This is the Garden of What Remains.
Find a comfortable seated position with your spine straight,
Reaching towards the sky.
Allow yourself to move at all to get a little bit more comfortable.
You can rest your hands on your lap.
If it feels safe,
Feel free to close your eyes.
Or look at the floor in front of you with eyes gently open.
Let's start by taking a slow breath in through the nose,
Inhale.
Pause.
And then exhale,
Let it out.
Again,
Inhale.
Filling up the lungs.
Pause.
Exhale,
Release.
One more time,
Inhale.
Pause.
And exhale.
Good.
And let that breath go.
Allow yourself to fully arrive into this moment.
It's not easy to make space for grief.
We're going to take a gentle walk together.
Everything I describe in this meditation.
Let it form in your mind.
Noticing colors.
Textures.
As well as sensations of the air on your skin.
What you hear around you.
And know that you can go through this meditation.
At your own pace.
If you need to take a break.
Feel free to pause it and rest.
Come back when you're ready.
You're standing before an old wooden gate.
Set into a low stone wall.
Mossy at the base,
Lots of colors of moss,
Many greens,
Browns.
Warm from the sun.
The wood is worn smooth.
Where many hands have touched this before.
There's a simple iron latch.
You look beyond the gate from what you can see.
And notice pieces of the garden,
Just glimpses.
Some colors,
Reds,
Pinks.
Maybe some yellow,
A flash of green.
Maybe the sound of some water running,
Like a fountain.
You hear some bees.
Yet,
You know.
Before you even open this gate,
That this is a place where something tender lives.
Something.
That you've been carrying.
You take a breath.
Lift the latch.
Exhale,
Let the gate swing open.
You step inside.
Beneath your feet.
Is a path of flat stone.
Each stone is slightly different.
Worn by weather and time.
The air is soft.
Just present against your skin.
Warm.
On either side of you.
You notice the garden grows.
Lavender along both edges.
It's scent rising as you brush past.
You feel a sense of calm already.
Just smelling the lavender.
You notice.
Climbing roses.
Along the far wall.
Pinks.
Reds.
Peach.
Yellow blooming in a deep color.
You walk slowly.
There's no destination for you yet.
You notice the light.
The sunlight filters through the trees above.
It's late afternoon,
Golden.
Unhurried.
Everything feels warmer here.
More comfortable.
You continue walking.
Feel the ground beneath you.
Holding you with each step.
Feeling solid,
Steady.
Whatever you're carrying through this gate.
Through this garden.
Remember.
The ground can hold it with you.
You do not have to hold it all alone.
You are held deeply by the Earth.
The path curves up ahead.
You noticed your left.
A corner of the garden.
That is wilder than the rest.
Long stems are bending underneath their own weight.
A tangle of vines along the stone wall.
Not ugly,
Just untended.
Like something that needed care.
But wasn't taken care of in so long.
You recognize this place.
This is where grief has been living.
Not dramatically.
Not loudly.
But growing in its own way.
You see it,
Allow it to be there.
You don't need to fix it all right now.
You only need to look at it honestly.
To say,
Yes,
That is here.
I see it.
I've been avoiding it.
That is understandable.
I can see it now.
Without being consumed by it.
I can be the observer of it.
Notice that even in the wild corner.
.
.
There is life.
A small bird.
Chirps jumping through the undergrowth.
A single flower.
Blooms in the tangle.
Even here.
Something persists.
Something can grow.
You decide to keep going.
You walk back along the path.
It leads you to a bench.
Beneath the wide canopy of an old tree.
The branches are spreading in every direction.
The leaves making a soft sound in the breeze.
You feel the breeze through your hair and your skin.
Soft.
And light.
You notice the golden sunlight comes through in shifting patches.
Feeling warm?
And cool.
Then warm again.
You notice the blue sky above.
Patchwork of clouds floating on by.
You decide to sit down on the bench.
The bench is solid.
Still.
But supportive,
It holds you.
The tree holds its canopy over you.
The garden surrounds you.
Full of life.
Breathing.
And alive.
Take a moment.
For you right now.
Just be here.
Notice.
What it's like.
To be fully present.
Fully arrived here in this moment.
Now bring to mind.
Gently.
Mindfully.
What you are craving.
What have you lost?
Is it a person?
The loss of something else.
Maybe the version of your life that has changed.
Let it arrive quietly.
You're not forcing it.
Allowing it to be present with you here.
There it is.
Feel where the grief lives in your body.
This may take a moment.
Allow its presence to be known.
Perhaps it's in your chest?
A tightness,
Maybe a heaviness.
Or maybe in your throat.
Put your hand there if you'd like,
Wherever it is.
Let your own warmth flow.
Meet the place that holds this.
Allow yourself to be here.
For the grief.
Of the loss.
You're not trying to fix it.
You're simply sitting with it.
The way you might sit with a friend.
Who's struggling?
No need to say the right thing.
Just be there.
Be that.
For yourself.
After some time.
You rise from the bench.
And walk back along the stone path.
The lavender.
Brushes against you.
You notice the climbing roses.
Catching the last light of the day.
Vivid,
Blooming.
No matter what.
Still growing.
You reached the gate.
Before you lift the latch.
You pause.
Because something is different.
You came in here carrying something heavy.
You are leaving carrying it still.
But it feels different now.
Not quite lighter.
But more familiar.
More yours.
Grief has not left you.
But you have looked at it more clearly.
You've allowed space for it.
That takes a lot of quiet courage.
Even on days.
When you've barely felt.
Like doing anything.
You've kept going.
Give yourself that credit.
You turn around and look back at the garden one last time.
Seeing it in the whole.
Attended beds.
The wild corner.
The old tree standing patient over all of it.
This is not a garden of perfect beauty.
It's a garden of real things.
And it's yours.
You built this.
Through every loss.
Every season of grief.
Every morning you got up anyway.
You have been tending something.
It's more alive than you know.
You take a breath in.
And exhale,
You lift the latch,
Step through.
Allow the gate to close behind you.
That is an ending.
But as a door.
You know how to open.
You begin to come back.
Into the room you're in.
To your body.
To this present moment.
Peel the ground beneath you.
Allow the sounds of the room to return.
Maybe sounds outside of the room,
One by one.
Take another deep,
Intentional breath.
And release.
Feeling full.
Like someone who made that decision to really be here,
To be present for all parts.
Even the grief.
Even what hurts.
To give it compassion.
And care.
When you gently blink your eyes open.
Take a look around.
Know that you'll step back into the same world you left.
But you are not quite the same.
As you were before.
You've turned towards your grief with honesty and care.
That's not a small thing.
Grief is not the opposite of a full life.
It is part of one.
And you.
We have loved enough to grieve.
Who have been brave enough to sit in a quiet garden.
And feel the truth of your own heart.
You are more than capable of carrying this forward.
Take your time coming back.
Maybe wiggle some fingers or toes.
Waking up back to your life.
Take a look around your room.
And remember this garden within.
Always accessible.
Always here.
As it's a part of you.