearing the unknown. Fearing the unknown. Let me bring you into that idea. Again, From the Old Testament, The story of Exodus. Moses being empowered to retrieve and release the Jews from Egypt, Which was really called the land of the dark, Represents Pharaoh along with it, This lower level of consciousness and represents a soul seeking to be liberated from a bondage that it fell into and that was taken its right from it. And here comes at last something to rescue them. So Moses leads the people into the desert, Headed towards the promised land. I hope you know the story. If you don't, It's remarkable. Not as some. Uh. . . Let me go on. So there we are, And we've headed out into the desert. Here I am. I'm an aspirant, If I need to fill in the space for you. And I know that I'm a slave to my anger. I feel righteous in it, Yet it's ruining everything. I serve without question this image of myself as being far beyond any mistake. So anytime I have to. See, I made a mistake. I've got to come up with some way to rationalize or excuse myself. That's called bondage. So these people, They're out in the desert looking to be free as you are, I trust. And when they're out there, As you should know. Sometimes things get rough. On the way to a new life because everything is saying, Well, What if, And how about this? And I don't know for sure. So the story goes that they, They get to a certain place. And I think that's where Moses goes up to retrieve the 10 commandments. And he leaves the people down there in the desert and there's a revolt. And the revolt is because a group of people, And then ultimately most of them, Start remembering, You know. At least when we were back in Egypt, We had food, We had shelter, We weren't subject to the predators, The wild animals. Here, We don't know where we're going. So even though we hated it back there, Maybe it's better to go back. Maybe that's the right thing to do, Because at least the problems were known there. And I was close to getting them solved. I was going to add another brick section, Another Another. Whatever. So. Even what I had is better than what I don't know I'm headed for. Do you follow this idea? I don't want to stay any more on it. Do you think you're different from that? If we look closely, We discover the exact same movement of that level of consciousness that asks us to live without some old psychological support. Because here I am, And I know I should do something. I know I can't keep doing something. I know there's a possibility like Hopkins had with Emma Thompson. There's a chance. I have a love for something. But I have this life and these things and what am I supposed to do? So in that very moment, What's happening? Nothing but unknown. And listen to this, And that nature makes the unknown something to be feared by remembering similar situations where life in quotes got worse. And so we live without knowing it, Trying to ensure that things don't get worse, When nothing can be worse than living from a nature that's afraid of change. Nothing can be worse than that, Because that's prison. That's hell. So you and I, We know, I hope you do. Why, Every time I'm just constantly distracted. Can't put down the phone, Can't walk away from the tube, Always in planning something, Always fixing something involved in people's lives. I know it's time to drop those distractions. I know, Or at least I want to leave these dark inner dialogues behind me. I'm so tired of these useless conversations. And not just with myself. Useless conversations with people whose lives are so useless, All they have to talk about is stuff that they don't want or that they hope to get. And all of it winds up in the same place and begins in the same place in the past. And as long as I'm in the past, I will never make the journey to the promised land, To the new level of being. That doesn't live in fear of the unknown because it understands whatever it is given is so that that self can transcend the known and enter into a completely new and, If you want, Unknowable life. Third key lesson, Please, Kate. It summarizes this section. Follow me, Everybody. Any choice. Made by some fearful sense of self is the unconscious result of remembering a negative outcome before it takes place. If you just lived with that idea. Here, I'm going to make a choice. I've got to go. I've got to straighten that person out. I've got to go get this done. I've got to make these people the way every last one of those choices. Is the unconscious result of remembering a negative outcome before it takes place. Because last time I didn't do this and now look where I am. So my past is being consulted about how to make a new path into a world with new promises. Number three of the five ways that we are tempted to look back and returned to the past. Number three of the five ways we are tempted to look back and return to the pain of the past. Regrets. Regrets, Regrets seem absolutely common, Natural to us. But anytime we look back in regret. We have forgotten the guarantee that you cannot lay down with dogs without getting fleas. Anytime you look back and regret, You have forgotten the guarantee you can't lay down with a dog without getting fleas. In this instance, Being convinced to revisit any regret. Is agreeing to relive the same. Would you agree to relive the pain? If you knew that when you went back in regret to revisit it, You were going to reincarnate and strengthen the nature that tempted you to do so? Of course not. And this isn't a key lesson, But it should be, Because it's connected to this. Resistance ensures the crystallization of whatever nature is resisting what it does. Resistance ensures crystallization. There's natural resistance, Which is part of the creative process. And then there's something in us that does not want to take part in rebirth, In being recreated and resist anything that acts upon the dignity, The preservation of this self that we so cling to so tenaciously. And the resistance to that is crystallization. Key lesson number four, If you will, Kate, It explains what I just put into words more simply. Hoping to change some past painful experience. By re-entering it in the hope of changing that outcome is like shouting at an echo to stop repeating itself. Imagine you went into a canyon, And when you get there, You hear this echo, And it sounds just like somebody that hurt you. Even the words are similar. Where's that echo come and go? Stop it. Stop it. And so now you've got the echo repeating itself and bouncing back and forth with your own words, Stop it. And it does nothing to change what was there waiting in the past, Because you don't want to experience that pain again. Hoping to change a painful experience by re-entering it, By regret, In the hope of changing it, By revisiting it, Is like shouting at an echo to stop repeating itself. Number four. Of the five ways we're tempted to look back and return to the pain of the past. Revisiting any past moment other than for practical purposes. Revisiting any past moment. Other than for practical purposes. You may need to remember that this person that you were doing business with is incapable of being honest. You may need to remember that. Something that you have been giving yourself to is incapable of responding in kind. That your fear of not doing that means you might lose something. You need to be able to remember. These kinds of relationships. Because if we can, It might help us establish a clear boundary. Someone comes and says, Can I borrow some money? And maybe it's something or someone that you intuitively think that might be all right, And maybe you do that, And then they don't pay you back. And I'll pay you back. They come back and ask for more and you give it. You know why you give it to risk to to make sure your dignity remains in place, Meaning to make sure that that person still loves you and will treat you as though you're special. So you are buying them by selling your soul. A boundary is born not out of remembering a problem, But out of realizing that problems repeat themselves because we're not present when they do. So spending our time revisiting. Are disappointments. Figuring out how to make someone pay for the disappointment they visited upon us. Where does that take place when you revisit a disappointment or figure out how to make somebody pay for hurting you? It begins with revisiting the time and place of the pain. That exists nowhere else in that moment. Try to let this sink in. The pain you revisit doesn't exist other than in a nature that carries it forward so that looking at it, It can know what to do when it needs to move ahead. And it can't move ahead because it, Like Hopkins, Like Stevens, Is bound to a nature that can only know itself through an image, I. E. The past. And if you see it at all, One day you'll be there and you'll feel this thing telling you, You know what, I need to. I need to revisit that moment. And if you actually catch it, You'll ask, You know, What is this? Is looking back helping to heal me? Or is it simply re-stimulating a painful sense of self that even as it's reincarnated, Pulls me back and down into a moment that no longer exists? When Lot's wife looked back, Why did she look back? When you look back on a problem in your past, Do you actually believe that's going to heal you? Or are you looking to figure out a way to get rid of the pain lodged in that nature? That pulls you into it so it can restore and reincarnate that pain and that sense of self again. Do you understand that? Kate, Bring up key lesson number five. It is a very succinct description of what I just told you. What is practical is without pain. If it has pain in it. Somehow or other, You are being pulled into some form of comparison. And you may have to make a practical decision that has pain in it, But you won't let pain make that decision for you. The last of the five ways we are tempted to look back and return to the pain of the past. You have to see this. The last of the five ways we're tempted to look back and return to the pain of the past. How many of you have enemies? Stupid question. Do you know that most human beings can't live without someone? And this is one of the five ways. Most human beings can't live without resentment. What a crazy thing. Resentment breeds hatred, War. Conflict. And I can't live without it. You look at this light, You go, Oh, What a crazy world. Everybody, Look at yourself, Physician. Smallest tone, Smallest action on the part of someone that you're already inclined to judge because they disappointed or hurt you before. Instantaneous resentment. And we may have never considered this before, But now I'm asking you to do so. If. . . It's impossible to resent someone. Or for that matter, Any moment in life without what? Without first judging them for failing to meet our expectations. Why do you have resentment for anyone? Because at some point in time, They did not live up to your expectation or said otherwise. What they did ran directly into what you expected and hoped to happen. And there was a conflict. So if you're following me, That means there is no resentment without comparison. I'm hoping you can follow this. Can I have resentment for someone without comparing my relationship to them to how it should have been? But they didn't do it. They didn't say it. They didn't give it. Ergo, They are my enemy. And my enemies stay in place because there's something in me that every time it thinks about them, Not me thinks about them, Every time something triggers a thought even similar to the substance of that person, Instantaneous comparison. No, No, They're not the right way. They shouldn't be that way. So through comparison, And painful comparison at that, We are consulting the past. Where that painful comparison lives and breeds itself in order to get past that resentment. So the whole idea of looking back in anger. Is really the same as being unconsciously identified with an angry nature trying to escape its own painful reality. Let me rephrase this. It's impossible to change, Let alone escape the hurt or anger of any painful relationship you revisit. Who digs up buried garbage to escape its stench? Who digs up buried garbage to escape its stench? Do you understand the question? That's exactly what happens. Every single time, Unseen but nevertheless factual, That we find ourselves resenting someone or something. Our mind calls up what happened. How it hurt. How horrible it is. And then actually jumps into that garbage pit. Looking for a way to escape. The ugliness of that relationship. I'll ask one more time before I get to the exercise. Is any of this hitting home? Can you see yourself in any way? Running into a difficult moment. Asking you to go through a change and all you can do is look back. Look back in anger, Look back in fear. Look back at failed ambitions and judge yourself for not achieving what others seem to have been able to do. So here's the exercise. When you catch yourself, Oh, Katie, Let's bring it up, Please. When you catch yourself looking back, And feeling tempted to return there in order to shore up some sudden shaky sense of self, Remain there in the present moment, Watching that nature shake itself apart until it no longer exists. God, I wanna, I'm bored, I'm thinking about going someplace and you thought of you or this event took place. I want to, I want to achieve something that fit some way. Yeah, But somebody says, Yeah, But yeah, But yeah, But and you actually look to the source of a fear to protect you from the fear it is creating. When you catch yourself looking back and tempted to return there. To that nature to the past in order to shore up this sudden uncertainty. Remain there with that uncertainty. Let the whole thing shake itself apart, Which it will, Until that nature no longer holds sway over you, Which you have to do in order to see. Each time you agree to not look back, To who you were and what you did. You have taken the first step into a higher ground that is already present within you. You're not going to the promised land. The promised land of your higher possibilities awaits you if you will stop looking to the past to protect you from a nature that keeps predicting terrible things. I say, Well, Boy, That makes sense. I need. How can I protect myself from something that hasn't happened? I can't. It's impossible. But we live our whole lives like that. The three word. Summary of that exercise is simple. Just like Lot's wife was said. Told, Don't look back. Don't look back. I'm in my car, A thought comes, I suddenly feel anxious. I don't know why that anxiety appeared, It just did. It could be literally the movement of a cosmos a gazillion years. It could be anything. Here's the anxiety. What does my mind do? Why am I anxious? Oh, I'm in traffic. I've got to get somewhere. I've got to get away from something. And in an instant, Everything is explained to me about why I feel the way I do. And I give the explanation authority. And not just authority, It becomes my guide. Don't look back. Kate, Bring up the summary key lesson, If you will, Please. Leave the past behind you. The only possibility it holds for those who seek the higher ground. Is found by seeing it for what it is, Dead. Leave the past behind you. The only possibility it holds for those who seek the higher ground is found by seeing it for what it is, Dead. This is what it means to lose your life to find it. To die in order to be reborn, The whole idea. Our willingness to die to the past is the entrance into the divine now. But it's not a thought I'm going to do this. It's an action born out of the intelligence that recognizes I keep returning to the very nature that keeps returning me to its pain. I'm going to cut off. Cut myself off. It's dead. It doesn't seem dead to us because it feels alive when we get caught in its reactions. You have to see this. If you see it, Things will start to change and you'll understand what it means to put the pain of the past behind you where it belongs, Because you will already be having one bit of your attention, Your awareness in a world where the past has no influence whatsoever. So I'll see you tomorrow. We'll go into further explanation of this idea, This nature tomorrow, And all of the unseen boundaries that it creates, That we have simply to just prove as being unreal, If we're willing to go that far. We have a few minutes. I've just looked at my clock. Those of you that didn't get the points, You go back. It'll be posted. You'll be able to get the points. Every one of the key lessons was repeated and written so that you would have something to study. I certainly hope that you will. Anybody, Any comments, Any questions? Because if you do, We can deal with them. If not. . . Sally, The self-important Sally has lived from is you should know. Yeah, Of course. Or you should at least pretend like. . . Have you ever done that? Or at least you should pretend to know. That's what Umbridge is, Isn't it? I take exception to your comment. Take care. The beautiful nuance. Of entering into and exploring this consistent negative state. Of a self that only exists through comparison, Therefore conflict. It can't be described. I do the best that I can to bring ideas to you and flesh them out. But me describing these things would be like someone trying to tell you what the real Statue of David feels like when you see it, Not what it looks like, What it feels like. Before you can feel the truth of something, You have to see it. And to see the truth of something, You can't see it through the eyes of the past. You have to see it through the presence that you share with what is true in that moment. And there's no other way. These are all things that you have to find along the way. Decide who we choose to be and stick to it now until we change our mind about it. Stay in the now. And no, We're not going to decide who we should be. We're going to see what is deciding for us, What is making us what we are. We do not decide, That's what the world tells you, Decide who you're gonna be and then stick to it, No. See that anything telling you that you need to stick to some image or idea is the past itself presenting itself as a brighter future, Which is the return of yourself to that nature. And you get caught in that cycle. You become, You become literally lost in a world where you love one of the image. Oh, I love that, But I hate anything that shows it to me as not being true about myself. I guess that's all then. Don't look back. Catch yourself looking back. Then not only see what you're looking back at, But the sense of self that is derived from it. See all this, You don't have to ask the questions, You can experience directly the activity of this nature. And in seeing its activity, You will be given an action that includes bringing an end to your relationship with it, Not because you're trying to bring an end to it, But because you see it has no point and certainly no future the way it promises.