Hello everyone,
My name is Peggy Kukasian and I'm a somatic practitioner here in Los Angeles,
California.
Thank you so much for choosing to spend this time together as we support your body in this practice for all the feelings that are feeling deeply.
In moments of rejection,
Disconnection,
Subtle shifts in our tone,
It can land intensely in our bodies.
So today's time together is to notice your own nervous system and where it reacts quickly,
Where the tightness in your chest might show up,
A drop in your stomach,
A wave in the emotion that feels hard to keep steady.
And so in these moments where it can feel overwhelming,
Confusing,
And even isolating,
This space is here to meet you with this gentleness.
We're not here to push anything away or override your sensitivity.
We're actually here to support your body and holding these tender experiences with more safety,
More capacity,
And more care.
You'll be guided slowly with your choice so you can stay connected to yourself even in the midst of what you feel.
So let's begin by arriving in the space that you are.
If you want to take a seat and step into a comfortable position and letting your body land,
No need to change anything,
But just notice how your body wants to take up space.
And if it feels okay,
Gently close your eyes and soften your gaze.
Take a slow inhale through your nose and exhale through your mouth.
Again,
Big inhale deep through the elongating of your body and exhaling as you're letting your body drop a little bit more.
Now bring one hand to your heart and one hand to place somewhere else on your body that feels naturally comforting or maybe even neutral.
It could be your arm,
Your belly,
Or your thighs.
Feel the contact,
Feel the steadiness of your own touch.
Now gently bring to mind a recent moment where you felt that sting,
A moment of rejection,
Perceived disconnection in that moment.
Bring it into your mind's eye.
Not the most intense one but just something maybe mild or moderate and notice where that feeling lives in your body.
Where does it trigger tightness,
Heat,
Temperature changes,
Maybe a heaviness or a contraction,
A tightness?
This is a sensing practice,
Not an analyzing practice.
So start to tune into your senses,
Not your mind and your brain.
And let the wisdom of your body start connecting to you.
And here is where we go slowly.
Bring your awareness to that tender place just for a few seconds here and gently notice the feeling.
And in this moment if you are able to access and name it silently if that helps.
And just give it a name,
Give it an expression.
And then softly shift your awareness to the place under where your hand is,
The neutral,
More comforting space.
Maybe it feels warmer,
Maybe it feels softer,
Maybe simply just feels less activated.
Rest your attention there.
We're going to be moving between these two places slowly.
Back to the tender place just for a moment,
Feeling it without going too deep.
And then returning to your resource,
Your place of steadiness.
And letting your body lead the pace.
What this is doing is rewiring and repatterning and inviting in more safety and more response to the connection of your body.
Let your body lead the pace and if at any point it feels too intense to stay with that resource,
That's when you stop and you,
That's enough for now.
We're not going to push it.
So as you gently move between the sensation and the support,
Your nervous system begins to learn something new.
That you can actually feel without feeling overwhelmed,
That you can stay without losing yourself.
We're not operating from that extremeness,
We're operating from that duality.
Now slowly release the focus on that tender place and rest fully in your resource.
Feel your hands on your body,
Feel the support beneath you where you're sitting,
And you might even gently increase the pressure of your touch,
Offering yourself a little more containment.
Wherever that hand is,
Take a slow inhale.
I am resourceful within my body and take a soft exhale and inwardly remind yourself,
This feeling is allowed and I am still safe.
This feeling is allowed and I am still safe.
Let the body settle,
No fixing,
No forcing,
Just being.
And just take one long inhale,
Ready,
Gently deepen your breath and slowly open your eyes and bring that sense of self-holding with you.
Now that we've regulated that into the nervous system,
The self-holding of your body,
Of your breath is so incredibly important and to continue building this inner connection.
Thank you so much for taking this time to sit and hold yourself in this beautiful,
Tender holding method that I've created for deep sensitivity and overwhelm.
I hope you have a beautiful rest of your day.
Namaste,
Brothers and sisters.
