Authenticity & Soul Purpose

Welcome to episode two of the Auric Expressions Podcast! In this podcast, I discuss my personal story as an energy healer, my journey of discovering my most authentic self and my soul's purpose, as well as offer information and guidance to help you align with your most authentic self and start living your purpose!

Transcript

Thank you so much for joining me today.

This is episode 2 of the Auric Expressions podcast.

Just to briefly introduce myself,

My name is Molly.

If you are coming from episode 1 of the Auric Expressions podcast,

Then welcome.

If this is your first time listening,

Then yeah,

Let's get to know each other a little bit better.

My name is Molly.

I'm the creator of Energy Work Studios.

That is my professional energy healing practice.

And I created this podcast for the very reason that we are discussing today.

To align with my most authentic self,

To express my voice,

And embody the vision I hold for myself.

So what is this podcast all about?

This is all about aligning with who you are.

Your unique soul's essence in every single dimension.

Physically aligning,

Mentally,

Emotionally,

Spiritually,

Energetically aligning with exactly who you are meant to be.

Your most authentic self.

This is all about deconstructing false narratives and socialization that has been taught to you,

Convinced you of who you are,

Pressured you into being a certain person,

And really just tearing those walls down and coming back home to yourself.

Discovering your authentic nature.

Remembering who you are.

Reconnecting with yourself.

What lights you up?

Attuning to that frequency.

And not only are we going to be discussing getting your energy right,

But we are also going to be discussing how to live in that energy.

Taking action,

Soul-aligned action,

And embodiment.

I feel like the embodiment side of manifestation and intentional living is not talked about nearly enough.

But here on the Auric Expressions podcast,

We include all sides of the story to live our best life.

I am so grateful to be creating this podcast,

To finally be expanding my spiritual practice even more than I have already.

You know,

I've always had a personal spiritual practice and I still do.

Recently,

I was able to expand that into a professional spiritual practice whenever I launched my business and started to do energy healing professionally.

But ever since coming to Insight Timer,

I am just so grateful to now expand my practice into a social spiritual practice and connect with more people and interact with people through reviews and just any way that I can communicate to people on this platform,

Whether it's other meditation teachers and other meditation listeners.

I am just so grateful to be expanding my practice in that way.

You know,

My vision for this podcast is to even expand that further,

To create a space to discuss spirituality,

Sharing my experiences with others.

I've always found that in my personal experience,

Just by listening to other people's podcasts,

I'm able to feel so seen,

Heard,

And understood.

And I really hope that by sharing my experiences,

I can connect with you guys in a similar way.

I would love to eventually have the opportunity to create a community around sharing other's stories and their experiences.

But for now,

While it's just me and the listeners,

I really hope some of you can relate to what I have to say and feel seen in your own experiences.

Just so you guys can get to know me a little bit better,

I would like to share my personal spiritual journey with you guys and exactly how I came into this work.

And exactly why this work and the work I do with energy healing,

Meditation,

These podcasts,

Exactly how this is me expressing my voice and embodying my vision and truly aligning with exactly what I'm talking about today in this podcast.

So let's start from the beginning,

Just to set the scene for you guys.

This is my story,

How I stepped into alignment with my most authentic self and discovered my soul's purpose.

I guess it all started when I was about 12 or 13 years old,

I started to see what I believed to be spirits at the time.

And this was something that absolutely terrified me and I was so concerned that something was wrong with me and I was just crazy.

So I suppressed it for a few years and as I got to be a little bit older,

Around the age of 15 or 16,

It completely evolved and I began to see energy.

I would see auras and energy around all people and situations and feelings and emotions and thought forms and intentions,

Everything held energy.

And I saw this through perceiving colours and sparks of light.

Well at this time it still terrified me and I wanted to be sure that I wasn't seeing things that weren't really there.

So I started going to therapy to make sure I was mentally well and I saw a psychic for the first time.

And I went to the psychic and I just told her,

I said,

I'm seeing all of these things,

I'm not going to tell you what they are,

Can you just tell me what you see?

And she proceeded to explain to me in detail everything that I had been seeing and those two situations,

Going to therapy and going to a psychic,

Was confirmation that what I was experiencing was real.

And as soon as I found out that what I was experiencing was real,

It completely flourished in my life to the point that it was too obvious to ignore.

And I began to explore spirituality even further.

I mainly practiced meditation and mindfulness whenever I was still a teenager.

I was always drawn towards spiritual practices that only required yourself,

No tools.

And I would just express my emotions and read energy all day and practice yoga.

It was so incredible just being able to connect with my own energy and connect with the energy of the people around me,

Connect with the energy of the world.

That was so fulfilling for me.

And at that point in my life,

I had actually wanted to be a yoga teacher.

I loved how you could connect with the body and see the body's aura change as your emotional state changed and how a physical practice could influence your emotions.

I loved all of it.

It was so fulfilling for me.

Well,

As I graduated high school and I went into college,

Everything changed for me and I completely fell out of alignment with who I was.

I lost my spirituality.

For a long time,

I lost my ability to see energy even because I was ignoring it so much.

I became just so focused on success and the material and getting a good job,

Making money.

At this point,

I was pre-law and I just wanted to be a lawyer for the money.

It wasn't a passion of mine,

Obviously.

And it wasn't until I was three months from graduating college,

Having applied to hundreds of jobs,

And I was rejected from every single one of them.

It wasn't until then that I came back home to my own energy.

The entire time I was in college,

I was operating as someone who was not myself,

It felt like.

During this time,

It was three months before I graduated from college and my therapist told me to join Insight Timer.

She told me that meditation would help alleviate the stress I was experiencing.

And it was through Insight Timer that I discovered energy healing for the first time.

Now,

Remember that psychic I told you about that I had seen in high school?

Well,

I hadn't spoken to her for a few years at this point.

Now,

We're still three months before graduating college.

And I felt called to book a reading with her because I had no idea what I was going to do after college.

So,

I booked a reading and I asked her,

I said,

I heard about energy healing and it sounded pretty interesting.

Is this something worth pursuing?

Should I take a class on this?

It sounds really interesting to me.

And she just told me,

I'll teach you.

And about two weeks later,

We had our first energy healing lesson.

And I was fortunate enough to be able to complete an apprenticeship with her.

And she fully trained me to become an energy healer.

So,

Throughout the summer after I graduated from college,

I was coming back home to myself,

More or less.

Now,

Let me explain.

In some ways,

I was meeting myself again with fresh eyes.

In other ways,

I was holding on to the person I was convincing myself to be.

And I was actually slipping out of alignment even further as I was learning energy healing.

And after I completed my training,

As I was pursuing an energy healing career,

I was slipping into old habits.

And as I became so focused on the money and the success and what would other people think of me,

Would my parents think I'm successful?

Would the people I went to college with think I'm successful?

Should I go back to school?

Is this even worth it?

And as I stayed in that mindset,

As I remained not in alignment with my most authentic self,

I experienced the most struggle and the most hardship in my entire career.

It wasn't until months after I completed my energy healing training,

Months after I had already been working as an energy healer,

That I came back home to myself and experienced the flow of being in alignment.

Now,

Before I was in alignment,

When I was just pursuing energy healing,

I was so focused,

Like I said,

On the money,

On the success.

What do I look like to other people?

I was also focused on a version of healing that was outside of alignment with myself as well.

It wasn't until I returned to my original gift that energy healing truly started to flow for me.

Of course,

I am infinitely grateful for the training I experienced from my teacher,

But the version of energy healing that I was taught versus the version of energy healing that was innate within me the entire time are two very different stories.

The version of energy healing that was innate within me the entire time was the energy I experienced as a teenager that was just too obvious to ignore.

Reading energy,

Perceiving energy,

And being a healer for other people through my words.

Being a healer for other people through being present with them and easing their blockages,

Easing their emotional pain through conversation.

The energy that I'm able to perceive and bringing their own energy into vision.

That was my gift.

And that was very different from the version of energy healing that I was taught,

Which was very focused on the physical body.

And like I mentioned earlier,

I have always been passionate about how the physical body stores energy and especially emotions.

And how by working with the physical body,

We are able to alleviate emotional pain and mental pain.

And of course,

By alleviating mental pain and emotional pain,

We are also able to alleviate physical pain.

But I was so passionate about the energy body.

Healing the energetic field to relieve emotional pain.

Not so much dealing with physical pain and physical trauma.

And that was just my personal alignment.

What felt right to me,

What felt natural to me.

So as I stepped into the version of energy healing that is in alignment with my most authentic self,

I was also able to step into alignment with viewing my career from a place of love.

Viewing my career from a place of compassion.

Simply wanting to be a healer for myself,

For the world around me.

That's what allowed me to grow in my career.

Not by focusing on the money.

And not by focusing on doing intuitive work in a way that was not intuitive to me.

That's what's so important about energy healing.

And that's what I discuss with all of my clients that are wanting to learn energy healing as well.

It has everything to do with your intuition.

Everybody is a healer intuitively.

You are a healer for yourself.

No matter if you've had energy healing training or not.

So rather than following some step-by-step rulebook,

Use your intuition.

You know better what you need to heal yourself.

Using my story of stepping into my soul's purpose,

The biggest lesson I learned along the way of what it means to be in alignment with my most authentic self and living my divine soul purpose,

Is expanding my perspective.

What do I think is possible for myself?

What am I capable of doing?

Even if you have this dream,

You know exactly what you are meant to do.

You know what your soul's purpose is.

Do you believe you are capable of it?

This will be so important on your journey.

If we look back to my experience in college,

When I was pre-law and expecting to work for a corporation,

I had a very limited perspective,

A very limited view of what I believed was possible for myself.

Although I had always had these dreams of having a spiritual career,

Of creating my own career,

I didn't believe it was possible for myself.

So I felt the need to rely on the education system and rely on a 9-to-5 corporate job to offer me stability and career fulfillment,

Simply because of what I believed was possible or impossible for myself.

But as soon as I expanded my perspective and expanded what I believed was possible for myself,

Energy healing fell into my lap.

As soon as I was ready to expand what was possible for myself,

As soon as I admitted to myself,

I want a spiritual career,

I want to create a spiritual career for myself,

I discovered energy healing.

On Insight Timer,

Just as I was listening to meditations,

I felt called to book a reading with my psychic.

She offered to teach me energy healing.

These are examples of synchronicities.

Whenever you are in alignment with your most authentic self,

The universe provides.

The universe paves a way as long as you show up for the part.

So of course the first step is going to be releasing all limiting beliefs and especially releasing all false narratives that have come from your family,

Your school,

Or friends.

This is something that has taken me years to unpack,

Are the ways that my family and the people around me have influenced my beliefs about myself.

Oftentimes if we have parents who are worried about money and worried about a career,

They might actually pressure us to get a certain job with a certain title,

With a certain prestige,

So we could have the security that they wanted.

So step number one is absolutely releasing these limiting beliefs and living for yourself.

Not living for anybody else other than yourself.

That is so crucial to aligning with your most authentic self.

Live for yourself.

If you are unsure of the limiting beliefs that you have,

If you are unsure about your self-image,

And if you are unsure if you are pursuing something that is in alignment or not in alignment with yourself,

I want you to ask yourself a few questions.

What is holding me back from pursuing my dreams?

What is one way I could take action on my dreams right now?

In what ways am I pursuing things,

Or manifesting things,

That I do not truly want?

In what ways am I taking action on things that do not light me up?

And how are these manifestation tactics working out?

Remember a time in my life when things flowed naturally to me.

How am I doing things differently between now and then?

Now this one is super,

Super powerful.

How have the people in my life,

Past and current,

Told me what I can and can't do,

Or should and should not do?

What truly lights me up?

If I believed I was capable of anything,

What would I do?

If I believed I could be,

Do,

And have anything,

What would it be?

And feel free to come back to this.

Pause,

Screen record the sections that you feel called to ask yourself and journal about.

I know that was kind of a lot of questions.

But this is what I was talking about earlier.

This is about remembering who you are,

Remembering your soul before the programming.

Now after you become aware of the ways that you are living for yourself versus living for somebody else,

It's time for you to reclaim your power.

You know your own energy.

You know who you are.

You know what is in alignment with your most authentic self.

And you know what is not in alignment with your most authentic self.

Reclaim your power by enforcing boundaries.

If you have noticed that certain family members or certain friends or even certain teachers,

Mentors,

Overstep your boundaries by convincing you of who you are,

Trying to pressure you,

Tell you what you can and can't do,

Enforce your boundaries.

This is a crucial step to living for yourself is to create boundaries for the people in your life that might not totally respect you living for yourself.

Especially as I was beginning my energy healing career before I finished training and I was kind of brainstorming how I was going to start my career,

A lot of people around me who either had experience with energy healing or had no experience of energy healing felt the need to tell me exactly how things should be done.

Doing things in a conventional way.

And I always thought that was so funny how something as unconventional as energy healing,

You know,

There was a conventional way for it to be done,

Which is to work at somebody else's shop,

You know,

Allow somebody else to offer you the job.

Not start your own studio,

Not start your own business and build your own clients,

But to work for somebody else.

And there's no shame in working for somebody else,

But that's not what was in alignment with my authentic self.

While it is for some people,

It wasn't for me.

And I always found it so interesting how people could be supportive of me pursuing this path,

But only if I did it in the most conventional way possible.

And that was the first way I really inserted my boundaries with other people.

By declaring that I would not do things how they've always been done.

And that's how I really committed to living an unconventional life.

Committing to living an unconventional life for me was inserting me into the path that was most in alignment with myself.

You know,

College never really felt right for me.

A nine to five job just never felt right to me.

But living an unconventional path and doing an unconventional career in an unconventional way was just right up my alley.

So as soon as people told me I should do things the way they've always been done,

I really held my ground,

Enforced my boundaries and continued to pursue things exactly as they felt in alignment with myself.

And that's the key too,

Is being consistent with your practice.

If there's something that you're wanting to manifest,

If there's a goal that you're wanting to achieve,

If you're wanting to fully embody your soul's purpose and maybe that requires a career change,

Maybe that requires a move,

Whatever it is,

Be consistent with your practice.

There is no secret formula,

There is no secret.

There is no step that you're missing.

There is no key or piece of the puzzle that you have not thought of already whenever it comes to fulfilling your soul's purpose.

It's simply to show up as the person who is fulfilling your soul's purpose every single day and be consistent with it.

Even whenever people tell you it's not going to work,

Even whenever people tell you you need to be realistic,

As long as you maintain consistency with your goal and taking daily soul-aligned action to achieve your goal,

It is impossible to fail if you never give up.

It is whenever you give up or you get in your head and think,

I'm missing some piece of the puzzle,

You're searching for some hidden knowledge that other successful people know but you just haven't unlocked that key yet.

None of that's real.

The only thing that you need is the desire to have it and the consistency to do the work every single day.

Now,

While we're on the topic of manifestation,

I really want to talk about the difference between manifesting what is in alignment with yourself and manifesting what is not in alignment with your true self,

Your higher self,

Your most authentic self,

But is more up the alley of your ego.

And this is about manifesting stuff that's on the surface,

Like an exact amount of money or a job title.

Remember,

We are aligning with our authenticity.

This is a purpose,

Not a job.

An art,

Not a product.

You can live a life fully in alignment with your divine soul purpose regardless of income,

Status,

Or class.

Become aware of where your soul wants to go and go there now.

The rest will fall into place.

You don't need anything material to get you there.

The universe isn't asking you to quit your job and move to an expensive city and pursue things that are materialistic,

But the universe,

Your soul,

Is asking you to fall into alignment exactly where you are because exactly what you want,

This alignment to your purpose,

Is already here now.

And this kind of goes back to what I was talking about earlier.

I've always felt called to pursue spiritual practices like energy healing because I've always believed that the only thing you need in your entire life is yourself.

There is nothing outside of yourself that you need.

No job title,

No amount of money,

No thing.

I just felt called to say that manifestation is such a popular conversation in a lot of spiritual spaces.

Personally,

I love the topic of manifestation.

I think it's a beautiful thing to believe that something is possible for yourself and going out and getting it against all the odds.

But whenever it falls into feeling like we're just wanting to control our future and know all of the answers and aligning with something a bit more superficial and surface level rather than what our soul actually wants,

Then that's where I kind of draw the line.

So I just wanted to clarify that as we continue our discussion.

We're getting a little bit off topic,

So let's get back into it.

Let's talk about embracing fear.

When you feel scared to pursue something,

That's how you know that it is going to be just so much more amazing than you could ever imagine.

Usually the action we are the most resistant to holds the greatest blessings as well.

You know,

There are just so many times in my life where I have just been I felt so called to do something,

But it was just the scariest option for me.

I mean,

Starting my career as an energy healer,

For example,

It was so much less scary for me to imagine just going back to school,

Putting my head down and hoping that something just kind of worked out for me.

And it was just so terrifying for me to imagine creating my own career,

Creating my own business.

That was absolutely terrifying for me.

But I took that action and it has had the biggest rewards.

And I just had to really think to myself,

What's scarier?

Is it scarier to imagine myself taking the action and doing this massive thing?

Or is it scarier to imagine myself in 10 years having never done it?

And you know something is in alignment with your most authentic self whenever you ask yourself that question.

And it's scarier to imagine not doing it than it is to do it.

So I know it can be terrifying to pursue your dreams,

But I promise you,

It's definitely scarier not to.

Even with this podcast,

I was recently listening to a podcast.

You know,

I've never felt called to start a podcast,

But I was recently listening to one.

And I just felt so lit up.

I felt so inspired and so motivated.

And I just thought,

This is so amazing.

I have to do this.

And that was my first thought is that,

Wow,

I want to do this too.

And that was weeks ago.

When I tell you weeks ago,

I mean,

It was probably a month ago at this point.

I was just so terrified to start.

I was so terrified.

I would sit down to record and I would just have nothing to say.

And whenever I would talk,

I would just be talking in circles.

And it was just a hot mess.

And it wasn't until I just stopped and I thought,

Okay,

That's fine.

Never start a podcast then.

And then I was just kind of like,

Okay,

Wait,

Let's not be so dramatic.

I still really want to do it.

So,

Okay,

Let's sit down and do it.

So today I just sat down.

I recorded episode one.

It was painfully awkward.

So if you are coming from episode one,

Thank you for sticking around.

Yeah,

And then I started recording episode two,

Which is the episode you are listening to right now.

And I fell in love with the process.

So it was absolutely worth embracing that fear.

And this all kind of goes back to opening the solar plexus chakra.

Actually,

The solar plexus has to do with our purpose,

Our confidence,

Our personal power.

And the key to awakening our personal power,

Awakening to our purpose,

Is embracing fear and accepting new challenges.

It's not staying still and continuing to meditate and look inward.

But it's rekindling our inner fire and going out into the world and creating action.

That's how we awaken to our purpose.

Of course,

That always starts by looking inward and getting our energy right.

But it's also embodiment in action.

You know,

Anybody can be their best self for themselves.

But being that person for the world is another story.

This is why it's so important to not only discover our purpose and show up as that person for ourselves.

Of course,

That is so incredibly important.

But also showing up as that person for the world.

You know,

In my personal experience,

It was more than just healing myself.

Healing myself was an amazing first step and it taught me so much.

And I'm still learning so much from myself,

From being a healer for myself every single day.

But in order to truly awaken to the person I'm meant to be,

I need to take that healing that I practice for myself every single day and express it outwards.

Use those lessons as teachings for my clients.

Use that experience to help me whenever I'm in a session with a client and I need to recall a situation.

Or it helps me learn how to be a healer for other people.

And that's where we step into aligning not only with our authenticity,

But aligning with our divine soul purpose.

And this embodiment can be so simple.

It's about feeling comfortable with exactly where you are right now.

Not wanting to skip to the end,

To skip to the good part,

But to truly embody every single step of the way.

Having gratitude for where we have been,

Knowing that the places we have been before were integral to where we are right now.

It's finding peace in our future,

Knowing that exactly where we are right now is essential to where we are going.

Embodying every lesson.

Every single moment is a lesson.

And whenever you are aligned with your most authentic self,

Every single moment is leading you to exactly where you need to be.

You are on the right path.

You are exactly where you need to be in this moment.

And it's all about feeling comfortable with being at the beginning.

Feeling comfortable with being where you are.

Embodying where you are right now.

Embodying the lesson you're meant to be learning right now.

If you're not experiencing an accomplished goal,

Your manifestation being received,

If that's not your experience right now,

Then what you are experiencing right now is the total embodiment of the lessons you are learning.

You are growing.

You are healing.

You are blossoming.

And that is just as important.

And as you are on this journey of continuing to feel comfortable exactly where you are,

Especially if you're in the beginning,

You might tend to see other people around you with the thing that you want.

Having manifested their purpose.

Having,

Or not manifested their purpose,

But stepped into their purpose.

Embodied their purpose.

Manifested a desire that you want for yourself.

Whenever you feel jealous for seeing someone else with your manifestation,

View them as a mirror.

They are simply showing you what is equally possible for you.

And I want you to look at this as an opportunity to actually support them in their manifestation.

Support them in their growth.

Support them in their purpose.

This is what I like to call the echo of your energy.

You know,

What you put out into the world always comes back to you.

And it starts as a thought,

A feeling,

Words,

Actions,

How you affect other people.

This all comes back to you.

When you support others in their dreams,

It comes back to you.

So focus on being of service to the world and adding value to the world too.

So whenever you see somebody living their purpose,

See if there's a way that you can support them.

Whenever you are working on your own purpose,

How can you be of service to the world?

How can you add value to the world?

Just being you,

Just being yourself,

Adds value to the world.

Adding value to the world adds value to your life.

And living in alignment does add value.

The more you heal yourself,

The more you get your energy right,

The more you are able to put healing energy out into the world through your actions,

Through your embodiment.

Now this,

Of course,

Comes back to you.

But it also,

Just knowing that you are impacting the healing and the growth of the world around you,

That is just,

That is enough to stay on this path.

Stay on this path of aligning yourself with your most authentic self and your sole purpose for yourself,

Wanting to live for yourself,

Wanting to live an aligned life for yourself,

But also do it to be of service to the world around you.

Just simply by being yourself,

You are inspiring other people to align with their authenticity,

To align with their authenticity as well.

Trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be right now.

Trust that you are healing and growing in every moment.

I support you on your journey to discover your authenticity,

Your higher self,

Your sole purpose.

Thank you so much for joining me for today's episode.

Stay tuned for episode three.