This meditation is designed to help you release any anxiety,
Any fear.
It's also designed to help you collect up through your body any residual suffering,
Any pain,
Any sense of self-hatred,
Body dysmorphia,
And to pack those energies you no longer wish to carry with you into the cells of the body that will soon no longer be there.
The intention of this meditation is for you to actively choose what you want to keep and what you're ready to release and let go of so that you can step into this next phase of your life.
So get comfortable,
Close your eyes,
And take a really deep breath in all the way down to the pit of your stomach.
And then release the breath before breathing in deeply again,
Holding for the count of four before releasing the breath.
Now draw your attention to the soles of your feet and visualize tiny but growing roots emanating from the soles of your feet,
Reaching down through the floor,
Down again until they reach the earth.
And as these roots reach further down they become larger and stronger and they burrow down anchoring you to the earth,
Making you safe,
Anchoring your energy,
Making you stable.
And with this solid,
Grounded rootedness,
I now invite you to pay attention to your physical body.
Feel into your physical body.
Scan through the body with the intention of collecting up any energy of fear,
Any energy of self-hatred,
Anything that you no longer want to carry with you into this next phase of your life.
The body stores memory,
It stores trauma,
It stores responses to trauma,
And you have an opportunity here to go through your body collecting up all of that energy and packing it into the cells of the parts of your physical body that will soon be removed,
That you will soon be free from.
So take a moment now,
Perhaps starting from your feet,
Moving up through your legs,
Through the knees,
Your thighs,
Your buttocks,
All the way through your abdomen,
Up to your chest,
Scan both arms,
Your shoulders,
Your neck,
Your head and jaw,
All the way to the crown of your head,
Collecting up any energy you do not need and do not want.
Maybe this energy has a particular colour,
Maybe it has a texture,
Is it syrupy,
Viscous,
Is it airy,
Thin?
How does it feel?
What does it look like?
And once you know this,
You can scan your body from your feet to your crown once again,
Intending to pull out any energy that you no longer need,
That you do not want to carry with you.
Almost like a sponge,
You can mop up all the energy that rises to the surface of your body that you no longer want and move through your body absorbing this energy,
Collecting it up.
Maybe you see it like a ball of energy,
Bundled up together,
Rolling through your body,
Collecting this energy that you do not want anymore.
Memories of trauma,
Trauma itself,
Trauma responses,
Feelings of not being quite right,
Of not loving parts of yourself,
Of feeling that parts of your body are just not yours.
All of this energy can be bundled up,
Can be soaked up,
Can be collected up and deposited almost like honey in a beehive.
Pack this energy you no longer want,
You do not need anymore,
Pack it into the honeycomb of your breast tissue,
The tissue that will soon be removed.
And take a moment now to scan through your body for the third time,
Just making sure that there's no more energy that you want to have left,
Making sure that the last residual bits are all collected up and packed into the cells of your breast tissue,
Packed into your chest,
Packed away into the parts of your physical body that will soon be removed,
Gone forever,
Separated from you,
Packed up,
Shipped away,
No longer a part of what you carry,
No longer a part of the body you move with,
No longer a part of the body you move through the world in.
You have an opportunity here to get rid of so much more than breast tissue.
Take this opportunity to pack into the tissue that will soon be removed anything that your body is holding that you no longer wish it to.
And once you feel you've packed the cells of your breast tissue with this energy you no longer want to carry with you,
Make sure you seal the cell doors.
You might visualise this like a wax seal,
Keeping that energy in that space only so that it cannot seep back out into your body.
And feel how the rest of your physical body feels lighter,
You're no longer carrying this energy,
It's all encapsulated,
Safely encased,
Ready to be removed when your breast tissue is removed.
And once you've felt this seal occur,
Take a deep breath in and then a deep breath out,
Breathing out any last remaining straggling bits of energy you no longer wish to carry.
And breathe in deeply again,
A cleansing clarifying breath and breathing out the last residue,
Any echoes of the energy you've just sealed away in your breast tissue.
And drawing your attention to the crown of your head,
You visualise a golden thread reaching from your crown up into the universe.
And this golden thread moves up into the infinite and connects you through the crown of your head all the way through your body right back down to the roots,
Anchoring you to the earth.
And take a moment now to feel this stability,
You are held,
You are meant to be here and you are about to be encountering the world,
Moving through the world with a new,
Upgraded,
More powerful physical body that no longer carries this trauma,
This pain,
This suffering.
You will be stepping into a new physicality,
One that you will be able to expand into and live well and powerfully through.
Thank yourself for this gift that you have given yourself.
And taking a really deep breath in,
Start to pay attention to your physical body,
Maybe wiggling your toes,
Your fingers,
Come back.
And as soon as you're ready,
Open your eyes and come back into the room.
