The Power Of Returning To Yourself | Self-Honouring Mindset

Have you ever been so caught up in a moment, a trip, a family obligation — that you forgot to care for yourself? That was me.

In this episode, I open up about my recent trip to Canada and how it brought me back to my intuition in an unexpected way. I knew I’d be in family mode and that there wouldn't necessarily be time for connection to myself and my partner and I chose it anyway. What I learned from this experience wasn’t about disconnection — it was deep + invaluable clarity.

And on the other side? A new level of gentleness and trust in myself that I’ve never felt before.

This episode is a loving reminder that even when we abandon ourselves, we can always come back — softer, wiser and more attuned.

Transcript

Hello and welcome to another episode of the Wild Freewell podcast. I am super excited to be here with you today. It has been a while and I'm going to explain why it's been a while in this episode but I feel like I have so many things to say and I'm just like really excited to say them and I hope that it all comes through and like yeah that the message is really clear. So the first thing I want to say is I have been away for a little bit because of a trip to Canada. It was a very last-minute decision to go home and see my family and yeah it just I mean I brought the stuff to do podcasting from there but it wasn't really necessarily feasible so there's that and yeah I this this whole trip has kind of given me so much clarity on so many things and one of the things that I will be talking about in another episode of the podcast is this discussion of consistency. Now I've talked about it and talked about it and talked about it again and I'm gonna talk about it one more time especially from the position of being any kind of creator so that's gonna be another episode but today we are just going to talk a little bit about kind of what unfolded while I was at home because this episode or sorry this episode this trip home has been this trip home has been it's been so powerful but it has been an exercise in listening to myself via not being able to honor myself or my needs so I will explain briefly my decision to go home was relatively last-minute I haven't been home in three years I don't go back to Canada very often because I prefer that people come to Italy because I live in Italy and and going home is just like I mean I like it I like I love Canada Canada is a great place but but Italy is home now and so going back to Canada is more about visiting family and I love it when family comes here because I know that they love coming here as well and they love having an excuse and like friends came even last year I had so many friends come and visit and it's just all been so wonderful and so yeah I mean my decision to go home was like relatively last-minute it was something that we'd been playing around with my partner and I for a while now but it just was never really the right time and then something happened that was kind of like a catalyst for all of this and kind of got the ball rolling and then really kind of encouraged us to make that decision and to and to go and so while we I mean we decided to go I think it was two and a half weeks before we left it was insane it was just such a fast turnaround and then we went to Canada for three and a half weeks and while I was in Canada I was very much in family mode so I will say that I prepared for alternatives so my partner and I we brought things to work I mean I did work while I was there with clients and stuff but I wasn't doing like any of the content creation because I just didn't really have the energy and yeah and I didn't have the capacity like I didn't what I mean by that is I did not have the energetic or emotional capacity to take something on and that was not the point of the trip but we did go with the intention of being able to do that if we wanted to so my partner did get some work done while he was there and that was really good for him but I unfortunately was beyond client work just wasn't really able to to do much of anything else but I want to preface like I'm saying that we prepared for the best and we kind of also prepared for what was likely to be our reality which is that we would be so busy while we were there and while I was in Canada I was entirely in family mode that was the entire reason why I went back people ask me all the time if I miss Canada and my answer is always the same not even a little bit I miss my family I miss my friends what little I have what few I have left in Canada at the end of the day because I mean I've been living abroad for so long that like you know connections when not fostered with like intention and effort and that's on both ends including my own no shade to anybody ever they just they don't flourish right and so like it's I don't have a ton of connections necessarily left in Canada my life is very much rooted in Italy but when I made the decision to go home I knew that it would be busy and I knew that it would be family oriented and like the reality is that my focus while I was there is that you know there's there's people to see and there's things that need to be done so there was things logistically that I needed to do that I can maybe only do when I'm in Canada and then just being able to connect with everyone I haven't seen my family in three years which is I mean crazy to say right but just life gets busy and things happen and you know it doesn't really necessarily work out my parents were thinking about coming to visit last year and you know I'd whatever and we're talking also about coming to visit this year and like as I said I prefer that people come here than that I go back to Canada because I feel like there's more here for them it gives them an opportunity also to travel so it's not just about seeing me whereas going the other way it's not necessarily true but yeah it was really really wonderful to be in that space to be held by family and to be connected but I also knew that in choosing to go home and in choosing to be there for my family because that was the reason why I went there was because I felt like it was necessary that I go home and that I make that that I make that effort to really show up for them because I think that we all bring our own unique kind of magic to a situation and we are able to connect better with some people than others and other people are able to connect better with others and us so in this case like I knew that like my going home served a very specific purpose in the context of my family dynamic because there are people that I am able to connect with and communicate with in a very specific way sorry that was purposeful and intentional for my trip home so everything that I set out to do my intention with going home was very much met and that feels really satisfying and really really good now there's a flip side to this the flip side to this is that I knew that like in going to Canada there would be no point of connection with myself and there would be no point of connection with my partner so Francesco came with me this is the first time that he's ever been to Canada and people ask him all the time like what did you see and I was like what did he see he saw my family my family friends and that's pretty much it we were so busy with with like get-togethers and we went over Easter and there was a lot of like things to do and people to see so we didn't do a lot of touring of like the country necessarily we saw mostly like family members and like really connected on a personal level with people but I knew that in going there we would not necessarily have time to connect with each other and we did make pockets of time like we tried to after the Easter break when things kind of settled down we really did try to get out a couple of times per day just to go for like a walk like we were doing at home and keeping up that habit right and I knew that there would be no point of connection with myself so I wasn't in a space energetically again it's the same discussion for the podcast because where do the ideas for the podcast come from? From my very soul like it's like where do these come from they come from something that happens to me something that happens to a client something that comes out in the session when working with somebody so it comes from within me and so if there isn't that point of connection with myself it's very difficult then to externalize something internal. Internal things were happening there were a lot of shifts and a lot of realizations but without the time and energy to necessarily and I would say also focus actually but without the time and energy and focus to actually sit down journal do the things meditate like get into that space you know what I mean to really reflect on what was happening it was very difficult to externalize something that was happening to me or what we were going through but it's it's been really interesting I've been back for like a little under five days so not very long and it's amazing to me how many things have come into such sharp focus like this trip has served such a powerful purpose I hate repeating words but anyways here we are purpose and it's just really interesting because while I was there I was so incredibly tired and I would say I was distracted what do I mean by distracted I don't mean that I was on my phone I mean we didn't have time we didn't have time to be on our phones and when I was on my phone I will say it was such intentional time like I was on my phone because I knew that I needed a second to like just detach from the energies of everything that was happening like I very much used my phone as a tool to disconnect from the energy of being with people which is something that for me is very difficult I would say that I'm an extroverted introvert but the way that I get my energy is from being alone and so being in a space where for three and a half weeks quite literally every minute basically was with someone else including Francesco including my partner right so even when we're at home we usually have like time alone like he takes time and I take time for ourselves or we're like separate in the house or whatever it might be like there was none of that it was like together time all of the time 24-7 for three and a half weeks and neither of us I would say are built for that so but the distraction of this time of like being so full has provided so much clarity as I've come back into my space so we're back home we're getting settled into our routine and I will like share also that like we came back obviously there's jet lag and stuff like that I was sick Francesco hasn't been sleeping so there's all kinds of like things that are kind of going on like I've handled the jet lag coming back here a little bit better but than he has I would say but like I was sick so I had like a whole other thing to like deal with and yeah it's just been really interesting because I have realized that in not being able to honor myself or my needs or live the way that I would normally choose to live in this three and a half week period because I had such a specific focus for that time it has given me the clarity of how I want to live and what I need to do now so I find that in coming back I'm more willing to listen to myself and I have come back with a new level of gentleness that I don't feel I have embodied before because I am realizing on a deeper level and I think that's what this path is always about right like we're always we know things sometimes we know them in theory and we don't necessarily know how to put them into practice sometimes we know them on you know a superficial level and then it gets deeper over time but we're constantly learning and relearning things but one of the things that I feel like I've really taken on here is the importance of well-being part of that is from experiencing quite intense dis-ease I would say within my family so while we were in Canada we just I mean my entire extended family was all sick interns there was some kind of bug going around and so like that kind of impacted what we did and didn't do as well but I just feel like in coming back I've really understood the need for me to be more gentle with myself and to kind of show up for myself in a really powerful way so I allowed myself to move really slowly this week and I would love to say to you that it was without guilt it wasn't without guilt but the guilt was there and I was able to look it in the eye and have a conversation with it and that was intensely powerful so I was you know I was allowed I allowed myself to be gentle I lessened my work hours this week knowing that I wouldn't be able to show up fully so I wanted to show up still but I showed up in a reduced way and really gave myself that kind of grace and then even with like being sick and stuff I allowed myself to really rest and when the guilt came up of like you need to be doing this you need to be showing up in this way you need to be moving in this way I just looked it in the eye and had a conversation with it it was like I see you but actually I don't actually I do not need to show up any differently than the way in which I am most capable of showing up right now and I kind of continuing off of that I feel less of a need to justify what I do or don't do to other people so in the past I would always be looking for a permission slip of like somebody I want to have a conversation with somebody where someone else tells me that it's okay to um you know reduce my hours that it's okay to work a little bit less that it's okay to like live the way I want to live or okay to work the hours that I work even like on a normal basis because I do work less than like what is considered a normal work week so I feel like I have spent a lot of my life looking for you know permission and asking other people to kind of validate the way that I live and in coming back this week I just feel like no I and I don't know why I would love to give you some kind of like you know overarching lesson about why this unfolded this way I mean I have some theories but I don't know if that's actually the reason why but I do feel like I've released something so I released something in so many ways this is also bleeding I can feel that there's another podcast episode bubbling under the surface here so I don't want to get too far off like the point here but being able to meet myself fully where I'm at and being able to give myself permission in this way without like seeking approval from anyone else not having endless conversations about the decisions that I want to make and just making them because I know that they're the right thing for me and really leaning into really leaning into my intuition really leaning into the things that I know I need to do and the things I know I have to say and trusting that that's enough and and it is it is that too god I'm glad I said the word enough because I also unlocked something else it is this sort of like really deeper acceptance of who I am and the way that I move in my in the world and just really like being so okay with that and like not needing to justify it to anyone else and like so where did this awareness and this realization come from and I want to go back to a second a second want to go back for a second to this discussion of distractions because I think that in being so and I say distracted but at the same time I was distracted maybe from the things that I normally do but I was wholly present with my family to the best of my ability given jet lag and the short amount of time that we were there how busy we were and so on and so forth like given the totality of the situation and all of the different aspects and nuances I feel like I was very much present with my family which is the only reason why I went home I did not go home for myself I did not go home necessarily even because I wanted to I went home because I felt like it was the right thing to do and it was the necessary the needed thing to do in that particular moment and I think that by by taking a period of time where my focus was entirely on something someone or you know other people else I wasn't focusing on the you know personal development and I wasn't you know journaling I wasn't doing the things which sounds so counterintuitive and in some ways it was a good thing and in some ways obviously it's just not necessarily the right choice because if I had had more time I think to myself and to meditate and kind of take that break then I think that I would have maybe felt better in some ways but in any case it all unfolded I think really quite perfectly so the distraction aspect of it because I wasn't focusing on myself with this fierceness it allowed me to just kind of shed and then I think to witnessing my family and the way that they are the way that they move their level of well-being their quality of life and the way that they move in the world really shed some light on who I am the lineage that I come from and who I want to be so I had some interactions with family members where because I was tired or because I wasn't feeling well you know whether that be because of the jet lag or so on and so forth I just wasn't necessarily the best version of myself but I didn't beat myself up for it I watched it as it was happening and in the moment as it was happening I was having this awareness of like this is not the person that I want to be and then I made a switch in the moment and that is really really powerful and not something that is necessarily easy to do when you're really caught up in an emotion so perhaps I was having like a heated conversation with somebody and I was right I was meeting them at their energetic level and then there was a certain point in the conversation when I realized okay there's no point in this and so I just took a step back and I just geared down and like kind dialed back my energy and I moved myself back into a space of my own homeostasis so I was not energetic not energy matching the people you know what I mean that were also potentially heated in that moment and so even seeing that like being in this situation where I was potentially triggered or you know just these things being highlighted and then using that as an active experiment to make a different choice in the moment it was immensely powerful it was immensely powerful because I'm seeing the way that other people behave and it's something that I don't want to emulate and so I was making a different choice within that moment and I think the same could be said for like well-being as well like I think that there are certain aspects of my personality my character that I can see coming down my genealogical line okay even a tendency towards anxiety I feel like I can trace that back through different family members and watching the way that some of my family members managed their anxiety instead of using it as a permission slip to continue moving the way that I had been moving perhaps or the way that they had been moving or the way that I had witnessed them moving what I did was I saw that and I thought you know that's just not for me because I'm seeing certain members of my family not living particularly well what I mean by that is they're not necessarily in a space of peace they're not necessarily living life from a joyful perspective and life becomes very heavy if we live it from that space if we are you know constantly tuned into negativity if we are feeding the negativity that's inside of us if we are feeding the anxiety because at the end of the day I think that a lot of our health issues and people are not going to like that I am saying this but I do think that a lot of our health issues at least certainly all the ones I've ever had whether they be physical or mental or otherwise have an emotional root to them so choosing not to feed the emotional root of whatever symptom you have in this case I'm speaking particularly about the anxiety that runs in my family and it was just all so the contrast of watching people move of me not moving the way I normally do but of having this sort of macro vision almost like a bird's eye view of the situation and realizing I don't want to be a part of that anymore and I don't want to feed into that story and making another decision in the moment which I swear to you a hand on my heart blew my mind while I was in it the fact that I was able to the fact that despite the the tiredness and the jet lag and the busyness and the like what I would consider is a kind of overwhelm a social overwhelm in being around people so often the fact that I was able to have this kind of level of self-control was very interesting and all of it I think reconnected me to to my power because when we are connected to choice when we realize that we have a choice and we exert the power of our choice it really connects us with our power as well so making a choice to disengage from triggering situations to disengage from this energy matching that I was doing and to disengage from what could potentially become a generational story in my family about anxiety it's really been super powerful and I want to say something too that it's really important I think to this whole like overarching story I realized none of this while I was there I mean I I did the things and I was proud of my behavior what like and what I mean by that is that in the moments where I wasn't proud of my behavior and I made a change I was proud of myself for recognizing that but there was no like complimenting myself in the moment right I wasn't giving myself a round of applause in the moment it's coming here now that I have that clarity because I look back on what I lived look back on what my experience was look back on what my intention was and how that intention was accomplished how I stayed very very true and focused to what my intention was and I didn't mention this before but I didn't let it bother me that I wasn't doing my things see I knew going home that there would be none of this like I knew that like Francesco and I would not necessarily have time together I knew that I wouldn't necessarily have time for myself so I had already kind of had a conversation with myself about preparing for what the situation was likely to bring because I knew how busy we would be because I knew how many people we had to see because I knew how long it had been since I'd been at home so like I mean and I'm not exaggerating when I say like there were days where we were going from like group to house to other house to meeting to other people like it was insane like we would go from like in the morning one day like I saw my dad in the morning then I went out for lunch with someone else and like I met someone else in the afternoon and then we had dinner like all together as a family like it was crazy the days were so full and my life here in general is not like that that is not a way that would be feasible for me to live long term but because I'd had a conversation with myself and I knew what my intention was before I even set foot in Canada it made everything so much easier it was just really really it was possible to look at the situation and just be like well I knew that this was like this and like I warned Francesco too. Francesco brought things for work and I know that he wanted to like see and do a lot of things because that's his personality he's like very adventurous but I told him before we left I said I need to be very clear with you that this is not a vacation we are not going to have the energy in this trip that we would have if we went somewhere on our own if we you know we're not going to have the same energy that we had when we went to Asia that's not the focus of this the focus of this is family he had never met my family before and it was really important for both of us that we have that moment you know because we've been together for over two years and he's like met my aunt and that's it so and my friends which is nice but yeah he'd never really met my family he'd not met my parents my grandparents and like that for me was really important so and for him as well and so I said to him I was like we need to just I want to make sure that our expectations are in line with what's going to come because I don't want us to be disappointed and that is a huge I think lesson within this story as well is managing expectations because if and and I think that at first this was harder for him see for me I really really really did get my mindset like on board I was like I know exactly what this trip is about and I know what this focus is and I think that when we first got to Canada there was a part of Francesco that was hoping that it would be more vacation like because he was taking time off work to be here so like there was that sacrifice on his part um but I do think that he realized like quickly once we got there he's like okay no and he's better at that I'll be honest with you he has way more skills than that he can really like get on board with something quickly whereas like if if a situation does not match my expectations I tend to be a little bit salty for a second and I need much longer to process that than he does so it actually worked out well that of the two of us he was the one with the distorted expectations because he is does a job of adjusting them in the moment whereas I need way more time to process and I wouldn't have had that time so like I'm I'm actually really grateful and I really am too like just as an overarching thing I'm really grateful for how all of this has worked out because I think the trip to Canada flawed though it was in some ways um was really perfect I mean it unfolded really perfectly and everything that happened um whether that is good or bad and you know even the hard conversations or the triggering conversations that I had with family members all of it I think served a very important purpose I think that lines were cleared I feel like I set boundaries I had never been set before um with certain members of my family I feel like I showed up and took care of the people that I needed to take care of and that is really good and I feel like I've learned so much coming back like I'm just having this flood of like epiphanies of like holy shit like I'm I'm strong I'm I am a strong person I am capable of setting boundaries something that perhaps wasn't necessarily fully integrated into my identity up until now um you know I am being I'm able to hold myself I am able to be gentle with myself in after a period of not taking care of myself I am able to say stop I'm not showing up for anyone or anything and I'm only going to show up for myself to like refill my cup which is what these last five days have been and it's just so interesting and so powerful but I do feel really reinvigorated by this whole situation everything that's come down the line and so if I had to translate this into a message and really give you something tangible to take away because that's what this podcast is all about like I understand that I've waffled on and told you like my whole family history now but if I had to I think that there's so many lessons to take away from the story so let's try to break some of them down one of them would be that there is nothing more powerful than your intention and if you set out to do something and you hold strong to that thing that you set out to do you are totally fully wholly capable of doing that thing okay that's one thing the second thing I would say is that sometimes distractions and or breaks from personal development are massively important so when I work with clients they we tend to work together on a set schedule so that's usually every two weeks over the period over a period of three to six months okay now life happens friends we know that everyone knows that life happens so in the last period there have been times where for example one client had to take a month off and there was a she was feeling a lot of guilt about that and I said to her don't feel guilty about that because I trust that if this is happening it's happening for a reason and we do not need to force a session into this time period if there is no space for it we need to trust that everything is unfolding exactly the way that it should be okay so when things don't work out exactly the way that you had imagined them to or they don't follow this set schedule it's okay and sometimes taking a break is actually the most powerful thing so a lot of people when they first get into first into personal development and I have been this person lord help me I have been this person you're so excited about what you're learning and it's all so new and it's all so thrilling and it's all so just like you found the secret to life and you want to tell everybody about it you want to help everybody change their life and you want to you know be in it all the time and you want to steep yourself in it and soak yourself in it and focus on it all the time and like that is great and it is a period of time and soak it in and really do be present with that fire and that desire and when the time comes for the seasons to change and you are no longer in that space so what I say about this is that I'm no longer in a space for input I'm no longer able to take any more in any more knowledge in I'm not able to read any more of the books or listen to any more of the podcasts or listen to any more of the books or or courses or whatever the hell it might be right when I get to that point I allow myself to take a break and I take a step back and potentially that could be a space for output but sometimes it's just that void that makes us all very uncomfortable right um but yeah so we don't necessarily need to always be going and there is a time and a place for distractions there is also distraction and distraction as we would say in Italian okay what I mean by that is that if we are replacing our personal growth with endless doom scrolling I would say that is not particularly productive and I would not encourage you to do that but there is a time and a place to allow yourself to be distracted to allow yourself to purposely willingly and again intentionally get off your path for a greater purpose to get to a point in time where you are ready to get back on this is also going to come up in the episode where I talk about consistency but like if I had forced myself to do a podcast while I was gone would it have been as potent and intentional as the podcast I'm recording right now maybe I can't predict the past the future or whatever but I'm gonna go with probably not because when we're showing up in that space it's like we're forcing ourselves to do something and we're not letting things unfold I have allowed myself to be carried counter to all and any business and marketing advice anyone would ever give I have allowed myself to be carried by the waves of inspiration by the seasons of life that I was in because I was in Canada in a season of life where there was no possibility for output and I could have forced myself I suppose but to what end and when will punishing ourselves ever lead to a positive result you can't get a positive result from a negative intention right if we're punishing ourselves that's not the vibe that's not the point we want to come at things from a really positive space so if I had forced myself to do that would it have been as powerful I'm going to say no I don't think it would have been as powerful as this as this episode was and yeah this episode was heavily focused on my story and my family but there's so much to take out of this there's so much to take out of it because in addition to the distractions and the intentions and so on there's also this idea of like well I don't need to give and I don't need permission from anyone else I need to learn to reparent myself and give myself permission to live the way I actually want to live period full stop and it's always easier said than done always because we can preach and preach and preach but if we're not actually living these things then what difference does it make right and that's what the space I want to be in when I show up to here to tell you something it's because I am doing it I have reached a level of gentleness because I allowed myself to be in this space of being distracted I allowed myself to be in this space of there was too much going on and I knew that there was going to be too much going on and I know that my system isn't built to handle that and I knew that it was going to be that way whether my system was built for it or not and I understand that I could have probably done a little bit more while I was there and also everything worked out exactly the way it was supposed to everything unfolded so perfectly and so beautifully and my intention was so clear and so coming home I have this peace and this gentleness that I really did what I set out to do and now I can get back to my regular scheduled programming so I took that time where I didn't put pressure on myself to do a podcast I did not I did not put pressure on it I did not feel guilty about it either I'm going to be totally frank with you because I recognized that it was not feasible in the context that I was in and that's okay and the people who love this podcast they love it because it's potent they love it because it's powerful they don't love it because it comes out once a week and I'm going to just talk about that again when we talk about consistency we will be diving back into these and on a deeper level in another episode but this idea of just being really able to give myself exactly what I need and I will also say why am I here on Friday the 16th about to release this episode on Friday May 16th in like 10 minutes once I'm done recording this why am I here now recording this podcast because I was gentle with myself because I allowed myself to take care of what I needed to do y'all want to know how I spent my week when I wasn't working this week I done watched almost all the Harry Potter movies that have ever been made and it was delightful I started watching them on the plane home and when I got home I was like you know what I'm already on this train why don't I just finish it and it was the best decision that I could have possibly made because I needed that a little bit of comfort a little bit of nostalgia these movies came out when I was seven years old they were on television until I was 21 so this is my whole youth right so allowing myself to just sit there and be in that space and to be cared for by myself I allowed my partner also to show up for me because he was initially now we've kind of swapped places but initially he was in a much better space than I was I still showed up for clients I still did what I needed to do to the best of my ability and when I couldn't anymore I recognized that limit and that boundary and I honored myself and let me tell you the most powerful decision that I made this week was that choice the most powerful thing that I did the reason I can speak to you with this confidence is because when my body said no this week I listened I really really listened there were two instances one where my body was deeply craving rest and I gave it I gave my body that and another where my partner was going to go exercise and I was going to go for a walk and all of a sudden as we were preparing to leave I heard this no in my head and I listened to it and I realized I can't right now I can't go and do this right now it's just a walk I kept hearing you know it's just a walk why can't you just go for a walk you know you can do it you love to walk and I genuinely do I love walking but it was a no and when I heard the no I listened and that too gave me confidence see because it's that it's another form of energy matching isn't it it's like your soul speaks to you and it tells you what it wants you to do it tells you what you most need and when you listen to that you are creating this sense of inner confidence because you are really really showing up for yourself you are doing the thing that you know you need to do even if it doesn't make any sense because on paper walking is exercise and exercise is really good for you and exercise makes you feel better and if the body is saying no it's still a no and so honoring that really allowed me to show up feeling like you know I can listen to myself I can meet myself where I'm at I know how to take care of myself despite what everyone around me is potentially telling me or despite what the people around me are living I know how to take care of myself and when I do I feel so incredibly powerful so incredibly powerful um I'm gonna leave this here I feel like I have so much more to say and I feel like there were a million lessons to be taken from this uh from this like trip and from what I'm realizing now but I think we're gonna stop it because we're at 40 minutes of my it's never this long the podcast is never this long so and I don't like it to be this long because I think the shorter the better but anyways so I really hope that you find something that you need in this episode and I hope that it resonates and connects with you and if you have any questions about anything that I've said please reach out to me um I do have a group on insight timer it's called wild free well with alacia and or sorry the wild free well group on insight timer and there I post questions and journal prompts and like it's a wonderful way to engage with me so if that's something that you're interested in please please please reach out I'd be so happy to connect with you you can also submit podcast episodes uh or questions like anything that you want me to cover and uh just yeah it's a really good way to to interact with me and other people who are on this path with you so yeah um and as always you know feel free to reach out with any questions concerns comments and critiques and I hope this episode was immensely useful for you and I hope that you go into the feeling well and vibrant and loved and whole and just as wonderful as you truly are and I will see you on the next episode of the podcast ciao