Hello and welcome.
My name is Bianca Campbell.
I am Keeper of the Metamorphosis.
And this is a video in the cycle support series on Insight Timer.
This video is called Coming Back to the Pulse and it is for you if you are a woman and you're feeling disconnected from your cycle,
If you're feeling scattered,
You're feeling out of connection with yourself.
So if you have a regular period,
If your periods are irregular,
This video is for you.
Or if you are beyond menstruating,
Perhaps you are menopausal and you feel as though following the moon cycle doesn't work or doesn't flow for you,
This video is for you to explore.
So very much in this practice,
We are going to address the energetic connection to yourself.
As a caveat,
I want you to be aware that this is not a quick fix for if your periods are irregular and you're looking for your period to come back into a cycle.
That is not the focus of this practice.
It's not a healing practice in that way.
And if you want any more information on the background of kinesiology,
If you have not watched the Inner Spring video,
Which includes the introduction,
I strongly and highly recommend that you go back there and you start there before you come and listen to this.
Particular video.
So the focus of today's practice is on sexual insecurity.
And the reason why this makes a lot of sense is that historically and culturally,
Women and their sexuality have been repressed.
Women have had a lot of guilt,
Shame and fear placed on them around their sexuality and their ability to be a sexual being.
So it's one of our most creative aspects to create from.
Like it's the point of absolute creation where humans come from,
Within a woman's womb,
Within her.
Her entire uterus holds the beginnings of life within it.
And we have been so repressed and so pushed down that women's sexuality,
It makes 100%.
It makes a whole lot of sense that women would feel insecure in their sexuality.
So,
And it can go to both extremes.
They can be the women who are seeking so much approval with their sexuality,
It becomes this heightened part of who they are.
And then on the flip side,
There can be the women who repress their sexuality or it's pushed down because it's scary and it becomes an invisible part of themselves because being a sexual being is so pushed away as a woman in our culture and in our society.
And there's a whole lot of reasons for that.
And that's not in the scope of this conversation.
So it can be and can feel safer for women to be invisible.
And that's what I want to help you move away from.
That sense of disconnection,
Scattered nature,
Which.
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Can push yourself you can push yourself down because you feel like it's safer to be invisible than to stand out as a sexual being So when you think about it as well,
Sexual insecurity is about not trusting your own abilities,
Not trusting yourself.
It's a disruption to that self-trust because.
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When a baby fetus is in utero,
She has all the eggs for her entire life available in her ovaries.
Stop and think about that.
That is incredible.
When you were inside your mother's uterus or the woman who birthed his uterus,
When you were in her womb,
You had every single one of your eggs for your entire life already there to go.
And you start losing them from the moment that you're born.
Little baby girls are losing them.
Infants are losing them.
And then we could talk about the whole thing about how you came to be and how incredible it is that you were.
But let's just talk about it from the woman's perspective as a mother,
Her perspective.
And even if you're not a mother,
Still that feminine energy is within you.
That sexual energy is part of you.
And if at any point in time,
You feel any anxiety,
Any fear,
Any discomfort in this meditation,
I really strongly recommend that you turn it off,
You leave it and you go seek some.
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Professional support.
Seek a therapist,
Seek someone who's specialized in this area so that you can work through whatever is coming up for you.
I would hate to have you feeling like you were not supported.
So if that is you and this is bringing up too much stuff,
Please don't continue with the meditation.
I want to protect you and I want to take care of your emotional well-being.
All right,
Let's get going.
So take your right hand,
Place it across your forehead.
I apologize if it is mirror imaged for you.
Take your left hand out as though you're saying stop to someone.
Open out your thumb.
Take your second and third fingers and you're going to trace a line from the bridge of your nose to your hairline three times.
Keeping your left hand out.
This time I'm going to get you to say the words sexual insecurity.
And as you say that second word,
Open out your thumb.
You should still have that capital L with your left hand.
Take the second and third fingers of that right hand and trace a line three times from the bridge of your nose to your hairline.
Keep that left hand up again and I'm going to say one more word and that is safe.
As we open out our thumb,
Second and third fingers,
That right hand again,
Trace that line up to your forehead.
Then you can relax down.
I am going to.
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Press play on our music and we're going to get started.
So closing down your eyes.
Take a deep breath in.
Hold for a moment.
And exhale.
One small breathe in Hold and exhale.
Beginning at your heart.
Take your energy to the center of your heart.
Beautiful heart of yours.
It has beat your entire life.
Every moment,
Every day.
It's active.
Busily pumping blood all the way around your body.
Providing resources to your entire body.
Allowing you to live.
Allowing you to laugh,
To love,
To grow.
And all the other things in between that you've done in this entire life of yours.
You how.
You don't think about it.
You don't question it.
You don't have to consciously make a choice.
This heart of yours to beat.
It just does it.
Effortlessly.
And leaving your heart now.
With just a.
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Little bit of gratitude and thankfulness.
Send your energy down to your womb or your womb space if you no longer have a womb.
That space within you.
The center of your femininity.
The center of the sexual you.
Center of creativity.
And once more.
See the room that is your womb.
The red wall.
Perhaps there are pictures on the wall.
Perhaps there's a cozy rug on the floor.
There most certainly is somewhere for you to sit or recline.
Go to that spice now.
Cooler,
Most comforting throw-over-yourself blanket.
And in this space.
See your altar.
In the corner the altar that represents heart,
The soul,
The essence of your sexual energy There's a candle on this altar.
Perhaps it's late and perhaps it's not.
Not where the focus is.
Focus.
Focus on the candle.
And the representation of light of this candle.
Witness the candle now being lit,
A spark of light within you.
Spark of creativity.
A central point.
And allow this spark of light to begin to grow.
It's as though this candle,
This spark of light is catching fire.
Nice.
Single individual representation.
It's suddenly filling more and more space within your womb.
It's as though your womb is catching fire.
This space is catching fire.
This room is catching fire.
There is only love and there is only peace as this fire begins to catch and take hold.
You feel any love.
Trust.
Peace.
As the fire spreads throughout your entire womb now.
It is not a fire of destruction.
It is a fire of passion.
It is a fire of love.
It is a fire of creativity.
Burning deep within you.
It's creating a heat.
It is creating a passion like you have potentially never felt before.
Soon enough your entire Room is on fire.
With this passion.
This desire,
This ignition.
As though someone has turned to key inside your body.
And witness this flame of passion,
Of drive,
Of desire.
Jump to your heart now so that both are on fire.
The fire has spread from your womb to your heart.
As your whole being is on fire with passion,
With desire.
Willingness to live.
The spirit of you on fire.
And extend it further now.
It travels all the way from your womb to your heart,
Filling all the spaces in between,
Down your arms,
Down your legs,
Through your entire trunk,
Through your head,
So that you are one fire,
One flame,
One spark.
Lit up your entire being and it travels out through your energetic space,
Through your aura so that if you were to turn 360 degrees,
This fire would turn with you and beyond you.
This bowl of flame of spirit of love.
Of fire of passion.
Ignited.
Feel it.
Feel the power coursing through you.
Of your energy of the drive within you of the creative force.
That is you.
That is your power.
That is your being.
It is your spirit.
Come into presence.
And feel how much change you are bringing to the world.
Through your lit fire.
Through the ignition of your spirit.
Through the flaming of your passions.
Now very gradually allow the fire to dim down a little,
Die down.
Back down to your body.
Back to your core your heart your core of your being and then allow it to come back.
To just the flicker of the candle in your room.
At the altar the echo of the fullness of that flickering light.
Always present,
Always within you.
Held in your space,
The potential is always there.
Send love to yourself.
Thank yourself for being present and remind yourself.
The cycle,
The flow.
At your body knows intimately.
Appreciate yourself for being present to you today.
Know that you can return anytime you choose.
And when you're ready.
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Can bring yourself back.
Thank you Your feet underneath you all.
You're self connected to the space you're sitting or lying in.
You're ready you can open your eyes look at the walls around you or the space that you're in.
Remember the last meal that you had.
And thank yourself for showing up today.
And every day.
Thank you for joining me on this journey.
I wish you so much love And so many blessings.
